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(1998 se \me-∏m-S≥ ]pc-kvImcw e`n® IrXn-bmWv kq£n-®p-h® abn¬∏o-en)

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Sookshichuvacha Mayilpeeli kq£n®ph® abn¬∏oen (collection of short stories in Malayalam) Author: E. Harikumar Electronic version published in 2013 This book is meant for distribution among research organisations absolutely free of cost. Copyright C 2013 by E. Harikumar Copyright of the sketches, monograms, logo and other materials used in this story to create pages as they appeared in the periodicals, belongs to the respective publishers of periodicals and/or artists. Address: E. Harikumar 5B, Avenue Crest Apartments Avenue Road, Mundupalam Kuriachira P.O. Thrissur 680 006 cover design based on sketch Phone: (0487) 2251779 by artist madanan for the story pazhayoru E-Mail: [email protected] bhaeshanikkari published in mathrubhumi weekly Web: www.e-harikumar.com C

C. lcnIpam¿ 1943 Pqsse 13 \v s]m∂m-\n-bn¬ P\-\w. A—≥ alm-Ihn CS-t»cn tKmhn-µ≥ \mb¿. AΩ CS°≠n Pm\In AΩ. I¬°-Ø-bn¬ h®v _n.-F. ]m m-bn. 1972˛¬ efn-Xsb hnhmlw sNbvXp. aI≥ AP-bv hnhm-ln-X\ - mWv. `mcy: ip`. I¬°-Ø, Zn√n, t_mws_ F∂o \K-cß - f - n¬ tPmen-sb-Sp-Øp. 1983-˛¬ tIc-fØ - n-tebv°v Xncn-®p-h∂ - p. 1962 sXm´v sNdp-IY - I - s - f-gp-Xn-Øp-Sß - n. BZysØ IYm-ka - m-lmcw "Iqd-Iƒ' 72¬ {]kn-≤s - ∏-Sp-Øn. 15 IYm-k-am-lm-c-ßfpw 9 t\mh-ep-Ifpw Hcp A\p-`-h-°p-dn-∏p-w {]kn-≤-s∏-Sp-Øn-bn-´p≠v. ]pc-kvIm-c-ßƒ: 1988 se tIcf kmlnXy A°m-Zan ]pc-kvImcw "Znt\m-k-dns‚ Ipń' F∂ IYm-kam-lm-c-Øn-\v. 1997 se ]-fl-cm-P≥ ]pc-kvImcw "]®-∏-øns\ ]nSn-°m≥' F∂ IY-bv°v. 1998 se \me-∏m-S≥ ]pc-kvImcw "kq£n-®p-h® abn¬∏oen' F∂ IYm-ka - m-lm-cØ - n\v. 2006 se IYm-]oTw ]pc-kvImcw "A\n-X-bpsS hoSv' F∂ IYm-k-am-lm-c-Øn-\v. 2012 se G‰hpw anI® IY-bv°p≈ tIcf tÃ‰v Ne-®n{X A°m-Zan Ahm¿Uv "{io]m¿∆-Xn-bpsS ]mZw' F∂ IY-bv°v. BUntbm Imk‰v dn°m¿Un-Mv, sh_v Unssk-\n-Mv, aƒńaoUnb s{]mU-£≥, ]pkvXI {]kn-≤o-I-cWw F∂n-h-bn-te¿s∏-ń-´p-≠v. 1998 apX¬ 2004 hsc tIcf kmlnXy A°m-Zan Aw-K-am-bncp-∂p. IrXn-Iƒ: sNdp-I-Ym-k-am-lm-c-ßƒ: Iqd-Iƒ, hrj-`-Øns‚ IÆv, Ip¶paw hnX-dnb hgn-Iƒ, Znt\m-k-dns‚ Ipń, Im\U- b n¬ \ns∂mcp cmP- I p- a mcn, {io]m¿∆- X n- b psS ]mZw, kq£n- ® p- h ® abn¬∏oen, ]®-∏-øns\ ]nSn-°m≥, Zqsc Hcp \K-c-Øn¬, IdpØ X{ºmń, A\n-X-bpsS hoSv, Cf-sh-bnens‚ km¥z\w (I-Y-Iƒ 1966-˛1996), \K-c-hm-knbmb Hcp Ipń, Fs‚ kv{XoIƒ (kv{Xo-]-£- I-Y-Iƒ), sh≈n-Øn-c-bn-se∂-t]mse. t\mh-ep-Iƒ: Dd-ßp∂ k¿∏-ßƒ + im]-ine, Bk-‡n-bpsS A·n-\m-f-ßƒ, Hcp IpSpw_]pcmWw, F©n≥ss{U-hsd kvt\ln® s]Ïpń, Ab-\-ßƒ, XSm-I-XocØv, sIm®-{ºmń, {]W-b-Øn-s\mcp tkm^v‰vshb¿, Adn-bm-Ø-eß-fntebv°v. Hm¿Ω-Iƒ, A\p-`-h-°p-dn-∏p-Iƒ, teJ-\-ßƒ: \o Fhn-sS-bm-sW-¶nepw. Cu Hm¿Ω-Iƒ acn-°m-Xn-cn-°-s´.

hnemkw: 5˛-_n, Ah\yp s{IÃv A]m¿Svsa‚ vkv Ah\yp tdmUv, ap≠p-]mew Ipcn-b-®nd (]n.-H.) Xr»q¿ 680 006 t^m¨: 091-˛0487-˛2251779 C˛-sa-bn¬: [email protected], [email protected] website: www.e-harikumar.com

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sNdpIY apdn™Xv AdnbmØ hn[Øn¬ AeamcnbpsS D≈n¬ Hcp aqebn¬ Nmcnsh®p. i_vZap≠m°msX AeamcnbpsS hmXn¬ AS®Xpw e£van B‚n ap¥ncßbpw A≠n∏cn∏pw \ndsb C´ dhtIkcn c≠ptπbv‰pIfnem°n sIm≠ph∂Xpw H∏ambncp∂p. Hcp \nanjw sshInbncps∂¶n¬! kw`hØn\ptijw Ahƒ Xncph\¥]pctØ°v h∂tXbn√. \mep amkØn\p≈n¬ A—\v Zn√nbnte°v am‰ambn. t]mIp∂Xn\papºv G´s\ ImWm≥ t]mIWsa∂p≠mbn cp∂p A—\v. Ahƒ hcns√∂p hmin]nSn® ImcWw A—≥ H‰bv°p t]mbn h∂p. ]ns∂ Hm´ ambncp∂p. Zn√n, t_mws_, AlΩZm_mZv. Ahsf kw_‘n®nStØmfw Hcp Ip‰IrXyØn¬ \n∂v HmSn c£s∏SpIbmbncp∂p. Ct∏mƒ ChnsS e£van B‚nbpsS \c® XeapSnbpw, Npfn™pXpSßnb {]im¥amb apJhpw t\m°nbncns° Ign™sX√mw F{X \n mcambncps∂∂v \n¿Ωe°p tXm∂n. c≠pt]cpw AhchcpsSXmb hgnbneqsS Htc kabØv Xncns®Øn. Hcp Zo¿Lbm{X Ign™ t]mse e£van B‚n \nizkn®p. Rm≥ \nßƒ c≠pt]cpw ChnsS h∂v Ifn°mdp≈sXms° Hm¿°zmbncp∂p. \n¿Ωe Nncn®p. B‚n CXphscbp≠m°nb ]mh°pńIsfms° ChnsS Ct√? F√mw D≠v. Fs‚ a°ƒ F√mw D≠v. Hcp tamfv ams{X Ipd®p Imembn´v ImWmXymbn´p≈p. C∂v Ahfow Inń. \n¿ΩebpsS hbdv Imfn. s]s´∂v B‚n ]dbp∂Xv Xm≥ tISphcpØnb ]mh°pńsb∏‰nbmsW ∂hƒ°p tXm∂n. AX√ Ah¿ Dt±in®sX∂v a\ nem°m≥ Ahƒ Ipd®p kabsaSpØp. Rm≥ t]mbn Ipd®p \mcmßm sh≈w FSp°s´. e£van B‚n Fgpt∂‰p. Rm≥ B‚nbpsS a°sf Hs° H∂p ImWs´. \n¿Ωebv°v B ]mh°pńsb I≠p ]nSn°Ww. B‚n CSbv°nSbv°v ]mh Isf Atßm´pantßm´pw am‰mdp≈Xp sIm≠v B tPmen A{X Ffp∏ambncp ∂n√. Ahƒ Hmtcmtcm Aeamcnbmbn t\m°nØpSßn. t\m°ns°m≠ncns° Ahƒ°v AhbpsS {kjvSmhnse A\p {KloX IemImcnsb a\km A`n\µn °mXncn°m\mbn√. ]t£ B ]mhIƒ AhtfmSv kwkmcn®n√. apºv Ipńbm bncp∂t∏mƒ B ]mhIƒ Hmtcm∂pw AXnt‚Xmb hgnbn¬ AhtfmSv Bib hn\nabw \SØnbncp∂p. Ct∏mƒ {]mb Øn¬ h∂am‰amhmw As√¶n¬ D® shbn¬ apdnsb Zo]vXam°p∂XpsIm≠v ]mhIƒ°v AhbpsS apJsØ `mhw \jvSs∏´XpsIm≠mhmw, Ah DuaIsf t∏mse henb IÆpIfpwsIm≠v Ahsf t\m°pIam{Xw sNbvXp. s]s´∂v AhfpsS lrZbw i‡n bmbn anSn®p. hmk¥n òjWns∏SpØn bt∏mgp≠mb s\©p thZ\ Ahƒ°v A\p`hs∏´p. B kpµcn∏mh \nXy bu∆\hpambn Hcp AeamcnbpsS \Sp hn¬Øs∂ \n¬°p∂p. c≠p Imen¬ Øs∂. Ahƒ AeamcnbpsS hmXn¬Xpd∂v B ]mhsb IønseSpØp. Xs‚ PohnXw apgph≥ Ip‰t_m[w sIm≠v \nd®

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sNdpIY kpµcn. hndbv°p∂ ssIItfmsS Ahƒ B ]mhbpsS \o≠ ]´p]mhmS s]m°n t\m°n. hetØ Im¬ apdnt™SØv `wKnbmbn Hń®ncn°p∂p. H‰t\m´Øn¬ AXv s]mńbXmsW∂dnbn√. Ahƒ Zo¿Lambn \nizkn®p. B \nanjØnemWv hmk¥n hmXn¬ IS∂ph∂Xv. Ahƒ s]s´∂p \n∂p. B ]gb òj-Wn-°mcn-bpsS apJØv Hm¿Ω-bpsS kv^penwKw an∂n-a-d-bp-∂Xv Ahƒ I≠p. ]mh-bpsS Db¿Ønb ]mhmS XmgvØm≥ IqSn hømsX \n¿Ωe \n∂p. AIØp\n∂v e£van B‚n Hcp •mkn¬ \mcß sh≈hpambn h∂p. Ahƒ \n¿ΩebpsS Iønse ]mh°pńsb t\m°n. Hcp ]gb Zpc¥Øns‚ Hm¿Ω AhcpsS apJØv \ng¬ hointbm? e£vanB‚nbpsS apJØv \n¿Ωe h√mbvatbmsS t\m°n. h√msØmcp kwL´\w. Ccp]Xp sIm√w in£bn¬ \nt∂mSn c£s∏´ Ip‰hmfn IogSßnbncn°p∂p. \nbaw AXns‚ hgn°v \S°s´. in£ kzoIcn°m≥ Xømdmbn \n¿Ωe \n∂p. •mkv Sot]mbvta¬sh®v e£van B‚n \n¿ΩebpsS ASpØp h∂p. ]Xps° Ahsf Acs°ń eqsS hcn™v Ihnfn¬ Npw_n®p. Xm≥ IcbpIbmbncps∂∂v, Aºct∏msS BizmktØmsS Ahƒ a\ nem°n. !

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Pn AhfpsS a\ ns‚ hmXmb\ßƒ PohnXØn¬ BZyambn ae¿s° Xpd∂nSpIbmWv. aq∂psIm√sØ klhmkØn\p≈n¬ ZnhmIc\v Aßns\sbmc\p`hap≠mbnń√. BZyambn ZnhmIc≥ Hcp t{imXmhmbn. km[mcWbp≈ tdmfn¬ \n∂p hyXykvXw. km[mcW ZnhmIc≥ kwkmcn°p Ibpw cmPn tI´psIm≠ncn°pIbpamWv ]Xnhv. Ahƒ AXymhiyw kwkmcn °pItb sNøq. IeymWw Ign™ BZy Znhkßfn¬ AXv ]e sX‰n≤mcW Iƒ°pw hgnsh®p. Abmƒ tNmZn°pw. cmPns°s∂ CjvSmhmsX IeymWw Ign®XmtWm? A√s√m. cmPn ]dbpw. A{X am{Xw. ]t£ ZnhmIc≥ IqSpX¬ {]Xo£n®n cp∂p. Xs∂ CjvSamsW∂v ]dbWw. Xs∂b√msX thsd Bscbpw kvt\ln®n ń√ Fs∂√mw. Ahƒ H∂pw ]dbmsX Xt∂mSv tN¿∂p InS°pw. ]t£ Ahƒ Zp:JnXbmsW∂v AhfpsS apJw hnfn®p]dbpw. ]n∂oSv amkßƒ Ign™t∏m gmWv AXv AhfpsS ÿmbnbmb `mhamsW∂pw Xt∂mSp≈ kvt\l°pdh√m F∂pw ZnhmIc\v a\ nembXv. ]ns∂ ]Xps°, hfsc ]Xps° AhfpsS _mey Øns‚ sN∏p Xpd∂p. agsIm≠v BImiwaqSnb Hcp kmbm”Øn¬ Xs‚ ssIIfn¬ Hcp kwt`mKmekyØn¬ InS°ptºmƒ, As√¶n¬ \Kchnf°p IfpsS {]`bn¬ aßs∏´ \£{Xßƒ NnXdn°nS°p∂ BImiØn\p Xmsg _o®nse aWen¬ Ccn°ptºmƒ Ahƒ Zp:Jabamb Xs‚ _meyImeØns‚ GSpIƒ ep_vt[msS Xpd∂p. Nne ss\anjnI{]ImiØns‚ £WnIamb an∂ epIƒ am{Xw. DSs\ hmXnepIƒ AS°s∏Spw. Ahƒ Hcn°epw H∂pw hniZ am°nbn√. ]t£ ]dbs∏´ hm°pIfn¬ Hcp hnImc{]]©w apgph≥ HXpßn \n¬°p∂Xv ZnhmIc≥ {i≤n°mdp≠v. t_mws_bn¬\n∂v Hcp amksØ eohn¬ hcptºmsgm∂pw Ah¿ Xdhmń¬ t]mbncp∂n√. Xriqcn¬ cmPnbpsS A—s‚bpw AΩbpsSbpw ASpØp IqSpw. AΩ Hmtcm {]mhiyhpw \n¿∫‘n°pw. tamsf \o AΩmbnsb t]mbn ImWvWn t√? kabambnń√tΩ. cmPn]dbpw. kabamIptºmƒ Rm≥ t]mIpw. F\n°v tNmZnt°≠Xv Rm≥ tNmZn°pw. AΩ ]n∑mdpw. ZnhmIcs‚ apºn¬ sh®v aIƒ Aßs\ kwkmcn°p∂Xv Ah¿ CjvSs∏ń√. aIfpsS s]cpam‰w Ah¿°v `bap≠m°n. IpSpw_Ønse kzct®¿®bn√mbva acpaIs‚ apºn¬ sh®v shfns∏Sp∂Xv Ah¿ CjvSs∏ń√. Ahsfs°m≠v IqSpX¬ kwkmcn∏n°mXncn°m≥ Ah¿ {ian®p.

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sNdnb Ipńsbsb∂t]mse, Xmtemen®psIm ≠v . ]ns∂ AXv Xncn®v Aeamcnbn¬ sh®v Ahƒ ]d™p. AXn¬ Hcp abn¬∏oen Rm≥ Pm\In°p sImSp°msa∂v ]d™Xmbncp∂p. sImSp°m≥ ]‰nbn√. At∏mtg°v Rm≥ kv°q ƒ hn´p. BcmWv Pm\In? Fs‚ H∏w A©n¬ ]Tn®ncp∂ Ipń. A∂mWv Rm≥ BZyambpw Ahkm\ambpw B Xdhmńte°v t]mbsX∂v ZnhmIc≥ Hm¿ Øp. Cu {]mhiyw t]mIm≥ cmPn Xømdmhptam Bthm. AΩmbn Xosc kpJ√ymsX InS°zmWv. AΩ ]d™p. \o t]mbn H∂p ImWzm \√Xv. ASpØ sIm√w Hcp ]t£ ImWm≥ Ign™n√ym∂v hcpw. cmPn H∂pw ]d™n√. t]mhns√∂p ]dbm ØXpsIm≠v Hcp]s£ t]mtb°msa∂ Hcp tXm∂ep≠mbn ZnhmIc\v. AXp icnbmsW∂v sshIpt∂csØ kw`hßƒ sXfnbn®p. Nmb IpSnIgn™t∏mgmWv cmPn ]d™Xv \ap°v Xdhmńte°v t]mImw. D®bqWpIgn™tijw Xm≥ tamfpsS H∏w apIfn¬ InS∂pdßpIbmbncp∂p. AΩbpw cmPnbpw IqSn XmsgbmWv InS∂Xv. Xo¿® bmbpw AΩ A{Xbpw kabw Ahsf D]tZin°pI bmbncp∂ncn°Ww, sI©pIbmbncp∂ncn° Ww. F¥mbmepw t]mIm≥ Xo¿®bm°nbt√m. Abmƒ°p kam[m\ambn. cmPnbpsS tamsf ImWWsa∂v AΩmbn ]dbm≥ XpSßnbn´v amkßfmbs{X. Hcp ]t£ ASpØ {]mhiyw eohn¬ hcptºmtg°pw sshInsb∂ncn°pw. CSXp`mKw Xf¿∂ncn°ymWv. AΩ ]d™p. Iptd» kwkmcn°pw. H∂pw hy‡mbn a\ nem hn√. H∏w Im≥kdns‚ kwitbm≠v. h√msX sIS°msX Ign™v Iným aXymbncp∂p. Ah¿ A©paWntbmsS ]pds∏´p. \mń≥ ]pdtØ°p≈ tdmUpIƒ C{X hoXn Ipd™ Xpw hfhpIfp≈XpamsW∂v ZnhmIc≥ Ct∏m gmWv a\ nem°nbXv. IeymWw Ign™ kab Øv ImdnemWv t]mbncp∂Xv. A∂v kabw t]mb Xdn™Xpan√. C∂sØ _ ns‚ ss{Uhdpw tamiambncp∂p. ]Øp Intemao‰¿ Zqcw bm{X sNøm≥ FSpØ kabw AºXp an\n‰v. tamƒ, ]s£ bm{X ]camh[n BkzZn®p. Ip™n °ÆpIƒsIm≠v Hcp acw t\m°ptºmtg°pw AXv ]n∂nte°v t]mIpw. At∏mtg bv°pw thsd Hcp acw IÆn¬ s]Spw. ]ns∂ AXpw ]n∂n te°v t]mhpw. acßƒ AhfpsS CjvStXmg ∑mcmbncp∂p. acßtfm sNSnItfm ASpØp s≠¶n¬ Ahƒ F{Xkabw thWsa¶nepw AhfpsSXmb `mjbn¬ AhtcmSv kwkmcn®p ae-bm-f -a-t\m-ca hm¿jn-I-∏-Xn∏v

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sIm≠ncn°pw. Im‰n¬ Nn√Iƒ BSptºmƒ, B acßƒ AhtfmSv kwkmcn°pIbmsW∂mWv `mhw. cmPnbpsS apJw æm\ambncp∂p. bm{Xbv°nSbn¬ Ahƒ H∂pw kwkmcn®n√. Cdtß≠ ÿeambt∏mƒ Ahƒ ]d™p. \ap°ndtß≠ ÿembn. ]Sn∏pcbpsS apºn¬Øs∂bmWv _ v \n∂Xv . _ ndßn \S°ptºmƒ BZyw A\p`hs∏´Xv A¥co£Ønse HmP mWv. ]eXcw ]q°fpsS hmk\. GXp ]q°fptSXmsW∂v ZnhmIc\v a\ nembn√. XWpØ Im‰Sn°p∂p≠mbncp∂p. Cu G{]n¬ amkØnepw XWpØ Imt‰m? ]Xns\m∂p amkw t_mw_bnse NpSnepw, Hcp amkw Xriqcnse NqSnepw Ignbp∂ Abmƒ°v Cu ]q°fpsS hmk\bp≈ XWpØ Dt∑jw ]Icp∂ Im‰v Hc¤pXambncp∂p. F√mw \in®nńs√∂ Hcp tXm∂¬ Abmfnep≠mbn. cmPn ]Xps° \S°pIbmWv. Ahƒ°v e£yØnse Øm≥ Hcp [rXnbpap≠mbncp∂n√. ]Sn∏pc IS∂v ap‰sØØnbt∏mgmWv ZnhmIc≥ ap∂n¬ Db¿∂p I≠ \mep sI´v {i≤n®Xv. Hm¿Ωbnep≠mbncp∂ hoSn\v C{X ]g°an√m bncp∂p. apºn¬ I≠ sIńSØn\v hb mbncn°p∂p. s]s´∂v XI¿®bpsS h°nseØnb t]mse. HmSpIƒ ]ebnSØpw s]mńbncn°p∂p. tNm¿®bp≠mb Nph∂ ]mSpIƒ Npacn¬. P\¬ ]mfnIfpsS t]mfojv t]mbn \c®ncp∂p. XI¿®bpsS A{]Xo£nXhpw timN\obhpamb Zriyßƒ. Abmƒs°t¥m hfsc hyk\w tXm∂n. C\n ImWm≥ t]mIp∂ Zriyßfpw A{X \∂mhm≥ t]mIp∂n s√∂ ap∂dnbn∏v ZnhmIc\p≠mbn. s]mńØpSßnb HXp°pIƒ Ibdptºmƒ h√yΩ AIØp \n∂p h∂p. A√ BcmWnXv? \osbm∂pw C\n Ctßm´p hcn√ym∂t√ Rm≥ hnNmcn®Xv. Ah¿ [rXnbn¬ \S∂ph∂v ZnhmIcs‚ Iøn¬ \n∂v Ip™n s\ G‰p hmßn. tamfdntbym Cu h√ytΩ? Ahƒ, _em¬°mcambn Xs∂ ]nSn®phmßnb kv{Xosb ]I®p t\m°n. ]msS \c® XeapSn, Npfn™p XpSßnb apJw. Ahƒ ]t£ Ic™n√. \mńseØnbm¬ Cßns\bp≈ an∂em{IaWßsf√mw D≠mhp sa∂v Ahƒ CXn\Iw a\ nem°nbncn°Ww. F{X amkmbn Chƒ°v? Bdv. h√yΩ Ahsf hn´p ]nSn®p, apJw ]cntim[n®p. cmPn X∂ym. AΩmbn°v Fßns\≠v? ZnhmIc≥ tNmZn®p. Aßns\Øs∂≠v Ipó. Ah¿ i_vZw XmgvØn ]d™p. Htc sISØmWv. CSsØ `mKw Aßns\ Xf¿∂ncn°p∂p. Nmb IpSn®n´v ImWmw. Ct∏mƒ I≠n´pw h√y Imscym∂q√y. thZ\°p≈ KpfnI sImSpØncn°ymWv. AXv sImSpØm¬ \√ Dd°mWv. C\n \msf cmhnsetb DWcq. h∂ ImevΩev \n°≠, Ccn°q. kna‚n´ Nph∂ \new an\pkap≠mbncp∂p. \neØp InSØnbt∏mƒ tamƒ \o¥n°fn°m≥ XpSßn. ap´pIpØnØpSßnbnńt√? {ian°vWv≠v. ZnhmIc\mWv ]d™Xv. cmPn At∏mgpw H∂pw ]d™ncp∂n√. \o hm, h√yΩ Ahsf hnfn®p. \ap°v Nmbbp≠m°mw. F\n°v \ns‚ hntijßsfms° AdnbWw. h√yΩbpw cmPnbpw AItØ°p t]mbt∏mƒ ZnhmIc≥ tamtfbpsaSpØv ap‰Øndßn. ap‰sØ aW¬ AbmfpsS ImeSnIsf t\mhn°msX kzoIcn®p. Abmƒ ho≠pw Hcp Ipńbmbn amdn. tamƒ°v \S°m \mbncps∂¶n¬ Cu aWen¬ HmSn°fn°mambncp∂p. ap‰Øn∂cnInep≈ sNºcØn∏q°ƒ tamƒ IuXpItØmsS t\m°n. Ah¿ XfØnencp∂v Nmb IpSn®p. aq∂psIm√w apºv Hcp Znhkw Cu XfØnencp∂v D®`£Ww Ign®Xv Abmƒ Hm¿Øp. AΩmbnbmbncp∂p hnfºnØ∂Xv. Ah¿ hfsc kvt\lØnembncp∂p s]cpamdnbncp∂Xv. cmPnbpsS s]cpam‰Ønepw AI¬®sbm∂pw I≠ncp∂n√. Abmƒ ]d™ncp∂ XamiIƒs°√mw AΩmbnbpw h√yΩbpw AhcpsS aIƒ tcmlnWnbpw Dds° Nncn®ncp∂p. Abmƒ tNmZn®p. tcmlnWn Ct∏mƒ FhnsSbmWv? AXm Rm≥ cmPntbmSv ]d™p sIm≠ncp∂Xv. Ahƒ _mw•qcnemWv. c≠masØ Ipń°v aq∂p amtk Bbn´p≈p. Ahfv ]cn`hn®ncn°ymWv. Rms\¥m sNtø≠Xv? \mcmbWnsb hn´v t]mIm≥ ]t‰zm? Rm\pw _mte´\pw ChnsS sIńbn´ amXncnbmWv. AΩbv°v hcm≥ ]‰nbn√¶n¬ A—s\¶nepw h∂p IqtS∂mWv Ahƒ ]dbWXv. F\nbvs°m‰°v t]SnbmWv. F∏gm A[nImhm∂dnbn√y. ∂mfv Xs∂ Hcp Znhkw Fs∂ h√msX t]Sn∏n®p. F¥m sNøzm? I¿Ωêw HmtcmcpØcpw A\p`hn°msX ]t‰zm? tamƒ Dd°ambncp∂p. bm{X ImcWw \mep aWn°p≈ Dd°w D≠mbn√. ae-bm-f -a-t\m-ca hm¿jn-I-∏-Xn∏v

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kp¬Øm≥ jmlp¬ A¬ djoZns‚ ]pXnb sIm´mcØns‚ an\mc ßƒ \nemhn¬ Xnfßn. an\mcßƒ ta™ncp∂Xv sNºns‚bpw kz¿ÆØns‚bpw XInSpsIm≠mbncp∂p. ]IpXnbne[nIw sNºp XInSmWv . apgph≥ sNºpXInSp sIm≠v tabWsa∂mbncp∂p kp¬Øms‚ B{Klw. ]t£ ]IpXn ta™t∏mtg°v cmPyØp≈ sNºp apgph≥ Xo¿∂pt]mbn. ]ns∂ {]PIfpsS hoSpIfnep≈ sNºp apgph≥ `Wv U mcØnte°v ka¿∏Ww sNøm\p≈ Iev ] \bp≠mbn. ]Icw F√mh¿°pw kz¿Æw sImSpØp. kz¿ÆwsIm≠v ]m{Xßfp≠m°ptºmgp≈ hnjaw ]cnlcn°m≥ Aev ] kzev ] w sNºv tN¿°msa∂v kp¬Øms‚ Iev ] \bp≠mbn. AXn\mbn I≠psIńb sNºn¬\n∂v Aev ] kzev ] w Xncn®psImSp°m\pw DØchmbn. I≠psIńb sNºpsIm≠pw an\mcßƒ apgph≥ tabm≥ am{Xw XnI™n√. AXn\m¬ Ipd®p `mKw kz¿ÆwsIm≠p Xs∂ tatb≠nh∂p. \nemhp≈ cmhpIfn¬ bm{X Ign™v HÍ∏pdØv Xncn®phcptºmƒ kp¬Øm≥ t\m°pw, sNºn\p ]Icw sh® kz¿Æw a\ nemIp∂pt≠m, Xs‚ kz¿Æw ]pdØmhptam F∂v. Cu hnNmcw kp¬Øms‚ ]e cm{XnIfnse \n{Z A]lcn®p. an\mcßfnsem∂ns‚ Xmsg c≠mw \nebnembncp∂p cmPIpamcnbpsS ]≈nbd. Xs‚ k¿∆kzamb cmPIpamcnbpsS kpJkuIcyßsf∏‰n BtemNn°ptºmƒ ]nXmhmb kp¬Øm≥ jmlp¬ A¬ djoZn\v hfsc hnjaw tXm∂mdp≠v. sIm´mcw ]Wnbn®Xv A°mesØ G‰hpw t]cptI´ inev]n bmb aplΩZv _n≥ Bew Bbncp∂p. F∂n´pw cmPIpamcnbpsS kuIcyßƒ apgph≥ {i≤n°phm\mbn√. sIm´mcw aq∂p\ne sIńSambncp∂p. G‰hpw apIfn¬ an\mcßƒ°p sXm´p Xmsgbmbncp∂p kp¬Øms‚ Xmakw. \qs‰m∂v kuµcyXnSºpIƒ Ae¶cn°p∂ kp¬Øms‚ A¥]pcw sX°p ]Sn™mdp≈ an\mcØns‚ Xmsgbmbncp∂p. AXn\p Xmsgbp≈ \nebnembncp∂p cmPIpamcn \kvdo\ns‚ Xmakw. AXn\pw Xmsg ASpØ _‘p°fpw A¥cn® cm⁄nbpsS hn[hbmb A\pP Ønbpw a‰pw. cmPIpamcnbpsS F√m kuIcyßfpw ap≥\n¿ØnØs∂bmWv sIm´mcw \n¿Ωn°m \pt±in®Xv. ]≈nbd, kv\m\Krlw, thj`qjmZnIƒ°mbn Hcp apdn, Ifn°m\pw IfnIƒ ImWm\pw Hcp lmƒ XpSßnbh. Cu apdnIsf√mw Xs∂ Hmtcm ssaXm\w t]mse hnimeambncp∂p. apdnIfnse√mw NpacpsXm´v Npacphsc G‰hpw hne]nSn® t]¿jy≥ ]chXm\nIƒ hncn®ncp∂p. Cu \mep apdnIfpw sIm´mcØns‚ \mep aqebnembncp∂p. Hcp apdnbn¬ \n∂v as‰ apdnbnte°v t]mIm≥ hfsc hnimeamb CS\mgnIƒ ]WnXo¿Øncp∂p. CS\mgnIfn¬ Iivaocn¬\n∂p sIm≠ph∂ hntijs∏´ ]chXm\nI fmbncp∂p hncn®ncp∂Xv. kv\m\KrlØn¬ henb \o¥¬ s]mbvIbn¬ acp∏®Ifnse InWdpIfn¬ \n∂v tImcnsbSpØv HÍ∏pdtØ‰n sIm≠ph∂p \nd® IÆmSnt]mesØ ioXfPew kpK‘{Zhyßƒ Ie¿Øn \nd®ncp∂p. ]eXcw te]\hkvXp°ƒ Dbcw Ipd™ am¿_vƒ taita¬ hnNn{XmIrXnbnep≈ kv^SnI`cWnIfn¬ \nd®psh®ncp∂p. kv\m\KrlØns‚ NpacpIƒ Ińbp≈ s_mtlanb≥ IÆmSn sIm≠mbncp∂p. CuPn]vXn¬\n∂p h∂ ]Xns\m∂v kpµcnIfmb ASnas∏ÏpńIfmWv cmPIpamcnsb \ocmSn®ncp∂Xv. F√m Xn¶fpw sh≈nbpw ]ns∂ ]pXpN{µs\ I≠Xns‚ ]nt‰∂pw cmPIpamcn°v \ocm´p≠mbncp∂p. ]pXpN{µs\ I≠Xv Rmb dmgvNtbm hymgmgvNtbm BsW¶n¬ ]ns‰ ZnhksØ ]Xnhp kv\m\w hntijambnØs∂ \SØs∏´p. \ocm´p Ign™v kpK‘te]\ßfm¬ A`njn‡bmb cmPIpamcn hkv{X[mcWØn\mbn Hcp°nb apdnbnte°v \S∂pt]mIp∂p. ChnsSbmWv Ipg∏w. ImcWw kv\m\KrlØn\pw t\]YyKrlØn\panSbn¬ hfsc \o≠ hnimeamb Iem-Iu-apZn 21

CS \mgnIbmWv . ]®bpsS ]›mØeØn¬ Nph∏pw a™bpw ]q°fp≈ ]chXm\n hncn® CS\mgnI. CXneqsS IS∂p thWw cmPIpamcnbv°v hkv{Xßfp≈ apdnbntebv s°Øm≥. kv \ m\KrlØn¬ hkv { Xßƒ shbv ° m≥ G¿∏mSn√mØXn\mepw kv\m\Øn\p apºp≈ hkv{Xßƒ, cmPIpamcn IpfØn¬ NmSptºmƒ Agn®p shbv°p∂tXmsS AhnsS \n∂v Im∏ncn ASnas∏Æpßƒ FSpØp am‰pw F∂ ImcWØmepw cmPIpamcn°v km\m\KrlØn¬ \n∂v t\]YyKrlØnte°v Nph∏pw a™bpw ]q°fp≈ ]chXm \nIƒ hncn® hnimeamb CS\mgnbneqsS \·bmbn \S t°≠nh∂p. Cu CS\mgnbmIs´ iXw apJaWvU]ßfp sSbpw IpSne am¿§ßfpsSbpw kzImcy AdIfpsSbpw hmXnepIfm¬ _‘n°s∏´XmWp Xm\pw. ChnsSbmWv {]iv\w DZn®Xv. cmPIpamcn kv\m\KrlØn¬\n∂v hkv{X ßfpsS kpc£nXØnte°v a‰p≈hcpsS Hfn™pt\m´ ßƒ G¬°msX Fßns\ FØns∏Spw. {]iv\w kp¬Øm≥ jmlp¬ A¬ djoZns‚ (IcpWmab \mb ssZhw At±ltØmsSm∏ap≠mhs´) Xncpk`bn¬ B\bn°s∏´p. kp¬Øms‚ Xncpk`bn¬ ]e hn`mKØn¬ s∏´ {]apJ¿ Bk\ÿcmWv. Ahcn¬ IhnIƒ, IemImc ∑m¿, hyhkmbnIƒ, b{¥∏Wn°m¿, s\bvØp]Wn°m¿, Ae°pIm¿, `njKzc¿ XpSßn kapZmbØns‚ F√m XpdIfn¬\n∂pw {]mhoWyw t\Snbh¿ k∂nlnXcmWv. B Xncpk`bpsS k∂n[m\ØnemWv cmPIpamcnbpsS apJy ASnabmb kpµcn \mep tXmgnItfmsSm∏w lmPcmbXv. Ipºn´psIm≠v Ahƒ apºnepw \mep tXmgnam¿ ]n∂nepambn Ah¿ kp¬Øms‚ apºnseØn hWßn. ]n∂oSv apJy ASnabmb kpµcn kp¬Øm\v am{Xw ImWØ°hn[Øn¬ ]¿ZbpsS apJ]Sw Aev]w am‰n Ip\n™psIm≠p Xs∂ ]d™p. AßbpsS Hma\bmb {]nb]p{Xn \kvdo≥ cmPIpamcn Atßbv°p \¬Im≥ Npw_\ßƒ Ab°p∂p. CsXmcp `wKnhm°mbncp∂p. cmPIpamcn Cßs\sbmcp ktµiw sImSpØb°pIbp≠mbnń√. am{Xa√ C\n ]dbm≥ t]mIp∂ ImcysØ∏‰n, AXmbXv kv\m\KrlØn¬\n∂p≈ bm{Xsb∏‰n Ahƒs°m´pw D¬°WvTbpap≠mbncp∂pan√. kv\m\KrlØn¬\n∂v cmPIpamcn°v CS\mgnbneqsS \·bmbn bm{X sNtø≠nht∂°psa∂ {]iv\w D∂bn®t∏mƒ kZ n¬\n∂v ]e hn[Ønep≈ A›cyhN\ßfpw I„w I„sa∂ {]tbmKßfpw apgßn. Hcmƒam{Xw Xs‚ apJw ssIsIm≠p aqSn XeXmgvØn Ccp∂p. AXv cmPinev]nbmbncp∂p. Rm≥ Fs¥¶nepw hgnbp≠m°mw. kp¬Øm≥ ]d™p. ASpØ kv\m\Øn\v C\n F{X Znhkßƒ D≠v? c≠p XncpZnhkßƒ. icn \nßƒ s]mbvt°mfp. apJy ASnakpµcn apJ]Sw am‰msX Ip\n™psIm≠v ]nt∂m°w \S∂p. A{]Xy£bmbn. H∏w tXmgn amcpw. XeIp\n®p \n¬°p∂ cmPinev]ntbmSv Xs∂ sshIpt∂cw h∂v ImWWsa∂v kp¬Øm≥ B⁄m]n ®p. (kqcy\kvXan°p∂Xn\p apºv bmsXmcp BNmc{Iahpan√msXØs∂ AbmfpsS Xesh´pIbpw sNbvXp.) ]ns∂ kZ nt\mSmbn A`n{]mbßƒ Bcm™p. AXntemeamb Hcp ImcyamWnsX∂pw AXns‚ adp]Sn kq£n®p thWsa∂pw Adnbmhp∂ kmamPnI¿ au\w ]men®p. Ahkm\w s\bvØp {]amWn Fgpt∂‰p \n∂p. ASnb≥ hfsc t\cnb, F∂m¬ kpXmcya√mØ Hcp ]¿Z \n¿Ωn°mw. AXpSpØv cmPIpamcn°v CS\mgn bneqsS hkv{Xßfp≈ apdnhsc \S°mas√m. ASnb\v Ccp]Øn\mepaWn°qtd Aßns\ Hcp hkv{Xap ≠m°m≥ kabamhiyap≈p. thWsa¶n¬ _mKvZmZn¬ \n∂v {]tXyIw s\bvØpImsc sIm≠ph∂v c≠mgvN°p≈n¬ CXnepw hnin„amb Hcp hkv{Xw ]n∂oSp≠m°pIbpw sNømw. AsXmcp \√ ImcyamsW∂p tXm∂n. kp¬Øm≥ Aßns\bmhs´ F∂v I¬∏n°pIbpw sNbvXp. {]iv\w `wKnbmbn ]cnlcn°s∏´p F∂dn™v kmamPnI¿ Bizkn°pIbpw s\bvØp{]amWnbpsS _p≤nsb {]iwkn°pIbpw sNbvXp. {]iv\w ]s£ AhnSw sIm≠hkm\n®n√. cmPIpamcn ]pXnb hkv{Xw CSm≥ kΩXn®n√. \ocm´p Ign™v kpK‘te]\ßfm¬ A`njn‡bmb cmPIpamcnsb ]pXnb Xncphkv{Xw [cn∏n°m≥ Iem-Iu-apZn 22

tXmgnIƒ {ian®p. Ipfn®p Ign™m¬ cmPIob hkv{Xßƒ DSp°p∂Xn\p apºp≈ Xm¬°menI hkv{Xw Ahƒ°n„s∏ń√. Ahƒ AsXSpØv s]mbvIbnse sh≈Øntebv°v hens®dn™v hmXn¬ IS∂v CS\mgnbneqsS \S°m≥ XpSßn. CXv kzm`mhnIambpw tXmgnIƒ°nSbn¬ kw{`m¥n ]cØn. Ah¿ \·cmbnØs∂ Atßm´pw Ctßm´pw HmSn, cmPIpamcn°p Np‰pw Hcp hebw kr„n®p. Hcp hn[w cmPIpamcnsb t\]YyKrlØnseØn®p. Cu _lfw tI´v t\m°nbh¿ Hcp t\m°pt\m°n IÆps]mØn. ImcWw Xe DSen¬ Xs∂ thWsa∂ h¿°v \n¿∫‘ambncp∂p. kp¬Øm≥ sshIpt∂cw Xs‚ s]mt∂ma\sb KpWtZmjn®p. \o Ct∏mƒ sNdnb Ipńsbm∂pa√. ]Xn \mdp hb n¬ Hcp s]Ïpń°v Cßns\sbm∂pw \S°m≥ ]mSn√. {]XnIcWw Hcp s]mń°c®nembncp∂p. AXns‚ A¥yØn¬ kp¬Øm≥ ]d™p. icn, icn. Rm≥ thsd Fs¥¶nepw hgnbp≠m°mw. ho≠pw kp¬Øm≥ jmlp¬ A¬ djoZns‚ Xncpk` hnfnbv°s∏´p. {]iv\w AXns‚ F√m KuchtØm Spw IqSn AhXcn∏n°s∏´p. Hcp I\Ø \n»–X k`sb hebw sNbvXp. AkzÿP\Iamb B \n»–X Ahkm\n∏n®Xv s\bvØp {]amWn Xs∂bmbncp∂p. ASnbs‚ ]ga\ n¬ Hcp D]mbw tXm∂p∂p. DW¿Øn®psIm≈p. kp¬Øm≥ tIƒ°m≥ XømdmWv. kp¬Øms‚ hewIømb kn≤n°v Xs‚ DuimwXmSn Dgn™psIm≠v A\paXn sImSpØp. ASnb≥ Ińbp≈ Idp∏pXpWn sIm≠v IÆpaqSns°´m≥ Hcp Xnckv I cWn \n¿Ωn°mw. AXv sIm´mcØnse At¥hmknIfpw, sIm´mcw kµ¿iIcpw \n¿∫‘ambn H∏w sIm≠p\S°Ww. cmPIpamcn kv\m\KrlØn¬\n∂v ]pdØp IS°p∂Xn\p apºv Hcp aWn ap´Ww. AXns‚ L\i–w tI´m¬ F√mhcpw Cu XnckvIcWn [cnbv°Ww, ho≠pw Hcp aWnsbm® tIƒ°p∂Xphsc. Cu XnckvIcWnbn¬ IÆp IfpsS ÿm\Øv Ccíoe sh®p ]nSn∏n°p∂Xn\m¬ H∂pw ImWm≥ ]‰pIbn√. Fs‚ Ccp]Ø©p Xø¬°m¿ c≠pZnhkw tPmen sNbvXm¬ sIm´mcØnse A™qdn¬ ]cw hcp∂ At¥hmknIƒ°pw Ccp∂qdn¬ ]cw hcp∂ kµ¿iI¿°pw BhiyØn\p≈ XnckvIcWn D≠m°m≥ ]‰pw. kmamPnIcpsS AS°nb kzcØnep≈ A`n{]mb{]IS\ßfn¬\n∂pw kp¬Øms‚ apJØp≠mb `mht`ZØn¬\n∂pw Cu \n¿t±iw ]cs° AwKoIcn°s∏Sm≥ km≤yXbps≠∂dn™p. s]s´∂mWv hr≤\mb a{¥n Bew ^°odp±o≥ Xs‚ Nph∂ Nmbw tX® \o≠ XmSn Dgn™psIm≠p ]d™Xv. Imcysams° icnXs∂. kp¬Øms‚ B⁄ F√mhcpw ]men°pI Xs∂ sNøpw. ]t£ Cu I\Ø ioebv°p ]ndInse IÆpIƒ Xpd∂pXs∂bncn°p∂Xn\m¬ Aev]w Ip_p≤nIƒ XnckvIcWnbn¬ t\m°nbm¬ a\ nemhmØ hn[Øn¬ kqNnsIm≠v Hcp Zzmcw D≠m°nbm¬ \ntj[n°s∏´ ImgvN in£m`ban√msXØs∂ ImWm≥ ]‰pw. BwMv ........... H‰s°´mbn kmamPnI¿ ]d™p. icnbmWXv. CXnt\°mƒ \√ hgn ASnbs‚ Ffnb a\ n¬ Ct∏mƒ Cu \nanjØn¬ DZn®n´p≠v. DW¿Øn®psIm≈p. kn≤n°v XmSn Dgn™psIm≠p ]d™p. kp¬Øm≥ tIƒ°m≥ XømdmWv. Xs‚ a\ n¬ cq]w sIm≠ kwhn[m\w Bew ^°odp±o≥ Xncpapºn¬ DW¿Øn®p. AXns‚ GI tZi cq]w CXmIp∂p. cmPIpamcn kv\m\KrlØn¬\n∂v ]pdØndßp∂ Xn\p sXm´papºv Hcp Im∏ncn ASnas∏Æv Hcp tNße apńs°m≠v CS\mgnbn¬°qSn t\]YyKrlw hsc \S°pI At∏mƒ CS\mgnbneph¿ AhnsS \n∂v Hgn™pamdWw. cmPIpamcn ]pdØndßptºmƒ ]Xn s\m∂v CuPn]v ‰ v ASnakpµcnIƒ H∏w \S°Ww. apºn¬ \S°p∂ ASna kpµcn Hcp tNße apń s°m≠ncn°Ww. Ahƒ°p ]n∂n¬ A©v ASna kpµcnIfpw. Cu c≠p hcnIƒ°panSbn¬ cmPIpamcn \S°Ww. BZysØ tNße i–w tIń´pw ÿew hnSm≥ Iem-Iu-apZn 23

Ahkcw In´mXncp∂htcm. As√¶n¬ BIkvanIambn CS\mgnbn¬ B kabØv FØs∏´htcm tNße i–w tI´m¬ IÆS®v \neØv Iangv∂p InS°Ww, ho≠pw Hcp Im∏ncn ASnas∏Æv Cc´t®ße i–w tIƒ∏n°pw hsc. Cu kwhn[m\w s]s´∂pXs∂ AwKoIcn°s∏´p. sIm´mcw aqimcn°v eXmZnIfn¬ BteJ\w sNbvX aq∂v sht≈mSv tNßebp≠m°m≥ Icm¿ \¬Is∏´p. sht≈mSn¬ tN¿°m≥ sNºv In´m\n√mØXpsIm≠v kp¬Øm≥ Xs‚ ]gb \mWbßfpsS Aaqey tiJcØn¬\n∂v aq∂p sNºp \mWbßƒ FSpØp sImSpØp. B sNºp \mW bßƒ kq£vaambpw sht≈mSv D≠m°m≥ D]tbmKn°p∂nt√ F∂v t\m°m≥ ]mdmhpImct\bpw G¿s∏SpØn. aXnbmhmØ `mKw kz¿Æw tem`sat\y Iqńt®¿Øp. AXpsIm≠v tNßebpsS i–w hfsc kv s s{XWambn. Hmtcm {]mhiyw tNßebpsS ]Xn™ kv s s{XWi–w tIƒ°ptºmgpw kp¬Øm≥ Xs‚ cmPysØ sNºpZmcn{ZysØ Hm¿Øv s\Spho¿∏nSpw. s]cpºdbpw sImń ]´mf°m¿ sXcphoYnIfn¬ kp¬Øms‚ ktµihpambn Idßn. tNßebpsS i–w tI´m¬ IÆS®v Iangv∂v InS°Wsa∂pw, Aßns\ InS∂ns√¶n¬ ]n∂osSmcn°¬ InS°m≥ Ahkcw In´mØ hn[Øn¬ Xe tZlØp\n∂v sXdn°psa∂pw Ak∂nKv≤ambn hnfw_cw sNøs∏´p. sh≈nbmgvN cmPIpamcnbpsS \ocm´p Znhkambncp∂p. Zqscbp≈ acp∏®Ifnse Bgap≈ InWdpIfn¬ \n∂v XWpØ Pew HÍ∏pdØv sIm≠ph∂v \o¥¬ s]mbvI \nd®p. B kv^SnIPeØn¬ kpK‘ {Zhyßƒ hnNn{Xamb Ip∏nIfn¬ \n∂v Hgn®v an{iWw sNøs∏´p. BtLmjßƒ°pw BÀmZØna¿∏p Iƒ°pw CSbn¬ \ocm´p Ign™p. cmPIpamcnbpsS ]qt]msebp≈ tZlØv kpK‘{Zhyßƒ te]\w sNøs∏´p. kv\m\Krlw hnSm≥ kabambt∏mƒ Hcp Im∏ncn ASnas∏Æv H∂mw tNße apńs°m≠v CS\mgnbnse ]chXm\nbneqsS \S∂p. sIm´mcw At¥hmknIƒ°pw kµ¿iI¿°pw AsXmcp ap∂dnbn∏mbn. Ah¿ CS\mgn Hgnhm°n Ahch cpsS apdnIfntem, sIm´mcØn\p ]pdØp Xs∂tbm ImØp \n∂p. c≠masØ tNße apńs°m≠v CuPn]v‰v ASnakpµcn \·bmbn ap∂nepw ]n∂n¬ \·Ifmb A©v ASnakpµcnIfpsS c≠p \ncbpsS \Sphnembn cmPIpamcnbpw \·bmbn \S∂p. CS\mgn hnSm≥ kabw Inńbnń√mØh¿ IÆS®v Iangv∂p InS∂p. tLmjbm{X CS\mgnbnse Nph∏pw a™bpw ]q°fp≈ ]chXm\nbneqsS ]ptcmKan®p. At∏mgmWv B AXymlnXap≠mbXv. sIm´mcØn¬ hncp∂pImc\mb sNdp∏°mc\mb t]¿jy≥ Ihn A_vZpƒ _n≥ køZv Xmakn°p∂ apdnbpsS hmXn¬ Xpd∂pInS∂ncp∂p. B hmXneneqsS Ihn CS\mgnbnte°p h∂Xpw \·kpµcnIfpsS tLmjbm{X AhnsS FØnbXpw H∂n®mbncp∂p. ImgvN izmkw ]nSn®p \n¿Øp∂Xmbncp∂p. Hcp \nanjw tLmjbm{X IhnbpsS [m¿„yØn\p apºn¬ A\ßmsX \n∂p. cmPIpamcnbmhs´ H∂pw kw`hn°mØ ań¬ Ihnsb t\m°n ]p©ncn°pIbpw bm{X XpScpIbpw sNbvXp. IhnbpsS {]XnIcWw \nanjIhnXbmbn ]pdtØbvs°mgpIn. "Rm≥ F¥mWv ImWp∂Xv Bbncw Bº¬∏q°ƒ°nSbn¬ Hcp Xmactbm A√m bm{Xbn¬ Hcp Xncnhn¬ I≠ Im´p]q°tfm Fs‚ apºn¬ AtXm ]dpZokbn¬ \n∂v `qanbnte°ndßnh∂ lqdnItfm' ]ns∂ cmPIpamcnsb t\m°n Abmƒ XpS¿∂p. "Rm≥ C{Xbpw Imew F¥ns\ tXSntbm AXns‚ km£mXvImcamWp \o \ns‚ at\m⁄amb angnbnWIƒ Fs∂ tXmev]n®Snabm°p∂p \ns‚ amdnse apIpfßƒ Fs‚ hncnbm≥ shºp∂ kmbqPyamWv \ns‚ AgIm¿∂ \nXw_w BcpsS XgpIen\mbn ImØp\n¬°p∂p?' cmP`S∑m¿ Ihnsb _‘n®p sIm≠p t]mIptºmgpw Ihn ]mSpIbmbncp∂p. kJnamcm¬ hkv{X`qjmZn Iƒ AWnbn°s∏ńcp∂ cmPIpamcn IhnbpsS IhnXIƒ tI´p tImƒabn¿ sIm≠p. Ahƒ tNmZn®p. BcmWbmƒ? Hcp IhnbmWbmƒ. Hcp ASnakpµcn ]d™p. ASpØpXs∂ At±lw Hcp Ihnbmbncp∂p F∂p ]dtb≠n hcpw. thsdmcp ASnakpµcn ]d™p. AsX¥mWv ImcWw? cmPIpamcn Xs‚ kzX n≤amb kmcfytØmsS tNmZn®p. Iem-Iu-apZn 24

ImcWw AbmfpsS Xet]mIpw. AXpXs∂. ]mhw. cmPIpamcn ]d™p. Ahƒ°p hyk\ambn. ]t£ \njvIf¶bmb cmPIpamcn°v hyk\hpw kt¥mjw t]mseØs∂ £W`wKpcamWv. Ahƒ ho≠pw Xs‚ ASna kpµcnIfmb tXmgnamcpsS {i≤Ifn¬ apgpIn. sh≈nbmgvN kp¬Øm≥ Hcp hn[ in£m\S]SnIfpw FSp°mdn√. AXpsIm≠v ]nt‰∂v cmhnsehsc Ihnsb I¬Øpdp¶n¬ AS®p. cm{Xn \nkvImcw Ign™v ]≈n°pdp∏n\v Fgp∂≈nb kp¬Øm\v Dd°ap≠mbn√. Btcm at\mlc ßfmb IhnXIƒ Dds° sNm√p∂p. Xs‚ {]mWt{]bknbpsS hntbmKØn\ptijw kp¬Øm≥ sIm´mc Øn¬ IhnXhmb\ \ntcm[n®ncp∂p. BcmWv Ct∏mƒ cm{XnbpsS im¥X XI¿°m≥ ]mSp∂Xv. ]mdmhpImc≥ hnfn°s∏´p. BcmWv cm{Xn Ddtß≠ kabØv Dds° ]mSp∂Xv? ASnb≥, AXv C∂v XShdbnem°nb IhnbmWv. cmPIpamcnbpsS \ocm´p tLmjbm{XbpsS kabØv IÆS®p Iangv∂p InS°msX t\m°n\n¬°pI hgn cmPIev]\ ewLn® Iivae\mWv AXv. C∂v sh≈n bmgvN Xncpa\ p sIm≠v Bscbpw in£n°pItbm, \oXn]me\Øn¬ CSs]SpItbm sNømØXpImcWw Abmsf XShdbn¬ kq£n®ncn°pIbmWv. \msf cmhnse kqcy≥ DZn®p Ign™m¬ Hcp aplq¿ØØn¬ Abmsf hnNmcW°mbn AhnSpsØ ka£Øn¬ sIm≠phcpw. icn. ]mdmhpImc≥ t]mbt∏mƒ kp¬Øm≥ hnimeamb hmXmb\w IS∂v an\mcØn\p Xmsgbp≈ a´p∏mhn te°p \S∂p. kp¬Øms\ ]\n\o¿ Xfn® hnidnsIm≠v hoinbncp∂ c≠v ASnakpµcnIƒ At±lsØ ]n≥XpS¿∂p. \nemhn¬ sIm´mcØn\p apºnep≈ ]qt¥m´w Xnfßnbncp∂p. G‰hpw Xmsg Xpdp¶ns‚ hmXmb\w am{Xta `qanbpsS \nc∏n\p apIfnep≈q. AXneqsSbmWv IhnbpsS ]mńs‚ AeIƒ ]pdtØs°Øp∂Xv. kp¬Øm \v Cßns\ Hcp kwhn[m\ap≠m°nbXn¬ cmPinev]ntbmSv \ockw tXm ∂n. aIfpsS ib\mKmcw Xs‚ ]≈nbdbpsS XmsgbmsW∂pw Cu t{]aIhnXIƒ \njv I f¶bmb Ahfpw tIƒ°p∂p≠mIpsa∂pw At±-lt- am¿Øp. AXt± lsØ sNmSn∏n®p. cmPinev]n°v Hcp XeIqSnbps≠¶n¬ ho≠pw shń°fbmambncp∂p. As√¶n¬ Cu hI A]IS ßƒ Bcpw ap≥Iqń KWn®p≠m°mdn√t√m. Ihn ]mSns°m≠ncp∂p. s]s´∂mWv kp¬Øm\v cl kyw ]nSnInńbXv. Abmƒ ]mSp∂Xv Xs‚ Hma\aIsf ∏‰nbmWv. AhfpsS kuµcysØ∏‰nbmWv. Hcp IhnbpsS `mh\ Cf°n hnSm≥ am{Xw hepXmbn, kpµcnbmbn Xs‚ aIƒ F∂ Nn¥ At±lØn\v Htc kabw kt¥mjhpw k¥m]hpw Dfhm°n. ]nt‰∂v Ip‰hmfn kp¬Øm\p apºn¬ lmPcm°s∏´p. cmPIpamcn \ocm´pIgn™v t\]Yy KrlØnte°p t]mIptºmƒ \o t\m°nbncp∂p. F∂p ]dbp∂Xp kXy amtWm? AsX. tNßebpsS i–w tI´m¬ IÆS®v Iangv∂p InS°W sa∂ cmPimk\ \o tIńt√? tNßesb∏‰n Ft¥m Adnbn∏v Rm≥ tI´p, {i≤n®n√. Rm≥ IhnX FgpXp∂ Xnc°nembncp∂p. B Adnbn∏v {i≤n®ncps∂¶n¬ \o Cu Ip‰IrXyw sNøpambncp∂pthm? Ihn BtemNn®p. ]ns∂ kmh[m\Øn¬ ]d™p. CsXmcp Ip‰IrXyamsW∂v Rm≥ IcpXp∂n√. A\m—m ZnX kuµcyw \nßƒ°v Hcp IhnbpsS IÆn¬ \n∂p adbv °m≥ IgnbpIbn√. Ah≥ Dƒ°ÆpsIms≠¶nepw AXp ImWpw. \o sNbvX ImcyØn¬ \n\°v ]›mØm]apt≠m? Iem-Iu-apZn 25

C√. adn®v IÆS®ncps∂¶n¬ Rm≥ F\nbv°v Hcn°epw am∏p sImSp°n√mbncp∂p. AXpw ]d™v Ihn ho≠pw Hcp Cfw icocsØ∏‰n IhnX ]mSm≥ XpSßn. Chs‚ Xe sImøq. kp¬Øm≥ DØchn´p. ]´mf°m¿ Ihnsb _‘n®p sIm≠pt]mIm≥ Hcpßn. \n¬°q. kp¬Øm≥ ]d™p. Ihn At£m`y\mbn Xncn™p\n∂p. AbmfpsS apJw kpµcambncp∂p. hf¿∂ XmSnbpw XeapSnbpw HXp°an√msX InS∂ncp∂p. acn°p∂Xn\papºv \n\°v Fs¥¶nepw B{Klaps≠¶n¬ ]dbq. \nhrØn®pXcpsa∂v Dd∏p X∂m¬ ]dbmw. kp¬Øm≥ jmlp¬ A¬djoZv kz¥w hm°pIƒ ]mgm°mdn√. F¶n¬, Ihn ]d™p. F\nbv°v acn°p∂Xn\p apºv Hcn°¬°qSn cmPIpamcnsb \·bmbn ImWWw. kp¬Øm≥ sRń. ]´mf°m¿ sRń. k`mhmknIƒ sRń. Cbmsf Rm≥ ]dbp∂Xphsc I¬Øpd¶n¬ C´Sbv°q. kp¬Øm≥ Aedn. ]ns∂ AbmfpsS hmXmb\ßƒ I√psh®p aqSpIbpw sNøq. i–w ]pdØp IS°cpXv. kp¬Øm≥ BsI De™ncp∂p. H∂pIn¬ Xm≥ hm°pIƒ°v hne I¬]n°p∂ns√∂v kΩXnt°≠n hcpw As√¶n¬? kp¬Øm≥ a{¥n Aew ^°odp±ot\bpw C„tXmg\mb kn±n°nt\bpw hnfn∏n®p. F¥msWmcp am¿§w? aq∂p Xet®mdpIƒ aWn°qdpIfpw Znhkßfpw ITn\ambn {]h¿Øn®p. FhnsSbpw FØnbn√. IhnbpsS inc v IgpØn¬Øs∂ \n¬°pI am{Xa√ AhnsS \n∂v IhnX A\¿§fw {]hln°pIbpw sNbvXp. hmXmb\w aqSnb I¬®pacns‚ kq£vakpjncßfneqsS B i–w ]pdtØs°mgpIpI Xs∂ sNbvXp. cm{Xn sshIpwhsc a´p∏mhnencp∂v \kvdo≥ cmPIpamcn B IhnXIƒ {i≤n®p. "Fs‚ PohnXamIp∂ Imchm≥ XI¿∂p Fs‚ HÍßƒ NsØmSpßn \in°mØh HmSnt∏mbn Rm≥ am{Xw Cu aWemcWyØn¬ GI\mbn \nt∂mSp≈ t{]aw am{Xw apdpsI∏nSn®v \ns∂°mWphm\mbv \·]mZ\mbv........' kp¬Øm≥ Zn\w{]Xn £oWn®p h∂p. At±lØn\v DuWpw Dd°hpan√mXmbn. \kvdo≥ ]nXmhns‚ B[nsb∏‰n At\zjn®Xn\v Xr]vXnIcamb adp]Snbp≠mbn√. C„tXmgnbmb dkntbmSt\zjn®t∏mgmWv Imcyw a\ nembXv. C{Xtb D≈q? Ahƒ kp¬Øms‚ ]≈nbdbnte°p t]mbn. AhnsS kp¬Øm≥ at\mlcamb ]chXm\n°p \Sphn¬ hncn®n´ saØta¬ Np‰pap≈ Dcpf≥ XebnWIƒ°p \Sphn¬ £oWn®p InS∏mbncp∂p. sXm´SpØp≈ sImØp ]WnIfp≈ Ipdnb taita¬ sh® sh≈n°∏n¬ \nd® ap¥ncn®mdn¬ Cu®Iƒ hoWncp∂p. Ahƒ ssI sImńbt∏mƒ Hcp ]mdmhpImc≥ {]Xy£s∏´v XmWp hWßn \n∂p. ap¥ncn®mdp≈ I∏v Nq≠n°mń Ahƒ ]d™p. CXp am‰n \√ ap¥ncn®mdpw `£Whpw sIm≠phcm≥ ]dbq. icn. ]mdmhpImc≥ Xe Ip\n®p sIm≠v ]n≥hmßn. \nanjßƒ°Iw \mep kpµcnIƒ XmeØn¬ ap¥ncn®mdpw `£Whpambn FØn. kp¬Øm≥ Hcp ]cnX]vX \nanjØn¬ F√m kpµcnItfbpw Xs‚ Adbn¬ \n∂v ]pdØm°nbXmbncp∂p. km[\ßƒ am¿_vƒ taita¬ \ncØnbtijw AhtcmSv s]mbvs°m≈m≥ \kvdo≥ Bhiys∏´p. Ahƒ Xs∂ ap¥ncn®mdv sh≈n°∏nem°n ]nXmhn\v sImSpØp. At±lw AXp hmßn IpSn®p. kmhImi Øn¬ At±lsØs°m≠v Ipd®v `£Ww Ign∏n°m\pw Ahƒ°p ]‰n. s]s´∂v IhnbpsS IhnXmiIeßƒ hfsc Zqscsb∂hÆw tIƒ°m≥ XpSßn. "Ah¿ ]dbp∂p Fs‚ acWaSpsØ∂v ]t£ AXnse¥ncn°p∂p Fs‚ t{]aw A\izcamWv Fs‚ Bflmhv GsX¶nepw acp∏®bpsS ioXfOmbbn¬ Iem-Iu-apZn 26

\ns‚ Bflmhnt\bpw ImØv IbmaØv \mƒhscbncn°pw EXp°fpw h¿jßfpw sImgn™p hogp∂ ImeØns‚ cmPhoYnbn¬ Cu Zqcw F{X sNdpXmWv.' \kvdo≥ ]nXmhns\ t\m°n aµlkn®p. At±lw Nn¥mIpe\mbn. ]nXmhv Rm≥ ]d™m¬ tIƒ°ptam? Fs‚ s]mt∂ma\ ]d™X√msX Rm≥ F¥mWv tIƒ°pI? Ihn°v acn°p∂Xn\p apºv Fs∂ ]nd∂]Sn ImWWsa¶n¬ It≠ms´. GXmbmepw Abmƒ acn°m≥ hn[n°s∏´ BfmWv. ]ns∂ F¥mWv Ipg∏w? kp¬Øm≥ sRń. Xs‚ {]nb]p{Xn°v C°mcyw Adnbmambncp∂p F∂Xv Hcp PmfyXtbmsS At±lw a\ nem°n. \o≠ kwhmZßƒ°ptijw kp¬Øms\ t_m≤ys∏SpØm≥ \kvdo\p Ign™p. Cßns\bmWv Xo¿®bm°nbXv. ASpØ sh≈nbmgvN (ImcWw Xn¶fmgvN°pfn C∂se Ign™p, AXymlnXßsfm∂pan√msX Xs∂.) Ipfn Ign™p≈ tLmjbm{X°nSbn¬ Ihn°v Xs∂ Hcpt\m°p ImWm≥ Ahkcw sImSp°mw. sh≈nbmgvNsØ \ocm´p Ign™v kpK‘ {Zhyßfm¬ Bte]\w sNbv X cmPIpamcn Xs‚ ASna kpµcnIfmb kJnIfm¬ hebw sNøs∏´v Nph∏pw a™bpw ]q°fp≈ ]XpØ ]chXm\nbn´ CS\mgnbneqsS t\]YyKrlØn te°p≈ tLmjbm{X Bcw`n®p. tNße apń apºn¬ \S∂ \·bmb s]¨ Ipń°pw ]n∂n¬ Hcp hcnbn¬ A©p \·kpµ cnIƒ°pw AXn\p ]n∂nse hcnbnse A©p \·kpµcnIƒ°pw CSbn¬ kpµcnbmb \kvdo ≥ cmPIpamcn \·bmbn, \·]mZbmbn \S∂p. Ahƒ Hcp {`m¥≥ IhnbpsS IÆpIƒ At\z jn®v Np‰pw t\m°n. CS\mgnbpsS ]IpXn Zqcw ]n∂n´t∏mgmWv Ahƒ Ihnsb I≠Xv. Ihnbp sS H∏ap≈ aq∂v ]´mf°m¿ Iangv∂p InS°pI bmbncp∂p. s]s´∂v \kv d o≥ Dds° s]mń®ncn®p. ImcWw Ihnbpw \·\mbncp∂p. \·bmb cmPIpamcnsb ImWm≥ t]mIptºmƒ Xm\pw kzbw \·\mhp∂XmWv HuNnXysa∂v Ihn IcpXn. AXpsIm≠v ]´mf°m¿ Iangv∂p InS∂ t∏mƒ At±lw kzbw hkv{Xßƒ Agn®pam‰n. Cu HuNnXyt_m[amWv At±lsØ anI® Ihnbm°nbXv F∂v ]n∂oSv ]ecpw ]dbpI bp≠mbn´p≠v. cmPIpamcn \n∂psIm≠v AbmfpsS \·X t\m°n Dds° Nncn®p. aq°n\p t\sc apt∂m´p \S∂ncp∂ tXmgnam¿ Hcp hiØv A]ISw ]Xnbncp∂Xv I≠n√. cmPIpamcnbpsS Nncnbp sS ImcWw I≠p]nSn°m≥ {ian® B \· kpµcnIƒ t_m[w sI´phoWp. t_m[wsISm≥ am{Xw `mKyw sNbvXnń√mØh¿ IÆp s]mØn Ipºnńcn°bpw k¿∆i‡\mb ssZhØns‚ t]¿ hnfn°pIbpw sNbvXp. cmPIpamcn CXphsc Hcp ]pcpjs‚ \·X I≠n´p≠mbncp∂n√. sIm´mcØnse I¿°i Iem-Iu-apZn 27

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B\µ≥ F¥ns\tbm t]Sn°p∂p≠v. AXv I√ymWn°pń°v a\ nembXv Ign™ c≠p aWn°qdmbn Ah≥ Xs‚ ]n∂n¬ \ns∂mgnbmsX \S∂t∏mgmWv. ASp°fbn¬ \n∂v XfØnte°pw, XfØn¬ \n∂v DΩdtØ°v, DΩdØp\n∂v ho≠pw XfØnte°v FhnsS t]mhptºmgpw B\µ≥ Xs‚ ]n∂nep≠v. F¥m tams\ \n\°v th≠Xv? I√ymWn°pń tNmZn®p. Du Dw. Ahs‚ adp]Sn Hcp aqf¬ am{Xw. \osbs‚ Imens‚ FtS¬ InS∂v Ifn°msX amdn\n¬°v. Rm≥ XS™phogpw. kmºmdns‚ ]m{Xw ASp∏Øp \n∂nd°nsh®psIm≠v Ahƒ ]d™p. Cs∂t¥ \o Ifn°ms\m∂pw t]mbnt√? Du Dw. ASpØ hoń¬ hoUntbmbn¬ kn\na I≠ph∂ tijw Ah\v Nmbbpw ]elmchpw sImSpØXmWv. km[mcW Ah≥ Nmb IpSn®p Ign™v Ifn°m≥ t]mIpw. Bdp aWntbmsS Xncn®ph∂m¬ Ipfn°pw. Ipd®p t\cw ]Tns®∂p hcpØpw. C∂v AsXm∂pap≠mbn√. \osb¥m C∂v Fs‚ aqńev IpSocn°WXv? H∂pw sNøm\ns√¶nev Ipfn®v h√Xpw ]Tn°m≥ t\m°n°qtS? Ipfn°p∂ Imcyw ]d™t∏mƒ Ah≥ AΩtbmSv IqSpX¬ tN¿∂p \n∂p. F¥m s\\°v th≠Xv? I√ymWn°pń A£abmbn tNmZn®p. F\n°v..... F\n°v, Ah≥ hn°ns°m≠v ]d™p. F\n°v t]Snbmhp∂p. s]´∂hcpsS kzcw B¿{Zambn. F¥n\m tams\ \o t]Sn°sW?

Rm\n∂v cmPnt®®nShnsS Hcp kn\na I≠p. AXnev t]Sn∏n°W km[s\ms°≠v. kn\na I≠ns´ms° Bsc¶nepw t]Sn®ncntIym? I√ymWn°pń°v kam[m\ambn. Hcp kn\na I≠n´p≈ t]Snbt√. kmcan√. AZriycmbn \ap°p Np‰pw Ft∏mgpw k©cn°p∂ Acq]nIƒ ]et∏mgpw cq]w [cn®v \sΩ t]Sn s∏SpØmdp≠v. {]tXyIn®v IpńIsf. Aßns\bp≈ t]Sn `bs∏tS≠XmWv. AXv IqSpX¬ B]ØpIƒ hcpØnsh°p∂Xv I√ymWn°pń I≠n´p≈XmWv. F¥n\m Cu IpńIfv Cßs\ t]Sn∏n°W Nns{Xms° FSpØp sIm≠p hcWXv? Ah¿ Ab¬hońse IpńIsf a\ n¬ NoØ]d™p. H∂pIn¬ IpńIfpw a°fpambn ImWm≥ ]‰mØ hrØnsI´ Nn{Xßƒ, As√¶n¬ t]Sn∏n°p∂ Nn{Xßƒ. CX√msX H∂pw√y. A—≥ Hmôkn¬\n∂p h∂t∏mgpw A\µs‚ t]Sn amdnbncp∂n√. A—s\ I≠t∏mƒ Ah\v Bizmk ambn F∂pam{Xw. Imcyw tI´t∏mƒ tIih≥ Dds° Nncn®p C{Xs√≈p. CXns\ms° t]Sn®mtem! Bs´ kn\ntaev F¥p I≠n´m \o t]Sn®Xv? Ahs‚ apJØv `bw \nd™p. Ah≥ Np‰pw t\m°n A—t\mSv tN¿∂ncp∂p. kn\ntaev t]So≠m°W ]eXpw≠v. ss]∏v Xpd°ptºmƒ Sm∏n¬ \n∂v sh≈Øn\p ]Icw tNmc hczm. Sm∏n¬ \nt∂m, tNmctbm? AsX. ]ns∂ Bƒ°m¿°v Hcp kqs°Sv hczmWv. Iøns‚ shcsems°s√y; AsXms° sagpIpXncn amXncn DcpIzm. DcpIp DcpIn hncen√mXmhpw. ]ns∂ ssI. AXpt]mse aq°v, sNhn CsXms° DcpIn Ipd®p Ign™m¬ Bƒ DcpIn C√ymXmhpw. icn°pw Aßs\ Hcp kqt°Sp≠s{X...... cmPnt®®n ]d™Xm. Abmƒ H∂pw ]d™n√. Abmƒ BtemNn°pIbmbncp∂p. Xm≥ sIm≠ph∂ {_o^vtIknse ]Ww I√ymWn°pń `{Zambn sh®n´p≠mhnt√? h∂ DSs\ {_o^vtIkv sImSp°ptºmƒ IÆpsIm≠v BwKyw ImWn®XmWv. AXn\IØps≠∂v. s]´∂bmƒ hnb¿°m≥ XpSßn. Ft∏mgpw Aßns\bmWv. Hmôkn¬ \n∂v I≈ hu®¿ H∏n´v a‰p≈ Ip¶paw HmW-∏-Xn∏v 37

ISem pIsf√mw icnbm°nb tijamWv ]Xn\mbncw FSp°p∂Xv. F√m ISemkpw icnbmWv. HmUn‰¿ am¿°pIqSn AXp I≠p]nSn°m\mhn√. Hcp ZnhksØ Ie£≥ t\m°ptºmƒ ]Xn\mbncw A{X henb XpIsbm∂pa√. I√ymWn°pń sIm≠ph∂p sImSpØ Nmb samØn°pSn®psIm≠bmƒ Hm¿Øp, C\nbpw Hcp sIm√w IqSn. ]ns∂ `mcybpw aI\pambn ChnSw hnSWw. tImbºØqtcm a{Zmtkm t]mbn hosSSp°Ww. Bcpw Adnbn√. Dt∆m A—m, Aßn\sØ tcmKw≠mt∆m? B\µ≥ tNmZn®p. Abmƒ ssIe¿Øn. Rm≥ tIńń√. AsXms° kn\na°mcv Bƒ°msc t]Sn∏n°m≥ th≠n Hmtcm∂v Imń°q´WXmWv. Cu IpńIsf t]Sn∏n°m≥ th≠n Hmtcm kn\naIfv. I√ymWn°pń ]d™p. F{X \√ kn\naIfv≠v. ∂m AtXsX¶nepw FSpØm aXn. Cu IpńIfv AXv sNøn√y. Bcm Cu ssS∏v kn\nasbms° FSp°p∂Xv? tIih≥ tNmZn®p. B cmPow kpt[w. A√mXmcm? thdmfpsS hońt]mbn kn\na ImWptºm Ahcv FSv°W kn\na ImWm\t√ ]‰q. \ap°ns∏m Sn.how hoUntbmw H∂pw hmßm≥ ]‰n√. ]‰pw. tIih≥ a\ n¬ IcpXn. ]t£ AXp sNømXncn°bmWv \√Xv. BbncØ™qdv Ddp∏nI iºfap ≈ Hcmƒ°v hmßm≥ Ignbp∂sXm∂pa√ Snhnbpw hoUntbmbpw. ]ns∂ A—m Sm∏o∂v Fßn\ym tNmc hczm? \osbm∂p an≠mXncn°v Sm∏o∂v tNmc hczm? AsXb—m, Hcp hońev Cu kqt°Sv≠∂v a\ nemhm Sm∏nev tNmc h∂p XpSßptºmgmWv. As∏m a\ nem°mw hoń¬ B¿s°¶nepw Cu kqt°Sv ]nSns]ń´p≠∂v. hnUvVnØw ]dbs√. tIih≥ ]d™p. \o t]mbn Ipfn®v h√Xpw ]Tn°m≥ t\m°v. F\n°v t]Snbmhp∂p. Ddßp∂Xn\papºv F∂pw Abmƒ Acns∏ńbpsS ASnbn¬ X∏n t\m°n. AcnbneqsS ssIIfn´v Abmƒ ASnbn¬ Ańbm°nsh® ISemkps]mXnIƒ X∏nt\m°n. C∂sØ s]mXnbS°w ]{¥≠v. Abmƒ Acns∏ńbn¬\n∂p IsøSpØp. B\µ≥ Dd°ambncp∂p. Ahs\ ]pX∏n®psIm≠v Abmƒ ASpØp InS∂p. I√ymWn°pń ASp°f bn¬ ]m{Xw IgpIpIbmWv . Sm∏n¬ sh≈w hogp∂ i–w, ]m{XßfpsS i–w. ]ns∂ Cu¿°n¬ NqepsIm≠v sIm´ Øfw ASn®phmcp∂ i–w. Abmƒ I√ymWn°pń hcp∂ Xpw ImØp InS∂p. C\n ASp °fbpsS hmXn¬ AS®v Ahƒ hcpw. F¥psImt≠m Abmƒ Sm ∏n¬ \n∂v tNmc hcp∂Xns\ ∏‰ntbm¿Øp. B\µ≥ icn °pw t]Sn®n´p≠mIpw. aq{X samgn°m≥ Ipfnapdnbn¬ IS °m≥ IqSn Xm≥ H∏w t]mtI ≠nh∂p. DuWp Ign®v ssI IgpInbXv sNºn¬ ]nSn®psh® sh≈w ap°nsbSpØn´mWv . Sm∏v Ah\v t]Snbmbncn°p∂p. s]s´∂v tIih≥ sRń. hmXn¬°¬ Btcm s_√Sn ®p. s_√ns‚ ]cpjamb i–w tI´Xpw ASp°fbn¬ Nqens‚ i–w \n∂p. I√ymWn°pńbpw Ct∏mƒ ]I®n cn°pIbmbn cn°pw. Bcmbncn°pw AXv ? cm{Xn ]ØpaWn°v . Abmƒ Fgpt∂‰v hmXn¬ Xpd°m≥ t]mbn. Ip¶paw HmW-∏-Xn∏v 39

I√ymWn°pńbpw ASp°f hmXn¬°¬ h∂p\n∂p. BcmWv Cu t\cØv? Ahƒ \\™ ssIIƒ km cnØpºn¬ XpS®p. Abmƒ hmXn¬ Xpd°tWm F∂v kwibn®p \n∂t∏mƒ ho≠pw Hcp _√v. Abmƒ hmXn ¬ Xpd∂p. Ab¬°mc≥. Hcp ap≠pw tXm Øpw thjw. \nßƒ sIS∂nń√s√m. DΩd Øv shfn®w I≠s∏m Hdßo´v ≠m hn√ym∂v tXm∂n. AtXm≠v hnfn®Xm. F¥m hntijw? tIihs‚ i–Øn¬ Ipd®v AklyX bp≠mbncp∂p. C∂p®°v Hcp aq∂paWn kabØv Hcmfv \nßsS ]Sn°ev Np‰n∏‰n \n°WXv I≠qs{X ameXn. H∂p c≠p {]mhiyw tKbv‰n s‚ D≈n¬ IS∂v \nß sS hmXn¬hsc h∂q s{X. ]s£ s_√Sn°msX Xncn®p t]mbn. HccaWn°qdßns\ \n∂n´v Xncn®p t]mbs{X. Bcmbncn°pw AXv? tIih≥ BtemNn®p. Rm≥ Cs∏m h∂nt´bp≈p ItS¬∂v. As∏m \nßtfmSv ]dbm®n´v h∂Xm. C°meØv Bcow hnizkn °m≥ høs√m. \∂mbn ]d™Xv. tIih≥ ]d™p. Bcm∂v a\ nembn√. Rm≥ t]ms´. icn. t\csØ apJw Idp∏n®Xn\v {]mb›nØambn tIih≥ kzcw Bhp∂{X abs∏SpØn. tIih\v Dd°w h∂n√. km[mcW InS∂m¬ I√ymWn°pń ASp°f hmXneS®v Ipfnapdnbn¬ t]mbn ASpØph∂v InS°ptºmtg°v ab°ambn´p≠mhpw. Ipfnapdnbn¬ \n∂hƒ \·bmbn´mWv hcpI. Xs‚ AcnIn¬ h∂p InS°ptºmƒ Abmƒ DWcpw. P\eneqsS hcp∂ t\cnb shfn®Øn¬ Abmƒ Ieym Wn°pńbpsS tZlw t\m°n°nS°pw. sNehp Npcp°¬ ]cn]mSnbn¬ XpSßnbXmWv \·bmbn InS°pI F∂Xv. cm{Xn ta¬ IgpInbm¬ apjn™ kmcnbpw ªukpw CSm≥ tXm∂n√ At∏mƒ Ku¨ CSWw. Hcp KuWn\v ap∏Xv \mev]Xv Ddp∏nIbmhpw. ]ns∂ AXp Xncpºm\p≈ sNehpw. AXnepw AXym-h-iy-Im-cyßƒ°p≈ ]W-an-√m-Xn-cp∂ Hcp Ime-am-bn-cp∂p AXv. C∂v ss\‰vKu-Wns‚ hnetbm Xncp-ºm-\p≈ sNethm {]iv\an√. ]t£ A∂p XpSßnb ioew C∂pw XpScp∂p. Ahƒ H∂pw ]dbmsX InS°pIbmWv. Ipd®pt\csØ \n»–Xbv°p tijw Ahƒ tNmZn®p. \nßƒ Ddtßym? Du Dw. Bcmbncn°pw aq∂v aWn°v h∂Xv? Hcp \nanjw Ign™v Abmƒ ]d™p. Adnbn√. Abmfpw A{Xbpw kabw AXp Xs∂bmbncp∂p BtemNn®p sIm≠ncp∂Xv. Abmƒ°v ASpØ ImeØv hfsc s]s´∂v t]Sn]nSn®ncp∂p. hmXn¬°¬ Hcp ap´v, ]cnNban√mØ HcmfpsS t\m´w, Iº\nbpSabpsS hnfn. F√mw Abmsf sRń®p. ht√mcpw Fs∂ ImWm≥ h∂Xmhpw. Ddßzmhpw hnfn°≠m®v´v t]mbXmhpw. `mcybv ° v ss[cyw ]Itc≠Xv Xm\msW∂pw AXpsIm≠v ss[cyw \Sn°pIbmWv \√sX∂pw Abmƒ°dnbmw. F\nbv°p t]SymhpWp. I√ymWn°pń ]d™p. \Ωfv Cu sNøWsXms° Fs∂¶nepw I≠p]nSn®m¬. AsXm∂pw Bcpw I≠p]nSn°m≥ t]mWn√. C\n Hcp sIm√w IqSn aXn. AXp Ign™m¬ \Ωfv t]mhmbn. At∏mtg°v F{Xymhpw? GItZiw aq∂pe£w. aqs∂¶nepw Bbmte Fs¥¶nepw sNøm≥ ]‰q. Ipd®p t\cw Ahƒ H∂pw ]d™n√. ]ns∂ ]Xps° ]d™p. Ip¶paw HmW-∏-Xn∏v 41

icn°pw ]d™m¬ \Ωfv I°zs√ sNøWXv. Abmƒ H∂pw ]d™n√. AsXm∂pw Abmƒ Hm¿°m≥ C„s∏SmØ ImcyßfmWv. Aßns\bp≈ kµ¿`ßfn¬ Abmƒ Iøn¬ Im¬°min√msX I„s∏´ Znhkßƒ Hm¿°pw. tam≥ Ipńbmbncn°ptºmƒ ]m¬ sImSp°m\n√msX I„s∏´Xv Hm¿Ωt≠m \n\°v? Abmƒ tNmZn®p. A∂v Fgp∂qdpdp∏nIbmWv Imjnb¿ F∂ \nebn¬ AbmfpsS iºfw. Iøn¬ Inńbncp∂Xv Adp\qdpdp∏nIbpw. AXpsIm≠v Fßns\ Pohn°pw. ]m¬ \n¿Ønbt∏mƒ ]m¬°mc≥ hg°p ]d™p. thsd BcpsSsb¶nepw ASpØp\n∂v ]m¬ hmßm\mWv Ahs‚ ]m¬ \n¿ØnbsX∂mbncp∂p ]m¬°m c≥ [cn®Xv. kXyw, ]dbm≥ sIm≈mØhn[w hncq]ambncp∂p. \Ωfv I„s∏´sXm∂pw ]dbmXncn°ym \√Xv. I√ymWn°pń ]d™p. Fs¥¶nepw {]tNmZ\w Cs√¶n¬ C∂sØ Dd°w \in®XpXs∂. Abmƒ tNmZn®p. Ip∏oev h√Xpw _m°os≠m. ≠mhpw. Ahƒ ]d™p. F¥n\m IpSn°WXv? C\n AsXmcp ioemhpw. BZysØ Znhkw ]Xn\mbncØns‚ sI´v hońte°v sIm≠ph∂ A∂mWv BZyambn IpSn®Xv. Dd°w In´m≥. ]ns∂ AXv CSbv°nSbv°mbn. IpSn®p Ign™m¬ ss[cyw In´p∂p. I√ymWn°pńbpambn CW tNcm≥ DtØP\w In´p∂p. AXp Ign™m¬ s]s´∂v Dd°hpw In´p∂p. \o Hcp •mkv FSp°v. I√ymWn°pń Fgpt∂‰p. ASp°fbn¬ t]mbn Hcp •mkpw sh≈hpw sIm≠ph∂p. Nphceamcn Xpd∂v Ip∏nsbSp°ptºmƒ AhfpsS \·amb ]n≥`mKw P\eneqsS h∂ shfn®w {]Imiabam°p∂Xv tIih≥ t\m°n. hnkvIn •mkn¬ FSpØv sh≈w tN¿Øv Abmƒ Ińens‚ Xebv°¬ Nmcnbncp∂p. Zpc¥ßƒ G‰phmßm≥ Xømdmbn I√ymWn°pń ASpØph∂ncp∂p. A]cnNnX≥ ]ns∂bpw h∂p. aq∂paWn t\cØpXs∂. I√ymWn°pń P\ens‚ hnShneqsS t\m°n \n∂p. XteZnhksØ kw`hßƒ Ahsf h√msX `bs∏SpØnbncp∂p. C∂pw D®bv°v tPmensb√mw Ign™v Ahƒ InS∂Xmbncp∂p. \mect° B\µ≥ hcnIbp≈q. \mepaWnhsc InS°pw. InS∂n´pw Dd°w hcp∂n√. Ipd®pIgn™v shdpsX P\ens‚ ]mfIƒ°nSbneqsS ]pdtØ°p t\m°nbXmWv. At∏mgmWv Abmƒ ]Sn°¬ \n¬°p∂Xv I≠Xv. shfpØ j¿´pw ap≠pw. Ip‰ntcmaßƒ Hcp _oUnbpw hen®v Abmƒ AhnsS \n¬°p∂p. CSbv°nSbv°v XßfpsS hmXn¬°te°v t\m°p∂pap≠mbncp∂p. Ac aWn°qtdmfw Abmƒ AhnsS Np‰n∏‰n \n∂p, ]ns∂ \S∂v A{]Xy£\mbn. AhfpsS s\©v i‡nbmbn anSn ®p. BcmWbmƒ? F¥mWbmfpsS Dt±iw? sshIpt∂cw tIih≥ h∂t∏mtg°pw Ahƒ h√msX ]cn{àn®ncp∂p. \ap°v thKw Xs∂ t]mImw Ftßms´¶nepw. Ahƒ ]d™p. C\n ]Wsam∂pw th≠. D≈XpaXn. \osb¥n\mWnßs\ t]Sn°p∂Xv ? tIih≥ tNmZn®p. Abmƒ°v Fs¥¶nepw Imcyap≠mhpw. Hmôknse Imcyhpw Abmfpambn Hcp _‘pw≠mhm≥ hgo√y. Hcp sIm√Øn\p apsºm∂pw t]mIm≥ ]‰n√y \ap°v. `mcysb kam[m\n∏n®psh¶nepw `bw Abmfn¬ kqcyshfn®Øn¬ ]mb¬ t]mse hfcp∂p≠mbncp∂p. Adnbs∏SmØ Hcp a\pjy\pw Xm\pw hn[nbpsS GtXm GSmIqSØn¬ s]´v Hcp G‰papén\mbn Xømsd Sp°pIbmsW∂bmƒ°p tXm∂n. cm{Xn •m v sIm≠phcm≥ ]d™t∏mƒ I√ymWn°pń kΩXn®n√. Ahƒ ]d™p. C∂n\n IpSn°≠. aZy]m\hpw AXn\ptijap≈ kwt`mKhpw Abmfnse {]£pœmhÿ Abbv°p∂ps≠∂pw Abm ƒ°v kpJambn Dd°w In´p∂ps≠∂pw Ahƒ°dnbmw. Xm\mhs´ a\ nemhmØ `bßfpsS ASnabmbn IÆpw Xpd∂v InS°pIbpw ]Ise¶nepw Ddßmambncp∂p. Ct∏mƒ B Dd°hpw \„s∏ńcn°p∂p. B\µ≥ kvIqfn¬\n∂p hcp∂Xv ]pXnb AdnhpIfpambmWv. B AdnhpIfmhs´ Ahs\ IqSpX¬ `b s∏SpØpIbpw sNbvXp. ssIhnc¬Øpºv sXm´v DcpInsbmen®p t]mIp∂ AkpJw icn°pap≈XmsW ∂h≥ I≠p]nSn®p. ¢mknse ]e IpńIƒ°pw kz¥w hoń¬ Aßn\sØ A\p`hap≈Xmbn km£ys∏Sp Øn. Sm∏n¬ \n∂v tNmc hcp∂Xv. Sm∏v t]ms´ InW‰nse sh≈w apgph≥ Nph∂ tNmcbmbXv t\cn´p I≠ HcpØ≥ ¢mknep≠v. At∏mƒ CsXm∂pw sI´pIYIfs√∂¿∞w. F\nbv°v Ft‚Xmbn´p≈ `bßfp≠v. tIih≥ ]d™p. AXns‚ IqsSbmWv C\n Cht‚Xpw. Hmôkn¬ tIih≥ hfsc kq£n®v s]cpamdn. apXemfnbpsS Hmtcm Ne\hpw Abmƒ kwibtØmsS ho£n®p. apXemfn°v Xs‚ t]cn¬ kwibap≠mbn´ps≠∂pw, AXv Xs∂ Adnbn°msX hfsc hnZKvZambn aqSnsh°pIbmsW∂pw Abmƒ°p tXm∂n. D®bv°v hoń¬ hcp∂ Bƒ apXemfnbpsS Bfmbncn°psa∂p hsc tIih≥ hnizkn®p. AbmfpsS Dd°w \„s∏´p. aZytam I√ymWn°pńbpsS tZltam Abmfn¬ Xmev]cyapW¿Ønbn√. Dd°an√mØ cm{XnIfn¬ Abmƒ Fgpt∂‰v P\eneqsS ]pdØp≈ \m´pshfn® Øn¬ Ahy‡cq]ßƒ°pth≠n ]cXpw. cm{Xn apdnIfn¬ Ccp´Øv \S°ptºmƒ Bsc¶nepw Xs∂ s]s´∂v ]nSnIqSpsa∂bmƒ `bs∏´p. apºnep≠mtb°mhp∂ {]XntbmKnsb CSn°m≥ Abmƒ Itømßn. Ip¶paw HmW-∏-Xn∏v 43

AXn\nSbv°v B\µ≥ cm{Xnbn ¬ DW¿∂v IcbpI Hcp ioeam°nbncn°p∂p. s]s´∂pW¿∂v Ah≥ `btØmsS Icbpw. Sm∏n¬ tNmc. Ah≥ ]dbpw. Fs‚ ssIøv t\m°p DcpInt∏mWp. hnf°p IØn®v Ahs‚ ssIIƒs°m∂pw ]‰nbnńs√∂v Ahs\ t_m≤ys∏SpØpw. _p[\mgvN apXemfn Sqdn\p t]mIpw. ]ns∂ sh≈nbmgvNtb hcq. aq∂p Znhkw thsdmcp ]Xn\mbncw IStØ≠ AhkcamWv. thtWm tht≠? Abmƒ°v Xocpam\n°m≥ ]‰nbn√. kabw Xs∂ ]n∂nem°n HmSpIbmsW∂pw \„s∏´ Hmtcm Ahkchpw \„s∏´Xp Xs∂sb∂pw Abmƒ°dnbmw. Hcp sIm√w C\n ]nSn®p \n¬°m≥ ]‰psa∂p tXm∂p∂n√. At∏mƒ Cu Ahkcw F¥mbmepw Ifbm≥ hø. sshIpt∂cw {_o^vtIkpsaSpØv Hmôkn¬ \n∂v ]pdØndßnbt∏mƒ tIih\v Akm[mcWamsbm ∂pw tXm∂nbn√. ]t£ _ v tÃm∏nte°p≈ \SØØn\nSbnemWv Xm≥ ]n¥pSs∏Sp∂ps≠∂ tXm∂ep≠mbXv. tIih≥ Xncn™p t\m°n. ssZhta, Abmƒ kzbw ]d™p. Hcmƒ Xs∂ ]n≥XpScpI Xs∂bmWv Abmƒ _ v tÃm∏nte°v \S°p∂ hgn amdn \S∂p. Abmfpw ]n∂n¬ Xs∂bp≠v . Cs∂¥mbmepw Bcpambpw Hcp G‰pap´¬ ]‰n√. {_o^vtIkn\p≈nse sI´v hne]nSn®XmWv. tIih≥ Hgn™p hcp∂ Hmt´mdn£ ssIImń \n¿Øn. Hmt´m ]pds∏´t∏mƒ Abmƒ Xncn™p t\m°n. shfpØ j¿´pw ap≠pw [cn® Bƒ shdpsX t\m°n \n∂psIm≠v Ioibn¬ \n∂v Hcp _oUnsbSØv Np≠Øpsh®v Xos∏ń Dckn IØn°pIbmWv. ]Sn°¬ Hmt´m\n¿Øn hmSI sImSpØtijw Abmƒ Hcphn[w tKbv‰v IS∂v HmSn hcnIbmWv sNbvXXv. s_√Sn°p∂Xn\papºv Abmƒ \n∂p. c≠p ImcyØn\mbn. H∂v Abmƒ Xs∂ ]n≥XpScp∂pt≠m F∂v t\m°Ww. ]ns∂ I√ymWn°pń ImWptºmtg°v Xs‚ InX∏v am‰Ww. hmXn¬ Xpd∂ `mcybpsS Iøn¬ Abmƒ {_o^vtIbvkv sh®psImSpØp. D≈nep≠v, FSpØpsh°p. Abmƒ ]d™p. ]ns∂ Ipd®p XWpØ sh≈w IpSn°m≥ Xcq. aÏqPbn¬\ns∂SpØ XWpØ sh≈w IpSn®psIm≠ncn°ptºmgmWv Abmƒ I≠Xv. B\µ≥ Hcp Itkcbn¬ Iq\nbncn°p∂p. BsI t]Sn®p himbncn°p∂p. F¥m tams\ \o ]nWßnbncn°WXv? A—m F\n°p t]Symhp∂p. F¥n\v? F\n°pw B kqt°Sv hcm≥ ]qhm tXm∂Wp. t\m°p Fs‚ hncsems° \\t™m≠ncn°p∂p. \o hnUvVnØw ]dbs√. Abmƒ imkn®p. Aßn\sØ Hcp kqt°sSm∂pw√y temIØnev. kn\na°mcv Hmtcm∂v≠m°nsh°pw. Abmƒ hmXn¬°¬ {i≤n°pIbmbncp∂p. Im¬s∏cpam‰w tIƒ°p∂pt≠m? A—m F\n°v tXm∂WXv Sm∏nev tNmc≠mhpw∂m. Cu kqt°Sv hcpsºms° Sm∏n∂v tNmc hcmdp≠s{X. Sm∏n¬ \n∂v tNmctbm? Abmƒ Fgpt∂‰p. CßSv hcq. Rm≥ ImWn®pXcmw. Atøm A—m Sm∏v sXmd°s√. B\µ≥ sI©n. F\n°v t]Snbmhp∂p. I√ymWn°pń ASp°fbn¬ \n∂p h∂p. Abmƒ IÆpsIm≠v BwKyw ImWn®v tNmZn®p. sh®psh∂v Ahƒ adp]Sn \¬In. Abmƒ B\µt\bpw Iqń Sm∏n\SptØ°v \S∂p. s]s´∂mWv tUm¿ s_√Sn®Xv. Abmƒ sRń sØdn®p. taemsI s]s´∂v ssiXyw _m[n®p. AbmfpsS ssIIƒ hnb¿Øp. AbmfpsS ssI Sm∏nt∑ embncp∂p. I√ymWn°pń t]mbn Xmt°m¬∏gpXneqsS t\m°p∂Xpw Xncn®ph∂v Xt∂mSv ]dbp∂Xpw Abmƒ at‰tXm temIØn¬ \ns∂∂t]mse I≠p. AXbmfmWv. aq∂paWn°v hcmdnt√? Abmƒ Sm∏p Xncn®p. sh≈Øn\p ]Icw Nph∂p sImgpØ {ZmhIw HgpIm≥ XpSßn. Abmƒ IÆS®p. Xs‚ hncepIfnse \\hv Abmƒ°\p`hs∏´p. Xs‚ hncepIƒ FÆ t]mep≈ Hcp {ZmhIw h∂v At\ym\yw H´p∂Xv Abmƒ Adn™p. IÆp Xpd∂v t\m°m≥ ss[cyan√msX A\ßm\mhmsX Abmƒ \n∂p. !

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lcn-Ip-am¿ imen\n Aev]w BibIpg∏Ønembncp∂p. ]Wn°mcn cm[ ]d™Xv Ahƒ°v hnizkn°m\mbn√. ]t£ Ahƒ \pW]dbpIbmsW∂v tXm∂nbn√. as‰√mw ]dbp∂ t]msebmWhƒ ]d™Xv. F\nbvs°¥n\m tamsf Akqb? Fs‚ hońepw≠v Hcp hmjnwKv sajo≥. cm[ XpWnIƒ Hmtcmt∂mtcm∂mbn hmjnwKv sajo\n¬ CSpIbmbncp

∂p. B ]{¥≠p hb pImcn°v hmjnwKv sajos‚ Dbcw Xs∂tb D≈q. AXpsIm≠v Ahƒ sajos‚ apºn¬ Hcp ]eI°jvWw sh®v AXn\p apIfn¬ \n∂mWv XpWnIƒ Cńcp∂Xv. Syqj≥So®dpsS ASp°¬ \n∂v c£s∏´p h∂XmWv imen\n. Ccp]Ø©p apX¬ AºXphsc FgpXm≥ Gev]n®v Nmb IpSn°m\ncp ∂XmWv So®¿. Nmb IpSn®p Ign™m¬ So®¿°v t]mhm≥ [rXnbmhpw. C\n AΩ Ipfn°m≥ hnfn°p∂Xp hsc Ahƒ kzX{¥bmWv. B kzmX{¥yw BtLmjn°pI cm[tbmSv kwkmcn®psIm≠mWv . Xncpºptºmtgm, ASn®phmcn XpS°ptºmtgm Hs° Ahƒ cm[bpsS ]n∂¬ kwkmcn®psIm≠p≠mhpw. A[nIhpw ¢mknse hntijß fmbncn°pw. As√¶n¬ \gvkdn ssdapIƒ ]mSn \rØw sh°pw. XpS® am¿_vƒ \neØv imen\nbpsS sIm®p ImepIƒ ]Xnbpw. Ah t\m°n cm[ ]dbpw. Rm≥ XpS®nSsØms° tamfv Nhnń \St∂mfp. AΩ I≠m¬ Inńt°mfpw. imen\n {i≤n°n√. AΩ Ahsf ]TnØØns‚ ImcyØn¬ am{Xsa in£n°pIbp≈p. aIƒ ]Tn®v Hcp tUmŒdmIWsa∂mWv imcZbpsS tamlw. tUmŒ¿amsc°pdn®v imcZbv°v k¶ev]ßfp≠v. Hcp _nkn\ pImc\mb Xs‚ `¿Ømhns‚ {]mc–ßƒ H∂pw C√msX shdpsX Hcp tNºdn¬ IgpØn¬ sÃØpw Xq°n ]Ww hmcp∂ tUmŒ¿amsc imcZ F∂pw AkqbtbmsSbmWv t\m°nbncp∂Xv. Xs‚ `¿Ømhv Hcp \√ tUmŒsd°mƒ kºmZn°p∂ps≠¶nepw Hcp tUmŒ¿°p≈ ÿm\w In´p∂ns√∂v Ahƒ I≠p. Ahƒ aIsf Hcp kvt\m_mbn hf¿Øm≥ {ian®p. Xt∂°mƒ Xmsg°nSbnep≈hsc ]p—tØmsS t\m°m≥, tase°nSbnep≈hsc ImWptºmƒ Ahsc A\pIcn °m≥ F√mw Ahƒ {ian®p. aIsf t{]cn∏n°pIbpw sNbvXp. ]mh s∏´hsc√mw ]pgp°ƒ°v kaamsW∂hƒ hnizkn®p. AXpsIm≠v

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cm[ imen\nsb AhfpsS hońte°v sIm≠pt]ms´ F∂p tNmZn®m¬ imcZ kΩXn°mdn√. Zmcn{Zyw Hcp ]I¿®hym[nbmsW∂pw, Xs‚ aIsf AXn¬ \n∂pw am‰n \n¿ØWsa∂pw Ahƒ IcpXn. cm[ hnjnwKv sajo\n¬ XpWnIfnSp∂Xv I≠t∏mgmWv imen\n Hm¿ØXv. Ahƒ ]d™p. Rßƒ°n∂v ]pXnb hmjnwKv sajo≥ In´qtem. ]pXnb hmjnwKv sajot\m? AsX. As∏m CXns\¥m Ipg∏w? CXv hmßo´v Hcp sIm√s√ Bbn´p≈p. CXv Hmt´mam‰n°√. ]pXnbXv Hmt´mam‰n°mWv. Hm. IpósS aΩn GsX¶nepw hoń¬ t]mbt∏m I≠n´p≠mIpw. As∏m AXv hmßWw∂v ]d™v UmUn sb _p≤napń®n´p≠mIpw As√? imen\n H∂pw ]d™n√. cm[ sIm®Ωsb A\pIcn®p. "t\m°ps∂ Ahcv s S Iønev Bt´mam‰nIv hmjnwKv sajo\p≠v. As∏m \Ω°pw ths≠ H∂v' F∂n ´v AXp hmßn h¿t°-cnbbn¬ {]Xn jvTn°pw. F∂n´v ]dbpw. "cmt[,\o CXv sXmSpIsbm∂pw th≠ tIt´m. ]gbXn¬Øs∂ Xncpºnbm¬ aXn.' ]pXnb sajo≥ Hcp ImgvNhkvXp hmbn sh°pw. hncp∂p hcp∂h¿ s°ms° ImWn®psImSp°pw. hm Izw¢o\¿ F\n°nXphsc sXmSm≥ X∂nń√s√m. imen\n tIm{In Imń. AΩbpsS F√m {]h¿ØnIfpw Ahƒ°n„an s√¶nepw Bcpw AΩsb∏‰n ]dp∂ Xv Ahƒ°n„a√. Ahƒ ]d™p. cm[bv°v AkqbbmWv. AtXm ≠mWv Cßs\ ]tdWXv. Akqbtbm? cm[bvt°m? cm[ tNmZn®p. F\ns°¥n\m tamsf Akqb? Fs‚ hońepw≠v Hcp hmjnwKv sajo≥. \pW. A√ icn°v ]dømWv. s‚ hoń epw≠v Hcp hmjnwKv sajo≥. ∂n´mtWm cm[ ]ªn°v Sm∏ns‚ AhnsS t]mbn Xncpºp∂Xv? Rm≥ Imdnev t]mhptºm c≠p {]mhiyw I≠n´p≠v. RßsS hmjnwKv sajo≥ tISm bn sIS°vmWv. \pW. thW¶n¬ hnizkn®m¬ aXn. cm[ hmjnwKv sajo≥ {]h¿Øn ∏n®p. imen\o. AΩ hnfn®p. Ipfn°m≥ hcp. CXm hcp∂p. Ahƒ°v c≠nsem∂v AdnbWw. cm[sb Ahƒ°v \√t]mse Adnbmw. \pW ]dbmdn√. C√mØ km[\w Ds≠s∂m∂pw ]dbmdn√. ]ns∂ Cu hmjnwKv sajo≥ am{Xw? Iem-Iu-apZn 29

imen\o....... AΩbpsS hnfn ho≠pw. tamfv thKw s]mbvt°m. AΩ hnfn°v≠v. cm[ ]d™p. cmt[sS hońev h∂m hmjnwKv sajo≥ ImWn®pXtczm? imen\n tNmZn®p. A√msX¥m. cm[ ]d™p. ]t£ tamfvsS AΩ tamsf Fs‚ IqsS hntSzm∂p√y. Ahƒ _°‰n¬ sh≈w \nd®v hmk\bp≈ sh≈ ^nss\¬ Hgn®v Cf°n. imen\n BtemNn®p. Nnet∏mƒ Xm≥ AhfpsS hoń¬ sN√ns√∂ ss[cyØnembncn°pw cm[ \pW ]d™Xv. Xm≥ C∂v AΩsbs°m≠v kΩXn∏n°m≥ t]mIp∂p. Ipfn®psIm≠ncns° Ahƒ cm[bpsS AhImihmZsØ∏‰n ]d™p. s\W°v {]m¥pt≠m? hmjnwKv sajo ≥. Ah¿°v acymZ°v `£Ww Ign°m\n√. ∂v´m hmjnwKv sajo≥. cm[ \√ Hd∏v ]dbvWv≠v. imen\n ]d™p. AhƒsS hońev t]mbm ImWn®p Xcmw∂v ]d™p. AtΩ Rm\n∂v cmt[sS hońev t]ms´? th≠ th≠. AhcvsS hońev hrØnsbm∂pw≠mhn√y. Rm≥ AhnsSym∂pw Ccn°nWn√y AtΩ. hmjnwKv sajo≥ I≠v Xncn®p hcmw. s\\°v {]m¥v X∂ym. cmt[sS A—≥ acn®n´v A©psIm√ambn. AXn\v tijm AhfvsS AΩ ]Wn°p t]mhm≥ sXmSßnbXv. s\\°v Hm¿Ωbns√ e£vansb? Xosc BtcymKyan√mØ Hcp km[\w. Ahfpw sIS∏nembt∏mgm cm[ hcm≥ sXmSßoXv. Ah¿s°hnSym tamsf hmjnwKv sajos\ms° hmßm≥ ]Ww? Rm≥ t]mbn t\m°s´. th≠. imen\n \n¿∫‘w ]nSn®p. Ahƒ°v t]mtb Xocp. cm[bpsS Alw`mhw H∂p \n¿ØWw. hoń¬ sIm≠pt]mbn hmjnwKv sajo≥ ImWn°m≥ ]‰mXncn°ptºmƒ cm[bpsS apJØp≠mhp∂ PmfyX Hm¿Øv imen\n Nncn®p. kv°qfn¬ t]mIp∂Xn\papºp≈ Hcp aWn°q¿ kabw \nc¥cw ieys∏SpØpIhgn Ahƒ AΩsb s°m≠v kΩXn∏n®p. A—≥ Sqdne√mbncps∂¶n¬ C{X hnjaap≠mhn√mbncp∂p. A—≥ ]dbpw. tamfv s]mbvt°mfp. thKw Xncn®p hcWwt´m. At∏mƒ Aßns\ Xo¿®bm°n. cm[ F√m hońtebpw ]WnIgn™v t]mIptºmƒ \mepaWnbmhpw. At∏mtg°v imen\n kvIqƒ bqWnt^mw amdn ]pds∏´p \n¬°Ww. \osb¥n\m cmt[ IpńItfmSv Cßns\ Hmtcm∂v ]dbWXv? I≠ns√ Cs∏m XethZ\? imcZ Ib¿Øp. cm[ Nncn°pI am{Xw sNbvXp. \obn\n s\s‚ hoń∂v Ahƒ°v Xn∂ms\m∂pw sImSp°cpXv tIt´m. Ahƒ°v Aßns\ AXpw CXpw H∂pw Xn∂v ioeey. hbdv tISvhcpw. ]ns∂ c≠v ZnhksØ ¢mkv t]mIpw. t]Snt°≠ tN®n. AhnsS Xn∂m≥ H∂pw≠mhn√y. Ahƒ kXyw ]dbpIbmbncp∂p. \mep hońse ]WnsbSp°p∂Xp sIm≠mWv B s]Ïpń°v ]ńWnbn√msX Ignbm≥ ]‰p∂Xv. AΩ, Xm≥, A\pP≥. A—≥ acn®t∏mƒ kvIqfn¬ t]m°p \n¿Øn. ]ns∂ AΩ hmXambn InS∏nembt∏mƒ Ahƒ tPmen°p t]m°pw XpSßn. AΩ t]mbncp∂ hoSpIfn¬Øs∂. AhfpsS `£Ww Hmtcm hoSpIfnembn Ignbpw. sshIpt∂cw Xncn®pt]mIptºmƒ GsX¶nepw hoń¬ \n∂p Inńb tNmdpw Iq´m\pw ImWpw. AXmbncn°pw B IpSpw_Øns‚ cm{Xn `£Ww. Ahƒ°v ]cmXnIsfm∂pap≠mbncp∂n√. Cßns\sb¶nepw Ign™pIqSp∂p≠t√m F∂hƒ kam[m\n®p. C{Xbpw C√mØh¿ F{Xbp≠v. Ahƒ tPmensbSpØncp∂ hońep≈hsc√mw Hcp amXncn kº∂cmbncp∂p. AhcpsS PohnXØns‚ ]In´p I≠v Ahƒ BZysa√mw A‘mfn®p. Hcp F´phb pImcnbmbn AΩbpsS H∏w Cu hoSpIfnte°v t]mbt∏mƒ Ahƒ XnI®pw A¤pXs∏Smdp≠v. AXphsc AhfpsS temIw Xoh≠n∏mXbv°ncphiØpw ]pdwt]m°p ÿeØv Xg®phf¿∂ IpSnepIƒ°nSbnembncp∂p. \mdp∂, sImXpIv B¿°p∂ IdpØ sh≈w sIń\n¬°p∂ Np‰ph´w. tXfns‚bpw ]gpXmcbpsSbpw ISn, sshIpt∂cßfn¬ IpSn®ph∂v hg°nSp∂ ]pcpj∑m¿. Cu A\mtcmKyIcamb Np‰p]mSn¬ Pohn®ph∂ Ahƒ°v AΩ tPmensbSp°m≥ t]mIp∂ hoSpIƒ thsdmcp temIØmsW∂p tXm∂n. {ItaW inipklPamb ss\¿aeytØmsS, Ahƒ a\ nem°n. Ahcpw Xßfpw XΩn¬ hyXymkw D≈hcpw C√mØhcpw F∂pam{Xta D≈q. Ahƒ _p≤n aXnbmbncp∂p. ImcyßfpsS InS∏v Ahƒ thKw ]Tn®p. D≈h¿ Hcp RmbdmgvN sshIpt∂cw ]pdØnd ßnbm¬ `£WimeIfn¬ sNehm°p∂ XpIbpsS ]IpXnt]mepw AΩbv°p amkiºfambn sImSp °p∂ns√∂hƒ I≠p. D≈h¿, C√mØh¿°p sImSp°pIbns√∂pw Ahƒ a\ nem°n. sXmgnemfn, apXemfnbpsS NqjWØns\Xnsc ap{ZmhmIyw hnfn®v {]IS\w \SØptºmƒ XßfpsS ho´ptPmen°msc Iem-Iu-apZn 30

NqjWw sNøpIbmWv. Hcp cm{„ob]m¿ń `cn®n´pw XßfpsS kmºØnI \ne°v, Xßƒ Pohn°p∂ Np‰p]mSpIƒ°v am‰w h∂nńs√∂v Ahƒ I≠p. cm{Xn ]{¥≠p aWn Ignt™ s]mXpSm∏n¬ sh≈w hcq. F´paWn°v cm{Xn `£Ww Ign™m¬ Ahƒ c≠p IpShpambn Sm∏n\SpØp h∂v Iyqhn¬ ÿew ]nSn°pw. At∏mtg°v ]Øp ]{¥≠p Ießƒ hcnbn¬ D≠mhpw. ÿew ]nSn® tijw Ahƒ IpSnen¬ h∂v Ddßm≥ InS°pw. ]IesØ A≤zm\w ImcWw sImXpISnsbm∂pw AhfpsS Dd°Øn\v `wKw hcpØnbn√. ]{¥≠p aWn°v Fgpt∂‰v Sm∏n\SptØ°v \S°pw. AhnsS kv{XoIƒ _lfw IqńØpSßnbn´p≠mIpw. sh≈ Øn\p th≠n Ielap≠mhmØ Znhkan√. c≠p c≠ctbmsS, Nnet∏mƒ aq∂paq∂cbmhpw, c≠p IpSw sh≈w In´pw. ]ns∂ Xncpº¬, Ipfn, cmhnesØ `£Wap≠m°¬. F√mw Ignbptºmƒ Bdv BdcaWn bmhpw. Ahƒ°v tPmen°v t]mtI≠ kabamhpw. Hmtcm Xncns™Sp∏v hcptºmgpw ÿm\m¿∞nIƒ Nncn®psIm≠v hcpw. Xßsf Pbn∏n®m¬ AhnsS IqSpX¬ Sm∏pIƒ C´pXcpsa∂pw, IqSpX¬ I°qkpIfpw IpfnapdnIfpw D≠m°nØcpsa∂pw a‰pw hmKvZm\w sNøpw. Pbn®p Ign™m¬ ]ns∂ Xncn™p t\m°pIbpw C√. IqSpX¬ emÌcamb a‰p tPmenI fp≈t∏mƒ Cu IpSnepIfnepw AXn¬ HSpßp∂ a\pjycnepw Ah¿s°¥p Xm¬]cyw? Sm∏n\p apºn¬ sh≈Øn\pth≠n ImØp\n¬°ptºmƒ Xm≥ tPmen°p t]mIp∂ hoSpIfnse IpfnapdnIƒ Hm¿Ω hcpw. Sm∏p Xpd∂m¬ sh≈w, F{X thWsa¶nepw Ft∏mƒ thWsa¶nepw. apIfn¬ Ipfn°m≥ jh¿. c≠p hoSpIfn¬ NqSpsh≈ap≠m°m\p≈ sKbvkdpap≠v. Xo£vWamb Cu sshcp≤y ßfnepw Ahƒ°v Ahsc shdp°m≥ Ign™n√. sshcp≤yßƒ {]IrXn\nbaamsW∂hƒ hnizkn®p. imen\nsb Ahƒ°n„amWv. AhfpsS K¿∆v cm[ hIsh®n√. ]t£ Ahfn¬ D≠mbncp∂ IpńØw Ahsf BI¿jn®p. sshIpt∂cw cm[bpsS ssI]nSn®v \ncØns‚ HmcØpIqsS \S°ptºmƒ imen\n tNmZn®p. cmt[sS hoSv hepXmtWm? Hcp amXncn. cm[ ]d™p. henb hosSms° Bbm¬ AXv sIm≠p \S°m≥ hnjaas√. Rßƒ aq∂p t]ct√ D≈q. ∂v´pw RßfpsS F{X henb hoSm. \nßƒ°v tPmens°ms° Bfp≠v. ASn®phmcn \new XpS°m\pw, ]m{Xw tamdm\pw, Xncpºm\pw Hcp ]Wn°mcn. ASp°fbn¬ sh∏p ]Wn°v thsdmcp ]Wn°mcn. Rßƒ°v AXns\m∂pw≈ ]Ww√y. As∏m sNdnb hoSt√ \√Xv? imen\n Xebmń. \nßsS hmjnwKv sajo≥ h¿°v GcnbbnemtWm sh®ncn°p∂Xv? h¿°v Gcnbbn¬? cm[ Hcp \nanjw kwibn®p. RßfpsS hoń¬.......... As√¶n¬ Ipń°v hoSp I≠m¬ a\ nemhpw. Ah¿ Smdn´ tdmUn¬\n∂v Hcp CShgnbnte°v Xncn™p. Ign™ HcmgvN AS®p s]bvX agbn¬ hgn apgph≥ sNfn°p≠mbncp∂p. Nfnbn¬ Nhn´msX hgnbpsS HmcØpIqsS Ah¿ \S∂p. CShgn sN∂hkm\n ®Xv Hcp ]dºns‚ \SphneqsS t]mIp∂ hoXn Ipd™ \S∏mXbnemWv. B hgnbpw NfnsIń hrØntISmbn cp∂p. imen\n apJw Npfn®p. cm[sS hońte°n\nbpw Zqcapt≠m? C√. ASpØpXs∂bmWv. Ah¿ \S∂p. hgnbpsS CSXp hiØmbn Xoh≠n∏mfßƒ°cnIn¬ Hcp henb tImf\n ]c∂p InS∂ncp∂p. sXm´p sXm´SpØp≈ sIm®p IpSnepIƒ. {Int‰jkv bpKØnse Hcp òamImc≥ ]£n \o≠p\ns∂mcp G‰papén\ptijw NndIpIƒ HSn™v NØp InS°p∂Xpt]mse B tImf\n Iodn∏dn™p InS∂p. an°hbpw Hme ta™XmWv. NneXv HmtSm Km¬hss\kvUvjot‰m ta™h. ]eXns‚bpw NpacpIƒ Hmetbm jot‰m Bbncp∂p. Nne hoSpIfn¬ Npacn\p ]Icw Nm°pXpWntbm πmÃnIv jot‰m BWv D]tbmKn®ncp∂Xv. HmesIm≠p≠m°nb IpfnapdnIƒ°v Xosc adhp≠mbncp∂n√. Hmtcm hoSpIƒ°nSbn epw IdpØp \mdp∂ sh≈w sIń°nS∂p. IpSnepIƒ°nSbneqsS \S°ptºmƒ imen\n AsX√mw t\m°n apJw Npfn®p. cm[bpsS hońte°v t]mIm≥ thsd hgnsbm∂pws√y? C√. CXm \Ωƒ FØn°gn™p. cm[ ]d™p. Ahƒ Hcp IpSnens‚ apºn¬ \n∂p. CXmWv Fs‚ hoSv. imen\n ]I®p. CtXm, cm[bpsS hotSm? ßm, CXmWv Rm≥ Xmakn°p∂ ÿew. Fs‚ hoSv. hcq. imen\n H∂pw ]dbmsX cm[bpsS IqsS AItØ°p \S∂p. Ahsf FXntc‰Xv Ccp´pw HmSbpsS Iem-Iu-apZn 31

K‘hpambncp∂p. Ipd®p t\ctØ°v Ahƒ°v H∂pw ImWm≥ ]‰nbn√. apdnbnsehnsS\nt∂m Hcp £oWn® i–w h∂p. CXmcm tamsf s\s‚ H∏w? CXv imcZt®®nbpsS tamfm AtΩ. imen\n°p™v. imen\n°p™mtWm CXv? tamfv hepXmbt√m. tamsf Cß´SpØp hcq. IÆpIƒ Ccp´pambn s]mcpØs∏´p Ign™t∏mƒ apdnbpsS aqebn¬ ]mbn¬ InS°p∂ £oWn® cq]w sXfn™p h∂p. Ahƒ ASpØp t]mbn√. Np‰p ap≈ Ccp´v, aq°nte°v IpØn°bdp∂ \m‰w, ]ns∂ ap°n¬ Npcp≠p InS°p∂ hnNn{X Pohn. AsXmcp a\pjykv{XobmsW∂v hnizkn°m≥ imen\n°p {]bmkambn. Ahƒ° hnsS\n∂v Fßns\sb¶nepw c£s∏SWsa∂p tXm∂n. Ahƒ tNmZn®p. cm[sS apdn GXmWv? Fs‚ apdntbm? cm[ s]mń®ncn®p. \n¿ØmsXbp≈ Nncn. B NncnbpsS kvt^mS\Øn¬ B IpSnens‚ A‘Imchpw B PohnXØns‚ \n lmbXbpw ]msS XqsØdnbs∏ ´p. BÀmZØns‚ sIm®p kv^penwKßƒ B sIm®p hoSns\ Zo]vXam°n. Fs‚ apdntbm? cm[ ho≠pw tNmZn®p. Ahƒ imen\nbpsS ASpØph∂v ap´p IpØn\n∂p. AhfpsS IÆpIfnse kmcfyw AhfpsS lrZbØnsehnsSsbms°tbm sIm≠p. Xm\pw Hcp IpńbmsW∂pw, kvt\lØns‚ emf\°pw NqSn\pw Xm\pw AhIminbmsW∂pw D≈ Imcyw Ahƒ hnkvacn®p. kzoIcn°p∂Xn\p]Icw \¬Im≥ Ahƒ Xømdmbn. HcΩbmbn amdnb Ahƒ imen\nsb FSpØps]m¥n®p. AhfpsS XpSpØ Ihnfn¬ DΩsh®p. imen\n°pw Aßns\ Hcpd∏v Bhiyambncp∂p. imen\ntamƒ°v Xn∂m≥ sImSp°m≥ Fs¥¶nepw Dt≠m tamsf? cm[bpsS AΩ tNmZn®p. D’mlØns‚ XncIƒ ]ndtIm´p hen™p. thenbnd°Øn¬ a\ ns‚ aW¬Øn´pIƒ \·am° s∏´p. AhnsS bmYm¿∞yØns‚ £p{ZPohnIƒ Cg™p \S∂p. cm[ imen\nsb Xmsg sh®p. ChnsS H∂pw√ysΩ. Ahƒ ]d™p. C\ns≠¶n¬Øs∂ tamƒ°v H∂pw sImSp°cpsX∂v ]d™n´pap≠v. Xs‚ ZuXyw F¥msW∂v imen\n At∏mgmWv Hm¿ØXv. Ahƒ tNmZn®p. FhnsSbmWv cmt[sS......... Ahƒ apgpan®n√. tNmZyØns‚ \nc¿YIX Ahƒ°v t_m≤ys∏ńcn°p∂p. Ahƒ°v Fßns\sb¶nepw AhnsS \n∂v t]mbm¬ aXn. F¥m tamsf? cm[ tNmZn®p. hmjnwKv sajo≥? hmjnwKv sajot\m? Dw. AsXhnsSbmWv? AXm AhnsS InS°p∂p. cm[ Nq≠n°mń. AhfpsS kzcw \n¿∆nImcambncp∂p. apdn°p≈nse Ccp´v \oßnbncp∂p. imen\n°nt∏mƒ F√mw hy‡ambn ImWmw. B Imgv N Ahsf thZ\n∏n®p. Ahƒ hn°ns°m≠v ]d™p. AtXm, AXv cm[sS AΩbs√? AsX. cm[ ]d™p. Rm≥ ]d™ns√ AXv tISph∂v InS°zm∂v. \n¿∆nImcamb B i–Øns‚ A¥yØn¬ Hcp tXß¬ Ie¿∂pthm? imen\n Xcn®p \n∂p. cm[ ]dbpIbmbncp∂p. Hcp ImeØv \∂mbn Ae°nbncp∂XmWv. F¥m sNøzm, tISph∂nt√? imen\n HmSn ]pdtØ°p IS∂p. F\n°v AΩsS ASpØv t]mWw. Ahƒ Ic™psIm≠v HmSpIbmWv. tamsf \n¬°p F∂ cm[bpsS hnfn Ahƒ tIń√. Ahƒ°hnsS\n∂v Fßns\sb¶nepw c£s∏SWw. Ahƒ HmSn, Zmcn{ZyØns‚bpw I„∏mSpIfpsSbpw Ccp≠ CShgnIfn¬ kzbw \„s∏Spwhsc. !

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éns‚ XWpØ tem_nbn¬ ImØp\n¬°pI hnjaap≈Xmbncp∂n√. hntZinIƒ h∂ncp∂Xv an° hmdpw D®Xncn™ t\cØmbncp∂p. Fb¿t]m¿ń¬ \n∂p≈ _ n¬ Ah¿ Iqámbn h∂ndßn. Nnet∏mƒ SmIvknbn¬. Ińbp≈ Nn√p`nØnbneqsS \mcmbW≥ \mb¿ Ah¿ _ n¬ \n∂ndßp∂Xv t\m°nbncp∂p. tXmfØpw ]pdØpw k©n Xq°ns°m≠v Ah¿ Cdßn. hmXn¬°¬ \n¬°p∂ Nph∂ bq\nt^man´ tUm¿am≥ hmXn¬ Xpd∂psIm≠hsc kzmKXw sNbvXp. s_¬ t_mbvkv _ n¬ \n∂v kµ¿iIcpsS s]ńIfpw k©nIfpw FSpØv en^n‰n∂cnIn¬ \ncØn. C\n AXnYnIƒ Iu≠dn¬s®∂v sN°n≥ sNbvXm¬ Ah¿ h∂v apdnbpsS \º¿ t\m°nsh°pw. Ah¿°v t]mtI≠ en^v‰v ImWn®psImSp°pw. km[\ßƒ s_¬ t_mbvkv thsdmcp en^v‰nemWv sIm≠p t]mIpI. hntZinIƒ AhchcpsS apdnIfn seØptºmtg°v Ah¿ km[\ßfpambn AhnsS FØnbn´p≠mIpw. B kabØmWv \mcmbW≥ \mb¿ kzbw ]cnNbs∏SpØp∂Xv. Iønep≈ t^mƒU¿ Ahsc G¬∏n°p∂p. AXn¬ IYIfnbpsSbpw, Hm´wXp≈ens‚bpw a‰p tIcfob \mS≥ IeIfpsSbpw Nn{X ßfp≠v. Nphń¬ sNdpIpdn∏pIfpw. Ahkm\sØ t]Pn¬ Xs‚ hońs‚ hnemkhpw AhnsS FtØ≠sXßns\bmWv F∂v ta∏v klnXw sImSpØn´p≈ \n¿t± ißfpw. Abmƒ F∂pw sshIpt∂cw hońs‚ Nmbv]n¬ IYIfn ImWn®ncp∂p. ImWnIfmbn hntZinIƒ am{Xta D≠mIq. Ahsc Im≥hmkv sNbvXp sIm≠p t]mIp∂Xv Cu tlmén¬ sh®mbncp∂p. BZysa√mw HcpamXncn \√ _nkn\ v Inńbncp∂p. Hcp kµ¿iI\v AºXp cq]bmWv \nc°v. \mepw A©pw, Nnet∏mƒ F´pw ]Øpw hsc hntZinIsf In´mdp≠v. ]n∂oSv ]s£ thsdbpw c≠p ]m¿ńIƒ cwKsØØnbtXmsS \mcmbW≥\mbcpsS _nkn\ v tamiambnØpSßn. a‰p ≈h¿ IqSpX¬ kwLSnXambmWv _nkn\ v \SØns°m≠n cp∂Xv . XΩn¬ am’cyw D≠mIpIaqew c≠pt]¿°pw _nkn\ v IpdbpIbmsW∂p a\ nembt∏mƒ Ah¿ Hcp HØpXo¿∏nseØn. Hmtcm Znhkw HmtcmcpØcpsS hIbmbn IYIfn \SØmsa∂v . Ah¿ sNdnsbmcp lmƒ hmSIbv s°SpØv ÿncw thZnbm°n am‰n. HmtcmcpØ¿ CShn´p≈ Znhkw AhnsS IYIfn \SØn. \mcmbW≥\mb¿°v ]t£ AXn¬ tNcm≥ ]‰nbn√. Xm≥ Hcp òjWnbmbn Ah¿°p tXm∂nbn√. am{Xa√ Bhiys∏´ apX¬ apS°v AbmfpsS Iønen√mbncp∂pXm\pw. AXpsIm≠ bmƒ Ct∏mgpw tlmén¬ h∂v kz¥w Iym≥hmkv sNbvXp h∂p. AXp ]t£ A[nIw êhØmbn√. ImcWw a‰p≈ c≠pt]cpw tlménepw SqdnÃv Hmôknepw kzm[o\n®ncp∂p. AXpsIm≠v hntZinIƒ°v tlm én¬ \n∂v sImSp°p∂ hnhc bmƒ ßfnepw, SqdnÃv Hmôkn¬ \n∂v t^mƒUdnepw a‰p≈ \ncmi\mbn e`n°p∂ h¿ IYIfn \SØp∂ hnemk tem_nbnse Hcp amWv sImSp°mdv. AXp sIm≠v tkm^bn¬ Ah¿ \Kcw ImWp∂Xns‚ Hcp H‰bm∑mtcbpw `mKambn lmfn¬ t]mbn IYIfn {]Xo£n®psIm≠v I≠p aSßn. Ht∂m ct≠m H‰Xncn™ Iq\n°qSnbncp∂p.

A

C¥ym SptU ˛ 8 P\p-hcn 1992

hntZinIsf X\n°p Inńsb¶nembn. Btcbpw In´mØ Znhkw Abmƒ hoń¬ sN∂v taf°mtcbpw hmbv]m´pImtcbpw Hgnhm°pw. C∂pw AXpXs∂bmhpw ÿnXnsb∂v \mcmbW≥\mb¿ IcpXn. Ccp]Ønc≠v hntZinIƒ Hcpan®mWv Hcp _ n¬ h∂Xv. Aßns\bp≈hcn¬\n∂v X\nbv°v _nkn\ v In´m≥ t]mIp∂n√. Abmƒ \ncmi\mbn tem_nbnse Hcp tkm^bn¬ H‰bm∑mtcbpw {]Xo£n®psIm≠v Iq\n°qSn bncp∂p. apIfnep≈ UŒn¬°qSn Xmtg°Sn°p∂ XWpØ Im‰v Abmsf Atemkcs∏SpØm≥ XpSßnbncp∂p. Xs‚ {]mbØn\p ]‰nbX√ Fb¿ I≠oj≥. Abmƒ Fgpt∂‰v \S°m≥ XpSßn. Ac aWn°q¿ IqSn ImØp\n∂n´v t]mImw. dnk]vj\nse s]Ïpń amdnbncn°p∂p. Ct∏mƒ tUhnUv F∂p t]cp≈ Hcp sNdp∏°mc\mWv. ss\‰v Uyqń Abmƒ°mWv. \mcmbW≥\mb¿ Ahscsb√mw kzm[o\n°m≥ {ian®XmWv. hntZinIƒ hcptºmƒ Xs‚ t^mƒU¿ sImSp°Wsa∂pw Xs‚ IYIfn°v hcm≥ t{]cn∏n°Wsa∂pw Abmƒ Bhiys∏ńcp∂p. sshIpt∂cw F∂pw IWniambn hcnIbpw GgpaWnhsc Np‰n∏‰n \n¬°pIbpw sNbvX Adp] Ø©p hb pImct\mSv Ah¿°v kl-Xm-]ap≠mbncp∂p. BZysa√mw Ah¿ hntZinIƒ°v Abmsf ]cnNbs∏SpØpIbpw sNbvXncp∂p. As∂√mw Hcp amXncn \√ _nkn\ pw Inńbncp∂p. ]ns∂ GXm\pw hntZinIƒ Abmƒ IYIfn \SØp∂ ÿesØ∏‰n hfsc tamiambn ]d™t∏mƒ Ah¿ \n¿ØpIbmWp≠mbXv. hońs‚ ap‰ØpXs∂ sIńb sNdnb ]¥enembncp∂p IYIfn \SØn bncp∂Xv. sshIpt∂cw sImXpISn, ag°meØv Hmeta™ ]¥en¬ tNm¿®, Ab¬h°Øp\n∂v IpńIfpsS _lfw, CsX√mw \nc¥cieyambncp∂p. hntZinIƒ°v AsXm∂pw C„s∏ń√. \mcmbW≥\mb¿ tlmén\p ]pdØpIS∂p. C∂v Btcbpw Inńbn√. Xncn®p sN∂v taf°mtcbpw ]d™b°Ww. Ah¿ F{X Imew £an°psa∂dnbn√. Znhkhpw Ifnbns√¶n¬ AhcpsS Imcyhpw hnjaamWv. Ah¿ t]mhpIIqSn sNbvXm¬ Xm≥ icn°pw I„s∏Spw. bv‰n\p ]pdØp IS∂t∏mgmWv Hcp kmbv]v \S∂p hcp∂Xv I≠Xv. ]Ødp]Xp hb mbn´p≠mIpw. saen™ tZlw. Ab™ j¿´pw ]m‚ vkpw thjw. Npaen¬ Hcp XpWnk©n Xq°nbnńcn°p∂p. H‰t\m´Øn¬ Abmƒ Hcp kº∂\s√∂p \mcmb W≥ \mb¿°p tXm∂n. H∂pw icn°p ]dbm≥ ]‰n√. hntZinIsf kw_‘n®nStØmfw ]pdØp ImWp∂ cq]w \sΩ NXn°pw. Abmƒ Xncn®v tlménte°p \S∂p. kmbvhv Iu≠dnseØn dnk]vj\nÃpambn kwkmcn°pIbmWv. A bmƒ°v dnk¿thjs\m∂pap≠mbncp∂n√. ]t£ apdn Hgnhp≈Xp sIm≠v AhnsS ]m¿∏n °msa∂v dnk]v j \nÃv ]dbp∂Xv \mcmbW≥ \mb¿ tI´p. kmbvhv Xmt°m¬ hmßn Xncn™ t∏mƒ \mcmbW≥ \mb¿ Abmsf t\cn´p. lt√m. lt√m. Xs‚ IYIfn t^mƒU¿ \ońs°m≠v \mcmb W≥\mb¿ ]d™p. sF s]¿t^mw IYIfn. {SUojW¬ B¿´v t^mw Hm^v fw ho≠pw tIcf. bq sseIv kobnwKv? apdpIn. A¤pX IYmIfn? kmbv h n\p Xm¬]cyambn. Icamb thKØn¬ Abmƒ Xncn®v dnkv ] j≥ F√mw ad∂v Iu≠dnte°v \S∂p. tXmf B an¬thm°n°mc≥ sØ k©n Iu≠dn¬ sh®v Sm]vUm≥k¿ kn∏v Xpd∂v Hcp t^mƒUsdSp

\rØamSn.

C¥ym SptU ˛ 8 P\p-hcn 1992

sNdpIY

Øp. Sqdnkw hIp∏ns‚ Hcp t^mƒUdmbncp∂p AXv. AXp adn®v IYIfnbpsS t]Pp≈ `mKw Abmƒ \mcmbW≥ \mb¿°p ImWn®psImSpØp. IYmIfn. Upbp. s]¿t^mw Znkv Um≥kv? sbkv. t^mƒU¿ aS°n k©nbnem°n kn∏v hen®psIm≠v kmbvhp ]d™p. sF tKm hnYv bp. Im≥ bp shbv‰v t^m an t^msd ssh¬? sF \osU tNbv©v. jph¿. PsÃ I]vtfm^v an\n‰vkv. kmbvhv en^v‰n\SptØ°p \S∂p. ]Øpan\n‰n∂Iw kmbvhv Xncn®ph∂p. thjw amdnbncn°p∂p. \ndsb I≈nIfp≈ Hcp j¿´pw \c®p XpSßnb Po≥kpamWv thjw. kmbv]v Ipsd°qSn Dt∑jhm\mbn tXm∂n. bp lmhv ssSw t^msd Izn°o? lmfns‚ Hc‰Øp≈ _m¿ Nq≠n kmbvhv tNmZn®p. sh¬! Abmƒ kmbvhns‚ ]n∂mse \S∂p. _ob¿ IpSn®p sIm≠ncns° kmbvhv tNmZn®p. CXmWv \nßfpsS G‰hpw t]m∏pedmb Um≥kv At√. F s{Kbv‰v t^mw Hm^v B¿´v. kmbvhv Atacn°\mbncp∂p. an¬thm°nbn¬ Xmakn°p∂p. Rm≥ sNdp∏ImeØv Hcp Sm]v Um≥kdmbncp∂p. Abmƒ ]d™p. \s√mcp Um≥k¿. temIw apgph≥ k©cn®n´p≠v. Abmƒ Ioibn¬\ns∂SpØ t]gvkns‚ D≈dbn¬ \ns∂mcp t^mt´m X∏nsbSpØp. ]gsbmcp If¿ t^mt´m. Ct∏mƒ Bcpw Sm]v Um≥kv sNøp∂n√. hfsc ]g©\msb∂mWv ]dbp∂Xv. F\n°ptijw Bscsb¶nepw ]Tn∏n°Wsa∂p≠mbncp∂p. aIs\sb¶nepw. Ah\Xn¬ Xm¬]cyap≠mbncp∂n√. Iw]yq´¿ kb≥kn¬ Sm]v Um≥knt\°mƒ ]Wap≠v. Fs‚ Imew Ign™m¬ an¬thm°nbn¬ Hcp Sm]v Um≥k¿ D≠mhn√. \s√mcp Iebmbncp∂p AXv. F dnb¬ {Kqhn XnMv. kmbvhv _o b¿ samØn°p Sn®p. a§n¬ \n∂v Hcp henb I hnƒ _ob¿ Ip Sn®psIm≠v \mcmbW≥ \ m b ¿ ] d ™p. ChnsSbpw CsXms°bmWv kw`hn°p∂Xv. ¢m n°v Ie Iƒ C∂v B¿ °pw Bhiy an√. Rßƒ I Y I f n

t±lw GXm\pw t\m´pIƒ FSpØv \mcmbW≥\mbcpsS Iøn¬ sh®p. Aev]w aSntbmsS Abmƒ AXp hmßn

C¥ym SptU ˛ 8 P\p-hcn 1992

\SØp∂nSØv hntZinIƒ am{Xta h∂ncn°mdp≈q. Cu \m´pIm¿ h∂m¬ Rßƒ ]Ww Bhiys∏Smdn√. Ah¿ hcmdn√. C\n h∂m¬ Xs∂ ]Øpan\n‰n\Iw Xncn®pt]mhpIbpw sNøpw. Bcpw Cu IeIƒ ChnsS t]{SssWkv sNøp∂n√. kmbvhn\v AsXmcp ]pXnb Adnhmbncp∂p. Abmƒ IYIfnbpsS hoUntbm ^nenw I≠ncp∂p. \nd™ lmfn¬ t{]£IcpsS kPohamb {]XnIcWtØmsS \SØnb Hcp ]cn]mSnbmbncp∂p AXv. B Ie, ]nd∂phoW \mń¬ hfsc Npcp°w t]sc BkzZn°p∂p≈psh∂ Adnhv Abmsf thZ\n ∏n®p. Abmƒ F¥psImt≠m an¬thm°nbnse an\kap≈ Um≥kv ^vtfmdpIƒ Hm¿Øp. jqkpIƒ \neØp sh®Sn°ptºmgp≠mIp∂ i–w. jqkpw jqkpw IqńbSn°ptºmgp≠mIp∂ i–w. BZyw kmh[m\Øn¬, ]ns∂ ]ncnapd°w IqSn°qSn A]mcamb thKØn¬. Hmt´m ]nSn®v hońseØnbt∏mƒ Ggcbmbncn°p∂p. taf°mcpw hmbv]m´pImcpw t]mbn´p≠mbncp ∂n√. ]¥en¬ Hgn™p InS°p∂ ItkcIƒ t\m°ns°m≠v kmbvhv ]d™p. I can see there aren't many patrons for your art. Or are we too early? \mcmbW≥\mbcpsS apJsØ h√mbva I≠t∏mƒ kmbvhv a\ nemsb∂ `mhØn¬ Xebmń. \mcmbW≥\mb¿ Npń IpØp∂Xv kmbvhv t\m°nbncp∂p. CSbv°v Xs‚ Iønep≈ Iymad ¢n°v sNøpw. AcaWn°q¿ t\ctØ°v BSm\p≈ Dt±itabp≈q. \fNcnXw H∂mw ZnhkØn¬ c≠mw cwKw. \f≥ lwksØ ]nSn®v ZqXpambn ]d™b°p∂ `mKw am{Xw. HºXcbmbt∏mtg°pw thjanS¬ Ign™p. AXn\nSbv°v kmbvhn\v BSm≥ t]mIp∂ IYsb∏‰n Hcp sNdnb hnhcWw \¬Inbncp∂p. IY a\ nemhm≥ Bhiyamb ap{ZIsf∏‰nbpw Abmsf ]d™p a\ nem°nbncp∂p. tIfnsIm´p XpSßn. a±fhpw, sN≠bpw, tNße, CeØmfßfpw IqSn A¥co£Øn¬ Hc¤pX {]]©w kr„n®p. kmbvhv Cu Xmfebßfn¬ apgpInbncp∂p. FhnsStbm tI´pad∂ Hcp XmfØn\p th≠n At±lØns‚ a\ en™p. hmbv∏m´pIm¿ ]mSpIbmWv. "Du¿÷nXmib..........' ]m´pIm¿ tamiambncp∂p. ]t£ Xm≥ sImSp°p∂ {]XnêØn¬ X\n°v DÆnIrjvW Ipdp∏ns\ Inń√s√m. \nehnf°n¬ FÆ IØp∂ aWw ]c∂p. ]¥enen´ ]Øncp]Xp ItkcIfn¬ Hs∂mgnsI F√mw Hgn™p InS∂p. kmbvhv ]t£ AsXm∂pw {i≤n®n√. tÃPn¬ X\n°pth≠n Hcp°p∂ Zriyhncp∂n s‚ am[pcyw Hmtcm Xp≈nbpw BkzZn°pIbmbncp∂p, B ]gb Sm]v Um≥k¿. kmbvhns‚ {]XnIcWw \mcmbW≥ \mbcn¬ D’mlapW¿Øn. "{]nbam\km \o t]mbv htcWw.' tXmSn cmKØn¬ hmbv]m´pIm¿ ]mSpIbmWv. Ifn Ign™t∏mƒ \mcmbW≥ \mb¿ tÃPn¬ \n∂nd ßnh∂p. \fs‚ thjØn¬Øs∂. kmbvhv AbmfpsS ssI ]nSn®p Ipep°n. Fßns\bmWv \nßƒ°v \µn ]dtb≠X∂dnbn√. Abmƒ ]d™p. \nßƒ \s√mcp IemImc \mWv. Hmtcm \nanjhpw Rm≥ BkzZn®p. ]ns∂ Ft¥m Dƒt{]cWbp≠mbt]mse kmbvhv tÃPnte°p \S∂p. shdpsX jqkpsIm≠v \neØv Xńt\m°n. kna‚n´ \neØv jqkns‚ ASn`mKw sIm≠v I\Ø Bgap≈ i–ap≠mbn. At±lw Hcn°¬ IqSn jqkpsIm≠v Xń t\m°n. hfsc Bgap≈ i–w, ]s£ as‰mcp {ipXnbn¬ At±lw apJapb¿Øn \mcmbW≥\mbsc t\m°n. Abmƒ, kmbvhv jqkp sIm≠p≠m°nb amkvac i–Øn¬ tamlnX\mbn A\ßmsX \n∂p. ho≠pw Hcp tPmSn jqkpIƒ i–n®p. Cu {]mhiyw IqSpX¬ t\ctØ°v. kmbvhns‚ icocw BsIsbm∂p IpepßpIbpw sNbvXp. BZyw {]XnIcWap≠mbXv a±fw hmb\°mct‚XmWv. \rØw sh°p∂ Hcp tPmSn jqkpIƒ kna‚ v Xdbnep≠m°nb Xmfw Abmƒ a±fØn¬ `wKnbmbn A\pIcn®p. ]ns∂ sN≠°mcs‚ Dugambncp∂p. AtX Xmfw Xs∂ sN≠bn¬ hmbn°s∏´p. kmbvhv A¤pX tØmsS, kt¥mjtØmsS, \µntbmsS Ahsc t\m°n. ho≠pw jqkpIƒ Xmfw Nhpń. ]n∂mse a±fhpw sN≠bpw. kmbvhv Hcp sNdpNncntbmsS \rØw XpS¿∂p. B saen™ tZlw BSnbpe™p. Xmfw {ZpXKXnbnembn. hgnbnsehntStbm sh®v a±f °mc\pw sN≠°mc\pw \n¿Øn. AhcpsS hmtZym]IcWßƒ \neØnd°nsh®v Ah¿ B amkvacXbn¬ ebn®p \n∂p. Xmfw ho≠pw apdpIn. A¤pXIcamb thKØn¬ F√mw ad∂v B an¬thm°n°mc≥ Sm]vUm≥k¿

C¥ym SptU ˛ 8 P\p-hcn 1992

\rØamSn. ]Xn\©pan\n‰p Ign™n´p≠mIpw. ]cnkct_m[w h∂ t]mse Abmƒ \n¿Øn. Abmƒ £oWn ®ncp∂p. Xmsgbndßnh∂v Itkcbn¬ Ccp∂v Abmƒ ]d™p. hm´¿. •m n¬ sImSpØ sh≈w IpSn®psIm≠ncns° Abmƒ ]d™p. Rm≥ hnNmcn®p F\nbv°n\n Um≥kv sNøm≥ ]‰ns√∂v. t\cw sshInbncp∂p. hmbv∏m´pImcpw taf°mcpw t]mbn. lwkØn‚ thjan´ sNdp∏°mc≥ thjagn®p sh°m≥ AItØ°p t]mbn. Hgn™ Acßn¬ B c≠p IemImc≥am¿ am{Xambn. Ah¿ apJtØmSpapJw t\m°n \n∂p. ]d™dnbn°m≥ ]‰mØ Hcp `mhkΩn{iw kmbvhns‚ apJØpb ¿∂p. \mcmbW≥\mb¿ At∏mgpw IYIfn thjØnembncp∂p. AbmfpsS ssI]nSn®p Ipep°n s°m≠v kmbvhv ]d™p. at\mlcamsbmcp kmbm”Øn\v \µn. s]s´∂v Ft¥m Hm¿ØpsIm≠v kmbvhv Ioibn¬ \n∂v ]gvskSpØp. Fs‚ Iøn¬ tUmf¿ _n√pIsfbp≈p. Xnc°n¬ amdm≥ ]‰nbn√. \nßƒ F{XbmWv Nm¿Pv sNøp∂ sX∂dnbn√. At±lw GXm\pw t\m´pIƒ FSpØv \mcmW≥\mbcpsS Iøn¬ sh®p. Aev]w aSntbmsS Abmƒ AXp hmßn, FÆnt\m°n. AºXp tUmf¿. GItZiw c≠mbncw Ddp∏nI. AXp Xncn®p\ońs°m≠v Abmƒ ]d™p. CXp hfscb[nIamWv. Rm≥ AºXpdp∏nItb Nm¿Pv sNømdp≈q. t\m´pIƒ Xncn®phmßmsX kmbv h v ]gv k v aS°n Ioibn¬ C´p. Itkcbn¬ sh® Iymad k©nbnem°n tXmfØn´p. C\nsbmcn°¬ ImWmw. Abmƒ \S∂Iep∂Xv \mcmbW≥\mb¿ t\m°n\n∂p. Abmƒ At∏mgpw \fs‚ thjØnembn cp∂p. ImetZim¥cßsf AXnPohn®psIm≠v Ggp ISepw Ggp IcIfpw IS∂ph∂ Hcp alØmb IebpsS ImeSni–Øns‚ A\pcW\w AbmfpsS a\ ns\ kº∂am°nbncp∂p. !

C¥ym SptU ˛ 8 P\p-hcn 1992

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amhp sh´p∂ i–w Ct∏mgpw Hm¿Ωbnep≠v. Ft´m HºtXm hb p≈t∏mgmWv. Rm≥ GXm\pw \nanjw apºv A`bw {]m]n® ]pdsØ apdnbpsS P\eneqsS t\m°n\n∂p. ChnsS acWw ZqscbmWv. aq∂p apdnIfpw Hcp hcm¥bpw AIse. NmØbpw tImXbpw A∏pdØpw C∏pdØpw \n∂v tImSmensIm≠v B™psh´p∂p. NmØ shń tImSmen FSp°ptºmgpw tImXbpsS tImSmen ]Xn°p∂p. amhns‚ shfpØ NofpIƒ NnXdp∂p. tImSmen amhn≥XSnta¬ ]Xn°p∂ B i–w Hcp `bs∏SpØp∂ XmftØmsS XpS¿∂p. amhns‚ sImºpIsf√mw shń°gn™p. C\n XSnam{Xtabp≈q. Hmtcm shńepw amhns‚ XSn hnd®ncp∂p. t\cw ]pe¿∂pIgn™p. Ggp aWnsb¶nepw Bbn´p≠mIpw. apØ»n ]{¥≠p aWn°mWv acn®Xv. cm{XnXs∂ amhpsh´p∂ Imcyw Btcm ]d™t∏mƒ A∏p \mb¿ ]d™p. t\cw shfp°s´. Cs∏m amhv Hdßzmbncn°pw. A∏p\mb¿ kzXth D®ØnemWv kwkmcn°mdv. B⁄m]n°p∂ kzcØn¬. \mń¬ GsX¶nepw \mb¿ XdhmSpIfn¬ IeymWtam, sXc≠pIeymWtam, ]Xn\mdSnb¥nctam Ds≠¶n¬ A∏p \mb¿ FØp∂p. ASp°fap‰w Itødp∂p. ]Wn°mcnIsfs°m≠v ap‰w NmWIw sagpIn°p∂p. ]¥¬ CSm\p≈ Hcp°ßƒ sNøp∂p. henb Nc°pIƒ Ib‰m\p≈ ASp∏pIƒ Dbcp∂p. CsXm∂pw Bcpw Bhiys∏´p sNøp∂ sXm∂pa√. {]Xn^teO IqSmsXbp≈ tkh\w At±lØns‚ A[nImcambncp∂p. t\cw \s∂ shfpØt∏mƒ A∏p\mb¿ ]d™p. ∂m, amhv sh´zm. NmØbpw tImXbpw acw sh´m-\mbn tImSm-en-bp-ambn ]d-ºn-tebv°p \S-∂p. ac-Øns\ \a-kvI-cn®v sXm´p Xebn¬ shbv°v. NmØbpw tImXbpw acØn\p ap ºn¬ \akv I cn°p∂Xv Aev ] w Xami tbmsS Rm≥ t\m°n \n∂p. ]ns∂ _p≤nbpd®t∏mgmWv A∏p \mbcpsS alma\kvIX a\ nem bXv. ap∏Ø©psIm√w apºv hndIv hn¬°p∂ ISIsfm∂pw {KmaØnep ≠mbncp∂n√. At∏mƒ kz¥w hońse acw sh´pItb \nhØn bp≈q. actØmSp≈ kv t \lhpw BZchpw \nanØw Ct∏mgpw A∏p \mb¿ Fs‚ a\ n¬ Pohn°p∂p. hSs° apdnbn¬ \neØv apØ »nbpsS tZlw tImSn ]pX∏n®p InSØnbncn°bmWv . CS\mgnI bn¬IqSn t]mIptºmƒ Hcn°¬ t\m°n. ]ns∂ Fßns\tbm HmSn h∂v ]pdsØ apdnbn¬ A`bw {]m]n®p. F\nbv ° v Ipń°meØv ihicocw `bambncp∂p. apdnbnepw CS\mgnbnepw \ndsb kv { XoIƒ Ccp∂p. Btcm cmambWw hmbn °p∂p. AXmcmsW∂v t\m°m≥ \n∂n√. ]pdsØ apdnbn¬ AΩ \neØp

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hncn® ]p¬]mbn¬ Ccn°pIbmbncp∂p. Rm≥ AΩbpsS ASpØncp∂v P\eneqsS t\m°n. A∏p\mb¿ hnfn®p ]dbp∂p. F√m a°fpw Ipfn®v Cud\pSpØv hczm. t]c°pńIfpw Bbvt°ms´. BWp ßfv am{Xw aXn. Hcp hmgbne shńt°m.... B Ipd®pIqSn hepXmhmbncp∂p. kmcey. ]ns∂ _m°nbp≈Xpw IqSn shdIm°nt°m. ]Xn\mdSnb¥cØn\v thWw. thKamhs´. F¥m t\m°n \n°WXv. A∏p\mb¿ Dds° kwkmcn®p. Ct∏mƒ Hcp XamitbmsS Rm≥ Hm¿Øp. As∂√mw Bƒ°m¿ a‰p≈h¿°p th≠n i–apb¿Øn. C∂X√ ÿnXn. Ah\hs‚ ImcyØn\p th≠n am{Xta i–apb¿Øp∂p≈q. P\eneqsS t\m°nbt∏mƒ AΩmh∑m¿ \mept]cpw Ipfn®v Cud≥ X‰pSpØv \n¬°p∂p. ]ns∂ t\m°nbt∏mgmWv. A¤pXw Xs∂. sNdnbΩbpsS c≠p a°ƒ, cmPphpw hmkphpw, c≠pt]cpw Ft∂°mƒ XmsgbmWv, AhcpsS H∏w \n¬°p∂p. Fs∂ Bcpw ImWmXncn°m≥ Rm≥ AΩbpsS ]n∂n¬ HXpßnbncp∂Xv Hm¿Ωbp≠v. Rm≥ ]Xn™ kzcØn¬ AΩtbmSv tNmZn®p. Ahsc√w F¥n\mWv Cud\pSpØp \n¬°p∂Xv? apØ»nbpsS tZlw Zln∏n°m≥ sIm≠p t]m∆s√? a°fmWv AXv sNøpI. At∏m cmPphpw hmkphpw? Ahcpw IqSpw. sXm´p \n∂m aXn. \n\°pw IqSmtem. ChnsS Cßns\ Ccn°p∂ t\cw \n\°pw t]mbn ]nSn®psImSpØpIqsS? Rm≥ `bwsIm≠v Nqfnt∏mbn. Hcp ihicocw sXmSpI. BtemNn°m≥ IqSn hø. Hcn°¬ Ab¬h°Øv Hcmƒ acns®∂dn™t∏mƒ A\pPØnbpsS ssI ]nSn®v km[mcW t]mImdp≈ CShgn Hgnhm°n hf™v ]mSØpIqsS kvIqfnseØpw hsc HmSnbXmWv. Rm≥ AΩtbmSv IqSpX¬ tN¿∂ncp∂p. s]s´∂v Fs‚ ssI sXm´pt\m°n AΩ ]d™p. F¥mWnXv? \ns‚ ssI XWpØncn°p∂s√m. ssI am{Xa√, tZlwapgph≥ XWpØncp∂p. XWp∏v kln°m\mhmsX Rm≥ AΩtbmSv tN¿∂ncp∂p. F¥m Cßns\ t]Snbmbm¬? Rm≥ hndbv°m≥ XpSßn. AΩ Fs∂ aSnbn¬ InSØn apJw amdnSØn¬ Aa¿Ønsh®p. F\n°v Ipd®v NqSpw Bizmkhpw tXm∂n. ]pdØv A∏p\mbcpsS B⁄Iƒ Dds° Dbcp∂p≠mbncp∂p. C∂v ap∏Ø©psIm√ßƒ°ptijw Rm≥ AsX√mw Hm¿°p∂p. AΩbpsS amdnSØnse NqSpw kvt\ltØmsS Fs∂ hcn™ ssIIfpsS hm’eyhpw. AΩbpsS tZlw NnXbnte°v sh®v ]Øp an\n‰mbn ImWpw. klmbnIƒ hndIv ASp°n sh°pIbmWv. I¿ΩnbpsS i–w H´pw B¿{Zambncp∂n√. hfsc bm{¥nIambn \n¿∆nImc\mbn Abmƒ Dcphn´psIm≠n cp∂p. Rm≥ A∏p \mbsc Hm¿Øp. At±lw Ft∂ acn®pt]mbncp∂p. sshIpt∂cw ag s]bvXncp∂p. Im‰n¬ Cu¿∏ap≠v. AXv [\pcm{Xnsb IqSpX¬ XWp∏n®p. hoń¬ \n∂v Ipfn®v Cud\pSpØ tijamWv AΩbpsS tZlw, A\pPØnbpsS tXßepIƒs°m∏w Bw_pe≥knte°v FSpØpsh®Xv . Afnb\pw sNdnbΩbpsS a°fpw Iqń\p≠mbncp∂p. `mcX∏pgbpsS XocØp≈ ivaim\ØnseØnbt∏mƒ I¿Ωn ]d™p. Rßfv NnX Hcp°mw. \nßƒ aq∂pt]cpw s]mtgev apßnhczm. Btcm s]t{SmamIv k v IØn®ncp∂p. hmkp AXpwG‰n ap∂n¬ \S∂p. sh≈Øn\SpsØØm≥ aWeneqsS Ipd®pZqcw \St°≠n h∂p. s]t{SmamIv k ns‚ shfn®Øn¬ ]pgsh≈Øns‚ Hgp°v ImWmambncp∂p. ag ImcWw sh≈Øn\v sXfnhp≠mbncp∂n√. s]s´∂v AΩ Bw_pe≥kn¬ H‰°v InS°pbmsW∂v Hm¿Øp. Bw_pe≥kv \n∂ncp∂nSØv Ccp´mWv. s]t{Sm amIv k ns‚ shfn®Øn¬ Bw_pe≥kns‚ t\cnb cq]tcJ ImWmw. AXn¬ AΩ H‰bv ° v InS°pIbmsWt∂m¿Øt∏mƒ hnjaw tXm∂n. Hcp ]t£ Afnb≥ Imh¬ \n¬°p∂p≠mhpw. thKw apßn°bdn. sh≈Øn\v XWp∏p≠mbncp∂n√. ]t£ apßn°bdnbt∏mƒ Im‰pImcWw XWp∏v ap≈pIƒ t]mse tZlØp Xpf®pIbdn. \\™ tXm¿Øv Acbv°p Np‰pw sIń Rßƒ ivaim\Ønte°p \S∂p. Ipgn Ipgn®pIgn™ncp∂p. Ipgn°p c≠p hiØpw hmgØSn sh®Xn\p aosX acØns‚ aq∂papńIƒ hneßs\ sh®p. I¿ΩnbpsS i–w tI´p. C\n arXtZlw FSpØpsIm≠p hczm. Rßƒ AΩbpsS icocw FSpØpsIm≠ph∂p. C\n tZlw FSpØv NnX {]Z£nWw sh°Ww, aq∂p{]mhiyw. Xe sXt°m´v Xs∂ ]nSn°Ww. B, C\n AhnsS XSoΩev sht®mfp.

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Rm≥ Xe`mKamWv ]nSn®ncp∂Xv. cmPphpw hmkphpw \Sp`mKhpw Im¬ `mKhpw. Xe apńta¬ sh®t∏mgmWv I≠Xv. apńta¬ Hcp Iq¿Ø `mK ap≈nSØmWv AΩbpsS Xe hcnI. Rm≥ Xe Aev] apb¿Øn∏nSn®v apń Xncn®v an\pkap≈ `mKw t\m°nsh®p. B, AXp kmcey. acnt®m¿°v thZ\ns°ym∂p√y. I¿Ωn ]d™p. icnbmWv. Rm≥ Hm¿Øp. I¿ΩnbpsS hm°pIƒ aban√mØsX¶nepw kXyambncp∂p. AΩ AkpJßfpsSbpw thZ\IfpsSbpw temIØp\n∂p t]mbncn°p∂p. ]t£ AXp ]d™Xn\v Rm≥ I¿Ωnsb shdpØp. aI≥ ChnsS hczm. Iøn¬ ]q°ƒ X∂psIm≠v I¿Ωn ]d™p. acn® Bsf [ym\n®v ]q°ƒ tZlØv sh°zm. acn® Bƒ Fs‚ AΩbmWv. Rm≥ hnNmcn®p. acn® Bƒ F∂Xn\p ]Icw AΩsb [ym\n®v F∂v I¿Ωn ]d™ncps∂¶n¬. In≠nbn¬ sh≈saSp°p....... [ym\n°p........ Im¬ sXm´v hµn°q. I¿ΩnbpsS i–w bm{¥nIambn h∂psIm≠ncp∂p. AbmfpsS klmbn Iƒ AΩbpsS tZlØv hndIv HXp°n sh°m≥ XpSßn. I¿Ωn hndIp sIm≈nIƒ apdns®SpØv ioe Np‰n ]¥ap≠m°pIbmWv. aq∂p ]¥ßƒ D≠m°n Ah FÆbn¬ ap°nsbSpØp. NnX Xømdmbncp∂p. aI≥ ChnsS hczm. Hcp ]¥w Iøn¬ X∂psIm≠v I¿Ωn ]d™p. CXm \nehnf°n¬ \n∂v IØn®v Xe`mKØv sImfpØns°m≈p. a‰p c≠p ]¥ßƒ cmPphns‚bpw hmkphns‚bpw Iøn¬ sImSpØp. Aß´v D≈nte°v sht®mfp. NIncn Xo]nSn°s´. \nßfv Hcmfv \Sphnepw Hcmfv Im¬`mKØpw sht®mfp. B Aßns\Øs∂. NnX ]pI™pXpSßn. ]n∂n¬ \n∂v Im‰v hoinbncp∂p. hndIv ASp°n sh®Xp ImcWw XpWnsIm≠v aqSnb icocw ImWm≥ ]‰nbn√. ]t£ AΩ AhnsSXs∂bps≠∂ t_m[ap≠mbncp∂p. ag C\n s]øn√. Btcm BImiw t\m°n ]d™p. taLßƒ Hgn™p XpSßn. \£{X ßƒ sXfnbpIbmWv. ag \ns∂¶nepw Im‰n\v \√ XWp∏p≠mbncp∂p. Cud\pSpØ ImcWw XWp∏v tZlØn¬ hnSmsX \n∂p. I¿ΩnbpsS klmbnIƒ NnXbv°p Np‰pw \S∂v Xo ]nSn∏n°pIbmWv. Xo hfsc thKw ]nSn®p Ibdn. C\n \nßƒ Ccpt∂mfp I¿Ωn ]d™p. Xo \√ hÆw ]nSn®n´v t]mImw. acs°m≈nIƒ Hmtcmt∂mtcm∂mbn Xo ]nSn°p∂Xv t\m°n Rßƒ Hcp HmesaS™Xn¬ Ccp∂p. {ItaW XWp∏v AI∂p t]mIp∂Xv HcmizmktØmsS Rm≥ a\ nem°n. NqSv Fs‚ Cud≥ hkv{Xßsf DW°m≥ XpSßn. NqSv tZlØnte°p Xpf®p Ibdn XWp∏v Xosc AI‰n. AΩ AZriyamb ssIIƒsIm≠v BenwK\w sNøp∂t]mse. Rm≥ Ipńbmbncp∂t∏mƒ apØ»nbpsS acWkabØv AΩ Fs∂ sIń∏nSn®v Fs‚ `bhpw XWp∏pw AI‰nbncp∂Xv Hm¿Ω h∂p. C∂pw NnXbv°p apIfn¬\n∂v AtX NqSpw kvt\lhpw ]I¿∂v AΩ Fs∂ Bizkn∏n °m≥ {ian°bmWv kabsa{Xbmbn? Btcm hm®v t\m°n ]d™p. HºtXIm¬. \nßƒ aq∂pt]cpw ]pgbn¬ apßn hcp. F∂n´v ]pds∏Smw. sh≈Øn\v XWp∏p IqSnbncp∂p. AXphsc NqSn∂SpØp \n∂Xp sIm≠v XWp∏v IqSpX¬ cq£ambn tXm∂n. Ipfn®v Cud\pSpØv Ibdnbt∏mƒ NnX Bfn°ØpIbmWv . Xo\mºpIƒ AS°nsh® hndIpIjvWßsf apgph≥ s]mXn™p. Rm≥ ASpØp t]mbn√. Cu AIeØnepw NnXbn¬\n∂p h∂ NqSv Fs‚ XWp∏I‰n F\nbv ° v

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Bizmkacpfn. Ggmw k©b\w. Rm\pw hmkphpw I¿Ωnbpw am{Xtabp≠mbncp∂p≈p. Cud\pSpØpsIm≠v XWpØmdnb NnXbv°cpIn¬ Aÿn s]dp°m≥ Ccn°ptºmƒ Rm≥ ho≠pw AΩsb Hm¿Øp. Cu Ggp Znhkßfn¬ F¥psImt≠m AΩ A[nIw a\ n¬ h∂ncp∂n√. AΩbpsS PohnXw Hcp amXncn \∂mbn cp∂p. [\ysa∂pXs∂ ]dbmhp∂ PohnXw Fgp]Xmw hb n¬ kzm`mhnIambn Ahkm\n°p∂Xn¬ hfscb[nIw hyk\nt°≠ Imcysam∂pan√. HcmgvNtb InS∂n´pap≈p. acn°p∂ kabØv c≠p a°fpw AcnInep≠mbncp∂p. I¿ΩnbpsS i–w ]n∂n¬\n∂v tIƒ°m\p≠v. Bhp∂{X Aÿn s]dp°nsbSp°Ww. NmcØn¬ NnIbptºmgmWv B Aÿn InńbXv . ssIøns‚ F√v . a‰v F√pIsf√mw Hcp amXncn {Zhn®pt]mbncp∂p. NnX AXns‚ I¿Øhyw \∂mbn \n¿∆ln®ncn°p∂p. Cu F√pam{Xw tISpIqSmsX shfpØv NmcØn\nSbn¬ InS°p∂p. Rm≥ s]s´∂v AΩbpsS temeamb IøpIƒ Hm¿Øp. hfsc Ipń°meØmWv. Hcn°¬ ]\n]nSn®p InS°pIbmbncp∂p. taemsI thZ\bpambn InS°ptºm gmWv AΩ h∂Xv. ta¬ thZ\n°p∂p F∂p ]d™t∏mƒ AΩ s\©n¬ XtemSm≥ XpSßn. hfsc Bizmkw tXm∂n. Ipsd t\cw XtemSnbn´p≠mIWw. Rm≥ B kpJØn¬ Ddßnt∏mbn. Cu shfpØ Aÿn t\m°ns°m≠ncns° Rm≥ ho≠pw Hcp Ipńbmbn amdpIbmbncp∂p. Hcp XWpØ Im‰v hoin. Rm≥ hndbv°m≥ XpSßn. hndbv°p∂ s\©n¬ \n∂v Hcp tXß¬ Db¿∂ph∂Xv Rm≥ Xs∂ Adn™n√. Cu XWp∏I‰m\pw kvt\lØns‚ NqSv ]Icm\pw AΩ Ct∏mƒ Cs√∂ t_m[w Dbcsh Fs‚ tXß¬ Hcp s]mń°c®nembn amdn. !

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"Ccpńs‚ adhn¬ ]Xpßn h∂v Ah¿ acp`qanbpsS amdn¬ c‡w Nn¥pw. cmPyw sIm≈bn°s∏SpIbpw cmPhoYnIƒ A`bm¿∞nIfm¬ \ndbpIbpw sNøpw.' Ddßns°m≠ncp∂ cmPytØ°v i{Xpssk\yw Cc®pIbdn. IhNnX hml\ßfn¬, hnam\ßfn¬. A¥co£Øn¬ kv t ^mS\ßfpsS i–hpw shSnacp∂ns‚ cq£aWhpw, `qanbn¬ \mihpw hnXdnsIm≠v Ah¿ apt∂dn. sNdpXmbncp∂ B cmPyØv Xmakn ®ncp∂h¿ kam[m\{]nbcmbncp∂p. AXpsIm≠mWv i{Xphns‚ òjWn ]ehpcp D≠mbn´pw Ah¿ bp≤Øns\mcpßmsX kº¬ kar≤nbnte°p≈ ]mXbneqsS Ncn®Xv. `qK¿`Øn¬ {]IrXn I\n™p\¬Inb [mXp°fpsS [mcmfnØw AXp kpKaam°n. AXp ]pdsØSp°pI am{Xta th≠nbncp∂p≈p. IdpØ s]m∂v hmßm≥ ImØp\n¬°p∂ I∏epIfm¬ XpdapJw \nd™p. F´psIm√ambn Ing°p≈ cmPyhpambn bp≤Ønte¿s∏ńcp∂ ta_kv sXt°m´v h∂v Xs‚ sNdnb cmPyw B{Ian°ns√∂ [mcW cmPmhn∂p≠mbncp∂p. F¥ns\∂dnbmØ \o≠ bp≤ambncp∂p AXv. c≠p cmPyßfnepw Xmkn®ncp∂h¿ Htc aXÿcmbncp∂p. Htc aXØns‚ c≠pƒ]ncnhpIƒ am{Xw. aXw am{XamWv kmtlmZcyØns‚ am\ZWvUsa∂v IcpXnbmepw AXv {`mXrlXybmWv. {`mXrlXysb hnπhØns‚ ]cnthjw Nm¿Øn \ymboIcn°mtam? Ing°≥ cmPyhpambn bp≤w \S∂p sIm≠ncns° sXt°ms´mcp bp≤\nc Xpd°m≥ ta_kn\v Xm¬]cyap≠mhns√∂v cmPmhp IcpXn. At±lw {]PIfpsS t£aØn¬ X¬]c\mbncp∂p. H∂pIn¬ {]PIfpsS D¬°¿jw As√¶n¬ bp≤k∂mlw. CXp c≠pw IqSn \SØm≥ Xs‚ cmPyØn\v Ignbns√∂t±lw hnizkn®p. cm{Xn, cmPyw im¥ambpdßptºmƒ i{Xp Cc®pIbdn. \Kcßƒ _em¬kwKw sNøs∏´p. cmPyw _em¬kwKw sNøs∏´p. kº∂cmbn kam[m\{]nbcmbn Pohn®ncp∂ P\X Hcp cm{Xn sIm≠v A`bm¿∞nIfmbn amdn. P\ßtfmsSm∏w cmPmhn\pw Ab¬cmPytØ°v ]memb\w sNtø≠nh∂p. Hcp Znhkw Xncn®phcmsa∂ {]XymitbmsS. cmPmhns\ Inńbns√∂p I≠t∏mƒ i{Xp cmPktlmZcs\ ZmcpWambn h[n®p. Hcmgv N sØ bm{XbpsS A¥yØn¬ \mń¬ Xncns®Ønbt∏mƒ a[pkqZ\≥ BtemNn®p. X\nbvs°√mw \„s∏´p. c≠psIm√ambn kºmZn®sX√mw Cs´dn™v HmtS≠nh∂p. cmhnseØs∂ _m¶pIƒ ap{Zsh®ncp∂p. sshIpt∂cambt∏mtgbv°v Xo¿®bmbn, HmSpIbmWv \√sX∂v. FhnsSbpw i{Xphns‚ IhNnX hml\ßƒ am{Xw. Iøn¬ Inńb km[\ßsf√mw Imdn¬ \nd®v bm{Xbmbn. \ncØpIƒ ]eXpw AS®nńcn°bmWv. ASbv°mØ hgnIƒ At\zjn®v Abmƒ Imdn¬ Np‰n. ZniIƒ°v A¿∞an√mXmbn. Hcp Ihebn¬ sh®v i{Xp`S∑mcm¬ Xm≥ sIm≈bSn°s∏´p. Imdpw AXnep≠mbncp∂ hne ]nSn® km[\ßfpw \„s∏´p. ]ns∂ shdpw ItømsS Hm´w Xs∂. cmPyØns‚ AXn¿Øn IS∂t∏mgmWv Hm´w \n¿ØnbXv. ]m‚ns‚ Ioibnep≈ t]gvkn¬ Ipsd Id≥kn t\m´pIƒ am{Xw. hnebn√mØ B t\m´pIƒ i{Xp`S∑m¿°v Bhiyan√mbncp∂p. CeIvt{SmWnIv km[\ßƒ Iømfptºmƒ AhcpsS apJØpb¿∂ B¿ØnIe¿∂ kt¥mjw a[pkqZ\≥ Ct∏mgptam¿Øp. \mń¬, HcmgvNbmbn kw{àØns‚bpw A\n›nXXzØns‚bpw {]£pœXbn¬ ImØncp∂ s]Ïpń Xs∂ I≠t∏mƒ hnXpºn°c™p. IeymWw Ign™v HcmgvNtb Ah¿ H∏ap≠mbncp ∂p≈q. ]ns∂ Abmƒ, ]nd∂ \mń\p Xcm≥ IgnbmØ PohnXam¿§w tXSn acp`qanIfpsS \mńte°p t]mbn. cm{Xn `mcybpsS Cfw icocw AcpatbmsS tN¿Øp]nSn®p InS°ptºmƒ Abmƒ c≠psIm√w apºv X\n°v A`bw X∂ \KcsØ Hm¿Øp. ssNX\yhpw kuµcyhpw ku`mKyhpw HØnWßnb \Kcw. C∂hƒ _em¬kwKw sNøs∏ńcn°p∂p. \ap°v t]mbsX√mw t]ms´. \fn\n Abmsf Bizkn ∏n°m\mbn ]d™p. C\n \nßƒ Ftßm´pw t]mtI≠. ChnsS F{X BfpIƒ Pohn°p∂p. ]Wans√¶n¬ AXns‚ Xcwt]mse Pohn°mw. a\ am[m\amWv hepXv. Abmƒ AhfpsS \·amb amdn¬ tN¿∂pInS°p∂ sNdnb XmensNbn≥ t\m°n. Bdp a[phn[p cmhpIfn¬ AhfpsS \nd™ amdn¬ sI´p]nW™pInS∂ kz¿ÆameIƒ Abmƒt°m¿Ωh∂p. C∂v Ahsbm∂pan√. tPmen tXSnt∏mIm\mbn ISw hmßnbsX√mw Abmƒ°v Xncn®p sImSp°mambncp∂p. ]t£ Abmƒ BZyw {ian®Xv \fn\nsb sIm≠p t]mIm\mbncp∂p. H∏w Xmakn∏n°m≥ AhnsS Hcp°w Iq´pI bmbncp∂p. ]‰nbns√¶n¬ ]ns∂ ]Wap≠mbns´¥p Imcyw? Iem-Iu-apZn 30

Hgn™p InS°p∂ IgpØpw ssI Ifpw ]e s\‰nIƒ Npfn∏n°p∂ Xns\∏‰n \fn\n FgpXnbt∏mƒ Abmƒ Xncns®gpXn. \o hcm≥ t]m Ip∂Xv kz¿Æw hnfbp∂ \mńte °mWv . \n\°v \„s∏´sX√mw Xncn®pIn´pw. "Ggp ISen\pw Ggp Ic°pw A∏pdØp\n∂v klmblkvXw \ofpw. Ah¿ h∂v hmbphnepw `qanbnepw PeØnepw ÿm\apd∏n°pw. AhcpsS tXm°ns‚ K¿÷\w i{Xp\ncIsf `bs∏SpØpw.' i{Xphn¬ \n∂p ]memb\w sNbv X cmPmhv sX°≥ cmPyØv A`bw tXSn. acp`qanIƒ \nd™ B cmPyhpw IdpØ s]m∂n\m¬ kar≤ambncp∂p. hS°p\n∂p≈ B{IaWØns‚ IY B cmPmhpw Adn™ncp∂p. i{Xphns‚ e£yw Xs‚ cmPyhpw ]n∂oSv sXm´p sX°pw Ing°pap≈ cmPyßfpw BsW∂pw At±lw Adn™ncp ∂p. ]Sn™mdv sN¶S¬ htcbpw, sX°v Ad_n°S¬htcbpw, hS°v Icn¶S¬ htcbpw D≈ `q\nc. s]m∂phnfbp∂ Cu `q\nctaep≈ AXym¿Øn ImcWw ta_kv Ign ™ F´psIm√ambn Ing°≥ cmPy hpambn \SØnh∂ bp≤w \n¿Ø em°pIbpw kam[m\Øn\p≈ DSºSn Ing°≥ cmPyØn\\pIq ehpw DZmchpamb hyhÿbn¬ D≠m°pIbpw sNbvXXv cmPmhdn ™p. F´psIm√ambn \S∂ almbp≤ Øn¬ CcpcmPy°m¿°pw I\Ø Bƒ\mihpw kzØp\mihpap≠m bXmbpw, sXcphpIfn¬ I_‘ßƒ No™p \mdp∂Xmbpw, hmbphn¬ hnjhmXIØns‚ \odep≈ Xmbpw AXp izkn®v ]mhßƒ {]mWthZ\tbmsS ]nS™v Poh≥ shSnbp∂Xmbpw D≈ IYIƒ hS°p\n∂pw Ing°p\n∂pw h∂ km¿∞hmlI kwLßƒ AXmXpImew Adnbn®ncp∂p. ta_kns\ kq£n°Wsa∂ Xm°oXpw cmPmhn∂p ImemImeßfn¬ e`n®ncp∂p. icWw tXSnb cmPmhpw \¬Inb cmPmhpw Np‰pw òjWnbv°ncbmb cmP°∑mtcmSp IqSnbmtem Nn®p. i{Xp A]ISImcnbmWv. \ap°p≈ hn`hßƒ sIm≠hs\ XSp°m≥ Ignbn√. i{Xp \njvTqc \msW∂pam{Xa√ a\pjyPohnXØn\v Xosc hne I¬∏n°mØh\pamWv. Hcn©p aÆn\pth≠n ]Xn\mbncw Poh≥ HSp°phm\pw aSnbv°mØh≥. IcpØs\ tXSnbp≈ bm{Xbn¬ Ah¿ FØnbXv `qanbpsS adphiØp≈ cmPyØmbncp∂p. \£{XßfpsS cmPyw. i{Xphns‚ km{amPyXrjvW°v Htc Hcp acp∂v Cu cmPyamsW∂h¿°dnbm ambn cp∂p. Znhkßƒ°p≈n¬ AXym[p\nI bpt≤m]IcWßƒ AXn¿Ønbn¬ \nc Øs∏´p. i{Xphns‚ apt∂‰w XSbs∏´p. hmSbvs°SpØ Nmbvhn¬ ]pdØv Hcp sNdnb t_m¿Uv sh®n´p≠v. "_m\dpIfpw ssk≥t_m¿UpIfpw hc®psImSp°pw.' apºn¬ \nh¿Ønsh® tImdØpWnbn¬ _m\¿ hc°ptºmƒ a[pkqZ\≥ BtemNn®p. C\n ]Wap≠m°m≥ ]‰ptam? \„s]´sX√mw Xncn®psImSp°m≥? _nkn\ v XpSßnbn´v aq∂p amkambn. Ct∏mƒ In´p∂ hcpam\wsIm≠v I„n®v c≠p t\cw `£Ww Ign°msa∂mbn´p≠v. F∂pw tPmenbp≠mhn√. cm{„ob ]m¿ńIfpsS tbmKßƒ, As√¶n¬ GsX¶nepw bq\nbs‚ kwÿm\ ktΩf\ßƒ, Ch IqSptºmƒ Hcp amXncn tPmenbp≠mhpw. A√mØt∏mƒ h√ ]oSnIbpsS Iem-Iu-apZn 31

bpw t]¿ FgpXm\p≈ tPmentb In´q. CXphsc `mcysb ]ńWn°ntS≠n h∂nń√. i{XpcmPyØns∂Xnscbp≈ t_mw_m{IaWw Snhnbn¬ I≠t∏mƒ Abmƒ kt¥mjn®p. X\nbv°`bw X∂ cmPyw hntamNn°s∏SpIbmWv. cm{Xn Snhnbn¬ hm¿ØIƒ tIƒ°ptºmƒ Abmƒ \fn\ntbmSp ]dbpw. Hcp sIm√Øn\Iw Xncn®pt]mIm≥ ]‰nbm¬ aXnbmbncp∂p. \fn\n H∂pw ]dbn√. bp≤Øns‚ òIcX AhfpsS IÆnep≠mhpw. Cc®p ]d°p∂ t_mw_dpIƒ. ]d∂p sN∂v IWniambn e£yw XI¿°p∂ ansskepIƒ. F{Xsb{X \nc]cm[nIfmWv NsØm Spßp∂Xv. F√mw Hcp a\pjys‚ sX‰p ImcWw. AXntamlw ImcWw. a\pjyXzsØ [n°cn°p∂, XrWh¬°cn°p∂ Hcp \cm[a≥ ImcWw. C\n \nßƒ Xncn®pt]mIp∂n√. \fn\n ]d™p. ChnsS In´p∂XpsIm≠v \ap°v Ignbmw. a[pkqZ\≥ H∂pw ]dbmsX BtemNn®ncn°pw. Xm≥ `£Ww tXSnsbØnb \KcsØ∏‰n. X\nbv°v AcpatbmsS A`bw X∂ \KcsØ∏‰n. Xm≥ kvt\ln®ncp∂ \KcsØ∏‰n. C∂hƒ A\mYbmWv. "BImiØn¬A·nh¿jap≠mhpw. ]Iepw cmhpw H∂mhpw. `qan IpepßpIbpw sIńSßƒ H∂mbn \new ]Xn°pIbpw sNøpw.' cmPmhv Dd°an√mØ cmhpIƒ Ign®pIqń. A\mY\mb Xs‚ cmPyw, ASnaØw ASnt®¬∏n°s∏´ Xs‚ {]PIƒ. HmSnt∏mIm≥ aSn®hsc i{Xpssk\yw ]oUn∏n°p∂ hm¿ØIƒ. ta_kv Xs‚ \ne Dd∏n°pIbmWv. ]nSn®S°nb cmPyw hn´psImSp°m\p≈ Bhiyw Hmtcm cmPyØp\n∂pw h∂p. {ItaW temIsØ F√m cmPyßfpw i{Xphns\Xncmbn. Abmƒ Ipepßnbn√. P\kwJybpsS ]Ønsem∂p hcp∂ ]´mfw AXn¿ØnIfn¬ Imh¬ \n∂p. cmkmbp[ßƒ ]Wnbp∂ imeIƒ ho≠pw kPohambn. amcIamb hmXIßƒ Aa¿Øn t]SIßfneSbv°s∏´p. amcItcmK ßfpsS _oPßƒ Ir{Xnaambn \n¿Ωnbv°s∏´p. Ahbpw i{Xp\ncIfn tebvs°dnbm≥ ]mIØn¬ t]SIßfn¬ \ndbv°s∏´p. AIeßfn¬ t]mbn Xo sNmcnbp∂ hmWßƒ sXmSp°m≥ ]mIØn¬ Hcp°n\n¿Øn. Ing°≥ cmPyhpambp≠m°nb DSºSn A\pkcn®v B cmPyhpambp≠mbncp∂ bp≤w \n¿ØpIbpw AhnsSbp≠mbncp∂ ssk\ysØ apgph≥ ]n≥hen®v sX°≥ AXn¿Ønbn¬ sIm≠phcnIbpw sNbvXp. ]nSn®S°s∏´ cmPyw Xncn®p \¬Im≥ ta_kn\v \m¬]Ø©p cmhpIfpw \m¬]Ø©p ]Iep Ifpw kabw \¬Is∏´p. A\p\bØns‚ i–w Abmƒ sNhns°m≠n√. \m¬]Ø©p cmhpIfpw \m¬]Ø©p ]IepIfpw Ign™Xns‚ ]nt‰∂v cm{Xn BImisØ {]Iº \w sIm≈n®p sIm≠v hnam\ßƒ i{XpcmPytØ°v IpXn®pb¿∂p. amcIamb t_mw_pIƒ h¿jn° s∏´p. \Kcßƒ NmºembnØpSßn. ta_kv Ipepßnbn√. Ahs‚ Al¥ Ahs‚ cmPytØmfw hepXmbncp∂p, Ahs‚ Iq‰≥ bp≤k∂mltØmfw hepXmbncp∂p. Ahs‚ _p≤niq\yXtbmfw hepXmbncp∂p. BfllXym ]camb B bp≤Øn¬ \n∂v Abmƒ ]n∑mdnbn√. cmhnse HºXpaWn°pXs∂ a[pkqZ\≥ IS Xpd∂p. Hcp _m\¿ ]IpXnbmbn´p≠v. AXpwIqSn sNbvXpIgn™m¬ Iønep≈ tPmensb√mw Xo¿∂p. hmSIbpw klmbnbmb ]ø\v iºfhpw sImSp t°≠ kabambncn°p∂p. c≠pamkw Hcp amXncn H∏n®p. Cu amkw Cßns\ t]mbm¬ hmSIbv°p≈ Imiv D≠m°m≥ Ignbpsa∂v tXm∂p∂n√. acp`qanbpsS \mńse bp≤w ChnsSbpw £maap≠m°n ØpSßnbncn°p∂p. BcpsS Iønepw ]Wan√. sXcs™Sp∏ns‚ tPmensb√mw Xt∂°mƒ apºv cwKsØØnbh¿ XńsbSpØp. sNdnsbmtcmlcn am{Xw Inń. Ct∏mƒ AXpw Ign™p. C\n H∂pw {]Xo£n°m\n√. At∏mgmWv B a\pjy≥ Ibdnh∂Xv. Hcp Pq∫bpw ap≠pw thjw. a[pkqZ\≥ Xncn™pt\m°nb t∏mƒ Abmƒ AhnsS \n∂psIm≠v Np‰pw \oco£n°pIbmbncp∂p. tPmen IpdhmWt√? I≠p]nSpØw icnbmsW¶nepw AXv a[pkqZ\v C„s∏ń√. Abmƒ tNmZn®p. F¥mWv th≠Xv? Fs‚ t]cv Nn{Xs\∂mWv. Rm≥ Xncph\¥]pcØp\n∂v hczmWv. Ipd®p tPmen≠mbncp∂p. F¥p tPmen? bp≤w \S∂psIm≠ncn°bmWv. Abmƒ ]d™p. A[m¿ΩnIamb bp≤amWnXv. \ap°v \Ωƒ GXp ]£ØmsW∂v ]dtb≠nbncn°p∂p. FhnsStbm tI´p ad∂ hm°pIƒ. Btcm BtcmtSm ]d™ hm°pIƒ. Im‰n¬ Ipsd°mew Xßn \n∂v Ct∏mƒ ImXn¬ ]Xn°pIbmWv. Hcp {]tIm]\hpan√msX B a\pjy≥ XpSßnbXv a[pkqZ\≥ C„s∏ń√. Abmƒ Aev]w ]cnlmktØmsS tNmZn®p. \Ωƒ GXp ]£ØmWv? \Ωƒ F°mehpw km{amPyhmZnIƒ°pw IpØIapXemfnIƒ°pw FXncmWv. D]tbmKn®p tX™ {]mNo\amb hm°pIƒ, AXp ]pds∏Sphn® a\pjys‚ ]m∏cmb hy‡nXzw Adnbn®p. a[pkqZ\\v Ad∏p tXm∂n. C\n Hcp \q‰m≠p Ign™mepw Ch¿ CtX hm°pIƒ Xs∂bmWv D]tbmKn°pI. dn]vhm≥ hn¶vƒam¿. a‰p ]e aXÿtcbpw \ΩpsS AWnIfn¬ FØn°m≥ Hcp ]pXnb I¿Ω]≤Xn Xømdm°nbn´p≠v. Iem-Iu-apZn 32

Hc\p{KloX IemImc\mb \nßƒ Cu ]≤Xn Gs‰SpØp \SØW sa∂mWv Rßƒ°p ]dbm\p≈Xv. Hcp ISemkpNpcpƒ FSpØv \nh¿ØnsIm≠v Abmƒ ]d™p. CXmWv ]≤XnbpsS IcSptcJ. CXv ChnsS \S∏m°p∂Xn\v \nßƒ NpaXe Gs‰Sp°Ww. c≠p e£w cq]bmWv Dt±in®n´p≈Xv. ]Ww c≠p KU°fmbn HcmgvN°Iw FØn°mw. "Ah≥ i{Xp°sf `n∂n∏n°m≥ {ian°pw A]cnNnX≥ sIm≠phcp∂ ktµiw kXyw ad®psh°pw.' ta_kv NqXmSpIbmbncp∂p. acp`qanbpsS a°ƒ°v PqX∑mtcm Sp≈ hntZzjw NqjWw sNbvXm¬ X\ns°Xnscbp≈ AWnIfn¬ `n∂n∏p≠m°m≥ ]‰psa∂bmƒ IcpXn. PqX∑m¿s°Xnsc hmW ßƒ sXmSp°m≥ XpSßnbXv B e£yw a\ n¬ I≠psIm≠mWv Xncn®Sn DSs\bp≠mIpsa∂pw, B Xncn®Sn acp`qanbpsS a°sf sb√mw X\n°p Iogn¬ AWn \nc°m≥ ]cym]vXam°psa∂pw i{Xp Dd∏n®p. PqX¿ ]t£ Xe sIm≠√msX lrZbw sIm≠p Nn¥n°mdn√. i{Xp sXmSpØphn´ {]mNo\ßfmb hmWßƒ°v kq£v a X Ipdhmbncp∂p. Ah bmsXmcp t]mdepta¬∏n°msX ]ebnSØpw hoWp s]mńsØdn®p. i{Xphns∂Xncmbn \nc∂ cmPyßƒ PqX ∑m¿°v hmWhn[zwkn\nIƒ sImSpØp. AhcpsS AXn¿ØnIfn¬ \n∂v hnt£]n°s∏´ B[p\nI hmWßƒ i{Xphns‚ ]ucmWnI hmWßsf \njv{]bmkw \in∏n®p hogvØn. ta_kns‚ B{Klw ên®n√. At∏mgmWbmƒ ]Ww sNehgn°m≥ XpSßnbXv. a‰p cmPy ßfn¬ Iem]Øns‚ hnØpIƒ Fdnbm≥ IdpØ s]m∂v hn‰p≠m °nb ]Ww [mcmfnØtØmsS sNehm°nØpSßn. a[pkqZ\≥ ISemkp NpcpsfSpØp \nh¿Øn. ISemkns‚bpw A®SnbpsSbpw `mjbpsSbpw {]tXyIX sIm≠v B cq]tcJ hntZiØp\n∂p h∂XmsW∂p hy‡w. ISemkn\v AØdns‚ aWap≠mbncp∂p. Abmƒ hmbn°m≥ XpSßn. hmbn°pwtXmdpw AbmfpsS a\ n¬ hntZzjhpw {]XnImchpw ]X™ps]mßn. BZy t]PpIfn¬ i{Xphns‚ A]Zm\ßfmbncp∂p. i{Xp Fßns\ hnπht\Xmhmsb∂v, i{Xphns‚ Iogn¬ AWn\nc∂v km{amPy hmZnIsfbpw AhcpsS ]cnNmcItcbpw Fßns\ XI¿°Wsa∂v. a[pkqZ\≥ ]√p sRcn®p. Hcp t]Pn¬ \ndsb bp≤Øns∂Xnsc bp≈ ap{ZmhmIyßfmbncp∂p. ]n∂oSp≈ t]PpIfn¬ kacØn\p≈ Blzm\amWv. AXns‚ hniZmwißƒ. i{Xphns‚ Hcp e£w Nn{Xßƒ Fßns\ hnXcWw sNøWsa∂v . {]IS\ßfn¬ Ah D]tbmKnt°≠sX ßns\sb∂v. _m\dpIfn¬ FgptX≠ ap{ZmhmIyßƒ. òaamb {]IS\ßƒ kwLSn∏n°p∂Xns\ ∏‰nbp≈ hniZmwißƒ, CsX√mw Hcp Pn√bn¬ kwLSn∏n°m≥ c≠pe£w cq]. tIcfØn¬ F√m Pn√bnepw IqSn sNesh¥phcpw? a[pkqZ\s‚ IÆp X≈n. Hcp Ip‰hmfnbpsS taep≈ c‡°d ambv°m≥ e£ßƒ, tImSnIƒ. Snhnbn¬ Zn\w{]Xn ImWp∂ {]IS\ßƒ a[pkqZ\≥ Hm¿Øp. i{Xphns‚ henb Nn{Xßƒ Db¿Øn∏nSn®v Sn.hn.Iymad°p apºn¬ Xp≈p∂ {]IS\°m¿. AXp apgph≥ ]cmt]£ IqSmsXbp≈XmsW∂v IcpXphm≥ Abmƒ°p Ign™n√. F√mw Htc ]mt‰Wn¬ BWv \S∂ncp∂Xv. i{Xphns‚ Nn{Xßƒ ]Xn\mbnc°W°n\v hnXcWw sNbvX {]IS\ßƒ Hcp°nb Ip‰Øn\v ]e cmPyßƒ°pw AbmfpsS \bX{¥ {]Xn\n[nIsf cmPyØp\n∂pw ]pdØmt°≠nh∂p. B {]IS\ ßƒ am{Xw ho≠pw ho≠pw aXnhcmØ ań¬ Snhnbn¬ ImWn°pIbpw, i{Xphns‚ \bX{¥ {]Xn\n[nIfpsS AńadnIsf∏‰n ]dbmXncn°pIbpw sNøpI hgn t{]£I¿°v A]q¿Æamb Nn{Xam Wv Snhn \¬Inbncp∂Xv. Bcp tNmZn°m≥? bp≤w XpSßnb tijw Abmƒ Xs‚ ]gb tdUntbm icnbm°nsbSpØp. Ipsd °qSn t\cpw s\dnbpw D≈ hm¿ØIƒ Xcp∂ BImihmWnbpw _n_nknbpw tIƒ°m≥ XpSßn. a[pkqZ\≥ ISemkpNpcpƒ Xncn®psImSpØp. Cu a\pjy≥ F´psIm√w Xs‚ Hcp Ab¬cmPyhpambn \nc¥cw bp≤w sNøpIbmbncp∂p. Adnbmtam? Nn{X≥ Xebmń. c≠p e£Øne[nIw kz¥w ssk\yßsfbmWv IpcpXnsImSpØXv. AwK`wKw h∂h¿ thsd Iem-Iu-apZn 33

c≠pe£w hcpw. A{XtØmfw Bƒ\miw Ab¬ cmPyØpap≠mbn. hnjhmXIßfpw amcIßfmb tcmKßfpsS sshdkpIfpw bp≤Øn¬ D]tbmKn®p. A∂p \nßsf√mw FhnsSbmbncp∂p? bp≤Øn s\Xnsc C¥ybnsehnsSbpw {]IS\w \SØn°≠n√t√m. c≠pe£w t]¿ acn°pI F∂Xn\¿∞w c≠pe£w IpSpw_ßƒ A\mYamhpI F∂XmWv. A{Xbpw IpSpw_ßƒ Ab¬cmPyØpw A\mYamhpIbmbncp∂p. Ft¥ {]Xntj[apb¿ØmXncp∂Xv? F∂ns´¥p≠mbn? ]nSns®SpØ ÿesa√mw Ahkm\w Xncn®psImSpt°≠n h∂p. At∏mƒ F´p sIm√sØ bp≤Øn¬ Abmƒ t\SnbsX¥mWv? Ipsd I_‘ßƒ am{Xw. e£°W°n\v IpSpw_ ßfpsS ZpcnXw am{Xw. cmPyØns‚ AXn¿Ønbn¬ kzmX{¥yØn\p th≠n t]mcmSp∂ hnπhImcnIsf ASn®a¿Øm≥ h¿jßfmbn {ian®p tXm‰t∏mƒ \nßfpsS hnπh t\Xmhv B ]mhs∏´ hnπhImcnIfpsS {Kmaßfn¬ hnjhmXIw h¿jn®v AhcpsS IpSpw_ßsf sIms∂mSp°nbnt√? kv{XoIfpw IpńIfpaS°w AømbncØne[nIw t]¿ A∂v NsØmSpßn. hnπhØns‚ Xos∏mcn {]kwKhpambn \S°p∂ \nßsf√mw As∂hnsSbmbncp∂p? aÃm¿Uv Kymkv Fßns\bmWv {]h¿Øn°pI F∂dnbmtam? tZlØmbm¬ taemkIew s]m≈¬ s]m¥pw. `b¶c thZ\bmbncn°pw. izkn®m¬ \nßfpsS izmktImiØnepw lrZbØnepw s]m≈¬ s]m¥pw. At∏mgp≠mIp∂ thZ\ t\m°ptºmƒ ]pdØp≠mIp∂ thZ\ \n mcamWv. ]ns∂ ]nS™p acn°emWv. Aßns\ ]Xn\mbnc°W°n\v ]mhs∏´ \n¿t±mjnIƒ. \nßƒ°v H∂pw ]dbm\p≠m bncp∂nt√? B alm≥Xs∂ Bdpamkw apºv kam[m\{]nbcmb Hcp P\Xsb B{Ian®p IogS°nbt∏mƒ FhnsSbmbncp∂p \nßfpsS {]XnIcW tijn? AhnsSbp≠mbncp∂ e£°W°n\v C¥ym°m¿°v F√mw Cs´dn™v Poh\pwsIm≠v HmtS≠n h∂p. Ct∏mƒ B cmPyw ho≠p In´m\mbn, B Ip‰hmfnsb \nebv°p \n¿Øm\mbn temIw apgph≥ {ian°ptºmƒ \nßƒ {]Xntj[n°p∂p. CsXs¥mcp s]¿ sh¿j\mWv. Nn{X≥ H∂pw ]dbmsX Ccnbv°bmWv. Hcp hnam\m{IaWap≠mb t]mse. I\Ø t_mw_m{IaWw. H´p ia\ap≠mbt∏mƒ Abmƒ ]d™p. a[pkqZ\≥, CsXms° Hcp Ifnbt√? \nßƒ°v CsXmcp Ifnbmbncn°mw. s]mXpP\ßsf h©n®psIm≠p≈ Cu Ifn°v Rm\n√. \nßƒ°v Hcp sIme]mXInsb lotdm B°Wsa∂ps≠¶n¬ B°ns°m≈p. Fs∂ Hgnhm°q. F\n°o ]Ww th≠. \nßƒ BsI CfInadn™ncn°bmWv. Nn{X≥ ]d™p. \nßfpsS \oXn t_m[ambncn°Ww AXn\p ImcWw. ]t£ \oXnt_m[Øn\pw AXoXambn ]eXpaps≠t∂m¿°Ww. AXpt]mse s]mXpP\ßƒ°v \oXnt_m[a√ Bhiysa∂pw. \nßƒ s]s´∂v Hcp Xocpam\saSpt°≠. Rm≥ \msfhcmw. At∏mtgbv°v im¥ambn BtemNn®v Hcp Xocpam\saSp°q. RßtfmsSm∏ancn°bmWv \√Xv. As√¶n¬ \nßƒ H‰s∏Spw. Nn{X≥ t]mbn°gn™p. "BImiØn¬ sIm≈nao\pIƒ ]d°pw. teml∏£nIfpsS DZcØn¬ \n∂v A·n h¿jn°s∏Spw. \nc]cm[nIfpsS tNmc \ymbØn\p th≠n tIgpw.' bp≤w sImSpºncnsIm≈pIbmWv. ta_kns∂Xncmb Iq´psI´v APøam bncp∂p. Ah¿ BImiw ]nSns®SpØp. i{Xphnam\ßƒ shSnsh®p hogvØs∏´p. ISepIfn¬ Ahs‚ bp≤°∏epIƒ ap°n. i{Xphn\v \neØp am{Xw \ne\n¬∏mbn. At∏mgpw Abmƒ tXm¬hn kΩXn°msX PqXcmPytØ°v Xs‚ {]mNo\amb kq£vaXbn√mØ hmWßƒ sXmSpØpsIm≠ncp∂p. AXn¿Ønbn¬ sh®v \in∏n°s∏´psh¶nepw, PqXcmPysØ B{Ian°pI F∂ {]XoImflI {Inb sIm≠pXs∂ ta_kn\v ]ebnSØpw t{]m’ml\ßƒ Inń. {ItaW AXpw sI´Sßn. h‘yamb B hmWßƒ Ht´sd ]cnlmkØn\p ImcWambn. i{Xp kΩXn®ns√¶nepw kmh[m\Øn¬ tXm¬hn AdnbpIbmbncp∂p. cm{Xn DuWpIgn®psIm≠ncns° a[pkqZ\≥ X\n°p InńbXpw \nckn®Xpamb _nkn\ ns‚ Imcyw ]d™p. \fn\n°p hnjaambn. Ahƒ ]d™p. AXp kzoIcn°mambncp∂ns√? \ΩpsS F√mw \„s∏´v Ccn°ys√? AXpw Abmƒ ImcWw Xs∂. AXn¬ Ipds®¶nepw Xncn®pIn´m≥ ]‰nb Ahkcas√ CXv. \fn\nbpsS IgpØnepw ssIIfnepw t\m°nbt∏mƒ Abmƒ°v Ip‰t_m[w tXm∂n. IgpØn¬ sNdnsbmcp Xmename am{Xw. Iøn¬ Ip∏nhfIƒ. Cu {]IS\ßfnt√, i{Xphns‚ henb Nn{Xhpw Db¿Øn∏nSn®v Xp≈ns°m≠p≈ {]lk\ßƒ. Ah Bƒ°mcn¬ F{X sX‰n≤mcWIfmWp≠m°p∂sX∂dnbmtam? AXpt]mseØs∂ Ah Hmtcm cmPytØbpw Khs◊≠pIƒ°v F{X XethZ\bp≠m°p∂psh∂pw, Bcpw bp≤Øn\v A\pIqen Iem-Iu-apZn 34

sbm∂pa√. \ap°v \ΩptSXmb {]iv\ßfp≠v. ]©m_n¬, Iivaocn¬, B man¬. AsXm∂pw I≠ns√∂p \Sn®v A¿ln°mØ HcpØ\pth≠n \Ωƒ {]IS\ßƒ \SØp∂p. Cu {]IS\ßƒs°ms° [mcmfw ]Ww thWw. BcmWXp sNehm°p∂Xv? Btcm Hcmƒ At√? icnbmWv. \fn\n ]d™p. ]t£ \Ωƒ Cu tPmen Gs‰SpØns√¶n¬ a‰msc¶nepw sNbvXp sImSp°pw. B¿°mWv ]Ww th≠mØXv? {]IS\ßƒ F¥mbmepw D≠mhpw. \ΩpsS Sn.hn. AXp Ih¿sNbvXv ]Øp XhWsb¶nepw ImWn°pIbpw sNøpw. t`Zw \Ωƒ Ipd®v ]Wap≠m°pIbt√? Rm≥ sNøn√. a[pkqZ\≥ ]d™p. Fs‚ kºmZyw apgph≥ sIm≈bSn®Xv AbmfmWv. Fs‚ \m´pImsc sIm≈bSn®Xv, e£°W°n\v ]mhs∏´ \ΩpsS \m´pImsc. D]Poh\Øn\mbn aW¬ °mń¬ IqenthesbSp°m≥ t]mb ]mhw \m´pImcpsS I™nbn¬ ]qgn hmcnbn´Xv B a\pjy\mWv. AbmfpsS A]Zm\ßƒ ]mSm≥ Rm≥ Xømdn√. \ΩpsS \m´pImcpw AXp sNøp∂Xv icnb√. [m¿ΩnIa√. "hnj°m‰v B™Sn°pw. amcItcmKßfpsS Ddßn°nS∂ _oPßƒ DW¿s∂gpt∂¬°pw. almamcn \S∂ hgnbn¬ \miØns‚ Bgap≈ ]mSpIƒ hogvØpw.' apt∂m´pw ]nt∂m´pw t]mIm≥ ]‰mØ Hcp ]cphØnembncp∂p ta_kv. adp]£Øns‚ i‡n Xm≥ IW°m°nbXnepw hepXmWv. APøamWv. apt∂m´pt]mbm¬ Xm≥ h[n°s∏Spw. ]nt∂m´pt]mbm¬ Xs‚ \m´pImcpsS Ah⁄°p ]m{Xamhpw. Hcp ]t£ kz¥w ssk\yØm¬ Xs∂ h[n°s∏SpIbpw sNøpw. Ahtlf\Øn\p ]m{Xambn, òcphmbn ap{ZIpØn \nµyamb acWw ]n∂n¬ ImØp \n¬°p∂p≠v. apºn¬ c‡km£nXzhpw. hnjhmXIßtfm amcIhym[nIfpsS _oPßtfm bp≤Ønep]tbmKn°m≥ Abmƒ `bs∏´p. adp`mKØv CXpw CXne∏pdap≈ amcImbp[ßfp≠v. Xm≥ BZyw AXp {]tbmKn®m¬ adp`mKØp \n∂Xp]tbmKn°m≥ X° \ymbhpambn. Xncn®Sn BIkvanIhpw kwlmcIhpambncn°pw. XI¿∂ \„in„ßƒ°nSbn¬ F¥mWv sNtø≠sX∂dnbmsX Abmƒ ]I®p\n∂p. !

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bmƒ AhnsS Im Øp \n¬°m≥ XpS ßnbn´v F{X t\cam bn F∂dnbn√. Rm≥ hmXn¬ Xpd∂v ]pdØp IS∂t∏mƒ Ahn sSbp≠v. aXnen∂∏pdØv hgnbn ¬. F\nbv°bmfpsS Xe am{Xta ImWm\p≈p. hnhiXbm¿∂ ap Jhpw. Fs∂ I≠t∏mƒ Abm ƒ Iønep≈ tem´dn Sn°‰pIƒ Db¿Øn°mń. km¿, Hcp Sn°s‰Sp°q. ]co£oWsa¶nepw {]Xo£m \n¿`camb i–w. Rm≥ tem´dn Sn°s‰Sp°mdn√. AXpsIm≠v ]d™p. F\n°v th≠. km¿ Hcp Sn°s‰Sp°q. A©p dp∏nIsb D≈q. Inńbm¬ HºXp e£am km¿. Ccp- ] - Ø n- \ mep aWn°qdpw ITn\m≤zm\w sNbvXv c≠pt\cw I™nIpSn°m\mWv Rm≥ hn[n °s∏ń´p≈Xv. \o B Sn°‰v sIm ≠pt]mbn thsd h√ `mKyhm∑m ¿°pw sImSp °v. A√ km¿, `mKyw hcWXv F ∏gm∂dnbn√y. km¿ Hcp Sn°s‰ SpØv `mKyw ]co£n®p t\m°p. F\n°p th≠. km¿.......... F\n°p ths≠∂p ]d™n t√, Xm≥ t]mIp∂pt≠m? aXnen∂∏pdsØ apJw aßn. Sn°‰v Db¿Øn∏nSn® ssI Xmgv Øn, Abmƒ t]mIms\mcpßn. At∏mgmWv Rm\Xp {i≤n®Xv . Abmƒ Du∂phSnbpsS klmb tØmsSbmWv \S°p∂Xv. aXnen ∂∏pdØqIqsS AbmfpsS Xe Xmgv∂pw s]mßn bpw t]mIp∂Xv Rm≥ t\m°n. sKbv‰ns‚ ASpØv FØnbt∏mgmWv icn°v I≠Xv. Abmƒ°v Hcp Imen√mbncp∂p. hesØ Im¬ apń\p Xmsgbn√. CXdn™n√. Hcp Sn°s‰Sp°m ambncp∂p. Ct∏mgpw thWsa¶n eXp sNømw. H∂v ssIsImń hnfn®m¬ Abmƒ \n¬°pw. ] t£ Rm\Xn\p Xp\n™n√. F s‚ kz¥w `mKytZmjßfpsS \nc¥c klhmkw a\ ns\ \n¿ ∆nImcam°nbncp∂p. a\ nse B¿{ZXbpsS DdhIsf√mw h‰n

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hc≠ncp∂p. _m°nbp≈Xv \n wKXbpsS aW¬ØcnIƒ am{Xw. Hmôkpw tKmUuWpw H∂p Xs∂bmWv. tKmUuWns‚ Hcp aqebn¬ lm¿Uvt_m¿Uv sIm≠v ad® Hcp sNdnb Im_n\mWv Hmôkv. AXn¬ s]mSn]nSn® taibv°p apºn¬ ISem p IqºmcØns‚ \Sphn¬ Rm≥ Ccp∂p. klmbØn\v Hcp ]yq¨ am{Xw t_mws_bnse Hcp {Sm≥kv t]m¿´v Iº\nbpsS amt\Pcmbn Fs∂ FdWmIpftØ°v am‰nbt∏mƒ D≈ ImcmdmWXv. iºfØn¬ am‰an√. Ãm^ns\sbm∂pw \nban°n√. _nkn\ v Fßns\bps≠∂v t\m°nbtijw Iq´mw. Hcp kvIq´¿ hmßnØcmw. ]ns∂ H∂pc≠p tPmen°mtcbpw sh®pXcmw. X¬°mew AhnsS t]mbn tPmbn≥ sNøWw. _olmdnse B sNdnb ]´WØn¬ ISes∏mSn hdpØXv Ipg®Xv ]®apfIp IqńØn∂pIbmbncp∂ Rm≥ s]s´∂v kΩXn®p. H∂pans√¶nepw ]nd∂ \mńemWt√m. _nkn\ v ]nSn°m\pw henb hnjaw Im Wn√. Hcp sIm√wsIm≠v Hcp amXncn \√ _nkn\ v D≠m°nbm¬ Hcp sNdnb hoSv hmSI s°Sp°mw, sshInsb¶nepw Hcp I√ymWw Ign®v IqSmw Fs∂ms°bmbncp∂p Fs‚ IW°pIq´¬. IW°pIqépIsf√mw sX‰nsb∂v BdpamkØn\p≈n¬ a\ nembn. Cßns\sbmcp IcmdnemWv am‰w InńbsX∂v tI´h¿ aq°Øp hnc¬ sh®p. ChnsSbp≈ {Sm≥kvt]m¿´v Iº\nIfpsS {_m©pIƒ IqSn ]q´m≥ t]mhpIbmWv. henb _nkn\ vIfv Hmtcmt∂mcm∂mbn tIcfØn¬\n∂v ]pdØpt]mhpIbmWv. Nmbs∏mSn _nkn\ v I≠nt√? ChnSymsW¶n¬ ]pXnb ^mŒdnsbm∂pw hcnWn√y. sImd®v _nkn\ v≠v. AXn\pth≠n F√m {Sm≥kvt]m¿´v Iº\n°mcpw IqSn ISn]nSymWv. ]ns∂yms° XSnanSp°v t]meymWv. ]n∂mse \S∂m¬ Ipd®v _nkn\ v In´pw. AsXms° atXym? tKmUuWns‚ hmSI, sSent^m¨, c≠ tPmen°mcpsS iºfw, bm{Xms®ehv Hs°°qSn amkw Ggmbncw Ddp∏nbne[nIw sNehv hcp∂p≠v. amkw Hcp e£Øns‚ _nkn\ v Inńbmte N{Iw Xncnbq. a‰p tPmen°mcn√mØXp sIm≠v _p°nwKv sXm´v Ańadnhscbp≈ F√m Imcyßfpw Rm≥ Xs∂ {i≤n°Ww. Ct∏mƒ ]yqWns\ _p°nwKv ]Tn∏n®p. AXpsIm≠v Ipds®mcmizmkap≠v. B kabØv Bscsb¶nepw I≠v _nkn\ v ]nSn°m≥ {ian°mw. temdnIƒ hcnI anbv°hmdpw cm{Xnbmbncn°pw. Nnet∏mƒ At∏mƒ Xs∂ Cd°pIbpw thWw. B cm{Xn Dd°ans√∂¿∞w. CsXms°bmWv Fs‚ `mKy hntijßƒ. AXn\nS°mWv tem´dn°mc≥ h∂v `mKy°pdn Sn°‰v ]nSn∏n°m≥ t\m°p∂Xv. ]t£ Hcp Imen√mØ B a\pjys‚ Zb\obapJw Fs∂ Xf¿Øp∂p. Abmfpw `mKytZhXbpsS aSnbne√ Ccn°p∂sX∂ Imcyw F\n°p a\ nemhp∂p. AbmfpsS Zu¿`mKyw F{X tØmfw tamiamsW∂Xv ]t£ Abmƒ ]d™t∏mtg F\nbv°p a\ nembp≈p. Fs‚ `mKytZmjw AbmfptSXpambn XmcXays∏SpØptºmƒ ku`mKyamsW∂pthWw ]dbm≥. Abmƒ ho≠pw h∂p. _p[\mgvN cmhnse Rm≥ Hmôkn¬ t]mIm\mbn hmXn¬ Xpd∂XmWv. Abmƒ aXnen∂∏pdØv ImØp \n¬°p∂p. Fs∂ I≠t∏mƒ Abmƒ Nncn ®p. Zb\obamb Hcp Nncn. kt¥mjw sIm≠p≈ Nncnb√. shdpw {]XymibpsS Xnf°w am{Xw. k¿ Hcp Sn°s‰Sp°q. \msfbmWv \dps°Sp∏v. Ign™ BgvN Rm≥ Bń ]d™b®Xns‚ Id Abmƒ kq£n°p∂n√. A©pdp∏nI sImSpØv Abmsf klmbn°msa∂p IcpXnbXmWv. ]t£ ]d™Xv adn®mbncp∂p. ]cpjambnØs∂. F\n°v Sn°‰v ths≠∂p ]d™nt√? AbmfpsS apJw aßn. k¿ Hcp Sn°s‰SpØv klmbn°Ww. kmdΩmtcmS√msX BtcmSm Rm≥ ]dbzm. FtSm F\nbv°v `mKyw Xoscbn√. H∂pw Inń√ym∂v Adn™p sIm≠v F¥n\m A©pdp∏nI IfbWXv? `mKyw F∏gm \ΩsS hgoev hczm∂v Adnbn√ kmsd. Hcp Sn°s‰SpØp t\m°p. an\n _w_dmWv. ]Øpe£w Ddp∏nIow amcpXnImdpw....... F\n°p th≠ amsj. kmsd, CtXms≠m°ymWv IgoWXv. kmsdm∂p klmbn°Ww. ]Øp Sn°‰pw IqSntb D≈q. Rm≥ ]pXnsbmcp IÃasd ImWm≥ ]pds∏´XmWv. In´pIbsW¶n¬ Xct°Sn√mØ _nkn\ mWv. \s√mcp ImcyØn\v ]pds∏Sptºmƒ..... F∂nse Ddßn°nS∂ hnizmkßƒ DW¿s∂gpt∂‰p. Ioibn¬ \n∂v Hc©pdp∏nIbpsS t\ms´SpØv Abmƒ°p \oń. AXp hmßn s\‰nta¬ tN¿Øp]nSn®v Abmƒ tIcf IuapZn HmWw hnti-jm¬{]Xn 1990

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IÆS®p. ]ns∂ t\m´v Ioibnen´tijw Hcp Sn°s‰SpØvFs‚ t\sc \oń. CXn¬ GsX¶nepw Hcp kΩm\w ASn°pw kmsd. Abmƒ sRm≠ns°m≠v \S∂pt]mbn. ]pXnb IÃa¿ hfsc {]Xo£Iƒ \¬In. Rm≥ Fs‚ {_o^vtIkpw \neØpsh®v Hmôkns‚ kzoIcWapdnbn¬ tkm^bn¬ Ccp∂p. Fs‚ Im¿Uv dnk]vj\nÃns‚ Iøn¬ sImSpØncp∂p. Itagvky¬ amt\Psc ImWWsa∂mWv ]d™ncp∂Xv . F∂m¬ Fs∂ hnfn∏n®Xv amt\PnwKv UbdŒ¿ Xs∂ bmbncp∂p. AXpw c≠p an\n‰n\p≈n¬. C∂v A¤XßfpsS ZnhkamsW∂p tXm∂p∂p.km[mcW Cu amXncn henb Iº\nIfn¬ t]mbm¬ Hcp ¢m¿°ns\ ImWm≥ t]mepw aWn°q¿ ImØp \n¬t°≠n hcmdp≠v. F\ns°mcp {]iv\ap≠v. amt\PnwKv UbdŒ¿ ]d™p. AXn\p≈ DØcw \nßfpsS IønemWv. Fb¿I≠oj≥ sNbvX apdnbn¬ Npa¿sXm´v Npa¿hsc Im¿s∏‰p≠v. Znhtk\ aq∂v temUv t_mws_bv°p t]mIWw, UbdIv‰v. t\m {Sm≥jn∏vsa‚ v. sIan°¬kmWv. Fs¥ms°bmWv \nßfpsS tSwkv? Rm≥ hnhcn°pIbmbncp∂p. AsXms° {i≤m]q¿∆w tI´psIm≠ncp∂ At±lw H∂pw Ipdn®psh®n√. ]t£ F√mw a\ n¬ ]Xn™n´ps≠∂Xns‚ kqN\ kw`mjWØn¬ h∂p. Abmƒ kwXr]vX\mbncp∂p. Fs‚ `mKyw sXfnbpIbmtWm? Znhtk\ aq∂v {S°v temUv \√ _nkn\ mWv. AXpw t_mws_bv°v. Xncn®pw temUp≠m°pI ImcWw \√ emÌcamWXv. Rm≥, Ft¥m, B tem´dn°mcs\ Hm¿Ωn®p; AbmfmtWm F\nbv°v `mKyw sIm≠ph∂Xv. sh≈nbmgvN t]∏¿ Inńbt∏mƒ BZyw t\m°nbXv tem´dn êamWv. C√. kΩm\sam∂pan√ A©p dp∏nIt]mepw. _p[\mgvN Abmƒ ho≠pw h∂p. aXnen∂∏pdØv AtX ÿm\Øv \n∂p. km¿ Hcp Sn°s‰Sp°q. th≠ amsj. Ign™ XhW A©pdp∏nIbpsS kΩm\w t]mepw Inńbn√. kmsd C{]mhiyw In´pw. ]cn£oWamb kzcw. th≠ F∂p ]dbm≥ HcpßnbXmWv. At∏mgmWv A∂v ]pXnb IÃasd ho≠pw ImtW≠ Znhk amsWt∂m¿ØXv. ]pXnb IÃadpsS Hm¿U¿ Iøn¬ Inńbt∏mƒ Rm≥ BtemNn®p. `mKyw \∂mhpI Xs∂bmWv. F{X Ffp∏amWv Imcyßƒ \S∂pInńbXv. \n mcamb Hm¿UdpIfpsS ]n∂mse Znhkßfpw amkßfpw ]mgm°n \ncmi\mth≠n h∂n´p≠v. ChnsS CXm \s√mcp _nkn\ v ct≠ c≠p kµ¿i\Øn¬Øs∂ Xcambncn°p∂p. tem´dn dnk¬ń¬ Fs‚ \ºdn√mbncp∂p. `mKy°pdn F\nbv°p hn[n®X√ F∂p tXm∂p∂p. ]t£ tem´dn°mcs‚ hchv F\n°p `mKyw sIm≠phcp∂ps≠∂ tXm∂¬. ]ucmWnI \mhnIs‚ B¬_¿ t{Smkv ]£nt]mse Abmƒ F\n°v `mKyw sIm≠p hcnIbmtWm? Rm≥ Hmtcm BgvNbpw Sn°s‰SpØp. kabw In´ptºmƒ Abmƒ Ft∂mSv kwkmcn°pw. aXnen∂∏pdØp \n∂psIm≠bmƒ AbmfpsS IY Fs∂ tIƒ∏n°pw. ]Xps°∏Xps° B a\pjys‚ Zu¿`mKyØns‚ IYIƒ Hmtcm∂mbn Fs∂ ZpxJnX\m°ns°m≠v ]pdØph∂p. Ipń°meØv DΩbpw _m∏bpw \„s∏´p. A\mYmebØn¬ Ipd®pImew Ign®pIqń. AXnepw t`mZw ]pdsØ temIamsW∂p tXm∂nbt∏mƒ AhnsS \n∂p c£s∏´p. ]ńWbpsS \mfpIƒ. kzX{¥\msW∂ Bizmkw am{Xw. Ahkm\w Hcp ^mŒdnbn¬ sNdnsbmcp tPmen In´p∂. H∂v ]®]nSn®psh∂p IcpXp tºmtgbv°v Hc]ISw. Hcp Im¬ \„s∏´p. ]ns∂ sNøm≥ ]‰nbXv Cc°¬ am{Xw. \„s∏´ Imens‚ ]IpXn ImWn®v P\ßfpsS A\pIº kºmZn°pI. In´p∂ \mWbßƒ s]dp°n°q´pI. Aßns\ bncn°ptºm gmWv tem´dn Sn°‰v hn¬°pI F∂ Bibw a\ n¬ h∂Xv. A©pdp∏nIbpsS Hcp Sn°‰v hn‰m¬ Hcp cq] IΩoj≥ In´pw. Hcp ]Øp Sn°‰p hn‰m¬ A∂tØ°p th≠ sNehn\mbn. kmsd Ign™ BgvN Bdp amkambn ]ńWn Adn™nń√. Cßns\ t]mbm¬ Hcp c≠p sIm√w sIm≠v Hcp ap®{I ssk°nƒ hmßmw. ssIsIm≠v Xncn°W ssk°nfv. As∏m Cu \SØw Hgnhm°mw. _m¶vImcv ]Ww ISw Xcmw∂v ]d™n´p≠v. Fs‚ hIbmbn´v A™qdp cq]sb¶nepw thWas{X. \∂mhs´. Rm≥ ]d™p. Hcp Sn°‰v hmßpIbpw sNbvXp. kΩm\sam∂pw Inńs√∂ AdnthmsSØs∂. Fs‚ s{]mtamj≥ anbv°hmdpw Xo¿®bmbn°gn™ncp∂p. _nkn\ v \√hÆw IqSnbn´p≠v. ho´phmSI Xcmsa∂v Iº\n G‰n´p≠v Hcp hoSv I≠p ]nSn°Ww. Cu H‰apdnbn¬\n∂v amdWw. Rm\pw tem´dn°mcs‚ t]mse ]®]nSn®p hcnIbmWv. tIcfØnt‚X√mØ tem´dnSn°‰pIƒ tIcfØn¬ hn¬°p∂Xv \ntcm[n®p sIm≠p≈ DØchv h∂Xv

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s]s´s∂mcp ZnhkamWv . dnt∏m¿´v hmbn®t∏mƒ Rm≥ AdnbmsX Hm¿Øp. Abmsf Cu \ntcm[w _m[n°psa∂Xv Xo¿®bmWv. Ahs‚ Iøn¬ F√m kwÿm\ßfpsSbpw Sn°‰p≠mhmdp≠v. Rm≥ Ahsbm∂pw FSp°mdns√t∂bp≈p. Ahs\ klmbn°m\pw, \nKqVambn, Ah≥ hgn Fs‚ tPmen ÿeØv `mKyw hcp∂ps≠∂ A‘hnizmkw ImcWambpw BWv Rm≥ tIcftem´dnbpsS Hcp Sn°s‰Sp°p∂Xv. a‰p Sn°‰pIƒ ]t£ [mcmfw sNehmhp∂ps≠∂mWv Ah≥ ]dbp∂Xv. At∏mƒ AsX√mw \ntcm[n®m¬ Ahs‚ ÿnXn F¥mhpw. Ahs\t∏mep≈ ]Xn\mbncßfpsS ÿnXn? tem´dn {]NmcØn¬ h∂tijw Hcp KpWap≠mbn´p≠v, bmNIcpsS FÆw hfsc Ipdn™n´p≠v. s{Sbn\nepw _kv Ãm≥Unepw a‰pw Cc∂p \S∂ncp∂h¿ Ct∏mƒ tem´dnSn°‰v hn‰p \S°pIbmWv. Hcp Sn°‰p hn‰m¬ Hcp cq]bp≠m°mw. am\yamb sXmgnemWpXm\pw. adn®v Hcp cq]bp≠m°m≥ F{X Bƒ°mcpsS apºn¬ Cc°Ww? Aen km[mcWtØXnepw t\¿sØ h∂p. aXnen\∏pdØv Ah≥ £atbmsS ImØp \n∂p. km¿ Hcp Sn°‰v Xcs´? Cu BgvN t\¿sØbmWs√m, Aen? AsX km¿. km¿ t]∏dv hmbn®ns√? C{]mhiyw Sn°‰pIƒ H∂pw sNehmhvWn√y. Ah≥ ssI Db¿Ønbt∏mƒ \ndsb hn¬°m≥ Sn°‰pIƒ. ]e kwÿm\ßfnse Sn°‰pIƒ D≠v. Bcpw hmßnWn√y kmsd. Hs° I≈Sn°‰pIfm∂v ]d™v Hgnhm°zmWv. tIcfØns‚ Sn°‰pIqSn Bcpw FSp°nWn√y. CXnsemscm‰ FÆw I≈ Sn°‰n√ km¿. F√mw Hmtcm kwÿm\Kh¿sΩ≠v \SØW Sn°‰Wv. Cu Sn°s‰ms° \o F¥mWv sNøm≥ t]mIp∂Xv? hn¬°m≥ t\m°zmWv k¿. hn‰ns√¶n¬ `b¶c\„mbncn°pw. CXm CXv A™q‰n Fgp]Ø©pdp ∏nIbpsS Sn°‰m. hn‰ns√¶n¬ A{Xbpw \„mhpw. tIcf \qdpdp∏nIbpsS Sn°t‰ hcp. _m°nsbms° a‰p kwÿm\ßfptSXmWv. As∏m, Cu DØchns\∏‰n \nßƒ°v BZyw Adnshm∂pw Inńbnt√? FhnsS km¿? Hcp Znhkw cmhnse Ah¿ DØchv ]m m°n. a‰p kwÿm\ßfpsS tem´dn tIcfØn¬ sNehm°m≥ ]mSn√ym∂v. At∏mƒ B Sn°‰pIƒ hmßnsh® ]mhßfpsS ]Ww \„s∏´p. A{X Xs∂. Bbnc°W°n\v Sn°‰pIƒ hmßn sh® I®hS°mcpw≠mhns√ k¿. Ah¿s°ms° \„w Xs∂. Bbnc°W°n\√. e£°W°n\p Xs∂bmbncn°pw. Ah¿°v ]t£ \„w Xmßm≥ Ignt™bv°pw. ]t£ Aensbt∏mep≈h¿t°m? Ah¿ XI¿s∂∂p hcpw. Ahsc¥mWv Cßns\ sNøp∂Xv? Rm≥ tNmZn®p. BZyw Xs∂ ap∂dnbn∏v \¬It≠? AXpt]mse \ntcm[\w G¿s∏SpØm≥ Hcp kab]cn[nbpw Xct≠? F∂m¬ ]ns∂ Aensbt∏msebp≈h¿°v B Sn° ‰pIƒ FSp°≠ F∂p sh°msem. As√¶n¬ Iønep≈ Sn°‰v thKw hn‰gn°pIsb¶nepw sNømat√m. Aßns\sbms°bmtWm k¿ Imcyßƒ \S°WXv. F\n°o{]mhiyw a‰p kwÿm\ßfpsS GsX¶nepw Hcp Sn°‰p X∂m¬ aXn. Rm≥ ]d™p. tIcf Sn°‰pIƒ hn¬°m≥ Ah\v C\nbpw Ignt™°pw. Ah≥ taLmebbpsS Hcp Sn°s‰SpØp F\nbv°p \oń. ]{Xßfn¬ tem´dnSn°‰pImsc s]mXpP\w ]oUn∏n°p∂Xns\∏‰n hm¿ØIfp≠mbncp∂p. Aensb Ah¿ H∂pw sNøcptX F∂v Rm≥ {]m¿∞n®p. \S°m≥IqSn hømØ B km[pa\pjys\ Bcpw D]{Zhn°n√mbncn°pw. a\pjy≥ A{X NoØbmbnń√ F∂ hnizmkw. Fs‚ hnizmkw Aensb c£n®n√. ]nt‰∂p cmhnse Aen ho≠pw h∂p. aXnen∂∏pdØp I≠ Ahs‚ Xebn¬ Hcp henb _mt‚Pp ≠mbncp∂p. _mt‚Pv s\‰nbpsS CSXp`mKhpw ad®ncp∂p. kzXth hnfdnb apJw H∂pIqSn hnfdnbncp∂p. F¥p ]‰n Aen. Ah≥ H∂pw ]dbmsX Ipd®pt\cw Fs∂ t\m°n \n∂p. IÆo¿ [mcbmbn HgpIn. Ah¿ Fs∂ X√n k¿. Gßen∂Snbn¬ Ah≥ ]d™p. Fs∂ X√n. Hcp Imen√mØ Fs∂. HmSm\pw IqSn hømØ Fs∂. CXmZyambmWv Ah≥ Xs‚ AwK`wKsØ Hcp AhiXbmbn Ft∂mSv ]dbp∂Xv. A]ISØn¬ s]´v Imept]mbn F∂p ]d™t∏mgpw HcpXcw \n¿∆nImcXbmbncp∂p Ahs‚ apJØv. C∂v ]t£ Ahs‚ a\ v A{Xb[nIw thZ\n®ncn°p∂p. I≈Sn°‰pIƒ sIm≠p \S°pIbmsW∂v ]d™v Ah¿ X√n. Fs‚ Iøn¬ I≈Sn°‰pIsfm∂p ap≠mbncp∂n√. kwÿm\Kh¿sΩ≠pIƒ \SØp∂ Sn°‰pIƒ am{Xw. F∂n´pw Ah¿ X√n. Fs‚ Sn°‰pIƒ No¥n°f™p k¿. A™qdpdp∏nIbpsS Sn°‰pIƒ Ah¿ No¥n°f™p.

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Jcs‚ IÆpIƒ Nph∂ncp∂p. ImepIƒ \neØpdbv°p∂n√. jm∏n¬ \n∂v hońte°p≈ \SØØn¬ NpcpßnbXv Hcp hogvNsb¶nepw ]‰nbn´p≠v. j¿ńepw ap≠nepw Nfnbp≠v. amºeI sh®Sn® hmXn¬]mfnta¬ Iøq∂n Abmƒ hnfn®p. FSo....... "S'ImcØn\pw "g' ImcØn\pw CSbnep≈ kzcw. tZhIn {i≤n®n√. CsX∂pw D≈ ImgvNbmWv. XpS°ßfnep≠mbncp∂ thZ\ \n¿∆nImcX°v hgnamdnbt∏mƒ Ahƒ tiJcs‚ sshInbp≈ hchpw hmbn¬ \n∂pXncp∂ \mdp∂ sXdnIfpw ]n∂oSp≠mImdp≈ t`Zyßfpw \n wKXtbmsS kln°m≥ ]Tn®p. a°ƒ CsX√mw ImWp∂Xpw tIƒ°p∂Xpw am{Xta Ahƒ°v hnjaap≠mbncp∂p≈q. AXpsIm≠v Ahƒ a°sf Ggc F´paWnbmhptºmtg°pw InSØnbpd°pw. aqØhƒ s]s´∂pdßpw. Xmsgbp≈h≥ Ipd®v {]Xntj[nt® Ddßmdp≈q. tZhInbv ° v hni°p∂p≠mbncp∂p. Ahƒ c≠p Ão¬ sπbv ‰ pIfpw tNmdn≥ ]m{Xhpw a’y°dnbpw \neØp sIm≠ph∂psh®p. c≠p Ão¬ •m pIfn¬ sh≈hpw. km[mcW Aßns\bmWv. Ipsdt\cw \o≠p\n¬°p∂ `¬’\ßƒ°p tijw Abmƒ Ahƒ Ccn°p∂ Xns∂Xnsc h∂ncp∂v ]n™mWw hens®SpØv hnfºn DÆpw. C∂p ]t£ Aßns\sbm∂pa√ D≠mhp∂Xv. cmhnesØ hg°ns‚ _m°nbmbncn°pw. Abmƒ hmXn¬ IS∂psh∂v Iønep≠mbncp∂ Sn≥ Ahƒ Ccn°p∂Xns‚ ASpØv Hcp i–tØmsS sh®p. Sn∂ns‚ AS∏v sXdn®pt]mbn. Ipd®v asÆÆ ]pdtØ°v sXdn®p. Ahƒ Aºc∂pt]mbn. asÆÆ t]mbn´v tdj\cnIqSn Abmƒ hońte°p th≠n Ipsd°meambn sIm≠phcmdn√. FSo........ Abmƒ ]d™p. CsX¥m∂dntbzm? Ahƒ {i≤n°msX DuWp Ign°ms\mcpßn. tPmensbSp°p∂ hoń¬\n∂v D®°v H∂c°v Ipd®p `£Ww Ign®XmWv. Ct∏mƒ cm{Xn HºXpIgn™p. FSo..... Rm≥ tNmZn®Xp tIńt√? Ahƒ At∏mgpw H∂pw ]dbmsX ao≥Nm¿ Iqń°pg®v Dcpfbm °nb tNmdv hmbntebv°v sIm≠pt]mbn. cmhnse _lfap≠m°n t]mbt∏mtg Adnbmambncp∂p sshIpt∂cw hg°n´psIm≠mWv hcnIsb∂v. F¥mSn \n\°v hmbnev \mhnt√? Abmfv {Iq≤\mbn ImepsIm≠v AhfpsS tπbv‰v Hcp X´psh®p sImSpØp. tNmdpw ao≥Idnbpw hnfºnbXp apgph≥ apdnbn¬ sXdn®p NnXdn. hmbnte°psIm≠pt]mb Dcpf hmbnenSmsX Ahƒ Fgpt∂‰p. DÆm≥ sh® tNmdv ImepsIm≠v XńsØdn∏n°se√mw CSbv°n Sbv°p≠mhmdp≈XmWv. B cm{XnIƒ Ahƒ sh≈w IpSn®v InS ∂pdßpw. Ahƒ Fgpt∂‰v NqseSpØpsIm≠ph∂v ASn®phmcm≥ XpSßn. FSo CsX¥m∂dntøm? asÆÆymWv asÆÆ. ªm°nev hmßo Xm. Bdpdp∏nI en‰dn\v. c≠pen‰¿. ]{¥≠pdp∏nI.... CXv s\s‚ Ãu∆nte°p≈sXm∂pa√. F¥n\m∂dntøm? tZhIn H∂pw ]dbmsX ASn®p hmcpIbmWv. At∏mgmWhƒ I≠Xv. Zo]tamƒ IÆpXpd∂p InS°pIbmWv. asÆÆSn≥ Dds° \neØpsh®t∏mtgm tπbv‰v XńsØdn∏n®t∏mtgm Bbncn°Ww Ahƒ DW¿∂Xv. AhfpsS IÆpIfn¬ `bw. ASn®phmcp∂Xn∂n Sbn¬ tZhIn ]d™p. tamƒ Ddßnt°m. F¥n\m∂dntømSn Cu asÆÆ? C{X hne]nSn® asÆÆ 22 Ip¶paw HmW-∏-Xn∏v 1990

ªm°nev hmßoXv? s]s´∂v tZhInbpsS £a \in®p. Ahƒ Xncn™p\n∂p sIm≠v ]d™p. Adnbmw. Fs∂ NpSm≥. As∏m s\\°v Adnbmw At√Sn. AXv X∂ymWv Rm≥ sNøm ≥ t]mWXv. Zo]tamƒ s]s´∂v Fgpt∂‰v Icbm≥ XpSßn. Atøm A—≥ AtΩ IØnt°ym? C√ tamsf. tZhIn ]d™p. AXn\p≈ `mKysam∂pw AΩ sNbvXnń√. tamfpdßnt°m. A{X Dd∏m°s≠Sn. Abmƒ Xo£vWkzcØn¬ ]d™p. sNbvXqtS, F\nbv°v Pohn°m\p≈ tamlw H´pw C√ymXm bncn°p∂p. IØnt®mfp. ]ns∂ Cßns\ Hcp \√ I¿Ωw sNøp tºmƒ AXv shdpw hb‰n¬ th≠. DuWp Ignt®mfp. F∂n´p aXn. F\nbv°v s\s‚ tNmsdm∂pw th≠So. Abmƒ ImepsIm≠v at‰ tπbv‰pw tNmdn≥ ]m{Xhpw XńsØdn∏n®p. AbmfpsS ImepIƒ CSdp∂p≠mbncp∂p. CSbv°nSbv°v hogm≥ t]mbn. ssIIfpw hndbv°p∂p≠v. Abmƒ Ip\n™v asÆÆSns∂SpØv BńsIm≠v AhfpsS t\sc h∂p. ]ns∂ A\ßmsX \n¬°p∂ tZhnIbpsS ta¬ B Sn∂nse asÆÆ Hgn®p. ]IpXn asÆÆ Hgn®t∏mƒ Abmƒ \n¿Øn. tZhIn A\ßnbn√. Ahƒ AXp {]Xo£n®n√. IØn°psa∂v ]dbpsa∂√msX AXp sNøpsa∂hƒ Xosc {]Xo£n®n√. s]s´∂pb¿∂ph∂ Hcp tXß¬ Ahƒ ISn®a¿Øn. B \nanjØn¬ Ahƒ acn°m≥ Xømdmbn. Bk‡n t]mbn´v Fßns\sb¶nepw Pohn°m\p≈ tamlw t]mepw C√mXmbncn °p∂p. tiJc≥ Sn∂p Xmsgh®p. Ioibn¬ \n∂p Xos∏ńsbSpØp. AbmfpsS ssI hndbv ° p∂p≠v . s]ń Xpd∂v Hcp tIm¬ ]pdsØSp°m\p≈ {iaØn¬ c≠paq∂p tIm¬ \neØp hoWp. Abmƒ sIm≈nbpc®p. s]s´∂v Zo]bv°v Imcyw ]nSnInń. Ahƒ Ic™psIm≠v Fgpt∂‰v AΩsb sIń∏nSn®p. A—m, AΩsb IØn°s√ A—m. tZhIn BZyw tamsf Xńam‰n. Hcp s]Æmb aIfpsS `mhnbnte°v tZhIn Hcp \nanjw t\m°n. ]pdØp≈ Ccpńt\°mƒ IdpØ Ccp´mbncp∂p Ahƒ I≠Xv . Ahƒ tamsf Xncn®p hnfn®p Bt«jn®p. \aps°m∏w Nmhmw tamsf. apdnbpsS aqebnen´ ]mbn¬ Ddßp∂ aIs\∏‰n Ahƒ°v Bi¶bp≠mbncp∂n√. tiJc≥ Xos∏ńs°m≈n Dc°pIbmWv. s]mńbXpw IØmØXpamb sIm≈nIƒ Abmƒ°p Np‰pw \neØv NnXdn°nS∂p. Rm≥ IØn®pXctWm? Ahƒ tNmZn®p. hndbv°p∂ ssIItfmsS Xos∏ń Dc®p IØn°m≥ {ian°p∂Xn¬ am{Xw {i≤ sNepØpIbmbncp∂ tiJc≥ apJapb¿Øn t\m°n. ]ns∂ Xos∏ń Xmsgbn´v Abmƒ Ip¥n®ncp∂v O¿±n°m≥ XpSßn. akme°dnbpw I≈pw IqSnt®¿∂p a\w s]c´p∂ ]pfn® aWw B apdnbn¬ \nd™p. O¿±nbn¬ Cd®nbpsSbpw s]mdm´bpsSbpw IjvWßfmbncp∂p. c≠p aq∂p {]mhiyw O¿±n® tijw Abmƒ \neØv B O¿±nbn¬ Xs∂ sNcn™pInS∂v Dd°ambn. tamsf am‰n, tZhIn kmcn Agn®p sh®p. asÆÆ ASn∏mhmShscsbØnbncp∂p. Ahƒ tiJcs\ \o°n°nSØn. _°‰pw sh≈hpw sIm≠ph∂v O¿±nsb√mw XpS®pam‰n. \\™ tXm¿ØpsIm≠v AbmfpsS apJw XpS®p. Abmƒ Dd°ambncp∂p. F√mw hrØnbm°nbtijw Hcp •m v ]®sh≈hpw IpSn®v, ap\n™v IØp∂ Ccp]Ø©p hmńs‚ hnf°pw sISpØn Ahƒ InS∂p. Zo]tamƒ AhfpsS sIm®p ssI sIm≠hsf sIńhcn™p. Ahƒ ]Xps° tNmZn®p.

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AtΩ, A—≥ icn°pw AtΩ IØnt°y? tZhnI°v Dd∏p≠mbncp∂n√. apdnbn¬ At∏mgpw asÆÆbpsS K‘ap≠mbncp∂p. tiJcs‚ Xebv°¬ sh®n´p≈ Sn∂n¬ asÆÆ _m°n bp≠v. Ahƒ Zo]bpsS kam[m\Øn∂mbn ]d™p. C√ tamsf A—≥ IpSn®p h∂n´v Hmtcm∂v ]dbzmWv. Ipd®p t\csØ au\Øn\ptijw Ahƒ ho≠pw tNmZn®p. F¥n\mtΩ A—≥ IpSn°WXv? tZhInbv°dnbn√mbncp∂p. IpSnt°≠ Bhiysam∂pw Ahƒ I≠n√. Hcp Npa´p sXmgnemfnsb∂ \nebv°v Abmƒ \√ ]Wap≠m°nbncp∂p. Nne Znhkw \qdv \q‰nbncp] Ø©v cq] hsc. Ccp\qdpw AXne[nIhpw D≠m°nbn´p≈ Znhkßfp≠v. amkw icmicn c≠mbncØn¬ ]cw hcp am\ap≠mbncp∂p. C{Xbpw ]WwsIm≠v F{X \√ PohnX \nehmcap≠m°mambncps∂∂v tZhIn a\ nem°nbXv ASpØ ImeØmWv. IpńIsf ]ńWnbn¬\n∂v c£n°m\m bn Hcp hoń¬ tPmen°p \n∂t∏mƒ. Ahƒ tPmen°p \n∂ hoń¬ Hcp sNdnb IpSpw_ ambncp∂p. A—≥, AΩ, \mephb p≈ aIƒ. c≠papdn hmSIhoń¬ Xmakn°p∂p. A™qdpdp∏nI hmSI. Ah¿ Xt∂°mƒ Ht∂m ct≠m hb n\p XmsgbmsW¶n¬ IqSn tZhIn Ahsc tN®nsb∂p hnfn®p. `¿Ømhv Hmôkn¬ t]mbm¬ Ah¿ ASp°fbn¬ IS∂p Ht∂m ct≠m aWn °qdn\p≈n¬ `£Wap≠m°p∂p. D®`£WØn\p≠m°n bXp Xs∂bmWv cm{Xnbpw. Hgnhp In´p∂ kabsØ√mw Fs¥¶nepw Xp∂ns°m≠ncn°pw. icn°pw Hcp k¥p„ IpSpw_w. AhnsS tPmen XpSßnb tijamWv kz¥w hoSns‚ A]mIXIsf∏‰n tZhIn BtemNn°m≥ XpSßn bXv. BZyw Ahsf tamln∏n®Xv ]e Xcw K‘ßfmbncp∂p. tPmensNøp∂ hoń¬ BZyw ImepIpØnbt∏mƒ Ahsf BI¿jn®Xv hmk\bmbncp∂p. ]q°fpsS hmk\. GsX ∂dnbmØ ]q°ƒ. Ahƒ Ipńbmbncn°ptºmƒ Ft∏mtgm B hmk\ AhtfmsSm∏ap≠mbncp∂p. BZyap≠mb tXm∂¬ X\n°p \„s∏´sXt¥m Xncn®pInńsb∂Xmbn cp∂p. AtXmsS Ahƒ°v B hoSpw ho´pImcpw C„ambn. D®bv°v tPmenIgn™v hońseØnbt∏mgmWv Ahƒ kz¥w hoSns‚ InS∏v {i≤n®Xv. Hcp apdnbpw ASp°fbpw am{XamWv D≈Xv. Ipfnapdnbpw I°qkpw ]pdØmWv. tN®nbpsS hoSnt\°mƒ Hcp apdn Ipdhv. ]t£ AXns‚ InSt∏m? C{Xbpw hrØnsI´ ÿeØmWs√m Xm≥ Xmakn°p∂sX∂v Ahƒ°v BtemNn°mXncn°m≥ Ign™n√. I√ymWw Ign™ ImeØv Ahƒ B hoSv Ipsd°qSn `wKnbm°n sh®ncp∂p. Hcp ]gb kmcn shń P\en\v ]IpXn sXm´v I¿´≥ CSpIhsc Ahƒ sNbvXncp∂p. ]ns∂ AXymhiyap≈ ]WwIqSn Xs‚ IønseØp∂ns√∂v I≠t∏mƒ AhfpsS D’mlsa√mw sI´Sßn. `¿Ømhn\v hchn√m™n´√. A∂∂pIn´p∂ ]Ww hońseØp∂ns√∂p am{Xw. `¿Ømhns\ IpSn ]Tn∏n® Bsf Ahƒ i]n®p. Ahkm\w F√mw Xs‚ hn[nbmsW∂ ań¬ HXpßpIbpw sNbvXp. tPmen Inńb A∂v sshIpt∂cw Ahƒ hoSphrØnbm°m≥ Hcp {iaw \SØn. F√mw s]mSnXń. apdnbmsI IgpIn. Xncpºm\p≈ XpWnIƒ NnXdn°nS∂Xv am‰nsh®p. aq∂paWn°q¿ A≤zm\n® tijhpw Ahƒ°v Xr]vXn h∂n√. Hmes°mSn IØn®Xns‚ \m‰w apdnbn¬ Xßn\n∂p. XpWnIƒ°v Hcp \m‰aps≠∂v At∏mgmWv Ahƒ {i≤n®Xv. hne Ipd™ tkm∏p]tbmKn®v XncpºpI ImcWw XpWnIfpsS hnb¿∏p\m‰w apgph≥ hn´pt]mbncp∂n√. B \m‰w Ffp∏w Ifbm≥ ]‰n s√∂v Ahƒ°p a\ nembn. AXv Xs∂t∏mse Pohn°p∂hcpsS K‘amWv. apdn°p≈n¬Øs∂ `£Wap≠m°pIbpw AXn\v IØn°m≥ Hmes°mSntbm hndtIm D]tbmKn°pIbpw sNøpIbmsW¶n¬ ]pIaWw Hgnhm°m≥ ]‰ns√∂hƒ I≠p. F{X \√ Nµ\ØncnbpsSbpw aWsØ \n¿hocyam°nbncp∂p B K‘w. NpcpßnbXv Hcp asÆÆ Ãu∆v 24 Ip¶paw HmW-∏-Xn∏v 1990

hmßpIsb¶nepw sNbv X m¬ aXn. Hcp Ãu hmßm≥ F{X\mƒ ]d™pt\m°n. adp]Sn Xosc aban√mØXmbncp∂p. \obnt∏mƒ tPmens°ms° t]mbn´v ]W°mcymbn Ccn°ys√y? iºfw In´ptºm hmßnt°m. iºfw! X\nbv°v In´p∂ \qdpdp∏nIsIm≠v Acn hmßpIbmtWm th≠Xv? AtXm Ãut∆m? Ãu∆n\hƒ hne tNmZn®ncp∂p. Fgp]Ø©p dp∏nI. Hmtcm amkhpw iºfw Inńbm¬ Ahƒ ISbpsS apºn¬ t]mbn Nn√n´ tjmtIkn\p≈n¬ sh® Ãu Ipd®p t\cw t\m°n \n¬°pw. D≈n¬ Ibdm≥ ss[cyan√msX _kv tÃm∏nte°p \S°pIbpw sNøpw. Ahƒ tPmen°p t]mIm≥ XpSßnbXv tiJc\v C„ambn√. AXbmƒ t\cn´v ]d™ns√¶nepw {]h¿Ønbn¬ ImWn®p. AXphsc h√t∏mgpw sImSpØncp∂ ]Whpw Abmƒ \n¿Øem°n. cm{XnIfn¬ IqSpX¬ sshIn hońseØm\pw Fs¥¶nepw ImcWw ]d™v Ieln°m\pw t`Zyw sNøm\pw XpSßn. Ahƒ sshIpt∂cßfn¬ Ab¬ hońse I√ymWn Xncn®phcp∂Xpw ImØncp∂p. Xs‚ {]mcm œßƒ BcpsSsb¶nepw ASpØv Cd°n sh°Ww. I√ymWnbmWv Ahƒ°v tPmenbm°n sImSpØXv. tPmensbSp°p∂ hońse tN®ntbmSv BhemXnIƒ ]dbm≥ tZhIn {ian®p. c≠pt±iap≠mbncp∂p. H∂v a\ n¬ klXm]Øns‚ Ne\ap≠m°m≥ ]‰nbm¬ \qdp∏nI ap≥Iq¿ hmßmas√m. Ãu hmßm≥. ISw ]n∂oSv KUp°fmbn iºfØn¬ \n∂v ]nSn®m¬ aXnbs√m c≠pw \S∂n√. Xs‚ {]mcmœßƒ tIƒ°m≥ Ah¿°v kaban√mbncp∂p, Xm¬]cyhpw. Ah¿ ]d™p. \nßsSsbms° Hcp tbmKamWv. ChnsS tN´\v A{Xb[nIw iºfw H∂pw√y. BbncØn Adp\qdpdp∏nIbmWv iºfw. s{]mhnU‚ v ^≠pw C≥jqd≥kpw Hs° ]nSn®pIgn™m¬ Iøn¬ In´p∂Xv BbncØn ap∂qdpdp∏nIymWv. AtXm≠mWv Rßfv I„n®v Acn„n®v IgoWXv. s\s‚ `¿Ømhv sNma´v sXmgnemfys√. Abmfv tN´t\°mƒ ]Ww kºmZn°vW≠mhpw. Hs° IpSn®v If™m¬ F¥m sNøym? AUzm≥kns\m∂pw ]Ww Fs‚ Iønev≠mhn√y. s\\°v XcW iºfw Xs∂ Rm≥ ªukpw ]mhmSbpw Hs° Xp∂ns°mSvØ´v≠m°mw∂v tNm´t\mSv ]d™ncn°ymWv. B Hd∏vΩemWv s\s∂ sht®mfm≥ kΩXn®Xv. I√ymWn am{Xta Hcp c£bp≈p. Ahƒ ]dbpw, \aps°ms° Cu `¿Ømhv∂v ]dbW Bƒ Hcp `mcm. Cßns\ Hcp `mcw C√ym≠ncn°ym \√Xv. Rm\Xs√ Abmsf ASn®p ]pdØm°oXv. Rm≥ A≤zm\n®p sIm≠phcp∂ ImsiSpØv Abmfv I≈p IpSn°pw. Hcp Znhkw I≈p IpSn®p ]qkmbn cm{Xn Hcp aWn°v h∂v hg°p≠m°ns∂ X√m≥ h∂p. Rm≥ NqseSpØv \∂msbm∂v s]cpamdn. ]ns∂ Abmsf I≠nń√y. s∏m F¥m F\ns°mcp Ipdhv? Fs‚ c≠p a°fow Rm≥ \∂mbn s]me¿Øn Wns√y. c≠n°nev tPmeo≠v. t\csØ c≠p ÿetØbpw tPmen Ign™ Znhkßfn¬ tZhIn I√ymWnsb hgn°psh®v ImWmdp≠v. \SØØn\nSbn¬ Ãu∆ns‚ ISbv°p apºn¬ tZhIn \n¬°pw. s\\°n{X tamlmW¶n tN®ntbmSv ISw hmßn°qsS? tN®osS ÿnXn A{X \√sXm∂z√. I≈pIpSn H∂pw√ymtØm≠v Aßns\ Ign®pt]mWp. tN®osS `¿Ømhv kvt\lw≈mfm. ]ns∂ Ipd®pt\cw \n»–bmb tijw Ahƒ ]d™p. Aßs\ thWw Hcp IpSpw_m®m¬. IeymWn a‰p NneXv BtemNn°pIbmbncp∂p. tZhInsb Ahƒ°n„ambncp∂p. Ahsf Fßns\sb¶nepw IcIb‰Wsa∂p≠hƒ°v. Hcp tPmen IqSn G¿s∏SpØn sImSp°mw. amkw Hcp \qdpdp∏nIIqSn XSbpw. AXp sIms≠√mw F¥mhm\mWv. Ahƒ `mhnsb∏‰n BtemNn®p. tZhnIbpsS `¿Ømhns‚ t]m°pI≠m¬ XmaknbmsX Ahƒ°v Xm≥ sNbvXt]mse Abmsf ASn®ndt°≠n hcpsa∂dnbmw. At∏mƒ Ccp\qdp cq]sIm≠v c≠pa°sf t]m‰pI hnjaamWv. \n\°v B Ãu hmßWw∂v A{X tamlwt≠m? tZhIn AhfpsS hoSpw tPmensbSp°p∂ hoSpw Hcn°¬°qSn a\ n¬ XmcXays∏SpØn. Xs‚ hoSns\ timN\obmhÿbn¬ \n∂pb¿Øn at‰ hoSns‚ \nehmcØnte°pb¿Øm\p≈ BZysØ ]SnbmWv Ãu. AXpwIqSn Inńbns√¶n¬ ]ns∂ B tamlw Dt]£n°pIbmWv \√Xv. Ahƒ°v s]s´∂v k¶Sw h∂p. IÆn¬ Dcp≠ph∂ PeIWßƒ Ahƒ Ahƒ kmcnØpºp sIm≠p XpS®p. I√ymWn tNmZyamh¿Øn®p. tZhIn Xebmń. ∂m, Rm≥ ]dbW Imcyw sNbvXm aXn. \obv BtcmSpw ]do√ym∂v kXyw sNøv. Ahƒ kXyw sNbvXp. Xs‚ _p≤nap´pIƒ ]msS amdn°n´m\p≈ Hcp a{¥amWv I√ymWn ]d™p Xcm≥ t]mIp∂Xv . hrØnbp≈ hoSns\∏‰nbp≈ kz]v \ w Ahƒ ho≠pw Hm¿Øp. AsXmcp bmYm¿∞yam°msa∂p≈ hnizmkw Ahƒ°v Bizmkw \¬In. Rm≥ Hcmsf ]cnNbs∏SpØnØcmw. I√ymWn ]d™p. ChnsS ASpØz∂ymWv \√ skm`mh≈

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a\pjy\m. C„mbm \ap°pth≠n F¥pw sNøpw. hm. I√ymWn ssI]nSn®p hen®p. Ah¿ {][m\ \ncØn¬ \n∂v ssIhgnbnte°v Xncn™p. ho≠pw sNdnb hgnIƒ. Hcp sNdnb HmSn´ hoSns‚ apºnseØnbt∏mƒ I√ymWn \n∂p. Np‰pw t\m°n Bcpans√∂pd∏mbt∏mƒ Xpd∂n´ sKbv‰neqsS AIØp IS∂p. CXn\p≈n¬ IS∂m¬ ]ns∂ Bcpw ImWn√y. kwibn®p \n¬°p∂ tZhInsb ssI]nSn®p hen®v Ahƒ Xpd∂n´ hmXneneqsS AItØ°p IS∂p. tkm^bpw sNdnb h´taibpw C´ Hcp apdn. AXn\SpØ apdnbn¬ taita¬ sh® `£W km[\ßƒ°p apºn¬ Hcmƒ Ccn°p∂p. AºXp hb p{]mbw. hcbp≈ j¿´mWnńcn°p∂Xv. sN∂nbnepw aoitaepw \c XpSßnbncn°p∂p. Abmƒ Xncn™p t\m°ns°m≠v tNmZn®p. F¥m I√ymWn hntijw? \msfbt√ hcmsa∂p ]d™ncp∂Xv? km¿. hiyambn Nncn®psIm≠v I√ymWn ]d™p. Hcmsf°qSn sIm≠cm≥ kmdv ]d™ns√y. Bsf sIm≠∂n´p≠v. FhnsS? tZhIn apdnbnte°v h∂ns√∂v At∏mgmWv I√ymWn°v a\ nembXv. Ahƒ apdn°p ]pdØpIS∂v kn‰nwKv dqan¬ Ad®p\n¬°p∂ tZhInbpsS ssI]nSn®v AItØ°p sIm≠ph∂p. Zm, ZmWv Bfv. Abmƒ tZhInsb Dgn™pt\m°n, kzoImcysa∂ ań¬ Xebmń. \nßƒ DuWp Ignt®zm? kmdv DuWp Ignt®mfp. Rßƒ ]ns∂ DÆmw. Zm, Fs‚ DuWp Ignbmdmbn. Rm\nt∏mƒ hcmw. AhnsSbncn°v. I√ymWn tZhInsb°qń ASp°fbnte°p \S∂p. ASp°fbn¬ \neØncn°ptºmƒ tZhIn tNmZn®p. kmdns‚ hoń¬ thsd Bcpws√y? C√ym. kmdv H‰°mWv. At∏m ASp°f tPmen°mtWm? A√m. AXns\mcp X≈≠v. Ahcv cmhnse h∂v tNmsdms°≠m°nsh®v t]mIpw. ]ns∂ t\cnb NncntbmsS I√ymWn ]d™p. CXv thsd ImcyØn\m. tZhInbv°v Imcyw apgph≥ ]nSnInń. AhfpsS apJw hmSn. AhfpsS D’mlw \in®p. F¥mWv sNtø≠sX∂v Xocpam\n°m≥ Ahƒ°mbn√. Cßs\ Hcp kµ¿`sØ∏‰n Ahƒ BtemNn®Xp t]mepan√. Ct∏mgpw sshInbnńs√∂pw X\nbv°v Xm¬]cyans√∂p ]d™v t]mIpsa∂pw Ahƒ °dnbmambncp∂p. F¥m s\s‚ apJw h√mXncn°WXv? tZhIn adp]Snsbm∂pw ]d™n√. Ahƒ a°sf∏‰n BtemNn®p. kabw c≠paWnbmbn´p≠mIpw. Xm≥ sshIn sbØp∂ Znhkßfn¬ aqØhƒ Cfbh\p tNmsdSpØp sImSp°mdp≠v. Ah¿ `£Ww Ign®n´p≠mIpsa∂hƒ Bin®p. Xte∂sØ ao≥ Iq´m≥ Nńbn¬ AS®p sh®Xv tamƒ ImWnt√? \ΩpsSsbms° PohnXw Cßns\bmWv tZhp. I√ymWn ]d™p. `¿Øm°∑mcv IpSn®ph∂v \Ωsf sXmgn°pw. thsd h√ B¨{]t∂mcpw \Ωsf kvt\ln°pw. \ap°v th≠sXms° Xcpw. CXnev sXs‰m∂p√y. Cu kmdns\ Rm≥ c≠psIm√mbn´v AdnbWXm. s∂ F{X klmbn®Xv∂≈Xn∂v Iøpw IW°pw√y. BZysØ {]mhiyw \ap°v h√mbva tXm∂pw. ]ns∂ms° km[mcWymhpw. AtXy≈p. Hcp ]pcpj≥ Xs∂ sXmSpI F∂Xn¬ henb Ipg∏sam∂pw tZhIn°v tXm∂nbncp∂n√. AXn\p ImcWw Ipń°meØp≠mb Hcp kw`hambncp∂p. Ft´m HºtXm hb p≈t∏mƒ hoń¬ Ipd®p hb mb Hcmƒ hcmdp≠v. Ahƒ ama≥ F∂p hnfn°p∂ Hcmƒ. hoń¬ AΩbpw a‰pw C√mØ Ahkcßfn¬ Abmƒ Ahsf aSnbnencpØn Xmtemen°mdp≠v . AΩ tPmen°p t]mb Ahkcßfn¬ Abmƒ Ahsf hoń\p≈n¬ sIm≠pt]mbn \neØp InSØmdp≠v. Abmƒ H∏w InS°pw. AXnse \nKqVX Ahƒ°n„s∏´p. AXv Ahfpw Abmfpw IqSnbp≈ clkyamb G¿∏mSmsW∂ t_m[w Ahsf DtØPnXbm°nbncp∂p. Abmƒ t]mIptºmƒ Ahƒ°v \mWyßƒ sImSpØncp∂p. ImepIƒ°nSbnse hgphgp∏v Ahƒ°n„s∏ńs√¶nepw Abmƒ Xcp∂ \mWyßfpw AXns‚ BI∏msSbp≈ clkymflIXbpw Ahƒ C„s∏ńcp∂p. Ahƒ B \mWbßƒ Nnc´bnem°n Hcp ÿeØv Hfn∏n®psh°pw. Xmes∏men kabØv AsX√mw s]dp°nsbSpØv hfbpw IΩepw apØpamebpw hmßpw. s\\°v shjaw tXm∂pt≠m? tZhIn Xebmń. AbmfpsS DuWp Ign™ncp∂p. ssI IgpIp∂ i–w tI´t∏mƒ I√ymWn Fgpt∂‰p. tai∏pdØp 26 Ip¶paw HmW-∏-Xn∏v 1990

\n∂v ]m{Xßsf√mw FSpØv ASp°fbn¬ sIm≠ph∂p sh®p. F®n¬ ]m{XßsfSpØv, tai hrØnbm°n. Rm≥ H∂v Xe Nmbv°s´, Abmƒ ]d™p. A∏g°v \nßfv DuWp Ignt®mfp. tZhIn°v hni°p∂p≠mbncp∂p. AXpsIm≠v tNmdp hnfºnbt∏mƒ Ahƒ aSnsbm∂pw IqSmsX DuWp XpSßn. ASp°fbn¬ \neØncp∂p sIm≠v Ah¿ DuWp Ign®p. DuWpIgn™v ]m{Xßƒ IgpIn sh®tijw I√ymWn ]d™p. Rms\m∂v t]mbn t\m°s´ kmdv HdßzmtWm∂v. I√ymWn t]mbt∏mƒ Ahƒ°v Hcn°¬°qSn BtemNn°m≥ CSInń. ISbn¬ •m v `nØn°p ]n∂n¬ sh® Xnfßp∂ Ãu Ahƒ°v Hm¿Ω h∂p. ]pIbpsS aWap≈ Xs‚ hoSpw. Ahƒ Xo¿®bm°n°gn™ncp∂p. Ct∏mƒ Ahsf Aeńbncp∂Xv thsdmcp {]iv\ambncp∂p. kmdv F¥mWv XcnI. I√ymWn Ahsf hnfn®p. tZ, kmdv hnfn°p∂p. Abmƒ Ińen¬ XebnWbn¬ Nmcnbncn°bmbncp∂p. j¿´gn®p sh®n´p≠v. AbmfpsS s\©sØ tcmaßƒ Aev]mev]w \c®p XpSßnbncp∂p. ]s£ \√ Dd® tZlambncp∂p AbmfptSXv. km¿ Rm≥ t]ms´. I√ymWn ]d™p. s]s´∂v tZhIn I√ymWntbmSv ]d™p. tN®n Fs‚ a°sf H∂v {i≤n°Wwt´m. AXns\¥m Ahcvs‚ a°ƒsS t]mey∂ys√? \obv ]Xps° h∂m aXn. ]ns∂ Xncn™v AbmtfmSv ]d™p. kmsd Rm≥ t]ms´. kmdv s∂ ad°cpXvt´m. Abmƒ Nncn®p. I√ymtWy ad∂m Rm≥ Fs∂Øs∂ ad∂q∂v Iqńt°mfp. \o t]mbn B hmXneS®v Ip‰nbn´p hm. Abmƒ tZhIntbmSv ]d™p. Ahƒ A\pkcn®p. ]n∂oSv F¥mWv sNtø≠sX∂dnbmsX Ahƒ ]I®p \n¬°pIbmWv. AhnsS Ipfnapdnbp≠v. Abmƒ Nq≠n°mń. Ipfn®p hcq. AXm B Aeamdoev ap≠pw ta¬ap≠pw ImWpw. Ipfn®n´v AXp am{Xw DSpØm¬ aXn. Ipfn kpJambncp∂p. Dcp≠ \√ hmk\bp≈ tkm∏vtX®v Ahƒ [mcmfw sh≈Øn¬ Ipfn®p. hoń¬ sXcphnse Sm∏n¬ hcnbmbn\n∂v ]nSn°p∂ sh≈Øn¬ Ipfn®m¬ F¥v kwXr]vXnbp≠mhm \mWv. sh≈w ap°n ta¬ Hgn®p sIm≠ncns° s]s´∂v km¿ ImØncn°p∂p≠mIpw F∂hƒt°m¿Ω h∂p. Ahƒ tXm¿Øn, H‰ap≠pw DSpØv ta¬ap≠psIm≠v amdpad®v ]pdØpIS∂p. Abmƒ Ińen¬ \oßn°nS∂p sIm≠v ]d™p. hcq. Ahƒ HXpßn°nS∂p. Abmƒ AhfpsS Npaen¬ ]Xps° ssI sh®p. kmh[m\Øn¬, hfsc kmh[m\Øn¬ Abmƒ Ahsf hcn™Sp∏n®p. ]Xps° AhfpsS ta¬ap≠v am‰n, Xnßnb amdn¬ apJapb¿Øn. Ahƒ thsdmcp temIØmbncp∂p. kmdv F¥p Xcpsa∂dnbn√. F¥v Bhiys∏SWsa∂v I√ymWntbmSv tNmZn®psh°m\pw ad∂p. Ahƒ°v Ãu F{Xbpw thKØn¬ hmßWsa∂p≠v. Ahƒ s]s´∂v tNmZn®p. kmsd\n°v F¥v Iqen Xcpw? Iqen? AsX Cs∏m sNøW tPmen°v? AbmfpsS Xm¬]cyw s]s´∂v \in®p. Abmƒ `mh\bn¬ at\mlcamb Hcp Nn{Xw hc®p≠m°pI bmbncp∂p. ap∏Ø©mw hb n¬ `mcy acn®tijw Abmƒ Aßns\ Hcp temIØmbncp∂p. Xm≥ H∏w InS°p∂ kv{XoIƒ Xt∂mSv t{]aØnemsW∂bmƒ k¶¬∏n®p. I√ymWn B hnizmkØn\v Cf°w Xń®ncp∂n√. Ahƒ Hcn°epw ]Ww tNmZn®ncp∂n√. Abmƒ tXm∂ptºmƒ am{Xw sImSpØp. AhfpsS Bhiyßƒ \n¿∆ln®psImSp°pIbpw sNbvXp. tZhInbpsS ]›mØew I√ymWn ]d™psImSpØncp∂p. Ahƒ `¿Ømhns\b√msX thsd Bscbpw kzoIcn®nńs√∂pw `¿Ømhns‚ IpSn ImcWw IpńIsf t]m‰m\mWv CXn\p apXn¿∂sX∂pw Abmƒ°dnbmw. s]s´∂bmƒ°v A\pIº tXm∂n. AhfpsS \ne\n¬]ns‚ {]iv \ amWXv . AXn™m¬ Ahƒ°v kam[m\amhpsa¶n¬ Aßns\bmhs´ Abmƒ tNmZn®p. \n\s°¥v thWw? ]Xn\©pdp∏nI Xtczm? 27Ip¶paw HmW-∏-Xn∏v 1990

]Øv F∂p ]dbm\mWv Ahƒ HmßnbXv. Abmƒ hne t]inbmtem Ft∂m¿ØmWv ]Xn\©v F∂p ]d™Xv. Xcmas√m. Abmƒ Nncn®psIm≠v ]d™p. ho≠pw Ahsf Xmtemen°m≥ XpSßn. ]Xn\©pdp∏nI {]Imcw A©p {]mhiyw ChnsS h∂m¬ Ãu hmßm≥ ]‰pw. Ahƒ IW°p Iq´pIbmWv. BgvNbnsemcn°se¶nepw kmdn\nXp th≠n hcpambncn°pw. At∏mƒ Hcp amkw sIm≠v Ãu hmßm≥ ]‰pw. Abmƒ XgpI¬ \n¿Øn, Ińens‚ Xe°¬ \nh¿∂ncp∂p. Hcp knKc‰v FSpØv IØn®v ]pIhn´p. tZhIn Abmsf A¤pXtØmsS t\m°n. F¥m sNønWns√y? Ahƒ Fgpt∂‰ncp∂p. AhfpsS DebmØ amdnSw a‰p `mKßsf At]£n®v \√ \ndambncp∂p. Abmƒ t\m°p∂Xp I≠t∏mƒ Ahƒ ta¬ aps≠SpØv amdpad®p. tZhIo....... Abmƒ ]d™p. CXv kvt\lap≈ c≠pt]¿ IqSn sNtø≠ ImcyamWv. \obnt∏mƒ sNøp∂Xv IW°p Iq´pIbmWv. kvt\lw F∂Xv IW°pIƒs°ms° apIfnemWv. Ahƒ°v ]dbm≥ hm°pIfn√mXmbn. kvt\lsØ∏‰n Bcpw AhtfmSv CXphsc ]d™ncp∂n√. HºXmw hb n¬ Ahsf aSnbn¬ sh®v taemsI XtemSpIbpw, Bcpan√mØt∏mƒ ImepIƒ°nSbn¬ NqSp]IcpIbpw sNbvX a\pjy\pw Ahsf kvt\ln°p∂psh∂v ]d™nń√. Hcn°ƒ Abmƒ Ahsf thZ\n∏n®p. Np´p\odp∂ thZ\bn¬ Ahƒ hmhn´p Ic™t∏mƒ Abmƒ Fgpt∂‰v hmXn¬ Xpd∂v HmSnt∏mhpIbmWp≠mbXv. ImepIƒ°nSbn¬ tNmcIqSn I≠t∏mƒ Ahƒ IqSpX¬ ]cn{`m¥bmbn Dds°°cbm≥ XpSßn. Abmƒ°v AhfpsS `baI‰m≥ Fs¥¶nepw kvt\lap≈ hm°pIƒ ]dbmambncp∂p. AXn\p]Icw Abmƒ HmSnt∏mhpIbmWv sNbvXXv. ]n∂oSbmƒ Ahsf ImWm≥ h∂Xpan√. I√ymW cm{Xnbn¬ `¿Ømhpw Ahsf _em’wKw sNøpIbmWv sNbvXXv. AhfpsS \mWw hIsh°msX Abmƒ AhfpsS tZlØnendßn. AhfpsS tXß¬ {i≤n°msX Dd°amhpIbpw sNbvXp. Ct∏mgpw IpSn®p h∂mepw Abmƒ AXpXs∂bmWv sNbvXncp∂Xv. ]et∏mgpw tamƒ DW¿∂ncp∂v AXp ImWp∂ps≠∂hƒ°dnbmambncp∂p. òXn]q≠ IÆpItfmsS Ahƒ, AΩsb A—≥ _em’wKw sNøp∂Xv t\m°n°nS°pw. a\pjy¿ IpSn®p t_m[w adn™m¬ sNøp∂ Hcp I¿ΩamWsX∂v B Ip™v hnizkn®p. Hcn°¬ F√mw Ign™v tZhIn AhfpsS ASpØv h∂v InS∂t∏mƒ Ahƒ tNmZn®p. AΩbv°v thZ\nt®zm? ChnsS CXm Hcmƒ Xs‚ Np≠pIfn¬ kvt\l]q¿∆w Npw_n®v Xs∂ kvt\ltØmsS amtdmSW®v kvt\lsØ∏‰n kwkmcn°p∂p. X\nbv°]cnNnXamb `mj Ahƒ Icbm≥ XpSßn. Abmƒ°v A\pIºtXm∂n. B IÆocns‚ A¿∞w Abmƒ a\ nem°n. knKc‰v hens®dn™v Abmƒ Ahsf X∂ntebv°Sp∏n®p. Ahƒ kmcnamdn h∂t∏mƒ Abmƒ tNmZn®p. Ãu∆ns\¥mWv hne? Fgp]Ø©pdp∏nI. sNet∏m ]niInbm¬ A©pdp∏nI sImd®pXcpw. Abmƒ Ioibn¬ \n∂v \qdns‚ Hcp t\m´SpØv AhfpsS Iøn¬ sh®p. Ahƒ B t\mń¬ Ipd®pt\cw t\m°n \n∂p. apJapb¿Øn Abmsf t\m°m≥ Ahƒ°p e÷tXm∂n. Ahƒ B t\m´v \ońs°m≠v ]d™p. s‚ Iønev Nn√d C√y kmsd. Hcp Imcyw sNøp. Abmƒ ]d™p. tZhIn ]Xn\©n\s√ ]d™Xv. Ccp]Ø©v sht®mfp. _m°n Fgp]Ø©ns√? AXpsIm≠v Ãu hmßnt°mfp. C∂pXs∂ hmßp. Ahƒ AXp {]Xo£n®ncp∂n√. AhfpsS IW°pIqépIƒ F√mw ]ng®ncp∂p. kmdns\t∂mSv tZjyw ]nSn®p As√? Rm≥ hnhcw√ymtØmtfm kmsd. AtXm≠v AhnthIw Hs° ]d™q∂v hcpw. kmdv £an°Ww. Hcp Imcyw ]dbs´. \Ωfv Cs∏m sNbvXXv Iqen°v sNøW ]Wnb√. AtXm≠v {]Xnêambn´v Rm≥ Fs¥¶nepw Xcpw∂v IcpX≠. s\s‚ Bhiyw Hs° a\ nem°n Rm≥ AXn\\pkcn®v ]Ww Xcpw. ]ns∂ s\\°v Fs¥¶nepw {]tXyI Bhiyws≠¶n¬ ]d™m aXn. tdj≥ ISbn¬ asÆÆbp≠mbncp∂n√. Ahƒ°v Ãu IØn°m≥ [rXnbmbncp∂p. AXpsIm≠v Ahƒ c≠p en‰¿ asÆÆ Icn©¥bn¬ hmßn. am¿°‰n¬ t]mbt∏mƒ \√ Nmf I≠p. AXpw Fs´Æw hmßn. hoń¬ h∂v Ahƒ BZyw apdn hrØnbm°n. hndIp IjvWßfpw Hmes°mSnbpw ]pdtØ°n´p. NmWIw sIm≠ph∂v AhnsSsb√mw \∂mbn sagpIn. Ãu IØn®v tNmdpw Iq´m\pw D≠m°n. Nmf hdp°pIbpw sNbvXp. tiJc≥ hcm≥ HºXcaWnbmbncp∂p. Abmƒ hmXn¬ IS∂ph∂v Np‰pw t\m°n aWw ]nSn®p. 28 Ip¶paw HmW-∏-Xn∏v 1990

]pXnb Ãu NqSmbXns‚ aWhpw asÆÆbpsS K‘hpw Abmƒ°p Inńsb∂p tXm∂p∂p. Abmƒ Ãu Nq≠n°mń tNmZn®p. FSo, Cu Ãu FhnS∂p Inń? ISbn¬ \n∂p hmßn. FhnSp∂p InńsbSn AXn\p≈ ]Ww. tZhIn Hcp \nanjw sRń. sR´¬ hnZKvZambn ad®psh®psIm≠hƒ ]d™p. tPmensbSp°p∂nSsØ tN®ntbmSv ISw hmßn. Nmf hdpØXns‚ {]tem`n∏n°p∂ aWw aq°nseØnbt∏mƒ Abmƒ \neØncp∂v ]n™mWw hens®SpØp. HcmgvN Ign™t∏mƒ Ahƒ Hcp hncn∏v hmßn. apdnbpsS HccpIn¬ D]tbmKn°msX InS∂ Ińen¬ Ahƒ InSbv°v hncn®p AXn\p tase ]pXnb hncn hncn®p. Ahƒ a\ n¬ hnNmcn®p. ]Xps°sb¶nepw Rm≥ Fs‚ hoSv \∂m°pIbmWv. cm{XnIfn¬ tiJc≥ sshIn hcptºmƒ ImWp∂ ]cnjvImcßƒ Abmƒ I≠ns√∂p \Sn®p. Aeqan\bw •m pIƒ Xnfßp∂ Ão¬ •m pIƒ°v hgnamdn. IhSn∏n™mWßƒ°p ]Icw c≠p hepXpw c≠p sNdpXpamb Ão¬ tπbv‰pIƒ hmßn. IpńIƒ°v ]pXnb DSp∏pIƒ. tiJc≥ F√mw I≠p. Abmƒ B hoń¬ A\ys∏SpIbmbncp∂p. Hcp amkambn Xm≥ hoń¬ ]Wsam∂pw sImSpØns√∂bmƒ Hm¿Øp. apsº√mw c≠paq∂pZnhkw IqSptºmsg¶nepw tZhIn ]Ww tNmZn°mdp≠mbncp∂p. Ct∏mƒ BgvNIfmbn Ahƒ tNmZn°mdn√. tNmZn®m¬ Inńs√∂p a\ nembtXmsSbmWv Ahƒ \n¿ØnbsX∂bmƒ°dnbmw. ]t£ ]pXpXmbn hmßp∂ Cu km[\ßƒ°v ]Ww FhnsS\n∂p hcp∂p F∂bmƒ°p a\ nembn√. tNmZn°m\p≈ ss[cy ap≠mbXpan√. `mcybv°v Xs‚ Bhiyan√mXmhpIbmsW∂ t_m[w AbmfpsS ]ucpjsØ kmcambn _m[n®p. cm{Xn IpSn®p hcptºmƒ Abmƒ Xs‚ ]ucpjsa∂ _eq¨ DuXnho¿∏n®n´mWv hcnI. ]t£ cmhnse Fgpt∂¬°ptºmƒ elcnsb√mw HXpßptºmƒ Abmƒ Im‰pt]mb _eq¨ t]msebmbn. `mcybv°v ]Ww In´p∂ps≠∂bmƒ°p t_m≤yambn. ]t£ AsXhnsS\n∂mbncn°psa∂v BtemNn°m≥ Abmƒ C„s∏ń√. s]mńsØdnbp≠mbXv Hcp Znhkw cmhnsebmbncp∂p. tPmen°p t]mIm≥ ]pds∏´tijw Abmƒ tZhnItbmSv tNmZn®p. Hc©pdp∏nI FSp°v. Fs‚ Iøn¬ ]Wsam∂pan√. tZhIn Xd∏n®p ]d™p. \nßƒ sIm≠ph∂p X∂t]msebmWt√m tNmZn°WXv. FSo ]WsaSp°m\m ]d™Xv. Fs‚ Iønen√. FSo Fs‚ ]ucpjw \o I≠nń√. ]ucpjw∂v≈Xv `mscy X√vWXne√. IpSpw_w t\m°WXnemWv. ]ucpjt≈mcv `mtcyw a°tfw ]ńWn°nSn√y. \o ]WsaSp°p∂pt≠m? Fs‚ Iønen√y. Abmƒ InS°bpsS ASnbn¬ \n∂v AhfpsS t]gvkv FSpØp Xpd∂p, AXn¬ t\m´pIfp≠m bncp∂p. H‰t\m´Øn¬ \m¬∏Xv AºXpdp∏nI hcpw. CsX¥mSn ]Wat√? CsXhnSp∂p Inńb ]WamWv? Rm≥ A≤zm\n®p≠m°oXv. A√msX¥m? FSo \o tXm∂nhmkw Imń Inńb ]Wat√ CXv? Aßns\sb¶n¬ Aßns\. `¿Øm°∑mcv In´W ]Ww apgph≥ IpSn®v hoSv t\m°m≠ymbm¬ `mcyamcv Aßns\sbms° sNøpw. AXn{XImepw a\ nem°nbns√? `mcybv°pw IpńIƒ°pw hni ∏p≠v. Ah¿°pw Xn∂Ww. Abmƒ ]ucpjØn\v Inńb Ahkm\sØ sNm´mbncp∂p AXv. Abmƒ t]gvkv AhfpsS apJ tØ°p hens®dn™v ]pdtØ°p t]mbn. cm{Xn ]ØpaWn°v tiJc≥ h∂p. AbmfpsS IÆpIƒ Nph∂ncp∂p. BSns°m≠v AIØp IS∂tijw Iønep≈ asÆÆSn≥ \neØv Hcp i–tØmsS sh®v tNmZn®p. FSo......CsX¥m∂dntøzm? !

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F\n°o hoSns‚ A¥co£w hfsc C„ambn. t]mIm≥ th≠n Fgpt∂‰p sIm≠v tcWpI ]d™p. aq∂paWn°v h∂XmWv . Ct∏mƒ kabw \mec. A\nXbpsS ]pdØp Xńs°m≠hƒ ]d™p. Ft∏mgpw Nncn°p∂ apJap≈ `mcy, kvt\lap≈ `¿Ømhv, anSp°p≈ c≠p IpńIƒ. k¥p„IpSpw_w. Abmƒ Dds° Nncn®p. A\ntX, \ΩpsS A`n\bw \∂mhp∂ps≠∂¿∞w. A`n\bw Hs° F\nbv ° p a\ nemhpw. tcWpI ]d™p. icn°p≈ kvt\lhpw. P\en∂cpIn¬ sh® a’ySm¶pt\m°n Ahƒ XpS¿∂p. ]ns∂ F\nbv°n„ambXv Cu a’yßsfbmWv. sXfnsh≈w, XpSpØ ]® \ndap≈ sNSnIƒ, \o¥n°fn°W a’yßƒ. Cu hoń¬ a’yßƒIqSn Xr]vXcmsW∂p tXm∂p∂p. sXfnsh≈Øns‚ clkyw AXnse ^n¬´dmsW∂pw AXp≠mt°≠ sXßns\sb∂pw a‰pw Abmƒ hnhcn®p sImSp°m≥ {ian®XmWv . ]t£ Ahƒ°v Xosc Xm¬]cyan√mØ t]mse tXm∂n. hniZmwißfnte°p IS°ptºmtg°pw Ahƒ as‰s¥¶nepw tNmZn°pw. F¥mWv a’yßƒ°v Xo‰ sImSp°pI, AkpJw h∂m¬ F¥mWv sNøpI F∂nßs\. Abmƒ Hcp tNmZyØn\v adp]Sn ]dbm≥ XpSßptºmtgbv ° pw Ahƒ as‰mcp tNmZyw FSpØnSpw. Hcp tNmZyØn\pw Xr]v X nIcamb adp]Sn°pth≠n Ahƒ ImØp\n∂n√. Abmƒ°Xn„s∏ń√. a’yßsf∏‰n ]dbptºmƒ Abmƒ hmNme\mhpIbpw hniZmwißfnte°p IS°pIbpw sNøpw. tI´p\n¬°p∂ h¿°Xn\p≈ £abn√mØXn\v Ahsc Ip‰w ]d™n´p Imcyan√. Ah¿°Xn¬ Xm¬]cyw tht≠? Rm≥ Cdßs´. tcWpI ]d™p. \nßƒ F∂mWv RßfpsS hońte°v hcp∂Xv? Rm\nhnsS Ipsd {]mhiymbn hcp∂p. Rßƒ Hcp Znhkw hcmw. Abmƒ ]d™p. F\n°v icn°v hgnbdnbn√. Ffp∏mWv. Ahƒ ]d™p. Cu sebv≥ sN∂v ap´W ÿeØv∂v CStØm´v t]mhpI. AhnsS Hcp sNdnb Aºew≠v. A\nX°dnbmw. AXns‚ FXn¿`mKØv A©masØ hoSmWv. HmSn´ hoSmWv. sNtdyXmWv. F\n°dnbmw. A\nX ]d™p. Rm≥ I≠n´p≠v. Rßƒ hcmw.

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t]mhq. F\n°v hcmdmbnń√. aIs‚ IeymWw Ign™n´v Bdp amkta Bbn´p≈q. Ah¿ H∏w Xmakn°pIbmWv. \√ Ipń. Ahƒ h∂Xn\p tijw kp`{Z°v Aev ] w kzÿX Inńbncn°p∂p. ASp°f apgph≥ Ahƒ Gs‰SpØp. `¿Ømhn\pw A—\pw AΩbv°pw th≠sX√mw Ahƒ AXmXpkabØp sNbvXp sImSpØp. B¿°pw BhemXns∏tS≠n h∂nń√. HXp°ap≈ Ipń. aIƒ t_mws_bnemWv. Ahƒ `¿Ømhpw aIfpambn sIm√Ønsemcn°¬ \mń¬ hcpw. Ccp]Ømdp Znhkw AhnsS Hcp sIm®pkz¿§ap≠mIpw, ]ns∂ hoSv Ccp´m°ns°m≠v Xncn®pt]mhpIbpw sNøpw. B Ccp]Ømdp Znhkßƒ ]n∂oSp≈ ]Xns\m∂pamkw Pohn°m\p≈ DtØP\w Xcp∂p. InS°°cpInen´ Ãqfn¬ Ccp∂v cmLh≥ AΩmbnb∏s\ t\m°n. A©pan\n‰v aºv cmPnsb∏‰n tNmZn®tXbp≈q. tamfv F∏gm hczm? A©paWn°v. Cs∏m kabw F{Xymbn? \mec. AcaWn°qdn\p≈n¬ t]c°pńsb ImWm\mhpsa∂ BizmkØnemWv apØ—≥. cmLh≥ Xs∂ D‰pt\m°nbncn°bmsW∂dn™t∏mƒ hb ≥ ]Xn™ kzcØn¬ tNmZn®p. Ft¥? At∏mgmWv cmLh≥ I≠Xv. {]Xo£m\n¿`camb B £oWn® apJØv Ip≠nemgv∂ndßnb IÆpI fn¬ {]Xo£bpsS am[pcyØn¬ \ng¬ hogvØnb `bsØ. F¥n\mWv acWsØ C{Xbpw `bs∏Sp∂Xv? cmLh≥ Nncn®psIm≠v tNmZn®p. F¥mbmepw Hcp Znhkw t]mWw. hr≤≥ Nncn®p. h√msØmcp Nncn. Xm≥ AXp ]dtb≠nbncp∂ns√∂v cmLh\p tXm∂n. cmhnse Ggp aWn°mWv A—≥ Bip]{XnbnemsW∂v t^m¨ h∂Xv. At∏mƒØs∂ ]pds∏´p. amt\Psc t^m¨ hgn Adnbn®p. eohv se‰¿ Hmôkn¬ FØn°m≥ Gev]n®p. _ nepw Xoh≠nbnepambn ]nt‰∂v sshIp t∂cw hońseØn. \fn\n h√msX ]cn{àn®ncp∂p A—s\ Poht\msS ImWpsa∂hƒ {]Xo£n®ncp∂n√. AXßns\bmWv. acn®p Ign™mepw ZqcØp≈hsc Adnbn°ptºmƒ "kocnbkv' Ft∂ ]dbq. h∂p I≠t∏mƒ A—≥ Poht\msSbps≠∂p I≠t∏mƒ Ahƒ°p kam[m\ambn. cmLh≥ AbmfpsS s\©n¬ ]Xps° XtemSns°m≠p ]d™p. A—≥ ASpsØm∂pw acn°m≥ t]mWn√y. kam[m\mbn´v InSt∂mfp. cmPosS I√ymWw Hs° Ign™nt´ AsXms°≠mhq. hr≤≥ ho≠pw Nncn®p. cmPn tamfpsS I√ymWw. Ct∏mƒ c≠p hb mWv. C\nbpw ]Øp]Xns\´p sIm√w. Bibv°p hgnbns√∂p I≠ B a\pjy≥ Zo¿Lizmkan´psIm≠p ]d™p. A{Xsbm∂pw th≠. Hcp \me©psIm√wIqSn........ \fn\nbpsS ssI ]nSn®psIm≠v cmPn h∂p. Ahƒ HmSn Ińen∂SpØp h∂p. apØ—m apØ—s‚ kqt°Sv amdot√? amdn tamsf. Abmƒ AhfpsS Ihnfnepw Xebnepw XShnsIm≠v ]d™p. amdnt´m. C\n \ap°v hońev t]mWw. 33 Nn√ ]nd-∂mƒ ]Xn∏v '92

C∂v t]mhm? C∂v ]‰n√ tamsf. tUmŒdΩmh≥ h∂m¬ tNmZn°Ww F∂m t]mhm≥ ]‰zm∂v. A—≥ A[nIw kwkmcn°≠. \fn\n ]d™p. Fs‚ AkpJsams° amdn tamsf. Abmƒ £oWn® kzcØn¬ ]d™p. C\n hoń¬ t]mbm¬ Hs° icnbmhpw. hfsc Dt∑jhm\m bncp∂p. c£s∏´Xnep≈ Bizmkw. cmLh≥ Hm¿Øp. Bip]{Xnbn¬\n∂v A—s\ ho¬sNbdn¬ ]pdtØ°p sIm≠phcnIbmbncp∂p. SmIvkn°mc≥ sKbv‰v IS∂v D≈nte°p hcnIbmWv. ho¬ sNb¿ hcm¥bn¬ \n¿Øm≥ ]d™v Xm≥ SmIvkn°mct\mSv ASpØphcm≥ ]dbm≥ ap‰tØ°p \S∂p. \fn\n A—s‚ ASpØpXs∂ \n∂p. SmIvkn°mct\mSv hcm≥ BwKyw ImWn®v \n¬°ptºmgmWv Hcp kvs{S®¿ Bip ]{Xnbn¬\n∂v ]pdtØ°v h∂Xv . AXn¬ aqSn∏pX∏n® tZlw. ap‰Øp ]m¿°psNbv X Xpd∂ Bw_pe≥kns‚ hmXnen\p≈nte°v kvs{S®¿ ISØn sh®p. Xncn®p \S°p∂ hm¿Uvt_mbntbmSv cmLh≥ tNmZn®p. F¥p]‰n? lm¿´v A‰m°v. Abmƒ adp]Sn ]d™p. C∂se cm{Xn AUvan‰v sNbvXXm. cmhnetØmsS ]Wn Ign™p. acn® BfpIfpsS _‘p°ƒ Np‰pw \n∂ncp∂p. Ah¿ HmtcmcpØcmbn Bw_pe≥kn¬ IbdpI bmWv. ho¬sNbdn¬\n∂v SmIv k nbnte°v Ibdm≥ Abmƒ A—s\ klmbn®p. Hcp hiØv Abmfpw adphiØv \fn\nbpw Ccp∂p. SmIvkn \oßnbt∏mƒ hr≤≥ tNmZn®p. F¥mbncp∂p Abmƒ°kpJw? lm¿´v A‰m°v. cmLh≥ ]d™p. ]WnIgn™p F¥mbmepw. hr≤≥ ]d™p. cmLh≥ sRń. B hm°pIfnse Im¿°iyw, BÀmZw Ie¿∂ Hcp Bizmkw. AXv cmLhs\ A¤p Xs∏SpØn. Abmƒ A—s\ t\m°n. apJØv Hcmgv N sØ hf¿®bp≈ \cIbdnb Ip‰n tcmaßƒ. IÆpIfn¬ I≠n t√, Rm≥ Pohn®ncn°p∂p F∂ `mhw. Abmƒ F¥psIm t≠m Xs‚ izipcs\ B \nanjØn¬ shdpØp. hońse InS∏papdnbn¬ Iń en¬ InS°p∂ saen™ cq]w t\m°n\n∂t∏mƒ cmLh≥ Hm¿Øp. F¥n\mWv a\pjy≥ PohnXtØmSv Cßs\ A≈n ∏nSn®p \n¬°p∂Xv? \fn\nbp sS A—\v Adp]sØ´p hb m bn. Hcp apgph≥ PohnXhpw Pohn®p F∂p ]dbmw. a°ƒ c≠pt]cpw Hmtcm hgn°mbn. aI\v \mń¬Øs∂ \membncw cq] iºfØn¬ tPmen. I√ym Ww Ign™p. aIsf I√ymWw Ign®Xv t_mws_bnse Hcp henb DtZymK ÿ≥. kz¥w `mcy°v BtcymKyap≠v. Ah cmIs´ aIs‚ ASpØv kpc £nXbpamWv. F∂n´pw..... cm{Xn DuWp Ign°m≥ t\c Øv AΩ `£Whpambn A— ≥ InS°p∂nStØ°p sN∂p. Bip]{Xnbn¬ sNømdp≈ 34 Nn√ ]nd-∂mƒ ]Xn∏v '92

amXncn InS°bn¬ Ccp∂p sIm≠v `£Ww sImSp°msa∂p IcpXnbXmWv. A—≥ ]d™p. F\nbvs°√mw t`Zmbn. Rm\tßm´p hcmw. \√ Imcyw. cmLh≥ ]d™p. Abmƒ A—s‚ ssI ]nSn®v Du¨ apdnbntebv°p \bn®p. hr≤≥ \√ cpNntbmsS `£n®p. F√mhcpsSbpw `£Ww Ign™p. At∏mgmWv cmLh≥ {i≤n®Xv. A—s‚ tπbv‰n¬ Ipd®v ao≥Idnbpw tNmdpw _m°n. CsX¥mWv _m°nbnńcn°p∂Xv? cmLh≥ tNmZn®p. cpNnbnt√? AXv Ip©phn\mWv. \fn\n HgnsI F√mhcpw H∂n®p ]d™p. FhnsS\nt∂m A`bm¿∞nbmbn h∂ sX≠n\mbbmbncp∂p Ip©p. B t]cn´Xv A—≥ Xs∂bmWv. F∂pw DuWp Ign™m¬ Hcp Dcpf Iøn¬ sIm≠pt]mIpw. Ah≥ ]n∂mse ap‰Øv Xømdmbn \n¬°p ∂p≠mIpw. C\n AhnsS Cs√¶n¬Øs∂ A—≥ IWvTip≤n hcpØp∂ i–w tI´m¬ AXv FhnsS bmbmepw HmSnhcpw. Ign™ Bdpamkambp≈ ]XnhmWXv. cm{Xn Ah≥ ap‰Øv Npcp≠pIqSns°m≈pw. A—≥ ]d™p. Bcpw A{X s]s´∂v I°m≥ hcn√. A—s\ I≠t∏mƒ Ip©p Ipc®p, hmemń. Ipsd Znhkambn ImWmXncp∂Xnep≈ B¿Øn Ah≥ {]Z¿in∏n®p. ]t£ F√m ap‰Øp\n∂p sIm≠p Xs∂. F¥mSm Ip©p? A—≥ tNmZn®p. Ah≥ ho≠pw Ipc®p, hmemń. ]ns∂ A—≥ Xmtg°n´psImSpØ Dcpf I∏nØn∂phm≥ XpSßn. cmLh\v Ft¥m hnjaw tXm∂n. km[mcW Hcp \mbbpw bPam\\pw XΩnep≈ _‘ambncp∂n√ CXv. Hcp sX≠n∏ńbpw kº∂\mb bPam\\pw XΩnep≈ _‘w. bPam\≥ `£Ww sImSp°p∂p, AXn\p≈ Iqdv Ah≥ Im´psa∂v {]Xo£n°p∂p. Ah≥ A[:IrX\msW∂v Ah\pXs∂ Adnbmw. AXpsIm≠v Ah≥ tImembnte°p IbdpItbm bPam\s‚ ta¬ ]m™p IbdpItbm Im¬ \°n kvt\lw ImWn°p Itbm sNøp∂n√. Ah\dnbmw, FhnsSbmWv \n¬t°≠sX∂v. B Zriyw lrZb kv]¿inbmbncp∂p. ho≠pw Znhkßƒ ]gb ańembn. cmLh≥ Xncn®p t]mIm\p≈ Sn°‰v _p°v sNbvXp. i\nbmgvN°v. Xn¶fmgvN cmhnse t_mw_bnseØpw. A∂p Xs∂ Hmôkn¬ tNcmat√m. sh≈nbmgvN cm{XnbmWXp≠mbXv. FćaWntbmsS DuWp Ign°m\p≈ {iaßƒ \SØn. A—\v cm{Xn I™n aXnsb∂v sshIpt∂cta ]d™ncp∂p. \√ kpJw tXm∂p∂n√. A—≥ ]d™p. cm{Xn I™n Bbvt°ms´. cm{Xn taibv ° p Np‰pancp∂v `£Ww Ign®psIm≠ncns° Ahsc hebw sNbvX aqIX cmLh≥ {i≤n®p. Bsc¶nepw Fs¥¶nepw ]d™m¬Øs∂ B i–w AXns‚ D¤h ÿm\Øp Xs∂ {]XnIcWan√msX sI´Sßn. F√mhcpw hnjan®p I≠p. AΩ CSbv°nsS tNmZn®p. Cs∏m shjsam∂pw√yt√m. Cs√∂v A—≥ Xebmń. Aev]kabw Ign™m¬ ho≠pw AΩ tNmZn°pw. s\™pthZ\sbm∂pw C√t√m. C√, £oWw am{Xw. `£Ww Ign®p ssI IgpIm≥ hmjvt_mkns‚ ASpØv \n¬°p tºmƒ cmLh≥ Hm¿Øp. Ip©phns\ ImWm\n√t√m. C∂v bPam\ s‚ DuWp Inńs√∂v GtXm A¤pXIcamb AXo{µnb⁄m\ ØneqsS Ah≥ a\ nem °nbn´p≠mIWw. cm{Xn AΩbpsS hnfntI´mWv cmLh≥ DW¿∂Xv. Ah¿ tIm WnbpsS Xmsg\n∂v hnfn°pIbmWv. h√msX ]cn{àn®n´p≈ hnfn. cmLh≥ \fn\nsb hnfn®pW¿Øn. ASpØ apdnbn¬ InS∂pdß∂ Afnbt\bpw hnfn®pW¿Øn. Xmsg A—s‚ ÿnXn hfsc tamiambncp∂p. At±lw izmkw In´m≥ hnjaap≈Xpt]mse I\Øp izkn®p. s\©pthZ\bp≠m bncp∂p. ImsWImsW ÿnXn hjfmhpIbmbncp∂p. Afnb≥ hmXn¬ Xpd∂v tUmŒsd hnfn°m≥ t]mbn. cmLh≥ Ińenencp∂v A—s‚ s\©n¬ XtemSn. kmcan√. Abmƒ ]d™p. F√mw icnbmhpw. tUmŒ¿ h∂v C©Ivj≥ sImSpØp. henb hyXymksam∂p ap≈Xmbn tXm∂nbn√. B a\pjy≥ acn°m≥ t]mIpIbmsW∂v cmLh\v tXm∂n. izmkw Ign°m≥ At∏mgpw _p≤nap´p∂p≠mbncp∂p. 36 Nn√ ]nd-∂mƒ ]Xn∏v '92

\ap°v Bip]{Xnbn¬ sIm≠p t]mImw. tUmŒ¿ ]d™p. Fs‚ Imdn¬ sIm≠pt]mImw. Bw_p e≥kv hcpØms\m∂pw kaban√. cmLh\pw Afnb\pw tUmŒdpw IqSn A—s\ Xmßn∏nSn®v Imdns‚ ]n≥ko‰n¬ InSØn. Hmtcmcp Øcmbn [rXnbn¬ Ibdn. \fn\n ]d™p. \nßƒ ChnsS \n¬°p. tamƒ DdßzmWv. F\n°msW¶n¬ H‰bv°v ChnsS Ccn°m\pw ]‰n√. icn s]mbvt°mfq. cmLh≥ ]d™p. Im¿ t]mbn°gn™p sKbv‰S®v AIØp IS∂p hmXneS®p. t¢m°n¬ kabw c≠paWn. Abmƒ hnf°W®v tImWn Ibdn. cmPn \√ Dd°amWv. Abmƒ°v InS°m≥ tXm∂nbn√. A—s‚ AkpJw am{Xambncp∂n√ ImcWw. AXn\pap]cnbmbn Ft¥m H∂v Abmsf Atemkcs∏SpØnbncp∂p; Akzÿ \m°nbncp∂p. Abmƒ P\en∂SptØ°p \S∂p. ]pdsØ Ccpń¬ \n∂v XWpØ Im‰v AItØ°p IS°p∂p≠v. s]s´∂mWbmƒ {i≤n®Xv. thZ\bpsS kzcw. AXv AeIfmbn FhnsS\nt∂m HgpIn hcp∂p. Xm≥ AXv Ipd®p t\cambn tIƒ°pIbmbncps∂∂v Abmƒ Hm¿Øp. _lfØn\nSbn¬ {i≤n®n s√∂p am{Xw. Hcp \mbbpsS tcmZ\w. thZ\bpsS B kzcw Hcp {ipXnbmbn, Xmf\n_Uambn HgpIn hcp∂Xbmƒ Ipsdt\cw {i≤n®p. cm{XnbpsS \n»–Xbn¬ FhnsStbm B kzcw \„s∏Sp∂ hsc. cmLh≥ InS∂p. \fn\n h∂t∏mƒ GgcaWnbmbncp∂p. Ahƒ sKbv‰v IS∂phcp∂Xp I≠t∏mƒ cmLh\v Bizmk ambn. Ipg∏sam∂pw kw`hn®nń√. hfsc IqSpXembn A—\v. \fn\n ]d™p. C{]mhiyw t]mbo∂v Xs∂ IcpXn. c≠p{]mhiyw lrZbw \n∂qs{X. Cs∏m Fßns\≠v? Ct∏mgpw kocnb v X∂yms{X. Cu Hcp Znhkw IS∂pInńbmte c£bp≈q∂v. A—s\ ImWm≥ ]‰ptam? C√. C‚≥kohv sIb¿ bqWn‰nemWv. \nßƒ Nmb IpSn®pthm? IpSn®p. Rm≥ thWsa¶n¬ \n\°p≠m°nØcmw. icn. cmLh≥ ASp°fbn¬ IS∂v Nmb°p sh≈wsh®p. ]n∂nse hcm¥bn¬ \n∂v \fn\nbpsS hnfn tI´p. H∂vßv´p hcp. hnfnbn¬ Ipds®mcp [rXnbp≠mbncp∂p. cmL≥ sN∂p. \fn\n ap‰tØ°p t\m°n \n¬°pIbmWv. AhnsS Ip©p Hcphiw sNcn™v shdßen®v InS∂ncp∂p. `£Ww ImØv bPam\s‚ Imsem®°mbn ImtXm¿Øv InS∂ncp∂ AtX ÿeØv Hcpcpf tNmdv F∂Xn\p]cnbmbn kvt\lØns‚ aSn»oe Xpd∂n ń√mØ bPam\\p th≠n Hcp \mb°pam{Xw sNøm≥ Ignbmhp∂ XymKw B km[p arKw A\pjvTn®p. HcmgvN Ign™v A—≥ hońseØnbt∏mƒ F√mhcpw ]d™p. CXv c≠mw P∑amWv. c£s∏Spsa∂v Bcpw IcpXnbncp∂n√. tUmŒ¿am¿ t]mepw. Xncn®v t_mws_bv°v t]mIp∂Xn\p apºv cmLh≥ A—t\mSv ]d™p. Rm≥ ]d™nt√, A—s‚ hnf°n¬ C\nbpw FÆbps≠∂v. cmPn tamƒ°v Hcp sN°s\ At\zjn®p XpSßnt°mfq. ]Øp]Xns\´psIm√w CXm∂v ]dbptºmtg°v Ignbpw. A—≥ Nncn®p. Rßƒ C\n HmWØn\v hcmw. At∏mtgbv°v Rm≥ _m°nbmhptam F∂v I≠dnbWw. sk]v ‰ w_dn¬ eohn¬ h∂t∏mƒ A—≥ _m°nbp≠mbncps∂∂p am{Xa√ \√ Dt∑jhm\p ambncp∂p. BtcymKy\ne \∂mbncp∂p. B c≠v A‰m°nev \√ t]Sn ]nSn®n´p≠v. AΩ ]d™p. Cs∏m `£Ww {IaoIcn®n´p≠v. cmhnse \S°m\ndßpw. _oUnhen Xosc \n¿Øn. A\mhiyambn Nmb IpSnbn√. AXp \∂mbn. cmLh≥ ]d™p. Hcp Nn´bp≠mIp∂Xv \√XmWv. D®`£Ww Kwòcambncp∂p. HmW Zy \mepZnhkw aptº XpSßnsb∂p tXm∂p∂p. As√¶n¬ aIfpw `¿Ømhpw t]c°pńbpw h∂ BtLmjambncn°pw. A—≥ `£Ww Ipd®n´ps≠∂p a\ nembn. ]mhw, ]mbkw H∂p kzmZp t\m°nbtXbp≈q. CebpsS A‰Øv Ipd®v tNmdv _m°nbnńcp∂p. `£Ww Npcp°nbXp Xs∂bmWv. ]t£ AΩbv°v A{X Ipd®v hnfºnbm¬ aXnbmbncp∂nt√? `£Ww Ifbp∂Xv cmLh\v Xosc C„ap≠mbncp∂n√. Hmtcm Dcpf Ifbp∂Xv ImWptºmgpw, Abmƒ Hńb Ihnfpw saen ™ ImepIfpambn sdbn¬sh Iºm¿´psa‚pIfn¬ `£WØn\mbn Cc∂p \S°p∂ IpńIsf Hm¿°pw. \Ωƒ Ifbp∂ Hmtcm Dcpfbpw Ah¿s°mcp kZybmbncn°pw. cmLh≥ Fgpt∂‰p. hmjvt_k\n¬ ssIIgpIn Xncn™t∏mƒ I≠p, A—s‚ Iøn¬ Hcpcpf. A—≥ apcS\°n. At∏mƒ 36 Nn√ ]nd-∂mƒ ]Xn∏v '92

FhnsS\nt∂m F∂dn™n√ Hcp \mb HmSnh∂p. Xhn´p \ndØn¬ sh≈ ]m≠pIfp≈ \mb. Ip©phns‚ AtX Omb. A—≥ Dcpf Xmtg°n´psImSpØp. cmLh\v Hcp \nanjw kwibambn. C\n Ip©p acn®nńs√∂pt≠m? AtXm Xm≥ I≠ kz]v \ w am{Xambncpt∂m AXv? Ahy‡XIfpsS {]`mXambncp∂p AXv . cm{Xn apgph≥ thZ\bpsS i–w tI´psIm≠v Ddßm Xncn°bmbncp∂p. Abmƒ°v Xo¿®bm°m≥ ]‰nbn√. cmLh≥ tNmZy]q¿∆w A—s\ t\m°n. Ip©phns‚ aI\mWv. Ip©p NØXn\ptijw Hcp Znhkw h∂XmWv. cmLh≥ A¿∞K¿àmbn A—s\ t\m°n. A—\Xp a\ nemsb∂p tXm∂p∂p. At±lw apJw Xncn®p. !

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XdhmSns‚ alnasb∏‰n F√mhcpw t_m[hm∑mcmhp∂Xv aqØ tPyjvTs‚ _w•mhn¬ HØp tNcptºm gmWv. Ggv ktlmZc∑m¿, Hcp ktlmZcn. G‰hpw Xmsgbp≈XmWv ktlmZcn. sIm√Ønsemcn°¬ D≠mhp∂ HØptNcen\v F√mhcpw IpSpw_ktaXw FØnbncn°bmWv. F´p IpSpw_ßƒ. aqØ tPyjvT s‚ ]nd∂mfmWv Ahkcw. AXv kvIqfpIfpw tImtfPpIfpw Ah[n hcp∂ sabvamkØnembXn\m¬ F√mh¿°pw FØnt®cm≥ ]‰pw. c≠masØ ktlmZc≥ t_mws_bn¬ _nkn\ v sNøpIbmWv. Ahkm\w FØnbXv At±lhpw IpSpw_hpamWv . aq∂masØ Bƒ G‰hpw aqØ Bsft∏mse tUmŒdmWv. aqØ Bƒ Fw.Un.bmsW¶n¬ Ct±lw Fw.Fkv.BsWt∂ hyXymkap≈q. \memasØ Bƒ am{Xw Aev ] w tami°mc\mWv . sh√nwKv S ¨ sFe‚n¬ Hcp FIv k v t ]m¿´v lukn¬ ¢m¿°mWv . IpSpw_Øns‚ am\w \in∏n® Abmsf∏‰n a‰p≈h¿ Bcpw ]cma¿in°mdn√. IpØnt®mZn®m¬ C∂ Iºn\nbnemsW∂p am{Xw ]dbpw. AbmfpsS `mcybpw Hcp km[p kv{XobmWv. Ah¿°p c≠pt]¿°pw AhcpsS Htcsbmcp aI\pw Cu sK‰pSpKX¿ ]m¿ń°v hcm≥ Xm¬]cyap≠mhmdn√. ]t£ F√mhtcbpw H∂n®p ImWm≥ ]‰p∂ Htc AhkcamWv. am{Xa√ t]mbns√¶n¬ Xs‚ A`mhwsIm≠v Abmƒ {i≤n° s∏SpIbpw sNøpw. AXpsIm≠v Xm¬]cyans√¶nepw Ah¿ hcp∂p, Hcp ap°n¬ HXpßn°gnbp∂p. A©masØ Bƒ Hcp B¿°nsSIv‰mWv. kz¥w _nkn\ mWv. Fw.Pn.tdmUn¬ c≠mbncw kvIzb¿ ô‰v Gcnbbp≈ Hcp Hmôkp≠v. aq∂v F©n\ob¿amcS°w Ggp tPmen°mcp≠v. BdmasØ Bƒ F®v.Fw.Sn. bn¬ ko\nb¿ F©n\obdmWv. GgmasØ Bƒ AUzt°‰mWv. hfsc Xnc°p≈ AUzt°‰v. Hcp henb tI°v kzoIcW apdnbnte°v sIm≠ph∂p. Hcp Ccp\nesIńSØns‚ BIrXnbnep≠m°nb tI°v. Fw.hn. tZh≥ D≠m°nb at\mlcamb hoSpIfnsem∂ns\ A\pkvacn∏n°pw. Np‰pw ]p¬ØInSnIƒ, ]qs®SnIfp≈ tXm´w, apºn¬Øs∂ c≠p ImdpIƒ. CXv IpńIƒ°v th≠nbmWv. Ah¿°pw Fs¥¶nepw F≥tPmbvsa‚ v ths≠? aqØ tPyjvT≥ ]d™p. Ign™ sIm√w Hcp ]SpIq‰≥ hnam\ambncp∂p tI°v. NpcpßnbXv A©pIntem D≠mhpw. tI°phoSns‚ sSd n¬ A©p henb sagpIpXncnIfpw F´p sNdnb sagpIpXncnIfpw Dd∏n®p sh®n´p≠v. AºsØ´p h¿jßsf ImWn°m≥. AºsØ´p hnPbIcamb h¿jßƒ. B‚n°v A¶nfns‚ hb v icn°dnbn√. Abmƒ A\nb∑mcp sS IpńItfmSv Xami ]d™p. I≠nt√ F{X Im‚n¬kmWv IpØn\n¿Ønbncn°p∂Xv? henb A©p Im‚n¬kv am{Xta Bhiyap≈q. F√mhcpw Nncn®p. sagpIpXncnIƒ sImfpØs∏´p. aqØ tPyjvT≥ H‰ DuØn\v F√m sagpIpXncnIfpw sISpØnbt∏mƒ F√mhcpw IøSn®p. ]nSnbn¬ Nph ∂ dn∫¨sIń Ae¶cn® hntZi \n¿ΩnXamb IØnsIm≠v At±lw B tI°v apdn®p. tI°v IjWßfmbn apdnt°≠ `mcw c≠mw ktlmZcs‚ `mcy Gs‰SpØp. \memasØ ktlmZcs‚ aI≥ Acp¨ H∂nepw tNcmsX Hcp `mKØncp∂v Iøn¬ Inńb Hcp hoUntbm sKbnw Ifn°pIbmbncp∂p. aIs‚ Ccp∏v I≠t∏mƒ Abmƒ°p hnjaw tXm∂n. Abmƒ ]Xps° tams‚ ASpØpsN∂p ]d™p. tams\ \o Atßm´v sN√v. As√¶n¬ tI°v Inńbn√m∂p hcpw. kmc√y. Ah≥ ]d™p. Ign™ sIm√sØ sK‰vSpKXdns‚ kabØp≠mb Hcp kw`hw Ahs\ hnjan∏n®n cp∂p. t_mws_ ama Ahs\ I≠t∏mƒ Ahs\ BsIsbm∂v Dgn™pt\m°n. a‰pIpńIfpambn t\m°ptºmƒ Ahs‚ hkv{Xw Xosc ]g©\mbncp∂p. Abmƒ tNmZn®p. 16

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\o GXp ¢mknemWnt∏mƒ? {]oUn{Kn. Ah≥ adp]Sn ]d™p. GXp {Kq∏msWSpØncn°p∂Xv? t^m¿Øv {Kq∏v. _otImw ]m mbn, ]‰psa¶n¬ Fw. tIman\pt]mbn h√ _m¶nepw IbdW sa∂mWh\v. t^m¿Øv {Kqs∏ms° FSpØn´v F¥mIm\m? Abmƒ tNmZn®p. ]ns∂ Hcp tNmZyhpw. \o A—s\t∏mse _oUnhensbm s° XpSßntbm? adp]Snsbm∂pw {]Xo£n°msX Abmƒ F√mhtcmSpambn XpS¿∂p. _m_phn\v knKc‰v hent°≠n hcpw ∂m ]d™Xv. Cu sUUv t_mUn sbms° Iodnapdn°es√. Cu amkw apX¬ \qdpdp∏nI A[nIw Ab®p sImSp°Wsa∂mWv ]dbp∂Xv; knK c‰v hmßm≥.... kzbw sNdpXmhp∂ A\p`hw Xosc kln°m≥ ]‰mØXmWv. H∏w apºnep ≈ Bƒ hepXmhpI IqSn sNbvXm¬. Ign™ sIm√sØ AcpNnIcamb A\p`hw D≠m°nb t]md¬ Ct∏mgpw AcpWns‚ a\ n¬ Ds≠∂p tXm∂p∂p. Ah≥ ]d™p. F\nbv°v Xm¬]cy√y—m. Abmƒ ]ns∂ \n¿∫‘n®n√. Un∂¿ alØmb Hcp kw`hambncp∂p. ap‰Øv ]p¬ØInSnbn¬ \mep taiIfn´v hncn hncn®v AXnt∑ embncp∂p hn`hßƒ \ncØnbncp∂Xv. ss^hvÃm¿ tlménse t{KUv h¨ dtÃmd≠n¬ G¬∏n®ncn° bmbncp∂p kZy. A]q¿∆ambn In´p∂ hn`hßƒ. tImgnbnd®n, Bńd®n, henb sNΩo≥, Bthmen Chsb√mw sIm≠v ]eXcw hn`hßƒ. ]Øp]{¥≠v hn`hßƒ \ncØnbncn°p∂p. _ps^ Un∂¿. `£Ww Ign®psIm≠ncns°bmWv Afnb≥ ]d™Xv. amen\n°v Hcp sNdnb Hm∏tdj≥ thWw. Hm∏tdjt\m? Bdv ktlmZc∑m¿ H∏w tNmZn®p. AsX, sNdnb Hm∏tdj\mWv. As∏‚nssk‰nkv. As∏‚nssk‰nkv sNdnb Hm∏tdjt\m? aqØ tPyjvT≥ Dds° ]d ™p. \√ IYymbn. taP¿ Hm∏tdj\mWv. icnbmWv. a‰p A©p ktlmZc∑mcpw Hcp tImd mbn ]d™p. \memasØ Bƒ am{Xw H∂pw ]d™n√. Abmƒ s]ßƒ°p h∂p tN¿∂ `mKyt°Sn¬ hyk\n®p. Afnb≥ _m¶n¬ HmôkdmWv. henb Ipg∏ an√msX t]mIpIbmsW¶n¬ Hcp amXncn \∂mbn Pohn°m≥ ]‰pw. Hcp ÿew hmßn hoSp ]Wnbm≥ {ian®p. Ipsd ISambnt∏mbn. AXn\nSbv°mWv Cu Hm∏tdj≥. Ign™ RmbdmgvN AhnsS t]mbt∏mƒ Afnb≥ CXns\∏‰nsb√mw ]d™XmWv. Bs´ FhnsSsh®mWv Hm∏tdj≥? Hcp ktlmZc≥ tNmZn®p. Kh¿tΩ≠v Bip]{Xnbn¬ sh®v. Afnb≥ ]d™p. F¥v Kh¿tΩ≠v Bip]{Xntbm? A©masØ ktlmZc\mWv ]d™Xv. F√mhcpw Abmsf t\m°n. \Ωƒ C{X tIa∑mcmb Ggv {_tZgvkv Ccn°ptºmƒ \ΩsS A\pPØnsb Kh¿tΩ≠v Bip]{Xnbn¬ 1991 G{]n¬ 3 ˛ 9

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AUvan‰v sNøpItbm? icnbmWv. aqØ tPyjvT≥ ]d™p. \ΩpsS Xdhmń¬ \SmsSbmWv Hcp s]Ïpńsb tlmkv]n‰en¬ AUvan‰v sNøp∂Xv. \ap°Xp sket{_‰v sNøWw. AsXbsX sket{_‰v sNø Ww. c≠masØ BfmWv t_mws_ ktlmZc≥. Abmƒ XpS¿∂p. ChnsS G‰hpw \√ tlmkv]n‰¬ GXmWv? t_mws_bnemsW¶n¬ {_o®v Im≥Un tlmkv]n‰ep≠v. \ΩpsS hnt\mZns‚ tSm¨kn¬kv AhnsSbmWv dnaqhv sNbvXXv. Fb¿I≠oj≥ sNbvX apdnbmWv. c≠p Znhkw D≠mbncp∂p. hfsc dokW_vƒ Nm¿Pv. Gbv‰v Xuk‚pam{Xw. shcn dokW_vƒ. A©masØ ktlmZc≥ ]d™p. icnbmbn. \memasØ ktlmZc≥ a\ n¬ IcpXn. Hcp tSm¨sk¬kv Hm∏tdj\v FÆmbncw Ddp∏nI. AXpt]mesØ Bip]{XnIƒ ChnsS C√mXncn°s´. \ap°v amen\nsb \√ Hcp tlmkv]n‰en¬ AUvan‰v sNøWw. aqØ tPyjvT≥ ]d™p. \Ωsfms°bnt√? ChnsS G‰hpw \√ k¿P≥ BcmWv? t_mws_ tPyjvT≥ tNmZn®p. ]ns∂ A`n{]mbßfpsS Hcp {]fbambn cp∂p. Hcp aWn°q¿ t\csØ N¿®°pw \mep Xcw a[pc]elmcßƒ°pw aq∂pXcw sFkv {IoapIƒ°pw tijw A\pPØnsb ImWnt° ≠ tUmŒ¿, AUv a n‰v sNtø≠ Bip]{Xn F∂nhsb∏‰n Hcp A¥naXocpam\w D≠mbn. Fb¿I≠oj≥Uv dqw FSp°Wsa∂pw Xocpam \n®p. C{Xb[nIw ]Ww sNehm°p∂Xn¬ Afn b\v BZyw FXn¿∏p≠mbncp∂p. ]t£ tPyjvT ∑m¿ hnSptam? \Ωƒ \mb∑mcmWv . \mb¿ XdhmSn¬ s]ßfmWv hepXv. a\ nembnt√? At∏m \ap°v \mb¿am·m\nan‰n Im´Ww. F√m ktlmZc∑mcpw kΩXn®p. `mcyam¿ am{Xw At\ym\yw t\m°n apdpapdp Øp. \mb¿ am·m\nan‰nbn¬ Ah¿°p henb D’mlan√mØt]mse tXm∂n. h¿≤n® sNe hpIsf∏‰n Ah¿ ]d™pXpSßn. Zneo]n\v aWn∏menev saUnkn\v AUvanj≥ In´m≥ c≠pe£w thWw. IønemsI Ht∂ Im¬ et£≈q. Fgp]Ø©n\v C\n FhnsS t∏mWw∂dnbn√y. tamƒsS I√ymWw ASpØ sabvev≠mhp∂v Xo¿®ymWv. \mep es£¶nepw sNehp hcpw. FhnSp∂p≠m°m\mWv... \memasØ ktlmZc\pw `mcybpw F√mw tI´p. F√mw I≠p. Ah¿ A`n{]mbsam∂pw ]d™n√. A`n{]mban√m™n´√. AhcpsS A`n{]mbßƒ°v th≠{X I\ap≠mhns√ ∂h¿°dnbmw. Ah¿ ap‰Øn\cpIn¬ Bƒ°q ´Øn∂Ise sIm≠p t]mbn C´ ItkcIfn¬ t]mbncp∂p. X¬°mew Hcp {]iv\ap≠mbncn °bmWv. a‰p ktlmZc∑msc√mw Iøgn®v sNe hpw sNøpw, s]ßfpsS Hm∏tdj\p th≠n. At∏mƒ Xßfpw Fs¥¶nepw sImSpt°t≠? k¿°m¿ Bip]{XnbnemsW¶n¬ Afnb\v 18

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H‰bv°p Xs∂ Xmßmhp∂ sNeth hcp. \ap°v Ipd®p ]Ww IcpXmw. Bhiyambn h∂m¬ am{Xw sImSpØm¬ aXn. `mcy ]d™p. Ahsc√mw ]Wap≈ ]m¿ńIfmWv. \ap°v Hcp Bbncw Ddp∏nIbp≠m°Wsa¶n¬ hf ]Wbw sh°ys∂ th≠nhcpw. Hm∏tdjs‚ Xte∂v Abmƒ `mcybpsS hf ]Wbwsh®v Bbncw Ddp∏nI Iøn¬ IcpXn. Afnb≥ Bbncw Ddp∏nI IcpXnbncp∂p. B kwJy apgph≥ Bip]{Xnbn¬ AUzm≥kmbn sImSpt°≠nh∂p. Hm∏tdj≥ "skent{_‰v' sNøm≥ F√m ktlmZc∑mcpw FØnbncp∂p. Ah¿ Hm∏tdj≥ Ignbp∂Xp hsc Bip]{XnbpsS kn‰nwKv dqan¬ Ccp∂v e£ßfpsS IYIƒ ]d™p. Fw.Fkv. tUmŒdmb aq∂masØ tPyjvTs\ Hm∏tdj≥ Xnb‰dn¬ ISØnbncp∂p. shdpsX, kz¥w Bƒ ASpØp≠mhp∂Xv s]ßƒ°v Hcp ss[cyamhpat√m. Afnb\v kam[m\ambn. tIa∑mcmb Afnb∑mcp≠mbm¬ Imcyßƒ AXns‚ apdbv°v \S∂psIm≈pw. Bßfam¿ D®bv°p≈ Ipd®p kabw am{Xw AhchcpsS hoSpIfnte°v t]mbn. ho≠pw \mepaWntbmsS Xncn®ph∂p. t_m[w h∂t∏mƒ F√m tPyjvT∑mcpw InS°bv°p Np‰pap≠v. amen\n°p kt¥mjambn. IcpØp≈ Ggp tPyjvT∑m¿ Np‰pap≈t∏mƒ s]ßƒ°v F¥p t]Snbv°m≥. tUmŒ¿ h∂v tcmKnsb ]cntim[n®p. tUmŒ¿amcmb c≠p tPyjvT∑mcpambn kwkmcn®p. FhvcnXnwKv Cukv HmtI. \mep ZnhkØn\Iw Bip]{Xn hnSmw. Fb¿ I≠nj≥Uv apdn kpJambncp∂p. A√en√. Ae´pan√. Bip]{XnbnemWv InS°p∂Xv F∂pXs∂ tXm∂n√. ]ns‰ Znhkhpw F√m tPyjvT∑mcpw FØn. A\pPØn D√mkhXnbmsW∂p I≠v kwXr]vXn bS™p. c≠masØ tPyjvT\v ]t£ s]s´∂v t_mws_bv°v aSßWw. Abmƒ ]d™p. ko‰v In´ptam F∂p t\m°n. \mftØ°v shbv‰nwKv enÃmWv. ]t£ In´mXncn°n√. eoebpw IpńIfpw c≠mgvNIqSn ChnsSbp≠mIpw. Fs¥¶nepw Bhiyaps≠¶n¬ eoetbmSv ]d™m¬ aXn. \memw Znhkw aqØ tPyjvT\v ]pdsØhnsStbm t]mtI≠Xp sIm≠v hcm≥ ]‰nbn√. aq∂masØ tPyjvT\v Hm∏tdj≥ Znhkambncp∂p. A©matØbpw BdmatØbpw ktlmZc∑m¿ sImssS°\m¬ ImWm≥ IpSpw_ktaXw t]mbncn°bmWv. F∂mWv Xncn®phcp∂sX∂dnbn√. GgmasØ BfpsS hnhcsam∂pan√. \memasØ ktlmZc≥ am{Xw Hmôkv hn´v sshIpt∂cw A©c aWn°v FØn. At±lw hfsc ]cnXm] Icamb Hcp ZriyamWv I≠Xv. Afnb≥ Atßm´pantßm´pw s\t´m´tamSp∂p. Ahcv UnkvNm¿Pv sNbvXv sIm≠ps]mbvs°m≈m≥ ]d™p. amen\n ]d™p. Ahƒ IcbpIbmbn cps∂∂p tXm∂p∂p. IÆpIƒ Ießnbn´p≠v. G´∑msc Btcw ImWm\n√. _n√msW¶nev hfscb[nIw h∂n´pw≠v. C∂v UnkvNm¿Pv sNbvXns√¶nev thsdmcp A™qdpdp∏nI IqSn IqSpw∂m ]d™Xv. Cs∏m F{Xymbn _n√v? \membncØn¬ Nn√zm\w Bbn´v≠vs{X. tN´s‚ IønemsW¶nev ]Ø™qdpdp∏nItb D≈q. Cs∏m Hs°°gn™v Fs∂ NoØ ]dymWv. k¿°m¿ Bip]{Xoembncps∂¶n¬ Hcp BbncØ™qdn\v F√mw \S∂pInńtbs\. G´∑mcv ]d™nt´ Cu Bip]{Xoev AUvan‰v sNbvXXpw Fb¿I≠oj≥Uvdqw FSpØ Xpw Hs°. Abmƒ Afnbs\ tXSn \S∂p. Afnb≥ Hmôkn\p apºn¬ hnjÆ\mbn \n¬°pIbmWv. Fs‚ Iøn¬ Bbncw Ddp∏nIbp≠v. Abmƒ Afnbt\mSp ]d™p. _m°n°v F¥m sNøm? AXm Rm≥ BtemNn°WXv. Cu sshInb kabØv. \msfbmsW¶n¬ h√ ]≠w ]Wbw shs®¶nepw kwJy H∏n°mambncp∂p. Cu Bbncw hf ]Wbw sh®v InóXm... C\n thWsa¶n¬ thsd amebpw ]Wbwsh®m Ipd®p IqSn≠m °mw. th≠. Afnb≥ ]d™p. C\n \msfbt√ F¥mbmepw ]‰q. amen\nbpsS h√ ]≠ßfpw ]Wbw sh°mw. GXmbmepw Iønep≈ Bbncw Xcq. Ddßm≥ InS°ptºmƒ \mb¿ am·m\nan‰nsb∏‰n \memw ktlmZc≥ `mcytbmSp ]d™t∏mƒ Ahƒ Ipsd t\cw Nncn®p. HSphn¬ ]dbpIbpw sNbvXp. hnPbØns‚ clkysa¥msW∂dnbptam? Ft∏mƒ apt∂dWw, Ft∏mƒ ]n∑mdWw F∂XdnbpI. \ap°dnbmØ Imcyhpw AXp Xs∂. \Ωƒ hnPbn°mØXns‚ ImcWw C\nsb¶nepw a\ nembnt√. Ahƒ ho≠pw Nncn°m≥ XpSßn. Hcp Idbpan√mØ lrZbw Xpd∂ Nncn. !

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Ccpńs‚ adhneqsSsbms° Ahƒ Xßsf {i≤n°pIbmWv . Abmƒ tXm´Øn¬ Cdßnbm¬ Ab¬ hoń s‚ Xpd∂n´ P\¬ {i≤n°mØ Hcp \nanjØn¬ Hcp sNdnb hnShp am{Xw _m°n \n¿Øn ASbv°s∏Sp ∂p, hfsc \n»–ambn. BZysa√mw apJØn\p t\sc ASbv°p∂ P\ep Ifpw hmXnepIfpw Abmfn¬ tcmj apb¿Ønbncp∂p. ]n∂oSv AS® hm XnepIfpsS hnShpIfpsS A¿∞w a\ nembt∏mƒ tcmjw A\pIº bv°p hgnamdn. \m¬]Xp hb p≈ kv{XobmWv. Hcp ]pcpjs‚ kv]¿iw G‰nń√mØ kv{Xo. tNmcbpw \ocpw BtcmKyhpapff kv{Xo. \m¬]Xv hb v Hcp kv{XobpsS PohnXØn¬ hfsc hnjaw ]nSn® Hcp ImeamWv . kuµcyw tNm¿∂p t]mIpIbmsW∂dnbmw. AXns\ Xnsc ]nSn®p \n¬°m\p≈ {iaßƒ ]cmPbs∏Sp∂Xp ImWp∂Xv, Xm≥ ]pcpjs‚ apºn¬ BI¿jIb√m Xmbn amdp∂Xv \n lmbXtbmsS t\m°n \n¬°p∂Xv, F√mw hnjaw ]nSn®Xp Xs∂. hnae ]dbp∂Xv Ahƒ°v ap∏ Ø©p hbt Bbn´p≈q F∂m Wv . ctai\pw cP\nbpw AhnsS Xmakam°nbn´v A©psIm√w Ign ™p. Cu A©psIm√hpw hnaebp sS hb n¬ am‰ap≠mbnń√. ap∏ Ø©n¬ AhfpsS hb v Dd®p t]mbncn°p∂p. Dd®pt]mImØXv AhfpsS IgpØnse NpgnhpIfpw, abw \„s∏´ N¿Ωhpw, •m n√msX ImgvN A\phZn°mØ IÆpIfpw, Idp∏n®n´pw CSbv°nSbv°v ]√nfn®p Im´p∂ hÆw Ipd™p XpSßnb XeapSnbpambncp∂p. Hcp Znhkw ctai≥ Hmôkn¬ \n∂v h∂t∏mƒ cP\n BI∏msS \√ aqUnembn cp∂p. hfsc \√ h¿Øam\w In´ptºmgmWv Ahsf C{X Dt∑jhXnbmbn ImWmdv. Nmbbp≠m°p∂Xn\nSbn¬ Ahƒ ]d™p. Hcp \√ \yqkp≠v. \ΩpsS hnaebnt√? Ahƒ°v Hcp At^b¿ XpSßnbncn°p∂p. A^btdm? AsX. c≠paq∂mgvNbmbos{X XpSßo´v. Ft∂mSv ]dbmsX sh®ncn°ymbncp∂p. IYIƒ XpSßp∂Xv ag Xna¿Øp s]bvXpsIm≠ncp∂ Hcp cm{Xnbn¬ AhfpsS InS∏dbpsS P\en\v A`napJamb sIńSØn¬ Hcp sNdp∏°mc≥ Xmakam°nbXp sXm´mbncp∂p. ag tXm¿∂ t∏mƒ, At∏mƒ GItZiw ]ØpaWnbmbn´p≠mIpw, AhfpsS InS∏dbpsS FXncnep≈ P\¬ Xpd∂n´phs{X. Hcp ep¶n am{XapSpØv Abmƒ P\en∂SpØv h∂v ]pdtØ°p t\m°n. \√ \ndhpw XSnbpap≈ a\pjy≥. ap∏Xp ap∏Ø©p hb mbn´p≠mIpw. amdn¬ \ndsb tcmaw. t{Im∏psNbvX apSn. Ińbp≈ aoi. InS°m\p≈ h´w Iq´p∂ hnaesb I≠t∏mƒ Abmƒ hiyambn Nncn®s{X. ktcm-hcw

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A∂p XpSßnbXmWv A\pcm Kw. AtXXmbmepw \∂msb∂v cP\n ]d™p. AXn\p apºv tIńcp∂Xv A{X tIƒ°m≥ kpJap≈ Imcyßfmbncp ∂n√. Aeknt∏mb \nch[n I√ymWm temN\IfpsS IZ\IYIƒ. A—\ΩamcpsS ISpw]nSpØw ImcWamWs{X Ipsd BtemN \Iƒ \S°mXncp∂Xv. Rßƒ jmcSnamcmWv. Ah ƒ ]dbpw. At∏m Hcp jmcSn Xs∂ thWw. \mb∑msc Hs° I√ymWw Ign°WXv c≠m¥cm bn´m IW°m°WXv. CsX√mw XpS°Ønembn cp∂p. ]ns∂ ImØncn∏ns‚ Znh kßƒ, amkßƒ IS∂p t]mb t∏mƒ AhfpsS kwkmcØns‚ KXn amdnØpSßn. A—≥ ]tdWXv \mbΩmcm bmepw Ipg∏w H∂pw√ym∂m. IpósS tÃm°nev ht√mcpw s≠¶n¬ H∂p ]dbWw t´m. ]Øp\m¬]Xp hb p≈ Bsc ¶nepw aXn. ]ns∂ B \nebpw IS∂p t]mbn. amkßfpw sIm√ßfpw AhfpsS hcpXnbn¬ \n∂v sX ∂nt∏mIp∂Xv \n lmbbmbn t\m°n\n∂t∏mƒ AhfpsS kz cw ho≠pw amdn. Ipó, `mcy acn®tXm, ssU thmgvkv sNbvXtXm Bbn´v≈ B s c ¶ n e p s ≠ ¶ n ¬ ]dbWwt´m. Fs∂t∏mse hb mb Hcp s]Æns\ sI´m≥ C\n hb mb Bsc¶nepta hcq. AhfpsS kwkmcw tI´m¬ k¶Sw hcpw. cP\n ctaint\mSp ]dbpw. A]q¿∆w Nne kµ¿`ßfnte Ahƒ kz¥w hn[nsb AXns‚ icnbmb shfn®Øn¬ ]pdØp ImWn°q. A√mØ Ahkcßfn¬ Ahƒ kz ¥w Zp¿hn[n Hfn∏n®psh®v Al¶mcØns‚bpw, s]mß®Øns‚bpw apJw aqSnbWn™v \S°pIbmWv. F¥mbmepw ]pXnb A\pcmKw CsX√mw am‰n. Ct∏mƒ hnaebpsS IYIƒ tIƒ°m≥ ckaps≠ ∂mWv cP\n ]dbp∂Xv. ctai≥ Hmôkn¬ t]mbm¬ hnae h∂v Xte∂p≠mb kw`hßƒ apgph≥ hnhcn®p sImSp°p ∂p. ]pXnb Ab¬°mc≥ \√ sdmam‚nIv BsW∂mWv hnae ]dbp∂Xv. Znhkhpw cmhnse Fgpt∂ ‰m¬ hnae P\¬ Xpd°p∂Xphsc ImØp \n¬°pas{X. KpUvtamWnwKv ]d™nt´ Abmƒ {]`mX IrXyßƒ \n¿∆ln°pIbp≈q. as‰mcmfpsS kvt\l_‘ßsf∏‰n tIƒ°pI ckamWv. \ΩpsSsbms° Hcp Zu¿∫eyamWXv. hnae s]s´∂v B hoń¬ kzoImcybmbn. Hmtcm Znhkhpw ]pXnb ]pXnb IYIƒ tIƒ°m\mbn

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shfn®w At∏mgpap≠mbncp∂p. ]Sn™mdp\n∂v hoinbncp∂ Im‰v XWpØXmbncp∂p. hnae Abm fpsS hfsc ASpØmWv \n∂ncp∂Xv, Im‰ns‚ Znibn¬. AhfpsS XeapSn bn¬ \n∂p≈ FÆbpsS K‘w Abm sf Akzÿ\m°n. F¥p `wKnbp≈ ]qhv At√? AsX. ctai≥ ]d™p. hnaebpsS kmcn Cfw Nph∂Xmbncp∂p. Im‰Øv kmcnbpsS Xpºv ]qhn\v hfsc ASpØp h∂p. Cu ]qhpw Fs∂t∏msebmWv. hncnbpw. hmk\bn√msX c≠p Znhkw \n¬°pw, ]ns∂ sImgn ™pt]mIpw. Imbsbm∂pap≠mhn√. F¥mWnßs\ ]dbp∂Xv? ctai\p sXm≠ hc≠t]mse tXm∂n. Ahƒ hfsc ASpØmbncp∂p. AhfpsS kmao]yamtWm, A√ FÆbpsS K‘ap≈ Im‰mtWm AXn\p ImcWsa∂v Abmƒ°p a\ nembn√. sÃb¿tIkn¬ ImeSnIƒ tI´p. hnae \S∂p \oßpIbpw sNbvXp. AXn\p tijw Ahƒ Hcn° epw ctaint\mSv kwkmcn°pIbp≠mbnń√. hoń¬ hcptºmƒ cP\nbpt≠m F∂t\zjn°pI b√msX. F¥mWv BtemNn°WXv? cP\n tNmZn®p. \ap°Xp sIm≠phcmw. Abmƒ ]d™p. \Ωƒ sIm≠ph∂ns√¶n¬ AhcXp shń°fbpw. Ch¿s°ms° h√mØ A‘hnizmkamWv. {]tXyIn ®v hb mtbm¿°v. AXp ImcWw Hcp `wKnbp ≈ sNSn \in°pIbmsW¶n¬ I„mWv. \ap°Xv Cu RmbdmgvN sIm≠phcmw. RmbdmgvN kqcy≥ AkvXans®¶nepw sSd n¬ \√ shfn®ap≠mbncp∂p. I≈ns®Sn Ign™ sIm√w I≠Xnt\°mƒ AcbSn IqSn Dbcw sh®ncp∂p. ]®\ndw IqSpX¬ ISpØncp∂p. sNSnbv°v hb mhpIbmsW∂v ctai≥ Hm¿Øp. sNdp {]mbØn¬ AXns‚ \ndw Cfw ]®bmWv. Ct∏mgpw ]pXnb sImºpIƒ Cfw ]® Xs∂bmWv . s]s´∂mWv ctai≥ I≠Xv . GWpIfpsS A‰Øv ape°Æpt]mse Nph∂ \ndw. sam´pIƒ. Hm, Chƒ ]qhnSm≥ t]mIbmWv. hnaebpsS AΩbpw AhcpsS H∏w sSd n¬ h∂ncp∂p. A[nIw kwkmcn°mØ kv{Xo. ap≠pw th„nbpw BWv thjw. s\‰nta¬ Nµ\°pdn°p tase Hcp `kva°pdn. k‘ym\maP]w Ign™v Fgpt∂‰v h∂Xmbncn°pw. CsXßns\bmWv sIm≠pt]mIpI? ctai≥ tNmZn®p. Hcp Nm°v Xcmtam F¶n¬ AXn¬ NńtbmsS sh®v sIm≠p t]mImw. AtΩ Nm°pt≠m \ΩpsS ASpØv? hnae AΩtbmSv tNmZn®p. ImWpw, tÃm¿ dqan¬. AXn¬ Ipd®p Acnbp≠mhpw. AXv GsX¶nepw ]m{XØnte°v am‰nbn´v FSptØmfq. hnaebpw cP\nbpw Xmtg°p t]mbn. AΩbpw ctai\pw am{Xambn. F{X \√ sNSn. ctai≥ ]d™p. F¥n\mWXp Ifbp∂Xv? Iftb? B AΩ A¤pXtØmsS tNmZn®p. Ifbv√s√m. ctai≥ sIm≠p t]mht√? hnaebv°v \√ C„mWv Cu I≈n. ctai≥ Ign™ sIm√w CXp ]qØp I≠t∏mƒ \√ C„mbo∂v ]d™n´m Ahfv Xcm≥ Xo¿®mt°yXv. c≠pamkambn Cu sNSn ctai\v sImSp°Ww∂v ]dbm≥ XpSßo´v. ImsW°msW shfn®w aßn. t\cnb XWpØ Im‰phoim≥ XpSßn. Np‰pap≈ acßfpsS CSXq¿∂ CeIƒ°nSbn¬ Ccp´v tNt°dn. k‘yIƒ F∂pw ZpxJIcambncp∂p. hnaesb°pdn t®m¿Øt∏mƒ AbmfpsS a\ v ZpxJnXambn. F¥n\mWhƒ I≈ns®Snsb∏‰n Cu IYIsfms° ]d™Xv? ctai≥ sSd ns‚ AcaXnen\SptØ°p \oßn. A∏pdØv hnaebpsS InS∏dbpsS P\en¬ \n∂p t\m°nbm¬ ImWp∂ Ccp\ne sIńSap≠mbncp∂p. P\epIƒ AS®nńcn°bmWv . Abmƒ AΩtbmSv tNmZn®p. ChnsS BcmWv Xmakn°p∂Xv? FhnsS? Cu sIńSØn¬. Abmƒ Nq≠n°mń. Ah¿ AcaXnen∂SpØp h∂p. B sIńSØntem? AhnsS Bcpw Xmakw√ys√m. A©psIm√mbn´v ]qńbnńcn°ymWv . tIknemWv. tIm¿´v dokohdv h∂v ko¬ sNbvXv t]mbncn°ymWv. Imse{Xymbn? AXns‚ P\sems° H∂v sXmd∂v ImWm≥ sImXymbnsØmSßn....... sXm´SpØv thsd hoSpIsfm∂pans√∂v Abmƒ {i≤n®p. ktcm-hcw

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tImWn∏Sn Ibdn cP\nbpw hnaebpw h∂p. cP\nbpsS Iøn¬ aS°nb Hcp Nm°p≠v. Abmƒ hnaesb ASpØp hnfn®v B I≈ns®Sn ImWn®psImSpØp. AXns‚ GWpIfn¬ t\cnb Nph∏p≈ sam´pIƒ apfbv°p∂p. Rm≥ AXp I≠n´p≠v. hnae ]d™p. Ahƒ Ipºn´p \n¬°pIbmbncp∂p. AbmfpsS ASpØv hfsc ASpØv. ªukns‚ apIƒ `mKØp IqsS AhfpsS amdnSw ImWmw. Im‰n¬ Im®nb shfns®Æ bpsS K‘w. Abmƒ Akzÿ\mbn ]n≥amdn. CXn¬ \ndsb sam´pIfmWv. Abmƒ ]d™p. AsX√mw hncnbs´. F¥mWn{X [rXn. Rm≥ ]n∂oSv sIm≠ps]mbvs°m≈mw. Abmƒ Xncn™p \S∂psIm≠v ]d™p. ]ns∂, F\nbv°v I≈ns®SnIƒ A{Xbv°v Cs„m∂pw√y. tImWn∏SnIƒ Cdßn BZysØ em≥UnwKn¬ \n∂v Xncn™p t\m°nbt∏mƒ tImWnhmXnen eqsS I≠ s{^bnan¬ BImiØns‚ Hcp IjWhpw AXn\p Xmsg Ccp´p \nd™ apJhpambn A\ßmsX \n¬°p∂ hnaebpw AhfpsS Im¬°¬ AΩtbmSv FSp°m≥ Bhiys∏´v ssIIfpb¿ Øn \n¬°p∂ Hcp Ipńsbt∏mse I≈ns®Snbpap≠mbncp∂p. ! Abmƒ [rXnbn¬ tImWnbndßn.

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