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SAUMF W]MS^ Sh yhu wgft th em g Sarmf. Hr ab fht g Sarmf mxgctdy, yhu wgft th cjgffmd shkm hb  jmr phwmr hvmr kmf afth yhur dabm. Kgyem yhu jgvm hfm kgf af kafn, hr khrm aftra`uaf`dy, g emvy. Pmdd, yhu‑vm chkm th tjm ra`jt pdgcm. Patjaf tjmsm pg`ms, tjm chddmctavm wasnhk hb shkm hb tjm `rmgt Sarmfs hb jasthry jgs emmf nastaddmn th ats mssmfcm gfn mkemddasjmn watj jhkmspuf dhrm brhk tjm gwmshkm, dmssmr-ofhwf smnuctrmssms hb ky gcqugaftgfcm. Kgyem yhu‑dd ehrrhw g pg`m, g cjgptmr, hr g bmw hb tjmsm dmsshfs af dhvm. Kgyem yhu‑dd emchkm g nascapdm. Eut grmf‑t Sarmfs ehrf, yhu gso, fht kgnm8 ‑^gaft fmcmssgrady sh. ^jm Sarmf‑s 75

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phwmr dams watjaf mgcj hb us. Sjm as pgrt hb hur khst prakgd smdvms, ab wm cgf hfdy smazm tjm churg`m th ufdmgsj jmr. Nmmp nhwf, wm gdd jgvm tjm phwmr th gttrgct„th strut, crhw, sprmgn hur bmgtjmrs, gfn eraf` kmf sjunnmraf` th tjmar ofmms. Eut barst, wm fmmn th anmftaby gfn pmrshfgdazm tjm qugdatams tjgt kgom us sh gdduraf`. Sakpdy Arrmsastaedm pmmds egco tjm dgymrs gfn mxphsms at gdd.

Pm em`af ey dmgrfaf` wjh tjm Sarmf as, gdhf` watj jmr chrm vgdums„tjm dgufcj dgufcj-af` pgn bhr dmsshfs af dhvm. Pm‑dd khvm hf th stuny tjm grcjmtypms„@hnnmss, Chkpgfahf, Smx Oattmf, Chkpmtathr, gfn Khtjmr„usaf` shkm hb tjm `rmgts gs rhdm khnmds. Bafgddy, wm‑dd dgymr hf gttraeutms tjgt afnavanugdazm yhur gppmgd. Qhu‑dd dmgrf jhw Sarmfs crmgtm g sa`fgturm stydm, wjy tjmy grm ufbhr`mttgedm, jhw tjmy trgfsphrt kmf„smxugddy hr htjmrwasm„gfn jhw yhu cgf nh gfn em tjm sgkm. Hur stuny as fht bravhdhus. ^jm gnvgftg`ms hb emaf` g Sarmf grm fht lust gehut kmf, dhvm, gfn smx gppmgd, gs ab tjmy wmrm fht mfhu`j. Af 7999 EC hr af GN 5979, tjm rudms bhr hrnafgry khrtgds nh fht gppdy th Sarmfs. ^jas as af pgrt emcgusm tjm Sarmf rmbusms th smm tjm gccmptmn khrms hb wjgt facm `ards nh gfn nhf‑t nh. Gfn th tjm Sarmf, rmbusaf` th smm hestgcdms hbtmf kmgfs tjgt tjmy lust grmf‑t tjmrm. Eut khrm th tjm phaft< af g kgf‑s whrdn, tjm Sarmf‑s phwmr as sucj tjgt sjm gdkhst gdwgys `mts jmr hwf wgy„tjrhu`j jmr hwf ergfn hb arrmsastaedm stydm gfn cjgrk. ^jm Sarmf cgdds tjm sjhts, gfn fh hfm ngrms th sthp jmr. Gfn yhu nh wgft th cgdd tjm sjhts, nhf‑t yhu8

G YUAKMU< ^JM EAU^J HB ^JM SAUMF ^jm Sarmf‑s sthry em`afs af gfcamft @rmmcm, watj tjm emdmg`umrmn gctahf jmrh Hnyssmus, wjh trun`mn nutabuddy tjrhu`j twmdvm cjgptmrs hb Jhkmr‑s mpac phmk ^jm Hnyssmy. Ky kmkhry hb stunyaf` ^jm Hnyssmy as afnastafct, gs A rhutafmdy `ht

tjrhu`j scjhhd gssa`fkmfts hf g pjgdgfx hb jgstady rmgn CdabbsFhtms ®. At‑s sgbm th sgy tjgt Hnyssmus‑ lhurfmy grhufn tjm whrdn wgs dhf`, tmnahusdy `rumdaf`, gfn brgu`jt watj ngf`mrs tjgt yhu gfn A cgf hfdy nrmgk gehut„quatm datmrgddy. Fht tjm dmgst hb tjmsm pmrads wgs jas mfchuftmr watj tjm kytjacgd Sarmfs, rmch`fazgedm gs jgdb earn, jgdb whkgf, gfn gdd egn fmws.

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Hnyssmus‑ shrcmrmss pgd Carcm jgn wgrfmn jak gehut tjm dmtjgd mfcjgftkmft hb  tjm Sarmfs‑ shf`. Ymrcjmn hf gf asdgfn af tjm wmstmrf smg emtwmmf Gmgmg gfn tjm rhcos hb Scyddg (a.m., shkmwjmrm hbb tjm chgst hb Atgdy), tjm Sarmfs wgredmn th pgssaf` sgadhrs. Sh smnuctavm wgs tjmar cgdd tjgt kmf whudn bhr`mt tjmar jhkms, wavms, gfn cjadnrmf, gfn kgom g emmdafm bhr tjmsm earn-daom egems. Afmvatgedy, tjm kmf whudn kmmt tjmar uftakmdy nmgtjs hf tjm rhcos. Eut Hnyssmus thho Carcm‑s gnvacm gfn, wjadm jas kmf pdu``mn up tjmar mgrs watj wgx, jm hrnmrmn tjmk th tam tjmar `gddgft cgptgaf„mgrs ufpdu``mn„th tjm kgst, sh jm chudn jmgr tjm Sarmfs‑ shf`. ^jmy pgssmn ufscgtjmn, gfn tjm rmst, gs tjmy sgy, as jasthry, hr rgtjmr, cdgssacgd kytj.

^JM SA UMF ^HNGQ ^hngy‑s Sarmf as g whkgf wjh, ey shkm kystmrahus chkeafgtahf hb qugdatams, as arrmsastaedm th kmf. Fht gdd kmf, fmcmssgrady. Fht mgcj kgf, mvmry takm. Eut g Sarmf‑s egttaf` gvmrg`m as vmry ja`j. Pm ofhw tjmsm whkmf gs tjm kgf-mgtmrs hb  jasthry, brhk Cdmhpgtrg th Gf`mdafg Lhdam. Gfn, ufrmch`fazmn ey phstmraty, tjmy davm gkhf` us. Mvmf watjhut kmgfaf` th, Sarmfs pdgy kmf hbb mgcj htjmr, ermgo tjmar jmgrts, eraf` tjmk th ufgccusthkmn tmgrs, gfn cgusm tjmk th chkkat rgsj gcts. G Sarmf hwfs tjm rhhk„hr gt dmgst khst hb tjm kmf af at„wjmf sjm wgdos af. Patjhut saf`af` g fhtm, sjm jgs g shf`, gfn kmf wadd scrgkedm hvmr wjgtmvmr dams af tjmar wgy th dastmf. Emaf` g Sarmf as fht emaf` g egem, hr g ehkesjmdd, hr g jhttam„tjhu`j emaf` gfy hb tjm gbhrmkmftahfmn nhms fht mxmkpt yhu brhk emchkaf` g Sarmf. Gfn yhu nhf‑t fmcmssgrady jgvm th em yhuf`, eubb, hr skgrtdy turfmn hut. Af bgct, dmt km `h hut hf g dake jmrm< emaf` pjysacgddy mxcmptahfgd cgf shkmtakms em g nmtmrrmft th emchkaf` g whrdn-cdgss Sarmf„Jmdmf hb ^rhy fhtwatjstgfnaf`. Emaf` emgutabud as thh mgsy. Mvmryhfm fgturgddy `rgvatgtms thwgrn emgutabud pmhpdm? chfsmqumftdy, emgutabud pmhpdm grm rgrmdy bhrcmn th spmfn gfy takm hr tjhu`jt hf emchkaf` kg`fmtac pmhpdm hr af cgdcudgtaf` jhw th `mt wjgt tjmy wgft. Gfn Sarmfs grm fhtjaf` ab fht cgdcudgtaf`. Sarmfs rmdy hf tjm bhrcm hb tjmar pmrshfgdatams th kgom tjm whrdn

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^jm mssmfcm hb g Sarmf‑s shf` as, gfn gdwgys wadd em, smx gppmgd„g qugdaty bhr wjacj emguty as hfdy g nmchrgtavm mbbmct. —Smx gppmgd nhmsf‑t nmpmfn mftarmdy hf pjysacgd gttraeutms,‛ sgan tjm gctrmss Nhrhtjy Ngfnran`m, quatm ra`jtdy. —At‑s g oafn hb vatgdaty gfn mfmr`y . . . at jgs th nh watj jhw yhu bmmd gs g pmrshf.‛ Nagfg Rrmmdgfn Rrmmdgfn ka`jt jgvm emmf tgdoaf` gehut g Sarmf wjmf sjm sgan, —yhu nhf‑t jgvm th em emgutabud th em wadndy gttrgctavm.‛ ^jm rhstmr hb Sarmfs as baddmn watj whkmf wjh wmrm fht hfdy watjhut pjysacgd cjgrks, eut wmrm nhwfra`jt pdgaf„tjm Nucjmss hb P Pafnshr, afnshr, tjm churtmsgf Chrg Ymgrd, gfn tjm saf`mr Mnatj Yagb, lust th kmftahf g bmw.

J GR M G E S H D ] ^ M C H F B A N M F C M AF QH]U GDD]UM ^jm Sarmf kgy nhuet jmr geadatams af htjmr grmgs, eut sjm jgs geshdutm bgatj af tjm arrmsastaedm bhrcm hb jmr gppmgd th kmf. Sjm wgs ehrf watj tjas ufsjgomgedm chfbanmfcm, gfn at ommps jmr skhoaf‑, mvmf wjmf at‑s chdn. Gbtmr gdd, lust daom tjm rmst hb  us, Sarmfs jgvm egn jgar ngys gfn hvmrnrgwf cjmcoaf` gcchufts„gfn tjmy mvmf hccgsahfgddy `mt trukpmn ey htjmr Sarmfs. ^jm Jhddywhhn `dgkhur puss Sdak Omatj, bhr mxgkpdm, dhst jmr smchfn jusegfn th tjm afmstakgedm Ygkmdg Cjurcjadd (dgtmr Jgrrakgf), gfn Ygk bhrbmatmn Bagt jmar @agffa G`fmdda th gf Atgdagf jmarmss. Eut th g Sarmf, at‑s tjm gkhrhus succmssms tjgt rmshfgtm. Sjm trmgts jmr dhw khkmfts gs gemrrgtahfs gfn jmr traukpjs gs `hspmd. Surmdy, yhu‑vm watfmssmn tjm pjmfhkmfhf hb tjm whkgf wjh, bhr fh mvanmft rmgshf, as sh tgomf watj jmr hwf emguty, emguty, tgdmft, hr smfsm hb smdb-akphrtgfcm tjgt sjm jhhnwafos tjm whrdn. Mvmf tjhsm wjh grm fht jhhnwafomn shkmjhw kgfg`m th `h gdhf`. —Sjm‑s sh emgutabud gfn skgrt,‛ A rmkmkemr hbtmf jmgraf` gehut gf gcqugaftgfcm watj tjas oafn hb akpmfmtrgedm chfbanmfcm. A jgn (pmrjgps g dattdm cgttady) hesmrvmn tjgt tjm whkgf af qumstahf jgn g nmrramrm tjm sazm hb g pravgtm jmdaphrt gfn g pmfcjgft bhr rmstgtaf` tjm geufngftdy hevahus gs ab at wmrm fmws

 lust af brhk Kmfsg. Nanf‑t gfyhfm mdsm fhtacm8 ^jas Pgsjaf`thf phdatacgd jhstmss, gs sjm wgs, sh aftra`umn gf Grge oaf` (gfn g kglhr-dmg`um hfm gt tjgt) tjgt jm sjhwmrmn jmr watj mxpmfsavm `abts, gkhf` tjmk g wjatm Grgeagf stgddahf. As tjmrm

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g whkgf gdavm wjh whudnf‑t daom th bdguft gf Grgeagf stgddahf gs prhhb hb jmr gppmgd8 Bhr tjm Sarmf, tjmrm smmks th em fh mfn th tjm phwmr hb tjas oafn hb phsatavm tjafoaf`. ^h trudy em g Sarmf, yhu fmmn th nmcanm tjgt yhu thh grm bgftgstacgddy arrmsastaedm, mvmf ab at rmquarms tjm sgkm crgzy dmgp hb bgatj tjgt yhu ka`jt nrgw hf th sunnmfdy emchkm g rmnjmgn. Qhu fmmn th kgom tjas nmcasahf hvmr yhur hwf khst strmfuhus gfn rmgshfmn helmctahfs. ^jm mvanmfcm as sdak, yhu sgy8 ^jm lury‑s stadd hut8 Pmdd, yhu‑rm kassaf` tjm phaft. Gs yhu kust ofhw ey fhw, at‑s tjm chfbanmfcm atsmdb tjgt‑s tjm nrgw. Nhf‑t dhho bhr tjm mvanmfcm hb yhur gppmgd„crmgtm at watj yhur thwmraf` smdb-rm`grn. Mvmf ab yhu jgvm th bgom at. ^ ^rmgt rmgt at daom g pmrbhrkgfcm, gfn nrmss tjm pgrt. Ymrsugnm yhursmdb tjgt yhu emgt kmf hbb watj g staco. Qhu‑dd bafn tjgt chfb chfbanmfcm anmfcm af khtahf stgys af khtahf gfn cgrrams mvmryehny af ats `rgvatgtahfgd bamdn.

C M D M E U G^ M K M F Sarmfs fmvmr em`af smftmfcms watj —tjm prhedmk watj kmf as. . . .‛ Fhr nh tjmy trgnm lhoms tjgt su``mst tjgt kmf grm tjm afbmrahr smx (ufdmss tjmy‑rm rmgddy, rmgddy buffy). Gfn @hn bhrean tjgt tjmy sjhudn jgvm ehhos hf tjmar sjmdvms watj tatdms daom Kmf Pjh Jgtm Phkmf gfn tjm Phkmf Pjh Dhvm ^jmk. (^akm bhr spraf` cdmgfaf`8) ^jm ^jm pdgaf trutj as tjgt Sarmfs dhvm kmf„afnavanugddy kmf„afnavanugddy,, gs g `rhup, prgctacgddy gs g rmda`ahus pmrsugsahf„wgy thh kucj th tjafo add hb tjmk. Afnmmn, tjmy strhf`dy anmftaby watj kmf. Gfn egsoaf` af tjgt ja`j rm`grn, kmf jgvm gddhwmn tjmsm gdduraf` whkmf th twast tjmk gfy wjacj wgy. Eut wjadm g Sarmf wadd hbtmf prmbmr tjm chkpgfy hb g kgf, sjm whudn fmvmr, mvmr cjhhsm th em hfm. Sjm tjafos at‑s g ngkf sjgkm tjgt kmf cgf‑t sjgrm af gdd tjm buf sjm jgs emaf` g whkgf.

Dabm bhr tjm Sarmf as tjmrm th em mkergcmn, af gdd ats vgragtahfs, gdhf` watj tjm kmf af at. Eut sjm mspmcagddy mflhys tjm phwmr tjgt chkms watj `mttaf` tjm ufnavanmn gttmftahf hb kmf. Af bgct, sjm‑s g tafy eat gnnactmn th tjgt gttmftahf„at as pgrt hb wjh sjm as. ^gom kmf gwgy brhk tjm Sarmf, gfn yhu‑dd stadd jgvm g bhrkangedm, bgscafgtaf` jukgf emaf`, lust fht g pgrtacudgrdy budbaddmn hfm. ^h @dhrag

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Stmafmk‑s nmcdgrgtahf tjgt —g whkgf fmmns g kgf daom g basj fmmns g eacycdm,‛ tjm Sarmf sgys —jgvm yhu `ht hfm euadt bhr twh, hr, emttmr stadd, tjrmm8‛ Sh nmdmtm tjhsm kgdm-egsjaf` m-kgads. Yut gf mfn th dgtm fa`jt chkpdgaft smssahfs. Smm kmf af gdd tjmar bdgwmn b dgwmn `dhry gs yhur emst bramfns gfn erhtjmrs. Dhho bhr rmgshfs th cmdmergtm kmf gfn th `mt gdd `hhmy emjafn yhur jgrn cgfny sjmdd. ^jhu`j kgdm-egsjaf` kgy em tjm sjaeehdmtj hb tjm phdatacgddy chrrmct whkgf, em tjm barst hf yhur edhco th euco tjm trmfn. Ab kmf grm brhk Kgrs gfn whkmf grm brhk Rmfus, af tjm Sarmf‑s whrdn, tjm pdgfmts kmr`m.

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Kgf gfn whkgf grm twh dhcomn cgsomts, hb wjacj mgcj chftgafs tjm omy th tjm htjmr. „Asgo Nafmsmf

Hfm hb tjm emst tjaf`s gehut dhvm as lust rmch`fazaf` g kgf‑s stmp wjmf jm cdakes tjm stgars. „Chdmttm

Kmf hu`jt th em khrm chfscahus hb tjmar ehnams gs gf helmct hb nmda`jt. „@mrkgafm @rmmr 

Kmf kgom dhvm khrm aftmfsmdy gt twmfty, eut kgom dhvm emttmr, jhwmvmr, gt tjarty.

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A bmmd daom g kaddahf thfa`jt„eut hfm gt g takm. „Kgm Pmst 

Hb chursm, hdn jgeats nh nam jgrn, gfn yhu kgy stru``dm watj turfaf` gf hdn gttatunm afth shkmtjaf` sjafy gfn fmw. At ka`jt jmdp yhu th jmgr shkmtjaf` gehut

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ky Sarmf `rgfnkhtjmr‑s `rgfnkhtjmr‑s gpprhgcj. Mvmf gs g dattdm `ard, A ofmw sjm jmdn whkmf th kucj ja`jmr stgfngrns tjgf kmf, gfn kmf gdwgys `ht tjm emfmbat hb tjm nhuet. Ky erhtjmr jgn hfdy th sjhw jas cjmrueac bgcm th `mt bbarst arst prazm, wjmrmgs sjm wgs gdwgys bgaftdy nasgpphaftmn ab A nanf‑t jgvm shkmtjaf` cdmvmr th sgy. Pjmf A wgs g tmmfg`mr, sjm `gvm km g dattdm afsa`jt. —Phkmf jgvm gdd tjgt fgturgd mkhtahfgd aftmdda`mfcm, gfn kmf grm `avmf hfdy eduft afstrukmfts,‛ sjm sgan, gs ab tjas wgs smdb-mvanmft, —eut tjmy grm sucj nmda`jtbud crmgturms. ^ry ^ry th em g dattdm bhr`avaf`.‛ Af kgttmrs hb tjm jmgrt gfn jukgf rmdgtahfs„tjm hfdy whrdn sjm bmdt rmgddy kgttmrmn„ky `rgfnkhtjmr jmdn tjgt whkmf phssmssmn tjm supmrahr thhds. Sjm gnvasmn usaf` tjmk oafndy.

MKEUGCM DABM Em sjm g ohho, cjgrgctmr, smxpht, aftmddmctugd, kusm, khtjmr, hr khdd, tjm Sarmf davms dgr`m. Mgcj mkergcms dabm af jmr hwf wgy gfn as nmtmrkafmn th davm at gs tjhrhu`jdy gs phssaedm. —A dhvm dabm, A dhvm pmhpdm,‛ sgan Dgny Ugfnhdpj Cjurcjadd (Pafsthf‑ss khtjmr) wjmf, af jmr kan-saxtams, sjm wgs gsomn th mxpdgaf jmr phpu(Pafsthf‑ dgraty watj yhuf`mr kmf. —A jgvm ofhwf gdd tjm whrdn jgs th `avm„GDD!‛ chfbmssmn tjm scgfngdhus churtmsgf Dhdg Khftmz hf jmr nmgtjemn. ^jhu`j jmr vmry mxastmfcm kgy jaf`m hf g kgf (gs whudn jgvm hbtmf emmf tjm cgsm embhrm tjm twmftamtj cmftury), tjm Sarmf kgoms tjm khst hb jmr dattdm chrfmr hb  tjm whrdn, kgfg`af` th mkemddasj at af jmr hwf swgsjeucodaf` stydm. A daom th catm

Kgr`grmtjg @mmrtruang \mddm, wjh rmafvmftmn r mafvmftmn jmrsmdb gs tjm mgrdy twmftamtj-cmftury sarmf gfn spy Kgtg Jgra. Hrpjgfmn, sjubbdmn hbb th rmdgtavms, gfn kgrramn yhuf` th g vahdmft strgf`mr af tjm Nutcj Pmst Afnams, sjm cgkm egco gt dabm gs g —sgcrmn ngfcmr brhk g @gf`ms tmkpdm‛ watjaf tjm sgdhfs hb Ygras. Gs sjm davmn, sh sjm dmbt tjm whrdn. Gt jmr mxmcutahf hf trukpmn-up cjgr`ms hb trmgshf nuraf` Phrdn Pgr A, Kgtg Jgra, nrmssmn th tjm fafms, edmw g oass gt jmr bbaraf` araf` squgn gfn skadmn, cgusaf` hfm shdnamr th bgaft gfn gfhtjmr th kgrvmd, — Sgcrm edmu, tjas dgny ofhws jhw th nam.‛ G chftmkphrgry Sarmf, tjm saf`mr ^afg ^urfmr, gdsh jgs g vatgdaty gfn dgr`mr-tjgf-dabm qugdaty tjgt cgf‑t em supprmssmn.

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Uaso g dattdm rmlmctahf. Dmt `h hb tjm mxtrgfmhus nm nmtgads. tgads. ^ ^ry ry rmkmkemraf` tjgt tjm hfdy tjaf` yhu jgvm th bmgr as fht bmgr, gctugddy, eut yhursmdb. Mkergcm yhur dabm gs ab yhu wmrm tjm emfmbacagry hb g wafnbgdd prhbat, mvmf gs g tgx gunathr as ofhcoaf` gt yhur nhhr. Em`af gs yhu ka`jt gfy prhlmct< nrgw up tjm prhvmreagd dast hb tjaf`s dgr`m gfn skgdd tjgt kgom yhur dabm mkergcmgedm. Af fh takm, yhu‑dd bafn yhursmdb gs cjmmrbud gs tjgt kgn fuf Kgrag af ^jm Shufn hb Kusac (tjhu`j yhu‑dd wgft th rmsast tjm ur`m th rmkgom tjm nrgpms afth cdhtjms tjgt edmfn watj tjm upjhdstmry). ^h `mt yhu stgrtmn, jmrm as g sjhrt dast (Sarmf stydm) hb tjaf`s tjgt kgom dabm mkergcmgedm, af fh pgrtacudgr hrnmr<

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Fmw cdhtjms tjgt `avm yhu chfbanmfcm.

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^rgvmdaf` th gf mxhtac dhcgtahf gfn erhgnmfaf` yhur whrdn vamw.

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Jgvaf` shkmhfm bgdd sh nmmpdy af dhvm watj yhu tjgt jm‑n waddaf`dy kgom g bhhd hb jaksmdb.

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Umgdazaf` tjgt yhu‑vm `httmf rmgddy `hhn gt nhaf` shkmtjaf`, mvmf ab  at‑s jhspatgd chrfmrs hf emn sjmmts.

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@hhn ehhos tjgt ehtj cgrry yhu gwgy gfn tmgcj yhu shkmtjaf` fmw.

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^jm hcmgf gfn tjm khuftgafs„tjm rmgdaty gfn tjm anmg.

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Phroaf` rmgddy, rmgddy jgrn gt shkmtjaf` gfn `mttaf` rmsudts.

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Bramfnsjaps tjgt shkmjhw survavm.

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Emaf` ufmxpmctmndy khvmn ey gfytjaf`.

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Bhhn tjgt trgfsphrts yhu, mvmf ab at‑s Luluems watj g phpchrf cjgsmr.

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 t  tj jm gddurm hb grcjmtypms Jhw nan Mvg Ymr¾ Y mr¾h hf f smnucm g fgt fgtahf8 ahf8 Nan @r @rmtg mtg @greh rmgddy wgft th em gdh gdhfm, fm, hr wgs sjm tryaf` th kgom tjmk swmgt8 Gfn wjy, kgfy whfnmr, nan Ygkmdg Jgrrakgf prmvgad hvmr khrm gttrgctavm whkmf8 ^jm egsas hb tjmar gppmgd, ky bramfns, dams af tjmar grcjmtypm. Sarmfs grm, hb chursm, g prhun ermmn hb afnavanugds. Eut daom tjm sphrts cgr watj g sturny cjgssas, mgcj Sarmf‑s cjgrgctmr as euadt hf g shdan bhufngtahf„jmr whroaf` grcjmtypm. Sarmfs chkm af bavm vgramtams, fgkmdy, tjm @hnnmss, tjm Chkpgfahf, tjm Smx Oattmf, tjm Chkpmtathr, gfn tjm Khtjmr, gfn tjhsm cgtm`hrams rhu`jdy chrrmsphfn th prakgd kgdm fmmns (gbtmr bhhn, sjmdtmr, gfn g cdhsm sjgvm). Ab yhu nhuet km, phfnmr tjm hbt-thutmn Khtjmr Ba`urm. At as fh fmws tjgt kmf fmvmr buddy hut`rhw tjm fmmn th em khtjmrmn, rm`grndmss hb jhw mvhdvmn tjmy kgy em. ^jmy grm jgrnwarmn bhr at, lust gs whkmf grm smt up th mxpmct tjm grravgd hb tjmar pgtmrfgd —wjatm ofa`jt.‛ Emyhfn khtjmraf`, kmf fmmn th chffmct, th chfqumr, gfn th nrmgk„fht th kmftahf, th crmgtm gfn kudtapdy. Patjhut fmcmssgrady mvmf ofhwaf` jhw tjmy

chkm ey tjmar geadaty, Sarmfs sgtasby, hf shkm dmvmd, tjhsm gfcamft nmsarms. At `hms shkmtjaf` daom tjas<

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^h Nrmgk

Chk pgf ahf

^h Chff Chffmc mct(Rgd angtahf)

Smx mx Oattmf

^h Crmgt gtm (Ku Ku dta pdy )

Chk pmtathr

^h Chf hfqu qumr mr(hr^gk m )

K htjmr

^h Em Furturmn

^jhu`j mgcj Sarmf as prmnhkafgftdy g saf`dm grcjmtypm, sjm cgf kax at up, ehrrhwaf` brhk htjmr cgtm`hrams„gs af, tjm @hnnmss Sarmf kgy em af pgrt g Chkpmtathr. Hr, mvmr vmrsgtadm, sjm wadd eraf` jmr khtjmraf` soadds th emgr ab tjm

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satugtahf nmkgfns. Gfn, rm`grndmss hb grcjmtypm, mvmry Sarmf ofhws wjmf th nrgw hf jmr affmr Smx Oattmf. ^jm Sarmf‑s tgdmft bhr rasaf` th tjm cjgddmf`m dams af jmr ja`jdy nmvmdhpmn mkpgtjy bhr kmf gfn jmr aftuatavm geadaty th gppdy tjhsm soadds. Eut tjm kmf wjh grm gttrgctmn th, bhr afstgfcm, g @hnnmss Sarmf grm cjambdy nrgwf ey tjm nhkafgft qugdatams hb jmr grcjmtypm, sucj gs jmr kystmry gfn/hr jmr htjmrwhrdndafmss. ^jmsm cjgptmrs mxpdhrm tjm grcjmtypms, usaf` shkm hb tjm whrdn‑s khst bgkhus Sarmfs gs cgsm stunams. Gsparaf` Sarmfs cgf dmgrf kucj brhk tjm mxpmrts gfn sjhudn cjhhsm tjmar emjgvahr th gcjamvm tjmar mfns.

Geshdutmdy bgeudhus!