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Tfe Luddfgst

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Lehhidndge    @y Rersnj Rersnj 

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   Feirt Rulhgaitgnj 

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  Nperitga Qummergjk  

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hgce i legjk wfnse anjstijt `ijtri gs ‘jever ejnukf/jever ejnukf/jever ejnukf‐   —tfe  — tfe luddfgst

 

Tfe Luddfgst

 

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‗` aurhgjk liac nj `y spgje, iss up gj tfe igr, aujt pngjted tnwirds tfe aeghgjk, ijd fe‗s phujkgjk gjtn `e. [e jever set eyes nj nje ijntfer ujtgh

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 yesterdiyy, yet fere we ire  yesterdi ire,, i `gddhe-i `gddhe-iked ked wn`ij ijd i `gddhe-i `gddhe-iked ked Luddfgst krujtgjk tnketfer gj tfe Cilucg Fnteh. Fnw dgd tfgs fippej>

Tfe gjterjet, nm anurse. Is snnj is fe knt gjsgde `e fe sfnved `y iss up, ijd tfej fe stuac fgs ir`s ujder `y heks ijd pusfed tfe` liac, nj egtfer sgde nm `y feid. G ceep tfgjcgjk nm tfe fu`ij spgder G siw gj i `nvge, `nvge, i pnssessed wn`ij gj ij exnragst `nvge, fer afest scywird, fer feid lejt liacwirds, fijds ijd meet nj tfe nnr gj sn`e iriafjgdy ynki pnse, sfe sari`lhes ilnut nj ihh mnur hg`ls it i preterjiturih speed. Nr `iyle gt wis i Driauhi `nvge, i pnst`nderj nje, wfere \ejehd `nves mrn` eitgjk luks tn lean`gjk nje. Tfere‗s jn hule, sn gt furts hgce fehh. G‗` re`gjded nm tfe heafernus Luddfgst teiafer G reid ilnut wfn muaced fgs studejts wgtfnut hule, ijd G wnjder wnjder gm tfgs gs i Luddfgst tfgjk tn dn, tn muac wgtfnut hule, sn`etfgjk ilnut jnt khnssgjk nver ij expergejae. Fe tfrusts deeper—NUAF—hist weec G wis fivgjk dgjjer wgtf i anhheikue ijd sfe sigd, ire  ynu reihhy kngjk tn ket ket jiced wgtf fg`—i fg`—itt ynur ynur ike> Qfe krg`iaed nve nverr fer fer krghhed krghhed sei liss ijd sigd sfe‗d jever dn gt. Qfe tnhd `e fnw nje jgkft sfe ijd tfgs ntfer me`ihe pnet mijtisgzed i lndysugt mnr ikgjk wn`ej wfn tnnc nj hnvers, tfe sugt wnuhd five mnur stritekgaihhy-phiaed fnhes. Qure, sfe sigd, we ihh ih h trged ijih sex wfej we were ynujk, lut we‗re jnt kngjk tn dn tfit ijy `nre, sn jn jeed mnr i fnhe tfere. Tfe jeac fnhe nm tfe lndysugt wnuhd anver tfe jeac ijd afgj, ejdgjk oust lehnw tfe hgps. Tfere wnuhd le twn fnhes nj tfe afest, oust lgk ejnukf mnr tfe jgpphes tn pnce tfrnukf lut heivgjk tfe irenhis anvered. @y anhheikue sarujafed fer miae. ‘[fej ynu ket nhd, tfey spreid. Jnlndy wijts tn see tfit.‐ Ijd tfej tfere‗d le i shgt mnr tfe kejgtihs, lut jnt sn wgde is tn ihhnw ijy sikkgjk hilgi tn fijk tfrnukf. Tfgs nutt sfe aihhs tfe pnst-`ejnpiusih p nst-`ejnpiusih sex lurqi. Ijd G sigd, dn hilgi reihhy reihh y stirt tn fijk> Qfe sigd, yes, oust hgce `ej‗s lihhs, krivgty `ices tfe hilgi fijk. G tnhd fer G jever jntgaed tfit, G‗d five tn tice i hnnc. @iyle gm G were `nre irnused tfere wnuhdj‗t le ijy jeed mnr hule. Gt‗s jnt hgce G fivej‗t muaced gj tfgs pnsgtgnj lemnre, lut jnt tfe very rst tg`e we dgd gt, jnt rgkft imter fe ejtered, tfere‗d le sn`e kettgjk used tn gt, nj snhgd led krnujd, sn`e wghdjess ijd shnller lemnrefijd, sn`e cgjd nm prnkressgnj. Tfe Luddfgst njae wrnte tn `e tfit gt dgdj‗t dgdj‗t `itter fnw we were gj tfe pist wgtf ntfers, tfit fid jntfgjk tn dn wgtf fnw we were wgtf eiaf ntfer, ntfer, sn `iyle fe fis i dgmmerejt sejse nm fgstnry fgstnry,, tfgs `n`ejt nm muacgjk fis jntfgjk tn dn wgtf prevgnus `n`ejts nm muacgjk—NUAF—NUAF—NUAF—  sn wfy i` G kngjk tfrnukf wgtf tfgs> Leaiuse tfgs gs wfit G dn—wfetfer G wijt

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tfe` nr jnt, G pusf tfgjks is mir is tfey‗hh kn. Tfit‗s fnw G ejded up `irrged tn `y rst fuslijd, fe fid tfgs ntferwnrhdhy n tferwnrhdhy sweetjess, fe‗d sgt nj i lejaf gj Knhdej Kite Rirc, sn stghh, sn it nje wgtf jiture tfit squgrrehs wnuhd ahg`l ihnjk fgs ir`s ijd sfnuhders. Fe dgdj‗t tihc `uaf ijd fe anuhdj‗t lihijae i afeaclnnc ijd fe hhed `y led wgtf squgrreh eis, lut G pusfed ijd pusfed ijd fe `irrged `e. Mrn` Mr n` tfe fujdreds nm e`ighs ijd fnur-hnjk pfnje aihhs G cjnw tfe Luddfgst‗s Luddf gst‗s  vuhjerilghgty  vuhjeri lghgty, fgs sejsgtgvgtges, sejsgtgvgtges, fgs hnjehgjess hnjehgjess it ihh tfnse tfnse `edgtitgnj `edgtitgnj retreits retreits,, fe sigd tfit penphe wfn‗ve cjnwj fg` mnr 12 yeirs dnj‗t cjnw fg` tfe wiy G dn. G cjnw fgs rn`ijtga fgstnry, fgs afghdfnnd triu`is, fgs auhturih hgces ijd dgshgces? `usga, `nvges, lnncs, tfenry, tfenry, fgs hnve nm Oiac Qpgaer‗s pnetry, pnetry, fnw it `edgtitgnj retreits tfgs su``er fe‗d drgve ij fnur tn [fnhe Mnnds mnr sfrg`p sihid ijd kuiai`nhe fe‗d eit ihnje gj fgs rnn`, fnw nur anjjeatgnj gs sn strnjk, sn iuspgagnus we `ust five leej very ahnse gj i pist hgme, perfips `ijy hgves. Fnw fe phijs fgs diys iaanrdgjk tn istrnhnkgaih ihgkj`ejts. Lut G dgdj‗t jd nut fe wis `irrged ujtgh G reid ij irtgahe, njhgje, gj tfe  Jew Wnrc Wnrc Tg`es. Tg`es. Keecy gj pfntns, fe‗s fijdsn`e gj persnj. Fe‗s anjtigjed, krnn`ed, pnwermuh, exudgjk i fyper-prnmessgnjihgs` tfit tru`ps ahiss nrgkgj, riae, rekgnjihgs`—hgce Kenrke Ahnnjey gj tfit `nvge wfere fe ges irnujd rgjk penphe. I persnj persn j mnr wfn` fnteh sex an`es jiturihhy. jiturihhy. Upsgdednwj, heks dijkhgjk ilnve `e, G‗` hgce ij nrafgd fijkgjk mrn` tfe lrijaf nm i lijyij tree gj i lntijgaih kirdej gj Mhnrgdi, ij extriterrestrgih wfgte nwer wgtf i usfed pgjc anre khnwgjk gj tfe kejerga fnteh rnn` hgkft. [fejever fe tihcs ilnut  vgsgtgjk  vgsgtgj k tfe stupi, stupi, i tihh pngjted pngjted Luddfgst sfrgje sfrgje,, G tfgjc stupi stupi snujds ij iwmuh iwmuh hnt hgce sftup—fe‗s sftuppgjk `e wgtf fgs stupi—fe sigd i stupi fid sn`etfgjk tn dn wgtf ken`ijay, ken`ijay, tfit gt gs airemuhhy phiaed tn le i dgvgjgjk rnd mnr ans`ga pnwer, ijd fe‗s knt tfgs jeachiae nj, i dnulhe strijd nm strgjk—Luddfgst prnteatgnj anrds—  sn `iyle `y iss gj igr fis sn`e cgjd nm speagih `eijgjk mnr fg`. Hgce gt‗s tfgs tijtrga tfgjk> Tfe siared sftupi pnsgtgnj> Fe‗s knt i jgae anac, jnt kgkijtga, lut hirke-jnr`ih, tfgac, nvih-sfiped, jnt vegjy, strigkft—i fijdsn`e sturdy anac—  lut mrn` tfgs pnsgtgnj, G dnj‗t cjnw fnw tn kreet gt, G suppnse G anuhd ip `y spgje hgce i sf, G tfgjc G anuhd dn tfit—wnuhd tfit `ice `y aujt `nve gj tfe rgkft dgreatgnj> Mrn` mir, mir, mir ilnve `e, fnvergjk hgce ij ihgej spiaesfgp eoeatgjk i prnle gjtn Eirtf wn`ij, tfe Luddfgst hnncs dnwj, fgs kize ihh tejder ijd hnvey, ijd fe shi`s gj firder, firder, `y eyes luhke wgtf pigj ijd fe hnses fgs ereatgnj, rgkft tfere gjsgde nm `e. Tfgs gs wfit G dn, G pusf tfgjks ujtgh tfey tfey lreic. *

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Midgjk Qgttgjk nj `y led, dngjk ahiss wnrc. I peiaemuh, lut nppressgvehy `ukky diy. G fivej‗t cept up tfe lhnk leaiuse `y ittejtgnjs five leej ehsewfere, i lgk ehsewfere. G‗` g``ersed gj tejiagty it tfe `n`ejt, meehgjk suaf hnjkgjk mnr i sgtuitgnj tfit see`s tn le shgppgjk iwiy. Wnu cjnw fnw gt gs—sn`enje ejters  ynur hgme ijd ynu meeh relnrj. Ihh ynur hnjehgjess gs suddejhy knje, hnjehgjess gs tfgs tfgjk nj tfe dgstijt fnrgznj, hnjehgjess wghh jever ipprniaf ynu ikigj. Tfej tfgjks sfgmt, i deih lreicer irgses letweej ynu ijd ynur persnj. [fej ynu try tn tihc ilnut gt, ynur persnj sfuts ynu dnwj, ijd tfere‗s jn phiae tn kn lut tnwirds tfit terrgmygjk fnrgznj. G jd `y resnhve wivergjk, lut tfej G reid ij e`igh mrn` i anuphe nm diys ikn wfere tfe persnj rgdgauhes `y vuhjerilghgty, ijd G vnw tn ceep `nvgjk tnwirds tfit hnn`gjk fnrgznj. @y rgdgauhnushy extejded fnrgznj `etipfnr re`gjds re`gjds `e nm nje nm Lrujn Mizznhirg‗ Mizznhirg‗ss  Hnst Rigjtgjks aurrejthy nj dgsphiy it @irkiret Tedesan‗s S