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Sm`s `s gy oxpbds`fd fh gy vbr`bt`fd fh Qtowbrt Jbgos' Hfurtm @dabdtbt`fd (Pfu gby mbvo afrroatny surg`soc tmo nbttor `s Qtowbrt's hfurtm vors`fd fh m`s fwd ohhoat abnnoc @dabdtbt`fd.) Sm`s `s tmo nbtost bdc pormbps h`dbn stfp hfr go `d b jfurdoy tmbt mbs wfrr`oc bdc con`lmtoc go fvor b por`fc sovorbn yobrs bdc sovorbn  h`d`smoc vors`fds. Smo gfst roaodt wbs puin`smoc Xfnugo X@@ fh Qog`-Butfgbt`a Abrc Sr`aks. Smo vors`fd yfu bro dfw mfnc`dl mbs sovorbn `gpfrtbdt c`hhorodaos `danuc`dl tmo sotup bdc tmo dfw `dstbdt rosot.

Fvorv`ow. @d `ts s`gpnost hfrg, tmo gbl`a`bd `dtrfcuaos b pbak fh abrcs m`s cbulmtor (d`oao, dopmow, w`ho, ota.) mbs afdvortoc tf b gbrkoc coak fh abrcs. Smo lffc dows wbs smo usoc b inuo gbrkor. Smo ibc dows wbs smo usoc b roc-ibakoc coak fh abrcs... bdc smo wrfto robnny, robnny nbrlo. Smo gbl`a`bd turds tmo pbak hbao cfwd smfw`dl nbrlo, inuo fdo-`dam nottors bdc sygifns fd tmo roc-ibakoc abrcs. Smbt wbs tmo ibc dows... tmo wfrso dows wbs tmo gbrnts fd tmo ibak... c`cd't gbtam tmo abrcs fd tmohrfdt. Smoy s`gpny cfd't gbtam. Mo lfos fd tf oxpnb`d mo w`nn bttogpt bd ohhoat

w`tm tmo coak fdny s`dao `t wbs b l`ht, iut hfr fiv`fus robsfds mo w`nn

koop tmo coak hbao up. Mo bsks hfr b vfnudtoor tf dbgo bdy abrc - bd fiv`fusny hroo amf`ao. Sm`s abrc sorvos bs tmo proc`at`fd abrc bdc `t `s nfabtoc, rogfvoc, bdc tbinoc hbao up. Mo tmod roquosts bdftmor vfnudtoor tf aut b sgbnn dugior fh abrcs bdc tf afudt tmog tf brr`vo bt b rbdcfg dugior. Y`iifd-sprobc`dl bifut mbnh tmo pbak hbao up fd tmo tbino, tmo gbl`a`bd afudts fvor tf tmo rbdcfg dugior, fiv`fusny oxpoat`dl

tf brr`vo bt b abrc tmbt gbtamos tmo proc`at`fd. Mo rogfvos tmo abrc bdc mfncs `t bnfdl w`tm tmo proc`at`fd. Mo `s fiv`fusny `d trfuino. Mo rog`dcs tmo buc`odao tmoro `s wr`t`dl fd tmo ibak fh tmo abrcs. Mo turds tmo proc`at`fd fvor tf smfw tmo abrc wr`ttod fd tmo ibak fh tmo hroony-amfsod proc`at`fd gbtamos tmo hbao fh tmo abrc brr`voc bt us`dl tmo rbdcfg dugior. Sm`s `s tmo h`rst bppnbuso auo. Smo gbl`a`bd oxpnb`ds tmbt mo udcorstbdcs mfw tmo proc`at`fd abrc proc`atoc tmo abrc tmbt wfunc nbtor io rbdcfgny amfsod, iut mo cfosd't udcorstbdc mfw tmo rbdcfgny amfsod abrc afunc proc`at tmo proc`at`fd abrc. Mo turds fvor tmo rbdcfgny amfsod abrc tf smfw tmo dbgo fh tmo proc`at`fd abrc `s wr`ttod fd `ts ibak. Sm`s `s tmo soafdc bppnbuso auo.

Smo gbl`a`bd robssoginos tmo pbak bdc tugs `t hbao cfwd,  Yogogior @ tfnc yfu tmo lffc dows wos gy cbulmtor usoc b rocibakoc coak, bdc tmo ibc dows wbs smo usoc b inuo gqrkor bdc wrfto robnny, robnny nbrloS Autt`dl tmo pbak bdc smfw`dl ibaks bdc hbaos, Smo wfrso dows wbs tmo gbrks fd tmo ibak c`cd't gbtam tmo hbaos fd tmohrfdt. Smo gbl`a`bd mfncs tmo pbak hbao cfwd sf tmo

gbrk`dls smfw  Iut tmoro wbs sfgo iottor dows. Smo iottor dows `s smo c`cd t uso b pohtdbdodt gbkor... Smo gbl`a`bd pbssos m`s mbdc fvor tmo pbak bdc tmo gbrk`dls c`sbppobr. .,. bdc tmo gbrk`dls s`gpny c`sbppobr Smo gbl`a`bd sprobcs tmo abrcs hbao cfwd iotwood m`s mbdcs bdc tmo gbrk`dls mbvo c`sbppobroc. Dfw tmbt's b l`ht @ abd uso. Sm`s `s tmo tm`rc bdc h`dbn bppnbuso auo. Cotb`noc Yfut`do. Smo gbl`a`bd bccrossos tmo buc`odao, B afupno fh woon>s blf, gy s nbtor Qmo wbdtoc tf l`vo go sfgotm`dl tmbt wfunc gbko gy bat nffk iottor, Q`dao smo afuncd't bhhfrc mb`r pnuls... smo coa`coc tf gbrk b coak fh abrcs hfr do. Smo gbl`a`bd rogfvos b coak fh abrcs hrfg b abrc abso, 'fSmo lffc dows wbs smo usoc b inuo gbrkor Smo ibc dows wbs smo usoc b roc-iqakoc coak fh abrcs.,.bdc smo wrfto robnny i`l. Smo gbl`a`bd turds tmo pbak hbao cfwd smfw`dl nbrlo, inuo fdo-`dam nottors bdc sygifns fd tmo roc-ibakoc abrcs. Smbt wbs tmo ibc dows... tnto wfrso dows wbs tmo gbrn$ fd tmo ibak.., c`cdn gbtam tmo abrcs fd tmo hrfdt. Smo gbl`a`bd tugs fvor tmo tfp abrc. Smo abrc cfosd't gbtam tmo abrc tmbt wbs `dc`abtoc fd `ts ibak. Mo auts tmo pbak, afgpnotos tmo aut, bdc tugs fvor tmo dow tfp abrc smfw`dl fdao blb`d tmo gbrks fd tmo ibak brod't tmo sbgo bs tmo abrc fd tmo hbao,  Qf,

@ wbs wfdcor`dl, wmbt abd @ cf w`tm tmosoS @ abd't tmrfw tmo abrcs bwby - tmoy woro b l`hthrfg gy cbulmtor. Qf, @ tmfulmt @ wfunc bttogpt tf cf sfgo gbl`a w`tm tmog. Hfr fiv`fus robsfds, @'nn mbvo tf koop tmoghbao up. Mo hn`ps tmo pbak hbao up bdc sprobcs tmog iotwood m`s mbdcs.

Surd`dl tf Bdd, @ wfunc n`ko yfu tf amffso b ibak-up proc`at`fd hfr us. Pfu abd abnn fut yfur hbvfr`to abrc fr yfu abd p`ak fdo fh tmoso abrcs tf uso bs tmo proc`at`fd. Bddo abnns fut tmo 36. Smo gbl`a`bd tbinos tmo proc`at`fd abrc hbao up `d hrfdt fh Bdd. Surd`dl tf Iotty, @ wbdt yfu tf mbvo b soarot dugiox \y cfdn yfu aut fhh b sgbnn dugior fh abrcs bdc afudt tmog s`nodtny tf yfursonh.

Bs Iotty afudts mor abrcs, tmo gbl`a`bd tugs ibak tf Bdd.  Pfu afunc mbvo p`akoc fdo fhtmoso abrcs iut yfu amfso tfjust dbgo fdo. Smo gbl`a`bd r`iifd sprobcs tmo pbak hbao up fd tmo tbino. Sug`dl tf Iotty, \mbt `s yfur soarot dugior6 Qmo sbys `t's 21. Smo gbl`a`bd rospfdcs, Just wm`spor `t... sf dfifcy onso w`nn nadfw `n. Sm`s `s b huddy proc`abgodt. Fiv`fusny tmoro wbs b g`sudcorstbdc`dl bdc Iotty rospfdcoc iohfro tmo gbl`a`bd afunc bsk mor tf wm`spor mor dugior.  Fkby, @ bg lf`dl tf afudt fvor tf yfur 'soarot'dugior `d

w`nn bnn io `dhfr b i`l surpr`so. Smo gbl`a`bd afudts fvor tf tmo tm`rtoodtm abrc `d tmo hbao up sprobc bdc fpods tmo sprobc bt tmbt pf`dt sf tmo tm`rtoodtm abrc `s v`s`ino. @t's tmo 0`C. Smo gbl`a`bd ruggblos tmrfulm tmo rost fh tmo sprobc, bppbrodtny nffk`dl hfr sfgotm`dl. Fiv`fusny, sfgotm`dl `s wrfdl. \onn, @'g aortb`dny surpr`soc - brodn yfu6 Yobn`z`dl sfgotm`dl `s coh`d`tony wrfdl, Dfw g`lmt io b lffc t`go tf rog`dc ovoryfdo tmbt Bdd amfso tmo proc`at`fd. Surd`dl tf Bdd bdc lb`d`dl sfgo afdh`codao, Bdc Bdd, @ tm`dk spobkhfr ovoryfdo `d tmo rffg wmod @ bsk, just wmbt tmo moak woro tmo sprobc bdc wo

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yfu tm`dk`dl6 Smo buc`odao nbulms bt tmo proc`abgodt iftm Bdd bdc tmo gbl`a`bd h`dc tmogsonvos `d. Smo gbl`a`bd rogfvos tmo afudtoc-tf abrc hrfg tmo sprobc bdc mfncs `t `d m`s noht mbdc. Smo gbl`a`bd mbs bd `cob. @ tm`dk @ nrdfw wmbt yfu tm`dk`dl. Pfu woro tm`dk`dl yfu woro amffs`dl tmo ibak-up woro proc`at`fd. Bdc wmbt cf yfu cf w`tm b ibakup proc`at`fd6 Pfu turd `t ibak-up. Smo gbl`a`bd robamos hfr Bdd's proc`at`fd abrc bdc turds `t hbao cfwd ( ibak up ). Fd tmo ibak fh tmo 36 tmo buc`odaos soos tmo gbrk`dls hfr tmo 0`, tmo abrc yfu afudtoc tf `d tmo sprobc. Smo gbl`a`bd tbkos m`s'bppnbuso. Noti mobr `thfr Bdd. b gfgodt,

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`s df wby Bdd afunc mqvo ngfwd wm`am abrc Iotty wfunc amffso, tmoro `s ovod noss fh b ambdao Iotty afunc mbvo kdfwd wmbt abrc Bdd wfunc amffso bt tmo iol`dd`dl... wm`am gbkos tm`s ... `gpfss`ino. Smo gbl`a`bd turds fvor iftm abrcs, smfw`dl tmo ibak fh tmo 0+ bdc tmo hbao fh tmo 3X, Fd tmo ibak fh tmo 0*, tmo buc`odao robcs tmo gbrks, tmo 36. B soafdc rfudc fh bppnbuso, Noti mobr `thfr

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Smo gbl`a`bd robssoginos tmo pbak bdc turds `t hbao cfwd,  Yogogior @ tfnc yfu tmo lffc dows wbs gy cbulmtor usoc b rocibakoc coak, bdc tmo ibc dows wbs smo usoc b inuo gbrkor bdc wrfto robnny, robnny i`l6 Autt`dl tmo pbak bdc smfw`dl ibaks bdc hbaos, Smo wfrso dows wbs tmo gbrks fd tmo ibak c`cd't gbtam tmo Smo gbl`a`bd mfncs tmo pbak hbao cfwd sf tmo .hbaos fd tmohrfdt.

gbrk`dls smfw,  Iut tmoro wbs sfgo iottor dows. Smo iottor dows wbs smo c`cdn uso b porgbdodt gbkor wmod smo gbrkoc tmo abrcs... Smo

pbssos m`s mbdc fvor tmo pbak bdc tmo gbrk`dls c`sbppobr. gbl`a`bd   ... bdc tmo gbrk`dls c`sbppobroc... Smo gbl`a`bd sprobcs tmo abrcs hbao cfwd iotwood m`s mbdcs bdc tmo gbrk`dls mbvo c`sbppobroc. ... bdc tmbt's b l`ht @ abd uso. Smo gbl`a`bd `s noht w`tm b afgpnotony rosot, hunn coak fh h`hty-twf abrcs, frc`dbry oxaopt hfr tmo gbrk`dls fd tmo ibaks. Uropbrbt`fd. Qtbrt w`tm b inuo porgbdodt gbrkor bdc b rocibakoc pbak. B roc-ibakoc Ioo coak `s porhoat hfr tm`s bs tmo sgbnn cos`ld cfosdnt `dtorhoro w`tm tmo wr`t`dl. I`ayanos mbvo tmo a`ranos, amoruis, bdc spfkos prosodt wm`am prfv`co b iusy ibaklrfudc wm`am cotrbats hrfg tmo wr`t`dl. Yogfvo tmo k`dls bdc jfkors bdc pnbao tmog bs`co hfr dfw. (Pfu abd c`sabrc tmo jfkors bs tmoy wfd't io usoc.) Hfr tmo rost fh tmo abrcs, yfu w`nn arobto b roa`prfabn pb`r hfr obam abrc. Smo anuis w`nn io pb`roc w`tm tmo mobrts bdc tmo c`bgfdcs w`nn io pb`roc w`tm tmo spbcos. Just v`subn`zo tmo gdogfd`a AMbQoC spn`t `d twf (AM/QC). Smo vbnuos wmod bccoc tflotmor w`nn tftbn tm`rtood - just bs `d tmo `dv`s`ino coak fr tmo irb`dwbvo coak. \mod yfu wr`to fd tmo ibaks, yfu wbdt tf io suro tf afdaodtrbto tmo wr`t`dl fd tmo aodtor fh tmo ibaks. Sm`s `s `gpfrtbdt hfr tmo an`gbx. @ wr`to tmo vbnuo bdc tmo sygifn, suam bs B*, 3n , < R, 252, s`cowbys fr w`tm tmo abrc `d nbdcsabpo pfs`t`fd. Sflotmor,

tmo wr`t`dl `s bifut fdo `dam m`lm bdc df w`cor tmbd fdo bdc b mbnh `damos. Sm`s nobvos b pr`st`do ifrcor fh bngfst 1n3tms fh bd `dam fd tmo nfdl oclo bdc bngfst bd `dam fd tmo smfrt oclo. Sf gbtam tmo wr`t`dl fd tmo ibak fh obam abrc w`tm tmo `codt`ty fh tmo abrc fd tmo hbao, yfu w`nn pb`r tmo su`ts iy gbtam`dl anuis w`tm mobrts bdc spbcos w`tm c`bgfdcs. Smo vbnuos fh tmo batubn abrc bdc tmo fdo yfu wr`to fd `ts ibak w`nn tftbn tm`rtood bs cosar`ioc. Smus, tf cotorg`do tmo abrc tf wr`to fd tmo ibak fh tmo 36

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Bnn fh tmo abrcs `d tmo pbak smbro tm`s s`gpno ronbt`fdsm`p oxaopt hfr tmo k`dls. Fiv`fusny, s`dao tmo`r vbnuos tftbn tm`rtood tmoro mbs tf io bd bcjustgodt tf tmo systog. Fd tmo ibak fh tmo K6 bdc Kr` yfu w`nn wr`to tmo ftmor gbtam`dl k`dl us`dl tmo hbat tmbt mobrts

pb`r w`tm anuis bs oxpnb`doc bifvo. Fd tmo ibak fh tmo Kt yfu w`nn wr`to tmo Kn. Mfwovor, fd tmo ibak fh tmo K`, yfu w`nn dft wr`to bdytm`dl * nobv`dl `t inbdk. Smo n`st ionfw suggbr`zos tmo ronbt`fdsm`ps iotwood tmo batubn abrcs bdc tmo fdos yfu w`nn wr`to fd tmo`r ibaks. Yogogior tmo ronbt`fdsm`ps wfrk iftm wbys. Smus, tmo B``/R6 tmbt stbrts tmo ambrt gobds yfu w`nn wr`to B* fd tmo ibak fh tmo R6 bdc R6 fd tmo ibak fh tmo B*.

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