[Xxakanexx] Head Over Heels

Head over heels

-You were everything that I wanted. We were meant to be, supposed to be but I lo st it... Prologue: Make it happen Once upon a time and happily ever after. Those are the words that my father used to describe his love affair with my mom. My mom is a princess - her name is Rapunzel - do I need to explain anything mor e? My father is the prince, my mother is his princess. When they got married, my da d made her the queen of our humble castle. I am the princess. I still am and as my dad will say; I will forever be, Princess Yngrid. All I need is a prince to be with me. Someone who can save me from the abyss but how? I'm not trapped inside a tower. Wala din dragons to kidnap me, because I k now that they're not totoo. I was starting to worry na because I really badly ne eded a prince and I was thinking that he will not make dating because I'm not in danger naman. Years passed by. I was in my first year of high school. I thought that my high s chool will be boring but I was wrong. I was in my first day when I met him. Hind i pala met - because he's like matagal ko nang kakilala. How did I know that he' s my prince charming? He saved like so ll would i si Mom

me from falling but malandi for falling I care? My mom fell kaysa sa akin. So I

right after catching me, I fell for him. I know I'm in love in the age of thirteen but then, why the he for my dad when she was seven - mas naunang magland think that there's really nothing wrong with that.

But even though he's my prince charming, he's not mine naman. Because unfortunat ely, he's like so in love with someone else. I can't believe it at first. I was asking myself why he's not in love with me and all that. I'm pretty naman. I'm like so matalino. I'm like the rank one in our class but still he just won't mak e pansin me. Gosh, my love for him is just so frustrating. I had my heart broken at the age of fifteen. Because I'm so maganda - lahat ng s eniors in the campus are asking me to go to the prom but I'm declining their off ers because I know that my prince charming will be asking me but I was wrong. At the day before the prom, he asked someone else to go with him. Her name - I don 't know but she's very pretty - I asked my brother about her, he told me that my prince charming is really in love with her. I cried that night. I was so heartbroken. My mom - I don't know, maybe she's jus t a really good mother - she came to my room and comforted me. She let me cry to her shoulders, making me feel secure and safe. My mom - the queen knows the rig

ht words to say. I could still remember what she told me that night: "It's just heartbreak, Princess. It's just pain. It will heal; you'll get better but remember to still love him with all your heart. One day, he'll love you bac k. Patience is a virtue, Yngrid. Love is something you should work hard on. Happ y ending doesn't just happen. You have to make it happen."

That night, I looked at my mom and I knew that she's right. I have to work hard. I have to let the pain go because if I fall, if I let it go, I'll lose and I wi ll never be happy with him - with Zachary Drew - my prince charming. 1. Used to be "Please... Please... ahhh! Fuck me hard..."

I grinned at Shana Miller. She's an underwear model and I only met her tonight. I wasn't really in the mood to go out tonight but because she was flirting with me, I gave in. Maganda naman si Shana. She's half Brazilian and half Japanese.

Nasa kama si Shana. Her legs were spread wide, so wide that I can almost see all of her. Her two fingers were in between her legs. She was thrusting her fingers in and out while moaning loudly. I was just sitting on the couch in front of th e bed watching her. I don't know why but I like seeing my women pleasure themsel ves before I fuck their brains out - it makes me feel hotter.

"Please, Lukas Anton. Gusto ko naaa...."

She came in her fingers. I sighed. I stood up. She was still catching her breath when I entered her in that position. I saw how wide her eyes were. Maybe she wa s feeling every inch of me inside her. I pinned her wrists over her head and sta rted fucking her. Her mouth fell. As I thrust in and out, I could see her eyes a re getting wider and wider.

"Ang sarrappp!" She moaned. I grinned. I stopped moving to spread her legs wider . I held on the back of her thigh and put her right leg on my shoulder and start ed fucking her again. I like watching my women's reaction while I'm inside them. Ilang beses ko na bang nakita ang ganoong reaksyon? Hindi ko na mabilang, wheth er they're virgins, married women, widowers or just the women I've met in bars lahat sila pare-pareho ng reaksyon. Para bang mauubusan sila ng hangin sa kataw an dahil sa sensasyong ipinaparamdam ko sa kanila.

"I'm coming, Lukas!"

And she did. I don't know how many times she came - all I know is that she's rea lly tired and weak. I let her rest for a while and after that, I told her to get dresses. I took her out for a late dinner. Tulad nga ng sinabi ko, hindi ako tu lad ng ibang lalaki na matapos ma-satisfy ay mang-iiwan na lang. I'm different. I have my ways and techniques.

"Thanks for tonight, Lukas Anton." She smiled at me while sipping her red wine. I just nodded. Pagkatapos kumain ay inihatid ko na siya sa kanyang apartment. Sh e was about to kiss me when I pushed her away and looked at her eye to eye.

"I had fun. But this will be the last time we'll ever see each other. I have fuc ked you. You're worthless for me. Bye, Shana."

I know. I'm a jerk. I had been called so many names. Pero hindi talaga ako katul ad ng ibang lalaki. I have my ways, one of those is telling them what I really w ant. I am very specific with details. Hindi ko pinatatagal ang isang bagay. Kapa g ayoko, ayoko at tulad lamang ito nang mga nakaraang sitwasyon. I am different. Hindi ako paasa at kahit kailan hindi ako nang-iiwan sa ere.

Umuwi ako sa bahay ng mga magulang ko. Aayusin ko na rin kasi ang mga gamit ko. Tomorrow morning, I'll be leaving for Africa. Nandoon ang trabaho ko at ang buon g buhay ko. I'm a wild life photographer. Palagi akong nasa ibang lugar, minsan ko lang makasama ang pamilya at mga kaibigan ko. Most of the times, mag-isa lang ako.

Sanay naman na ako. I love the way I live my life.

Pagpasok ko ng bahay ay muntik na ulit akong tumakbo palabas. Pakiramdam ko na-t rap ako sa ibang dimension. Kung hindi ko pa nakita ang nanay ko - Mrs. Aiko Ron aldo. Iisipin ko na wala talaga ako sa bahay namin.

"Ma, bakit ang daming babae dito?" Bulong ko sa kanya sabay halik sa kanyang pis ngi. She smiled at me. My mother used to be a beauty queen slash a teacher slash a perfect housewife to my dad. Nakangisi siya sa akin. Hanggang ngayon, hindi p a rin kumukupas ang kagandahan niya. Para akong nakatingin sa thirty years from now version nI Glenise Aurora - my younger sister.

"Sila iyong mga girls na mag-o-audition para sa reality show."

Kumunot ang noo ko. "Anong reality show? May tv station ka bang pag-aari?" I ask

ed her. Maya-maya ay nakakita ako ng cameras na lumilibot sa loob ng bahay namin . Sigurado ako na hindi lang iyon ang meron doon.

"Staff and crew naman sila ng reality show, L.A." Sabing muli ni Mama. Kumunot n a ang noo ko. Ano bang reality show ang sinasabi ng nanay ko? In my thirty years of existence, ngayon ko lang nakitang nag-sparkle ng ganoon ang mga mata ng nan ay ko.

"Bakit may reality show?!" Tanong ko. Nakakadama ako ng inis.

"Naisip ko lang naman ito dahil sa Ninang Jenny mo. Hindi pa engage na si Mavis at si Migs? Ngayon naisip ko na dapat ikaw din. Dahil wala akong mahanap na baba e para sa'yo, nag-isip ako ng paraan anak, naisip kong magandang concept ang rea lity show. On air kang maghahanap ng mapapangasawa! At hindi lang iyon, posible na gusto ko na ang babaeng mahahanap mo!"

Kulang ang sabihin na huminto ang mundo ko dahil sa sinabi niya. Wala akong nain tindihan kundi iyong sinabi ni Mama na kailangan ko nang maghanap ng asawa at on air pa! Sa TV! In front of the Philippines!

What the hell is wrong with her?

"Naintindihan mo ba ako, Lukas Anton?"

"Alam na ba ni Papa ito?! Ma! Thirty years old na ako hindi ko kailangan ito!"

"Pero gusto na kitang mag-asawa! Alam mong ayaw ko sa buhay na meron ka! Bakit b a hindi ka gumaya sa tatay mong one woman man! Ikaw, one woman in one night! Iba -iba! Paano ako magkakaapo kung hindi ka titino! Gusto mo naman ng babae diba, a yan Lukas Anton, binibigay ko sa'yo! Magaganda sila, they have the body, the bra ins and the likes! Mamili ka kaysa kung saan-saan mo sila dinadampot!"

"Mama!" I felt frustrated. Gusto kong magsalita pero kahit kailan ay hindi ko ma gagawang sagutin si Mama. Madalas sabihin sa akin ni Papa noon na kahit anong ma ngyari ay hindi ko dapat pagtaasan ng boses ang babaeng nagluwal sa akin at kahi t na gaano pa ka-unreasonable ang mga ginagawa niya kailangan ko iyon bigyan ng dahil - always look in the brighter side of the things she will do - para walang away, para walang maging mali.

Pero kaya ko bang tanggapin iyon?

"Buo na ang desisyon ko, Lukas Anton at wala kang magagawa kundi ang sumunod." S eryosong sabi niya. I just sighed.

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"It's like raining men in your office, Yana! What with all the litrato and the b io?"

I was all smiles while making lapit to Yana that Monday morning. I went to her o ffice because I miss her so much. I haven't seen her for weeks because she's bus y doing stuffs for her empire. Yana is a career woman. I guess doon niya ibinubu hos lahat ng frustrations niya sa life. She's like an older sister to me. She lo oked at me with that ridiculous expression on her face.

"Napuntahan mo ba si ZD?" She asked me. She rested her back on her chair and eye d me. I sat on the visitors' chair and took a deep long breath.

"I have this pakiramdam that she's cheating on Yza because this morning, I saw a naked woman on his apartment. The woman is so familiar, but hindi ko sure kung saan ko siya nakita but I know she's somewhat related to Yza. Yza is so kawawa, Yana."

"I thought you're still in love with him. Bakit kawawa si Yza?" She asked me. I stared at her. I took a deep breath. Yana is tama. I'm in love with Zachary Drew Laundrize ever since I first laid eyes on him. He's a prince charming in a not so shiny armor. He's my kind of guy and my heart is beating for him.

I've loved him for years na and yet my love is still unrequited and I have no pl ano of telling him. He's happy naman with Yza.

Aaminin ko, at first I hated Yza but along the process, I started no hating her. She's kind and sweet, nakikita ko kung paano niya i-take care si ZD and I can a lso see how much ZD loves her. Sino naman ako para sirain iyon. I sighed again.

"I still do, but he's happy. Why would I make sira his happiness?" I sighed agai n. Yana smiled.

"You'll find your own, Yngrid." Sabi niya pa. Yana is the only one who knows my secret. Kahit naman she's older than me by seven years, she's my best friend. Ma gkasama kami sa New York. We were both enrolled at the same school and she was t he one who took care of me while in there. I love Yana so much and I trust her w ith my life.

"Anyway, why are these photos here? It's like..." I took one photo. "Oh my god! It's Yto Consunji!" I said in a very high pitched tone. I was holding a picture of a half naked Yto Consunji. I guess the picture was taken years ago, he looks younger in here. "Bagay sa kanya iyong sira-sirang jeans! Why do you have this? He's almost married na! I once saw him and Nikita Kerkmez PDA-ing at a certain m all. He's so gwapo talaga!"

Yana took the picture from my hand. I made a face. "I was thinking if his is so malaki."

"What?!" Yana exclaimed. I shrugged.

"You know, his thing. I wanna know because he's like one of my crushes." Yana sh ook her head. Hindi na siya nag-talk. I looked at the other pictures on her desk .

"Oh my gee! Lui De San Agustin! Really? He's hot yet he's very married. I heard he's having a baby na with his wife!"

I searched for the other pictures again. My eyes are like so busog with so many abs and biceps. I don't know why Yana has all of these but I find it so fun to s ee.

"Are you like planning to be a mistress? All of these guys are married or engage d!"

"Gaga! They're included in my article."

My forehead knotted. Yana also owns a Magazine. Ngumuso ako. "What's the title o f the issue for this month? The almost married guys?" Tanong ko. She smiled.

"Used to be bachelor." Sabi niya sa akin. I nodded. I was still rampaging throug h the photos when I suddenly caught a glimpse of something familiar.

Godlike features. Sinful lips, upturned crooked nose. Fierce eyes. Mouth waterin g abs and biceps.

"Oh that." Yana took the photo away from me. "Lukas Anton Ronaldo - the wildlif e photographer slash the bed animal."

I suddenly felt thirsty. I needed water. Hindi ako mapakali. I felt the need to leave right away. Why is it like this? Picture lang niya, napapa-oohh na iyong i nsides ko and thinking that ours - whatever we had ended years ago.

"I never really thought na lalabas iyong pangalan niya. He's married. Hindi ako makapaniwala. I always believed that he's single. Sa reputation ba naman na mero n siya. He's a fucking machine, Yngrid. Pero kasal na siya."

"NO!" I screamed. "Hindi siya kasal!"

"I know right!" Yana rolled her eyes. "Nanghinayang din ako. I mean, how can so mething like this be unavailable to our species? I heard that all his women scre am his name. Dahil sa daw sa kanya nagiging religious ang mga babae niya."

"What religious?"

"Because they're like "OH GOD, LUKAS ANTON!"

My eyes widened. I suddenly remembered a night which involved him and a nineteen year old innocent girl who couldn't stop screaming "OH GOD LUKAS ANTON, IT'S SO SARAP! PLEASE DON'T STOP!!!"

My face turned red.

"Hooo! It's so mainit here, Yana. Is your aircon bukas?" I am uneasy. Yana didn' t even bother listening to me. She just kept on making kwento.

"I wonder kung sinong asawa ni Lukas Anton. Kahit anong hanap ko sa picture niya walang lumalabas. I don't even know the name. I just know that he used to call boo.

My eyes widened. Yana is such a good researcher.

I took a deep breath. I'm a very talkative person and Yana is my best friend. I don't know if it's the right thing to say or do but I know that I have to tell h er sooner or later.

"I am..."

"What?" Yana's gaze met mine.

"I am, Yana. I am Lukas Anton's wife but were not together anymore because we're like naghiwalay na thirty days after getting married in Vegas."

"WHAT DID YOU JUST SAID, FRANCHESKA YNGRID?!" 2. Lost and found February 14, 2003 It's my second V-day with my prince and yet he's still makes deadma to me. I don 't know na what to do. I wanna make him happy. I know for a fact that his sad be cause last night, I overheard him talking to Ate Yana about the girl he left beh ind in Manila. I now know her name - it's Yza Consunji - she was the girl who ow ns ZD's heart. He was so sad because he saw a picture of the girl with Xander - a friend of his - kissing. His heart got broken again. I'm really naaawa to him that's why I wa nna make him happy but how? He's not making me pansin naman. "Yngrid, anong iniisip mo? Let's go get some fun!" I looked at Gerd Bryan. He's a friend of my brother Rafael. I just looked at him and sighed. Gerd is also a good friend of mine. "Yngrid, diba kaya nagyaya dito si Yana para magsaya, bakit naman Biyernes Santo iyang mukha mo?" "You know, you're so walanghiya. Why are you making me istorbo ba?" I was really nangigigil na to Gerd. I don't know why he's bothering me. I wanna be alone bec ause I want to think of a way to cheer up ZD. I'm nag-aalala to him. Kanina, I s aw him at his hotel room looking out of the window, drinking a bottle of beer he 's so malungkot ever talaga. "Diyan na nga you! Argh! You're such an istorbo! I hate you talaga!" I left my h otel room and looked for Zachary Drew. I wanna cheer him up. I went over his roo m and I saw him there. He's still sad and I'm so worried. "Hey champ!" I greeted him. "What are you doing? Let's go have some fun!" I smir

ked. I realized that I sounded just like Gerd. I sat on his bed and waited for h im to look at me. My eyes widened when I realized that his half naked. I'm not r eally making tingin kanina so when I saw his sexy abs, I suddenly wanted to touc h it. So nakakahiya naman! OH MY GEE! What am I thinking? "Have you ever been in love, Greta?" He asked me. I smiled when I heard his pet name for me. He always calls me Greta whenever were alone. He said kasi that the name fits me because I;m mataray. "Yes, ZD." I answered him. I heard him sigh again. I wanted to hug him and make him feel that he's not alone. I also want to tell him how much I love him - that I couldn't stand being his friend anymore. I've been in love with him since I c ould remember and my situation is a cliché. It happens to everyone - even the magag anda people like me. "How does it feel like?" He asked again. I swallowed hard. I don't want to answe r him because I might spill my feelings. I just smiled. "My love for the man is unrequited." Mahinang sabi ko. Zach just nodded. "I wished I had the chance to tell her how I feel before leaving the country." "Why ba you didn't?" "Ayoko siyang mahirapan. Alam ko naman na si Xander ang gusto niya." Sagot pa ni ya. I smirked again. Somehow I know that Yza Consunji isn't in love with Xander. I know she likes ZD. I can see the way she looks at him. "Hay naku! You're so nag-e-emo! Let's go have some fun na!" I stood up and took his hand. I saw him grinned. I don't know what happened but he suddenly pulled m e closer. Napaupo ako sa lap niya then he snaked his hands around my waist. My h eart is making the kabog-kabog chuchu and I'm like pinagpapawisan. I'm so malapi t to him that I actually held my breath in. "Zach..." I called his name. He grinned at me. "Will you kiss me back if I kiss you, Greta?" Oh my gee! Is he really asking me that? I haven't even had my first kiss! I'm nineteen alre ady and I'm proud to say that I have never been touched and never been kissed by anybody! First kiss ko si Mommy! First holding hands ko si Daddy! But if he's a sking me for this - I'm so gonna make bigay! His started making lapit his face at me - moments later his lips is against mine and his making sipsip my lower lip. I wanted to make singhap but I can't. I don 't know what to do. His lips were all over mine some seconds later and his hands were caressing my back in a very intimate way. I was moaning a little while lat er. "Za-zach wait..." I pushed him away. I'm so nakukuryente na talaga. "What? Ayaw mo ba?" He asked in a semi-galit tone. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. "Gusto ko! Love kaya kita!" I spilled. His eyes widened. Bigla siyang nag-stand up - nalaglag ako sa sahig.

"Damn, Greta! I was only in for play." He whispered. He took a deep breath. "I l ike experienced women, Yngrid. I'm sorry. Dapat hindi ko ginawa." I feel like there is a big kutsilyo in my heart. I bit my lower lip. I know that I'm gonna make iyak while I'm still sitting on the floor. ZD left his room. I w as watching the door as he walks out. I sighed. I guess ZD will never like a virgin like me. I sighed again. If only I can lose my v-card pero I'm not naniniwala pa naman sa premarital sex! Oh my gee! Blame m y Daddy for that!

-------------------"My mom is nuts, G-Cleft." I was with G-cleft that same night when I found out that my mom was planning a r eality show so I can marry someone. "Hindi ko na siya maintindihan! Ano bang pro blema niya sa akin?! I'm leaving my life the way I want too! Hindi ako nakakasak it!" "Sleeping with married women doesn't hurt someone?" Tila naguguluhang tanong ni G-cleft sa akin. G-cleft Ronaldo is my cousin. Anak siya ng kakambal ng daddy ko . He's one of my trusted friends too. Alam niya ang lahat ng bagay tungkol sa ak in at isa na doon ang katotohanang ayokong mag-asawa. "Bakit ba kasi kailangan niyang makialam? I love her but she's getting in my ner ves! I don't think Dad will agree if he ever finds out what she's planning!" G-cleft just shook his head. Bumaling siya sa bar tender at muling nanghing ng a nother round. Hindi ko na talaga maintindihan ang nanay ko. Hindi ko alam kung a no pang gusto niya sa akin. I'm thirty years old. I know what I want in my life and yet there she is trying to run my life like I'm still that five year old boy who used to chase her around our house. Hindi maintindihan ni Mommy na kaya ko na ang sarili ko - na hindi na tulad ng dati ang mga bagay sa pagitan namin. Pal agi niyang sinasabi na ako pa rin ang L.A. niya pero ang problema - ayoko nang m aging si L.A. I wanna be Lukas Anton. I wanna be my own self. I don't need her we'll not in this stage of my life. Right now all I want to do is be away from my family as far as I can and live my life pero pati pag-alis ko na-postponed dahil sa plano ni Mama. "What do I need to do, G-cleft?" I asked him again. He just sighed. He looked at me and shrugged. "Ewan ko. Hindi naman ako ang nasa sitwasyon mo." Nakatawang sabi niya sa akin. Hindi na rin ako nagsalita. I tried talking to G-cleft again. Iniba ko na ang us apan namin dahil napipikon talaga ako kapag naaalala ko ang ginawang nanay ko ka ninang umaga. I looked around the bar and saw some girls. G-cleft gave me a heads up. I approa ched a girl in a mini red dress and started talking to her. I know my game, I ha ve lots of experience. Cleft is my wingman and I know that he has mastered all o ur plays. I have bought some drinks for Milly, the woman in the red ng isa siyang Starlet. She's trying to get to showbiz and g that by fucking all the directors she can find. By just o na tulad lang siya ng ibang babaeng naikama ko na noon.

dress. Napag-alaman ko I know that she's doin looking at her, alam k I'm sure she'll scream

my name, she'll want more but that's all I can give to her. "Let's go somewhere else..." She whispered at me. I grinned. Habang nakatingin a ko sa kanya ay alam ko na ang mga salitang sasabihin ko. Alam na alam ko na pero hindi ko nagawa at hindi ko rin alam kung bakit. While I was looking at her - I got tired. Tired of all the women like her. Sudde nly, I missed an innocent face - an angelic face with a matching attitude. Natigilan ako. "I'm married." "What?" The woman asked me. "What did you just said?" Tumayo ako at hinanap si G-cleft. "Cleft!" I saw him making out with someone. "What?! Istorbo ka!" Inis na sabi niya. "I know what to do! Cleft, I'm married! I married this girl in Vegas almost ten years ago and I didn't had our marriage revoked! All I have to do is to find her and my problems are solved!" Nakadama ako ng kasiyahan. G-cleft smiled at me. "Right! Iyong babaeng nakakainis magsalita!" "Yes! That's her! What the fuck is her name again?!" Sigaw ko pa. "Ewan ko, asawa mo di mo alam ang pangalan. Tanga ito."

---------------------"Does Tito Ali knows about this marriage?!" Yana was still yelling at me that night habang papunta kami sa bar. She was like so galit to me. I was just shrugging. Wala naman akong magagagawa if she's gali t to me. Hindi ko naman siya mabe-blame. She's my best friend but she's only fin ding out about this thing now. Hindi ko na rin naman kasi nasabi sa kanya iyong bagay na iyon because it's already over. Lukas Anton and I divorced thirty days later. Hindi ko na nga masyadong matandaan iyong nangyari that day pero we both realized that we are not good for each other that's why we made hiwalay. "I only married him to lose my v-card." I said to Yana. She looked at me. I roll ed my eyes. "I married him because ZD told me that he likes experienced women. S o I wanted to lose my virginity tapos I'll make love to ZD." Lalong nanlaki ang mga eyes ni Yana. Gusto kong matawa nang malakas pero natakot ako na baka itulak niya ako pa-out ng car. "Argh! You're so mayabang talaga ate!" I said to her. I was looking out of her c ar window thinking about the times I spent with Lukas Anton. Naisip ko na hindi ko na pala siya masyadong matandaan. Sabagay it's been so tagal na rin naman. We arrived at the bar thirty minutes later after making away each other inside t he car. Yana is here to watch some artists. She's hunting for some stars again. I was just looking around - trying to see any familiar faces. I smiled when I sa w Musika Ronaldo sitting at a corner. I know her, she used to sing with ZD.

Nilapitan ko siya. "Hi Musika!" I called her. Tumingin siya sa akin. I saw the l oneliness in her eyes. Parang kaka-cry niya palang. I wanted to ask why but she left already leaving me a bit tulala at that corner. I just shrugged. Siguro bad mood siya. I looked for Yana again. I saw her sat at the corner as if waiting for something to happen. Habang paupo ako sa side niya, I remembered Musika Ronaldo - parehas sila ng sadness ni Yana. Yana is sad because naman of Gabriel - her little brot her who died in a car crash some years ago. She loves him so much. Lalo pa siyan g sad because although she had another sibling - Eureka - they're not close nama n. "Yana, are you okay?" I asked. She smiled. "What happened in those thirty days, Yngrid?" She asked again. I sighed. Akala k o pa naman finished na kami. "We did it. We do it every day for thirty days---" She covered her ears. "EWWW! That's too much information!" She exclaimed. I made tawa. Yana is so cute whenever she's naiinis. I really don't know what we're here for so I just made kwento to her. "He's so m alaki, Yana! So huge! And his loving is so sarap!" "Bwisit ka, Francheska!" Sigaw niya sa akin. I ended up laughing. Natahimik rin ako habang nagti-think about kay Lukas Anton. I remembered one episode where we made love in the bathroom. What was so special about it? I like to sing whenever I take a bath and he heard me, he made pasok the bathroom and in there, we sang together - every thrust an d every touch makes me want to sing more and more of those high notes! My eyes widened. I'm being bastos! Really! "Excuse me, sa bathroom lang!" I said to Yana. I escaped from her mapagtanong na eyes and went straight to the bathroom. I was asking myself that moment why I w as thinking of Lukas Anton. It's been so long naman na and I'm sure that he's no t thinking about me naman. We had a deal before I signed those papers - the divo rce papers. We're not going to communicate with each other anymore. I left the bathroom. I was about to go to our table when suddenly someone grabbe d my arm. "Hey wife." My eyes widened. I know those godlike features. Those sensual lips and those sex y eyes. Damn!

No words came out of my mouth - the next thing I knew his lips were against mine and he's kissing me like he had missed me - like he was making up for the lost years. 3. Hard

She's here. My problems are all solved. Iyon ang paulit-ulit kong naiisip habang nakatingin ako sa babaeng pinakasalan k o some years ago - ni hindi ko na nga matandaan kung ilan taon na nga ba iyon. A ll I could remember was her innocent face at ang nakakainis niyang pagsasalita. I wasn't really expecting to see her here pero sadya siguro kaming pinagtatagpo ng tadhana dahil ngayon ay nakatayo siya sa harapan ko. "Oh my god! Why did you make sipsip my lips!" Bigla na lang niya akong hinampas sa balikat. My eyes widened. Walang duda, siya nga ang babaeng nakilala ko sa La s Vegas noon. "Hello, wife." I grinned at her. Her eyes widened again. Napapailing ako. Years have passed by - mukhang hindi naman nawala sa kanya ang ugali niyang iyon - ang pagsasalita niya hindi nagbago. I thought that it was just a pahse she was gett ing back then pero parang hindi naman. "I'm not your wife! Hiwalay na kaya us! I hate you!" She exclaimed. I grinned ag ain. She hates me. She will hate me more if she finds out what I did to our divo rce. "You're still my wife." I said coolly. Her mouth slowly parted. Akala ko magugul at siya pero nauwi ang pagnganga niya sa paghalakhak. Hindi ko alam pero natagpu an ko na lang ang sarili kong nakatitig sa kanya. Hindi siya nagbago - she looks the same - no she had changed - she's more beautiful now. Her light auburn hair na kulot sa dulo, the lines on her forehead which appears only when she's laugh ing wholeheartedly, the curve of her lips every time she smiles but most importa ntly - her body curves. She has fat on all the right places. When I met and marr ied her - she was only nineteen and innocent but right now as I was looking at h er - her eyes tells me that even her innocence changed. "Dream on! I'm not your wife. We're divorced." Mariing sabi niya. I shook my hea d again. "Iyon ang akala mo." Biglang sabi ko. Hindi niya ako pinansin. Tinalikuran niya ako pero bago siya makalayo ay hinatak ko ang braso niya at halos kaladkarin ko siya palabas ng bar na iyon. Kailangan naming mag-usap. She's still my wife - pa nahon na para gampanan niya ang lahat ng wifely duties niya sa akin. "Lukas Anton! Stop! Where are you taking me ba? Akala ko ba we had an agreement to never see each other again after that thirty day thingy?" Tanong niya bigla. Binuksan ko ang pinto ng sasakyan ko at pilit siyang pinapapasok sa loob. "Lukas Anton!" Sigaw niya pa. Ngumisi lang ako. "Just shut up, babe. Let me take you tonight." Sabi ko na lang. I noticed that s he blushed. Bigla kong naalala iyong maiinit na sandaling pinagsaluhan namin noo n. She was always blushing. She may look innocent but she wasn't really innocent in bed. Ano pa nga bang aasahan ko? I taught her everything she knows. Pumasok ako sa loob ng kotse. Nakahalukipkip siya. "Akala ko ba we're malinaw na ? Why are you making me istorbo ba?" Tanong niya sa akin. Napailing ako. The way she talks irritates the hell out of me - isa iyon sa dahilan kung bakit hiniwal ayan ko siya noon. Ayaw na ayaw ko ang pagsasalita niya. Napakadaldal and she's a screamer - hindi lang screamer - talker pa. She couldn't hold it in especially when she's close. Nawawala iyong momentum ko kapag sumisigaw na siya ng "OH GOD , LUKAS ANTON!!!" Hindi sa hindi ako sanay pero iba lang pagdating kay...

I looked at her again. What's her name? Fuck. Why did I ever forget her name? Ta ma si Cleft. Asawa ko siya dapat alam ko ang pangalan niya pero hindi ko matanda an. "Why are you making tingin? Don't tingin at me, you stupid asshole!" She shouted . Umiling ako. Akala yata ng babaeng ito masaya ako na nagkita kami. Kung hindi ko lang naman kailangan ng tulong niya kahit kailan maski na makita ko pa siya a y hinding-hindi ko siya lalapitan. "Just shut the fuck up!" "Hah! Akala mo ba you can scare me? Hindi mo ko ma-scare kasi I'm pretty!" Walang sense ang lumabas sa bibig niya pero hindi ko alam kung bakit natutuwa ak o. I married her back then because of too much alcohol and because of the fact that I wanna get in her pants. She was only nineteen and very very drunk that night. I met her at a certain bar in Vegas. She was broken hearted because according t o her - the man she loves doesn't and will never lover her back. She wanted to l ose her virginity and I have the right goods for her. I find her pretty but afte r that night - after bedding her and consummating our marriage - she started get ting into my nerves. Sa kama lang kami magkasundo. Hanggang doon lang. Unang araw pa lang naming dala wa ay alam kong tapos na ang lahat sa amin. She was never my girlfriend - she wa s just a supposed to be fling that turned to be something else. "Where are we going ba? Aren't you going to make sagot?" She rolled her eyes. I chuckled. "God! You're starting to annoy me!" Inis na inis na sabi niya habang ako tuwang-tuwa. Iniliko ko ang sasakyan. After some minutes. I parked the car in front of my parents' house. Bumaba ako at umi kot para pagbukas siya ng pinto. Ayaw niyang bumaba pero hinatak ko siya sa bras o kaya wala siyang nagawa. I took her by the hand and we walked inside our yard. "Lukas Anton, what ba?! Why are you doing this ba?!" She could talk all night but I'm not going to answer her - not now. I need to ta lk to my mom. I need to make things clear. I need to tell her that I'm not singl e and I'm not going to go on with that reality tv show she's planning. I am marr ied to this girl - whatever her name is. I looked back. I really wanted to remember her name pero paano. Ano ba kasing pa ngalan niya? Natatandaan kong nagsisimula sa Y ang pangalan niya. Is it Yana, Ys ablle - the name just doesn't fit. She looks like an... "Yngrid..." Finally, I remembered. Her name is Yngrid. I don't know how I rememb ered her name but I was sure that her name is really Yngrid. "What? Don't tell me now mo lang na-realize kung anong pangalan ko! I hate you!" She said again. Nakapasok na kami sa loob ng bahay. I saw my sister sitting on the couch, reading a magazine. She was so busy that she didn't even bothered loo king up. "Hey sis. Si Mama?" Tanong ko. "Upstairs in their room." Simpleng sagot niya. Hinatak ko si Yngrid paakyat sa h agdan. Pumapalag siya. Hindi ko pa rin sinasagot ang sunod-sunod na tanong niya.

I just don't care. Ang mas iniisip ko ngayon ay si Mama at kung anong magiging reaksyon niya sa oras na makita niya na may kasama ako. "Ano ba kasi!" Sigaw pa niya. "Yngrid, just shut up, okay?" Hinawakan ko ang doorknob sa pinto ng kwarto ni Ma ma. Bukas iyon, pinihit ko ang pinto at saka pumasok. I found her reading a book habang may kausap sa phone na ang hula ko ay si Papa. Nasa Malaysia si Papa par a sa isang conference. My father owns a Game Company - nagdedevelop ng mga compu ter games ang kompanya nilang iyon. Kasosyo niya si Uncle Calen dito. He's been very busy the past few days and I doubt if he knows what my mom is doing. "Ma." I called her. Ibinaba niya ang libro at saka tumingin sa akin. Hinatak ko papalapit sa kanya si Yngrid. I know how clueless she is right now. And I'm lovi ng this moment. "L.A. anong ginagawa mo dito at sino ang babaeng iyan?" Tanong niya sa akin. I j ust took a deep breath. "Ma, this is Yngrid Ronaldo. She is my wife so you really don't have to find me another." My mother's mouth fell. She looked at Yngrid. Alam na alam ko ang hitsura niya. She's mad. She will scream but I really don't care. I made my point. Hindi ako b asta papatalo. I am married. I looked at Yngrid. Mukhang tulad ni Mama ay nabigl a din siya. "We are married, Ma. We are so married."

--------------------"We are so married? What the fuck ba? We're not kasal anymore because we got a d ivorce! I signed the paper!" "You sign the paper, ever wondered if I signed it?" My mouth fell bukas after hearing what he had to say. Ibig sabihin he didn't sig n the papers? Ibig sabihin, I was roaming around the world for the last eight ye ars with me still tied up to this man? Anong problema niya?! "Nawawala ang pagiging conyo ko sa'yo! Kainis ka! Ibig sabihin hindi mo pinirmah an iyong papers! What the fuck! Are you that stupid?!" "Wag mong isisisi sa akin iyang kaartehan mo sa buhay, Yngrid!" Sigaw niya sa ak in. "Don't you think eight years away from each other is enough? Ngayon kailanga n mo naman gampanan ang pagiging asawa mo sa akin." Malinaw na malinaw na sabi niya. My mouth was still open. My eyes widened. Hindi kami magkaharap but I can hear what he was saying. He's so tanga talaga! Para s aan iyong papers if hindi naman siya nag-sign! "Lumabas ka nga here so that I can slap your pisngi!" I called him. He was insid e his bathroom. Nasa loob kami ng room niya. He was taking a shower while making paliwanag what he did to our marriage contract. Right now, I so hate him! I heard the bathroom door slide open. I looked back and my eyes burned with the hotness in front of me. Suddenly - the memory of him and me naked under the show er came back to me like an old movie. I bit my lower lip.

"You were saying?" He asked. He's so mayabang talaga and I'm so galit to him! Ni loko niya ako! I thought we're over. My gosh! May kilay is so magkasalubong na. Slowly he walked towards me. The only thing he is wearing is that white tower an d from where I was standing I can very well see his lumberjack. I know. I have seen it before, I have felt it and even tasted it. Lukas Anton is my first everything. He had thought me everything I know about pleasing a man. I was an eager learner because in my mind I wanna please Zach pero the thing is, I never had the chance to do that. I saw him held on his towel, then slowly, he was making it tanggal. My eyes wide ned - hindi ko alam if there are other ways pa para mag-wide ang mga eyes ko. I saw the towel fell on the floor. I looked at him - I tried so hard to look at hi s face but my eyes just keep on looking at his thingy which is now standing prou d and erect. "Oh my gee!" I exclaimed. "I guess I wasn't the only one who missed you, wife." He moved closer to me and pulled me to him. I felt his thing on my puson. I bit my lip. He licked my earlo be. "Humanda ka, Yngrid. Babawi ako. Eight years. That's too long. Kahit ilang beses pa..."

I swallowed hard. 4. Hit the spot "Wait! Are you gonna make samantala me because if you are then I'm going to call the police!" I don't know what to do. I'm tapped in the middle of the pader and the naked bod y of Lukas Anton. I just don't know what to think. First I have so many tanong i n my mind, like, why the fuck didn't he file those divorce papers I signed the l ast moment we saw each other. Second, why did he introduce me to his mother? Dib a nga he made sabi that the two of us should never see each other again? Lukas Anton just grinned at me. His head made its way to my neck and he started licking me there. I bit my lower lip. It had been so long! I wanted to scream th at! I know that my body is already singing for him! My blood is in fact calling his name and yet, and yet I just couldn't think about going to bed with tonight. He hiked my skirt up and started rubbing my oh so scared part down there. All of these - he's doing while looking straight to my eyes. "You want me, Yngrid, just like how you wanted me almost nine years ago at our f irst night together." "I was drunk! Oh my Lord!" I screamed when I felt his fingers rubbing my clit. I touched his arms and grabbed him. "Stop! Oh please make hinto!" I'm going to lo se my mind. I closed my eyes and let him feel me. Hindi ko naman itatanggi, I wa nt him to. I can make patol to him tonight nad just make takas tomorrow and our lives will be justlike before - iyong parang hindi magkakilala. I let my body feel the sensation he was giving me and just like that my mind tra

velled down the memory lane... "ZD, wants an experienced woman. What am I gonna do? I'm a virgin!" I was looking at myself to the salamin in front of me. I was making sure that I look good for that night is the same night when I'm going out with Zach. I have asked him to go out on a date with me and maybe after that I can surrender na my flower to him pero just like what he said two nights ago, he wanted an experien ced woman, how can I make him see that I am an experienced woman? I don't even k now how to give a head! I just sighed. I fixed my black spaghetti strap cotton dress and went out of the bathroom. I made balik to our table and I saw him there. He was talking with Ya na - they were laughing. Papalapit na rin ako sa kanila but then bigla na lang m ay bitch na lumapit kay ZD and she stole him away from our table. The next thing I knew - ZD and the bitch were grinding on the dance floor. They were flirting - obviously and Zach was liking everything that woman was doing to him and I'm just so disappointed. Gumana na naman ang pagiging womanizer niya! "Sana ako na lang ang ni-flirt niya." Bulong ko when I got to the table. Yana wa s talking to the phone with his brother. She was all smiles. Mukhang walang maka ka-break ng mood niya. Ni hindi na niya napansin na I got up again and wandered around the hotel. Of course my heart is so sira na naman ang wasak bcause Zd is not making me pansin. I made a long buntong hininga and sat near the stairs whil e making tingin around the place. I wasn't thinking clearly and I know it. I hav e this thought - of losing my virginity then making love to ZD. I have to give m y cherry to someone pero who? Seryoso ako. I so want to pop it already but then my parents' voices invaded my brain like a virus. You have to marry first before popping it, Yngrid. I'm very open with my parents. They know everything - well dad doesn't know abou t my feeling for Zachy but mom does and she's always giving me advice and she wa s very firm about getting married before having sex - but I soo wanna lose it na ! If I don't then ZD will lose his interest on me! I know he likes me naman - ni kiss niya ako kanina - it must mean something! "Miss, are you alone?" I looked up and I saw a black man - a huge black man stan ding in front of me. My eyes widened. He was grinning at like he was already mak ing me bastos inside of his dirty - I'm sure - very dirty brain. "I can make you happy if you're lonely!" He even said to me. Kinabahan ang ninet een year old heart ko. I stood up, I was about to turn around when he grabbed my hand. "Where are you going?" "Let me go! I'm only nineteen!" I screamed at his face. "Nineteen? Hmnn, that's a good age. I would love to fuck your nineteen year old pussy!" He said between gritted teeth. I tried making alis to his grip but he wa s just too strong. I closed my eyes and silently prayed. I want to make pagsisis i for making isip that I want to lose my cherry na! I don't want to be rape no! "Let me go! Tulong! I need help!" As if on cue, someone made sapak the black man who was gripping me. I looked bac

k and I saw someone else - god like feature, perfect lips, perfect eye brows, up turned nose and that boyish grin. "What the fuck is wrong with you man? This is my girl!" The man who made sapak t he black man said. I bit my lower lip. I am his girl? Then to my amazement he to ok my hand and we left the area. My arms were extended in a way that I could see my whole arm while he was holding my hand tightly. My heart was making the dugd ug dance - I don't know why but I's sure that it's not about ZD. It's because of the man who helped me. We stopped walking. He face me afterwards. "Are you okay?" I wasn't sure if he is a native Pinoy but he looks like it. "S-sure. Thanks." I gave him a forced smile. I looked back inside the hotel. The people were coming in and out. The Las Vegas wind was breaking inside my bone I felt chilly. "Hey, are you okay?" He asked again. "Yeah. I'm good. Are you Pinoy?" I couldn't help but ask. He smiled. God! Even h is smile is perfect! "Yep! Ikaw din ba?" "Oh my god! Yes I'm Pinoy! I'm so masaya because you make tulong me! If not I'm sure the huge man have already taken advantage of my kagandahan!" He made a face. "Why do you talk like that? Para kang abnormal." My eyes widened. Did he just --"You're so panget!" I turned my back but then napabalik din ako because I saw t he black man approaching us. The man took my hand again and we walked - half wal k and half run. The black man saw us and he chased the two of us. "Anong gagawin natin?! Why did you make him sapak ba?" "Just shut up and stop talking like that!" He hissed. I noticed that we're point ing to the Elvis Chapel direction. We entered the place. May nakita akong minist er sa gitna. He was about to leave. I looked back and I saw the man chasing us. "Oh my god!" I muttered. "Jeez, when is he going to stop?" I looked at him. "Hey!" He called the minister . We stopped walking. "Marry us." "What?!" I exclaimed. "Marry us, minister." He bent down and whispered. "Just go with the flow, baby d oll." ------------------------------

"Did you see his face?" I was laughing very hard while walking holding hands with Lukas Anton Ronaldo. K anina ko lang nalaman ang pangalan niya - right while the minister is marrying u

s. He was holding a bottle of wine on his left hand while we're walking towards his hotel suite. We're married and I know that I should be bothered by that fact and yet I'm not even bothered about it! Maybe it's the alcohol. After kasi ng marriage namin, we went to the bar and celebrated. I don't even know what we're celebrating and ho nestly. I don't even care. Masaya ako because of Lukas Anton - I had my very fir st glass of alcohol! I was giggling like a little girl while he was holding my hand and making me pas ok to his suite. "Wow! Ceasar's place!" I giggled again. I tiptoed and went malapit sa bintana an d savored the view. I don't know why I feel so comfortable with him. I just met him kanina. I felt his hands on my waist and it snaked around me. I could feel the warmth of him. It felt so good and so new. I sighed. Why am I feeling like this? I closed my eyes but immediately opened them when I felt his hands massaging my breasts. "Wh-what are you doing?" Nagkabulol-bulol ako. "What happens after the wedding, Yngrid?" He asked me. Honeymoon - that was the answer to his question. What? Are we going to do it na? He's not even my real husband but then... "I like experienced girls, Yngrid." Si ZD. I want him to like me - so if this means that having to sleep with this s tranger who became my husband - will get me to ZD then I guess it'll be okay. I closed my eyes again. He was fondling with my breasts. I felt his other hand wen t inside my dress and set my lacey panties aside and felt my bared flesh inside. I gasped. "Wait..." "I'm a very impatient man." He whispered. "No, wait..." I said again. I tried pulling myself away from him and with my wid e brown eyes, I looked at him. "Teach me. I want to know how to pleasure you." I am a willing submissive that moment. Maybe it's a desperate move but I really want to learn - for ZD - for the two of us - for him to realize what he's missin g and for him to know what he really wants. Lukas Anton grinned. He held my chin and made me look at him. "I like you alread y." Hinatak niya iyong left hand ko. He made me stand in front of the bed. He wa s pulling down his pants, then he took his shirt off - my god! He looked as if h e was photoshopped alive! He sat on the bed with only his sexy cotton Calvin Klein briefs on. He patted th e side of the bed and made me sit. "What am I gonna do ba?" I was shrugging off the kaba I'm feeling. "Blow me." He said sexily. I looked at him. I blew him a kiss. Bigla naman siyan g tumawa ng malakas. "That's not what I'm trying to tell you. Ganito."

He took my hand and placed it on his bulging crotch area. My eyes widened. I kno w what was under that and I could feel it pulsating and growing to life. Umangat siya ng kaunti para maalis niya iyong boxers niya - the next thing I knew he wa s totally naked in front of me. My nineteen year old virgin mind is being corrupted that moment and I don't real ly care. "Let's take you dress off." He said. Siya na din iyong naghubad noon. I wasn't w earing any bra so after that - I was naked na in front of him. He grinned, he be nt down and sucked my nipples. I felt electrified. "Oh gosh!" I exclaimed. "Shhh! Ayoko ng maingay." He whispered. He sucked my nipples again. Para siyang baby na umiinom ng milk! His free hand travelled down my abdomen down to my core . My eyes widened when I felt his fingers delved inside. "Ouch. No, it's masakit." I bit my lower lip. He just grinned. "Lick it." Ipinakita niya sa akin iyong finger na he used kanina. "What? That's galing from my down there eh!" "Just lick it, baby doll." He said again. I sighed, closed my eyes and licked hi s fingers. After that, he pushed it inside of me again. I stopped breathing. "It's masakit!" "Ang arte!" He said impatiently. Tumayo siya then he held my wrists and made me lie on the bed. He took my panties off and he placed his face in the middle of m y core. My eyes widened with disbelief when I felt his hot tongue darting in and out of my core. "Ohhhhh god! Lukas Anton!" I couldn't help but scream. In my nineteen years of e xistence, I wasn't really sure - I really didn't know that such wonderful pleasu re existed. I felt like I have travelled to a place with unicorns and leprechaun s existed. "Ahhhh! Ahhhh! Oh god! Oh god!" I felt an overwhelming sensation in my middle pa rt and I felt like I have exploded. He stopped and sat up. He was looking at me while I was catching my breath. "Ang ingay mo." Biglang sabi niya. I blushed. I don't know how to contain myself . It was just so... masarap! "Now it's your turn. Blow me." He said again. He took my hand and put it around his thick and long shaft. I was feeling afraid because it looked like it had its own life. It's warm on my hand. "Kneel, Yngrid. Kneel like you're praying." I did what he told me. I kneeled between his legs. He was sitting on the bed. I looked at him. "What am I gonna do ba?" I asked - I sounded so confident but dee p inside I'm feeling different. "Stroke it, baby doll. Up and down. Grip a little bit but not much kasi masakit. " He instructed me. I did what he told me. I was concentrating. I was thinking t hat If I passed this - if id gave it all - maybe ZD will finally like me.

"That feels good." He said in a hoarse voice. He was grinning. His left hand tou ched my free breast. "Aw don't do that! I'm nakikiliti and I can't concentrate eh!" I sneered at him. Mas lalo niyang diniin iyong touch niya. I gasped. "Lu-lukas Anton... ahhh..." "You like that huh." He said. "Ayoko, wait. Ay shit! I'm so wet na down there!" He was laughing. Siguro natatawa siya sa akin but I don't really care. His touch is making me feel hot and so wanted. "Wait!" I exclaimed again. "Yours is so huge, why is it so huge?" "I don't know, but I want to put that inside of your tight pussy, baby doll." "But is it masakit?" I was still stroking his shaft. He just grinned. "No baby, it's masarap..." He even winked at me. ----------------"Oh fuck! Shit! Ahhhh!" I was biting my lower lip - I was trying to contain myself. I was trying not to make sigaw but I couldn't help it because he - Lukas Anton was hitting that spot again! It's been so long and yet he already made me come - I don't know how man y - I lost count at the eight - but it just felt so fucking good. "Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!" He exclaimed. He stood up. I groaned in disappointment. I fe lt him pulled my leg. He was making me stand up. "Stand, Yngrid." He said to me. "Here, beside the table." He ordered me and I ob eyed. I stood there, bent my waist so my hips were elevated. He even spanked my bared his and from that position, he entered me again. I groaned in satisfaction . He thrusts in and out while fondling my breast and planting soft kisses on my bared back. "I'm coming." He whispered. "Me too! Oh god! Lukas Anton! I'm so close! Ahhh! Ahhh!" He stopped. I felt his love juices spilled inside of me. My knees were trembling with so much pleasure. He carried me to bed and lie beside me. "Now." I looked at him. Kailangan na naming mag-talk. "Why the fuck didn't you s ign the divorce paper?" He shrugged. "I just don't feel like it. Matulog na tayo. It's two in the mornin g Yngrid. Kailangan ko naman ng katahimikan. Ang ingay-ingay mo!" He hissed. My mouth fell. Ako pa iyong maingay?! I'm only maingay because of him!

Argh! I hate him! I really do! 5. Long lost

"Where the hell have you been, Yngrid?!" I rolled my eyes at Yana after hearing her screaming as I walk inside the studio . Pictorial today ng mga former bachelors of the country and I am her stylist bu t because of what happened last night between me and my so called "husband" I am really puyat and out of focus kasi naman I'm so tired! Lukas Anton was insatiab le as ever - he really knows how to please his women - a lot of women. He's a m an whore - iyon ang pagkakakilala ko sa kanya. "Oh my gee, Yana! You're so masungit! You really need to get laid!" I giggled at her as I kiss her cheeks. She pushed me away then she made simangot. Kahit tala ga kailan, she's so pikon. I looked around the studio and I saw two hot men - former bachelors - standing s ide by side - they were the Ledesma twins. I was smiling ear to ear because as I looked at them, I have thought of what I will do with them. Not only was I the stylist, I'm also a part of the creative part of this pictorial. "You!" I yelled at them. "Get them naked and make it fast!" I giggled again. I d on't know why but I really like men with abs. It turns me on - I sighed dreamily as I remember Lukas Anton's eight pack abs. After that I shook my head. I shoul dn't be thinking about him. Our relationship was purely about lust and hunger fo r each other - walang love. Oo may sparks pero love - wala - as in. We always fi ght - Lukas Anton hated the way that I am. He never liked me - he only likes me when inside the bedroom but when outside - para lang kaming strangers - isang re ason kung bakit ko siya hiniwalayan. I was the one who called it quits. I never liked the way he treated me. He's mab ait but he's so babaero. I once caught him on bed with three women back while we were living in Vegas. I was really appalled. He was having sex with them in our bed and that was the last of it. After that day, I called it quits na. Ako iyong tumawag ng lawyer. It was a good thing I didn't tell my mom about my marriage kasi kung sinabi ko, malaking gulo lang. "ZD's here." Yana informed me. I slowly turned my head and I saw Zachary Drew en tering the premises looking like hell. "And he has a hangover." Yana said again. Napanguso ako. I became so worried. Ni lapitan ako siya. "Zach..." I bit my lower lip. He looked so tired and haggard. He looked as if hi ndi pa siya natutulog. "Hi, Greta." He whispered. I could smell the beer on his breath. "Zach, ang early tapos you're drunk! What's wrong?! Are you trying to patay your self?" I said. I'm so masungit na that moment. I feel like he doesn't care at al l. I looked at Yana. Tinanguan niya ako - I guess that's her signal for me to ta ke Zach away - and so I did. I took her to the back room and made him sit on the couch. I stared at him. "Zach, what's wrong?" I asked him. My heart is literally bleeding. Hindi ako use na makita siyang ganito. The Zach I know is always happy, always positive but r ight now, the Zach in front of me is too broken and too hurt that he couldn't ev en breathe. "Do you really have to ask, Greta?" He said. His voice was dark and lonely. It m

ade me cry. Umagang-umaga, nagka-cry ako in front of him. I wanted to be mad at myself for loving him this much but I just couldn't deal w ith that fact right now. I sat beside him and touched his face. "Let her go, Zach." He shook his head. "How, Yngrid? How can I let go of the air that I breathe?" My mouth parted. "Ikaw naman. Nawala na naman iyong ka-conyo-han ko sa'yo." Bigl ang nasabi ko. I couldn't be the sossy Yngrid that I am while I'm hurting like this. Hinaplos ko ang mukha ni Zach. He was asking me how to let go of the air t hat he breathes. I want to tell him to LOVE ME. Love me instead of her. Ako na lang. But I couldn't find the words to say. Zach sighed. He gave me a peck on the chee ks and stood up. "Hindi ako dapat nagpunta dito. I have to go, Greta. I love you." He kissed my f orehead and left the room. Napamulagat lang ako. I don't know why but I wanted t o follow him. Maybe now is the time to finally tell him what I feel. Nasabi ko n aman noon, but I just want to tell him again because I want him to know that eve n though Yza Consunji doesn't love him anymore, someone else - me - is so in lov e with him - that I am willing to do everything just to make him happy. So I followed him. "Zach!" I ran after him. He was in the middle of the corridor but he didn't stop. I kept on running. "Zach!" Finally he stopped. He looked at me. I opened my mouth to say something. I was a bout - really - to tell him that I love him but my sentence hang in the middle w hen I saw my dad walking towards us. He's green eyes were fixed on the two of us - he was smiling. Maybe he was happy upon seeing me and his inaanak. Shall I tell him now? But dad will hear it. So what? Zach is free - he's not committed and I'm sure that dad will be thrilled. "Zach!" I called him again. "Yes, Greta?" My heart was beating fast. My mind was racing and my dad was very near. I looked at Zach and then to my dad then I smiled at him. "I lo----" My eyes widened with shock when someone grabbed my arm, tilted my head and kisse d me - hungrily on the lips. Kahit hindi ko alam - I know those lips - si Lukas Anton. Napahawak ang hands ko sa chest niya and I felt a burning sensation when I felt his skin - he's half naked. I could imagine his abs, his skin.

"Francheska Yngrid Katigbak!" I pushed Lukas Anton away and immediately distanced myself. I felt my lips. Naka tingin lang din naman siya sa akin. He was grinning. "Anong ibig sabihin nito?!" My dad's voice boomed. I felt nervous. "Dad... kasi uhm, what---" "Sir, I'm Lukas Anton Ronaldo." Pakilalam ni Lukas sa Daddy ko. "So what?" He spat. I looked at Zach. His expression was comical. "Anak ka ng is a sa kambal sa pastels." "Caleb Ronaldo's son, Sir." He said again. "Oh ano ngayon!" Sigaw ni Dad. "Dad, let's go, ako na lang ang magpapaliwanag." Sabi ko pa. Natatakot ako sa sa sabihin niya. Lukas Anton grinned. "I'm Yngrid's long lost husband, Sir."

My mouth parted.