Biography English

Part 1 Born with an incurable decease On 18 October 1958 I was born as the eldest of five, with an incurable decease and this was a great suffering for the heart and the soul of my mom. Common people will know it as Bleeder, but is also known as Hemophiliac. Very typical for this decease is the spontaneous character of bleedings because of the low percentage of stilling of the Blood. My blood has a stilling percentage, of one percent; normal is 100%. So from the time of my birth I had to take care and to watch over it not to cut myself or to bump against objects! As the eldest of five children I am the only one until today who has a living relationship with Jesus Christ as His Savior and Lord. My father was a Jehovah Witness and has not found to Jesus Christ until this day. My mother had a religious background of Catholicism but and I was sprinkled as a baby to be a protestant Christian. And as far I can remember only ones a year the Bible was opened up, and that was, how could it be else, at the Christmas days. We actually went never ever to any church!

In the first few years of my young baby live, I regularly have been very close near death. At the age of 8 (I still lived) my father and mother brought me in something like a home shelter for disabled children; although I was not really disabled at all, but because of the PROBLEMS, which brought my sickness with it, they saw no better way as bringing me away from home. This is, as you can understand one of the darkest ours of my live. I had to live there for a period of 5 years; from 8 till the age of 13. Children’s Garden -In the Left Top corner

- That’s me!

It was there were I heard once a short story out of the Word of God of the Fisherman in the ship in the Storm. It grasped my young heart so greatly that I have never ever forgotten it! It was only once that I was in that strange meeting and the Director of that house for disabled children, never ever allowed me again to go that Pentecostal church, because it was far away from that house. It was actually a day in my live that I wanted to run away from that house. In this time of 5 years my heart grew more and more into rebellion because I saw my parents hardly ever and they didn’t allow me to go that church, I had to go to a death Catholic service. It was in that time of five years, that I received some dreams from God and it made me very conscious about it that there is a God. And even as a young child my heart was longing for God and when they had again put me in the closet, sitting in the dark – my tears flowed an ran over my face and my heart screamed it out for pain and my soul was yearning for God. Five years of hell and pain went over and in the age of 13 my parents took me back home again! All the official instances were against it, but my parents pulled it through. End of part 1 –

Part 2 Finely coming back home! On the age of 13, I finely come home; and for the first time of my live I got a Bedroom for my own. It was a huge difference with sleeping in a great hall with 14 beds, and having a little bed closet of my own. I finely had some privacy, because I had not had very much privacy in those 5 years. As the years passed by My God consciousness sunk somewhat away. Shortly after that I finely had come back home we went to a place very far away to visit some doctors who were specialists in treading my disease. But it was only one year later on the age of 14 that I again had to go to a school for disabled teenagers; it was a tragedy for my heart and soul and again one of the darkest black pages in my live! My whole live started to be a pattern of rebellion and aggression and they could not hold me very long there. But it still were two years were in I had to see things and to go through things, I am ashamed of to even tell them.

At the age of 16 I finely went, for the first time of my live to a normal school, a technical school specialized also in Graphic and Design. These were a few years in which I had great pleasure and fun to be at school and to learn, and I was GOOD, in that what I did. It was even light for me to learn the skills I wanted to learn. But there came a young woman in my live and I thought that I loved her but I learned over the years that it was only her body I really longed for. This brought me at the third year, of the four I had to learn, in great sorrows of heart and soul. She came to me asking for alimentation for a baby she had born, which supposed to be of me. The change was very small because of the diverse partners she had in that time that I went with her, but not impossible. By the end of the fourth year I had come in such a deep depressive darkness that I wanted to commit suicide. At a certain evening, above in my room I made up my mind to drown myself and to jump in the Canal, which was only 3.5 Miles away from the place were I lived. I had come to an end and I saw no way out anymore! I stood up from my bed and than “suddenly” my God conscious was there again after such a long time! I opened up the Window, looked to the stars in the dark night with tears in my eyes and with a cry in my heart: “Please HELP ME GOD.” I wanted to scream it out aloud out of the window into the dark summer night, but I couldn’t! So I was yearning in my heart HELP! I fell down upon my bed, which stood below the window, and I wept bitter tears of pain and hurt, with the cry in my heart where are you God? When you are there help me please? Still weeping, I fell into a deep sleep! As I woke up the next morning, I couldn’t believe my heart, because what I felt in my heart was a deep peace and a great joy and a happiness I hadn’t had for many years, no I never had had this kind of peace and joy into my heart, in my whole live I have never had that. I could see the sun rise again and I even had great joy to be alive! God had answered the cry of my heart! I could not even imagine that the day before I was planning to kill myself. But I still was not a Christian and I kept on living my live as that I thought that was good. But one thing I was cured of and that was woman. I didn’t want to have any woman anymore. Raymond and me.

At the age of 23 – still no woman in my live – this same girlfriend contacted me again because she wanted to know how my live was and if I still was single. She phoned and every time as she phoned I knew it was her and I didn’t pick up the phone, but my mother did and I had instructed her to tell her that she should leave me alone. O how I enormously, well I just still was hooked to that woman. I was so deeply bound to hear that after a couple of weeks of telephonic pressure I gave in and made an appointment with her, to meet somewhere and to drink a coffee with her. Yes, it was at that moment that I met my son; (Raymond, the young boy on the picture) and although it could have been of so many other man, within me there was a voice who knew that it was my son. So the first time we met again, we met in the city in a coffee shop. But now it comes! She asked me after two or three times that we met, to come to a kind of a church meeting, (Pentecostal – Bethelfellowship meeting) that was in 1981. The first time I went there I had no idea what would come on my way, so I searched for that place, heard a lot of noise and I thought. “Well it can not be here.” But it was there at that noisy place were

she wanted me to meet her. So the next week came and we would meet than each other over there. And the next time I was there were she wanted to meet me, in that little church, which was not even bigger as a small room, with lets say 20 people who gathered there. I took my place some were in the front row, because she was also sitting in the front row, sitting besides her, listening to the strange Music having only eyes for her. I can not remember to have heard anything of the preaching of the Word, but the third or the fourth time I went again to this place to meet her, something very strange happened!

Part 3 Hit by the power of God Well as I was in that little gathering, it happened from one moment on the other, as if a shower would break loose by clear sky without any clouds. The girlfriend, the mother of my son, she was also there. Suddenly, a VOICE spoke audibly to me "you are here for Me!" The next moment, something like a flash and a lightning came into my heart and opened up my heart from the outside. I knew about God, but I never have sought God earnestly to know Him. And still He revealed Himself to me. What a Grace and mercy! He just pulled me by the hair and pulled me to Him so that His Name would be glorified. That flash and that lightning, nobody else as the Holy Spirit, came into my heart and soul and convinced me of all my sin and that happened all in just one moment. Suddenly I found myself weeping and crying on the floor, falling down upon my knees and confessing my sins with weeping, bitter tears and screaming it out. They didn’t know what was happening, for only I heard that voice and only upon me was Gods power. I must have looked out of my mind and hysterical for those who attended this meeting. But the only thing I could do after that Gods power was so strongly upon me, was confessing my sins on the way I did it, very loud. Than I started to be silent and just as I wanted to climb back upon my chair - after 10 maybe 20 Minutes of weeping and repenting (having remorse) there came the second flash of Gods power and of the Spirit of God, but this time He convinced me of ALL the FORGIVENESS and the greatness of His GRACE. And again I found myself lying on the ground, but this time my heart was weeping of thankfulness. Undeserved grace came to me, to my heart and to my soul and I experienced that all my sins were forgiven and washed away, my guilt was gone. John Baptized

The next moment I surrendered and gave myself COMPLETELY in to Gods hands, telling Him that I wanted to be of Him and of Him alone. My live chanced so radically from one day to the other, that it is even hard to describe it. I was changed instantly like a leaf at a tree; God had changed my live in one single day. Maybe you can imagine what happened? The first thing is that I wanted to marry my girlfriend, for well she had our son and therefore she was my woman. But she had another relationship and she had to break up with that man, which she did! I had it almost work to marry her, until the day before the official wedding. It was not Gods plan for my live, so He created circumstances in my live which would normally have stopped me, but I didn’t! I pushed it through! Even my Pastor, received from God revelation knowledge – God spoke to him in a dream – that this marriage was not Gods will and not His plan for my live. So I make it short! I did not marry her, she married that other guy! Shortly after that on March 22 at the age of 24 I was been baptized in water! The second thing I did after being baptized was that I preached the Gospel of Jesus to everyone I knew: if they want to hear it or not, I preached Jesus Christ. This had of course an enormous effect, but they did not repent. The effect was that all avoided me like a plague and this in a very short time. And there was nobody from those I knew – who were not Christians – who did not curse and name me a child of the devil. Even my family; my father, mother, brothers, sisters have done that, no one excluded. This was a goodbye shot

They saw that I had changed radically; I did not curse anymore, did not touch alcohol, yes I even stopped riding on my motorbike and didn’t look at woman at all and this so intensively that some thought that I was gay. But they knew that this was not so, because all my school-friends knew about that particular girlfriend and me. It had all to do with my Jesus. And than seeing all this they called me a child of the devil? Well they did that quite a while until they saw the steadfastness in my faith and trust in God and His Son Jesus Christ and than slowly it turned around in a small admiring of my, commitment, my determination, my persistence and faithfulness. Than after a period of 6 Months God started to speak to me through dreams and visions. Some I will share here but on the Page “Conceiving and birthing of a Prophet” I will speak more detailed about these things, because they belong to the process of the making of a Prophet. I will share with you, here in this short biography, some of the dreams and the revelations I received in my live. The first one I name: changing and transformation power. End of part 3

Part 4 Changing and transformation power The transformed baby! In this revelation I am walking in a long corridor, a hall and I see on a very far away distance that somebody is holding a baby. I look carefully and I see that it is only a twisted lump of flesh, from where I conclude that it is God who has given me to know that it is a baby because it is so deformed that you would never ever be able to recognize it as such. They throw the baby at the site of the hall, the corridor, and leave it alone in his doom. I start directly to be moved from within and I am overwhelmed with feelings of love and care and of the desire to protect it with a covering and to embrace it with the warmth of my heart. I walk to that baby, who is lying on the ground; and take it in my arms. In the same moment I lift it up to God, holding it high in my hands, and in my own hands it is starting to be transformed to a normal healthy baby full of live and it smiles at me! And as you can think tears were running down my face. I will not explain the depth of the meaning of this revelation, but I think that as you go along in this Biography you will be able to see the depth of the spiritual meaning.

A personal encountering with Jesus and the call One year from the time of my baptism – I am now in the age of 25 – 1983 – God met me personally through His Son Jesus Christ. I went to bed to get my sleep for the night as usually as suddenly I woke up- lying on my right site – after a few hours of sleep. I open up my eyes and I look directly in the lovely face of my Jesus, my Lord and God. He looked at me and whispered softly but with strength to me the following words: “I will make a Prophet of you.” Together with some other things he showed me things, which confirmed a few weeks later that it was as real as it could have been that Jesus will make a Prophet of me. A few years later:

First prophecies are spoken out over my live At the age of 28 – 1986 – I received the following prophecy spoken out over my live from an apostle from God, Tom Mom, who became for quite a period my spiritual father. His name was Tom Mom. “My son you shall learn and teach many men, you shall stand upon the square and speak, you shall be a minstrel, my son I have shown you were, I have shown it to you two months ago, you know it my son, you know it! My son I see your dedication and I will give myself completely to you. From place to place you shall go and you shall never stay somewhere for a very long time.” At first I didn’t knew what God had shown me 2 months ago but the Spirit of God helped me and than I remembered me a very special dream and in this dream there was also visible that part of the prophecy my spiritual father spoke out over me! At the end of this same year my spiritual father had

to go back to the USA and a very good brother of me Auke Hadders, an Evangelist – gave me the following words of wisdom:

The long lonesome way “I had to go a very lonesome way, and it would be very dark on my way, I may not look upon the circumstances but always should I keep my eyes focused upon Jesus, this would enable me to come through everything, (It would be a long lonesome way of almost 25 years)

Marriage and some instructions It was in this same year that I married my dear woman Alwine. Seen through the eyes of the Prophetic, we had a Prophetic Marriage, God spoke to me personally and He spoke to my wife Alwine that we had to marry! With no romantic feelings for each other we struggled with Gods perfect will for our lives. After that we finely said yes to God it took no longer as 5 months before we were married. At the 17e of October 1986 we gave our yes word before the whole congregation of Christians we attended at that time. In this same year I received from God personally the following revelation: “It shall be in a time that you see no way to come in ministry any more that I shall open up a door.” In that same week I had a vision of that door! I saw a huge great door in front of me, gigantic in height and width. I stood in front of this door knowing that this door would be opened up. One remarkable fact was that there was no hand at the door and that the door was green; Which I could not understand at that time what the meaning of this all was, but today I know and understand the meaning of it. On the 5 of December 1987 I am been served through a Prophet from Africa, Phillip Crozet, who didn’t knew anything of me and my call, but he confirmed before the eyes and the ears of many that there is a call upon my live to become one of Gods Prophets and he also gave me some instruction and some future time words. I strongly needed this conformation as I had pleaded my God for this conformation because the Spirit of God started to work things through me which belong to more as just a simple word of prophecy. One of the words was that the WHOLE family would flow in his prophetic anointing. My eldest son Nathan was only a couple of months old. But two other sons would come also, Joél and Johannes. A few years later In 1991 – I received again prophecies spoken out over my live and over the live of my woman Alwine; Prophecies who speak about two warriors who represent the Kingdom of God, who go along site and who are a Mighty woman and a mighty man of God. At this time we already had Marriage problems! I was not able to love my sons as I should have loved them and I was at that time already a bad example for my sons! I slipped over the years even more and more in sexual problems: Internet, pornographic pictures and masturbation. We were NOT ABLE to pray together and I started to become even more and more desperate! I grew from a loving father to a father the children hated! I started with being the prince for my woman to becoming a terror and who was not able anymore to handle and treat her with the respect she deserved. At the end of the year2007 I was divorced through the institution WORLD; but at the time of Divorce God had already done miracles in my live. End of part 4

Part 5 Breaking troughs & Again an encountering At the end of the year 2004 and the beginning of 2005 I lived separated from my wife and my children. Everything was lost! It didn’t work out as we both had hoped that it should be with the children and our Marriage. The condition of my soul had become worse and even more and more worse and my soul transformed over the years very slowly in a great chaotic condition. Than as the separation came, I finely started to scream for help, for I had come to the end of myself. And this was almost 23 years after that Jesus said to me: “I will make a Prophet of you.” And I thought that everything was gone and that I just could forget it! Than I went freely from my wife and children for such a father and husband they didn’t deserved that! I didn’t fight against the appeal from my woman to be divorced. She was right! I knew that and I went in a house for refugees seeking my Jesus, screaming to Him for help. Shortly after that the Father broke into my live with the strength of a hurricane and started to reform and to transform me. All my feelings said, at that time, that it was to late, for my wife had already for a long time quitted the relationship with me and I found myself in a house for refugees, to lick my wounds there, waiting upon the day of divorce. Everything, yes really everything what could have gone wrong went wrong; no woman anymore, I had to leave my house and I had no sons anymore. I had nothing else as a 3m2 room with a bed a little table, a chair and a closet for the ferry few clothes I had. I didn’t knew anymore what was left or right and I was in danger to fall away and even to loose my faith in my God! I felt like as if for me there was no GRACE available any more, such a looser! I wasn’t a good husband but also a looser of a father. The only thing I could see was GUILT! But at that moment I couldn’t now that it is this what God seeks with us! Not directly or guilt, no the knowledge that we know that only He is able to do it. It could not have become anything worse! It could only turn out to become better. And here I speak about the most painful and hurtful moments of my live. But in this depth I met my God again and became laid upon me His MANTEL OF GRACE! The Prophetic Words who seem to be lost and forgotten I had to take them and to prophecy them over my live; Andso through a lot of pain and wailing all the Prophetic Words which were spoken out over my live started to come to pass, a birthing was taken place.

The Father the Son and the Holy Spirit came to me and they asked me to be their “Writer,” the writer of the Will and the decrees of the Father and the Son. Shortly after that the anointing came over me to be able to hear and to write as several years before was been prophesied over my live. Ireceived instruction upon instruction and I wrote in a time period of one year 5 Books in two different languishes and I had started with the English languish at the end of the year 2007. In this first year God gave me a relationship to Him as my Father and after that the relationship was firmly established he gave me instructions. Today I talk with Him about everything what moves my heart and soul. Among a lot of other things the Father started to give me back a vision which I had for more than 2 years, before everything started to die in my family; a vision which I had written down but I was at that time not able to comprehend the measure of the fullness of the revelation the Father had given to me. Than my God said to me that my notes which I had made some years before, belong together with the vision and the revelation He had given to me and that the time had come to go into them and to work some things out. I didn’t know where to start but I was obedient to the Assignment He gave me and so came with His help and the anointing He gave me, the first Book into existence. “Pressing into His Presence through Fire, Zeal and Passion” I was not able to over see the measurement of the greatness of that what my Father had given to me and what He allowed me to be and to represent. It was all preparation for the birth of an Apostolic Prophetic World Ministry. But I could not see that, nor would I have been able to comprehend it. But the Prophetic baby had to be born. I even had to resign my job, but I didn’t – so God created circumstances! The Spirit of God even wanted that I stopped with help ministry in the gathering I still am in at this moment July 2009. I had to stop with all these things and to sit down to listen and to start to write. Many did not understand it. Even my own Pastor, but I was not allowed to tell anything and anyone about what God was doing, for the Spirit of God told me that if I would do that they would come to kill the Prophetic baby which had to be born. So I told nobody and I resigned from all kind of things I was enveloped in and even the cell meetings, the Spirit of God pulled me of from there. I had to be alone away from any influence of the church, for as the Spirit of God told me that the child who had to be born would not fit into the church structure for it would be a Kingly structure it would start to represent. At that time I did not understand very much of that what the Spirit of God was speaking to me, but I was obedient and I came on my PATMOS to bring to birth "Prophetic Live Giving Channel Ministry’s"

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Part 6 My Sons are coming back! At the same time my three sons, started to see and to recognize that their father wasn’t the old father anymore and they came back to my heart. They all three knew about me and the writing of the Books, and I told them not to tell anything to their mother – who didn’t wanted to believe that I was radically changed and transformed. In 2007 I brought one of my children back at home out of a house for out rooted Teenagers. This was on itself a great spiritual adventure and a war I had to fight. It was my youngest son Johannes, who had rebelled the most against the dieing of my family, the way I behaved and the time of separation, he actually was the first one who started to come back to my heart. (Johannes & Nathan) Joél -

Almost at the same time Nathan came also back to my heart. Joél was totally lost and lived most of the time with another woman. He hated me so much that in 2006 he put in flame and fire the birthday present I was able to let come too him at the house of Alwine, my ex woman. Than it came so that my woman wanted to move out in 2007 and I decided to try to get the house I lived in before I went in the time of separation, so that I could again live together with my three sons. God made it possible and today I am living with my sons in that house. Although that all tree are baptized and have given their lives to Jesus, they live very deep in the structures of the world, but I love them and they love me! And this is a great miracle! At the year 2008 my house had become to be a place for teenagers where they find a place were they come at home and were they ALL say daddy to me! Great things have happened in this year. A Strong manly Prophetic baby child has born in March! Twenty-five years after that Jesus said I will MAKE a Prophet from you I have become a young Prophet, because this is how I feel – young! God has given me an open door so wide and so gigantic to enter in that we TOGETHER WILL SERVE THE NATIONS of this earth and many thousands are been taught and trained through the first Book my Father gave me to write already this year.

The First Book is been so widely spread already – and this for FREE – that many Nations of this world have received this Book with instructions and guidelines how to enter into the transforming presence of my Father God. As there is no Copy right on it everywhere where I send the Book, they can freely Copy it in what ever number they need. My Father had given me also a platform in the USA to be His voice to the Nations. And where is she who should have been at my site? At that time of my life she has not yet come back but has gone more and more away from me and my sons. God even started to speak to me about the fact that she HAS NO RIGHT on my heart anymore and that I had to take it back. It was in that same year so around February that my Father early in the morning woke me up and spoke to me the following things: I want to make your heart wide; will you allow me to do that? I knew instantly as I heard my Father asking this question, which the Spirit of God had been testifying within me from the start of this year, that this year would be a year of tears and this question belongs to it. I know my Father God has only the very best intensions with my live so I said yes daddy I do allow you to do that. But than He said again: No listen very well: I want to make your heart WIDE, VERY VERY, VERY WIDE! Than I knew that I had to pay a price for it, the many tears which the Spirit if God had spoken about. I answered: Father you can do and allow everything what is necessary that this will happen. He answered: OPEN UP YOUR HOUSE FOR THE TEENAGERS AS YOUR HEART IS OPEN. I said that from that moment on my house would be open as my heart would be open to receive the teenagers. Only a few days later, they started to come one after the other. In the first week three an not even two months later I set at a table with more as 13 Teenagers saying daddy to me. All of them no Christians, but I was able to love them all with the love my Father had worked in my heart and so under many tears, my heart became wider and wider. Today I am able to love and to adopt teenagers from all over the world. But the price is HIGH, for the greater the LOVE the more the TEARS, the more the PAIN and HURT. In a very short time I became a strong loving Father having the heart like my Father. I was not able to pay the price, but I prayed always: HELP ME TO PAY THE PRICE, FOR I WANT TO PAY THE PRICE FOR IT. In October 2008 the Spirit of God started to move with me to become the Minstrel as He had prophesied over my live. The Spirit of God moved and started to urge me to start to practice Singing on a professional way. I firstly was shocked and said I can not do that, but The Spirit of God convinced me and under His guidance I started for the very first time of my live to sing. The first song came to birth “Marry did you know, from clay Aiken.” The Spirit of God guided me to a Training Platform to train and to skill my voice, which is a Karaoke Platform on the Internet and since that time my more Songs have been interpreted. I started to receive great compliments from many who thought that I had already been in it for many years. As I had to tell them that I had just started to sing they just could not believe it. This convinced me to press on through and after the first 6 Months and a short pause I had to decide to give even more or to stop with singing. Well it was not so very

difficult to make the right decision. I prepared on my website something so that all my sons and daughters could listen to all my songs and even could become a fan. That was in May 2009. What also happened in Mai 2009. God started to speak to me about many things I had to speak and to present these things on my Internet website and on my Tube Channel. The next thing, which I will write about are the things concerning my future plans to remarry. O I can tell you God is bringing me again in new depths which bring forth a lot of live.

Part 7 Short revue of 50 years of live We have come now one year further and behind me lies a time of 50 years and a resume of more than 25 years after that Jesus came to me and told me: “I will make a Prophet from you.” Today I am not only a father for my own sons, but I am a father for many sons and daughters spread all over the World, divided over many different Nations. And with a few words I want to thank all my Spiritual sons and daughters, who opened up their hearts to my heart: Alley Annabelle Hope and Anastasia from the USA, thanks for all the time and the most intensive moments we had and which we have together. Thanks Fedesco for being my first spiritual adopted son in Africa, God will bless you greatly, Thanks Teteth for being my Prophet daughter and for your open heart to receive ALL what my Father has given to me to give to you. Thanks Pastor B. hell and his wife for receiving this Ministry at the Philippines – know for sure that in future time I will come and than my heart will be as happy to see you and the whole Family. Oh little Fayie, I love you and I have not forgotten you! Too many are the names of all my Spiritual daughters and sons to name them all, but believe me I love you all with the love as a father loves his children. Ashlene from Africa, stay strong in faith my daughter, Pastora Roma my daughter from the Philippines, I hope that my Father grants me to come quickly to help to build and to strengthen the Family of Christians there. O my son Paul Yankee from the USA, how God has changed and transformed you already now through my humble teachings you eat by day and night and which you spread in both Nations Africa

as well in the USA! Your mom testified about it, but I have not heard anything of you anymore, were are you now and how is your live? I am so thankful for so many! Even those who rejected me and the Words God gave me to speak; thanks for God used you to form and to mold me! Many have not understood the way God my Father is going with me and I had to stand up against some of you – please forgive me, but the will and the Instructions of my Father are 10.000 times more important as all the times that I heard “be silence, do not speak.” I love you all and I hope that together with all of you we will lay the Nations down to the feet of Jesus. Thank you Father God; thank you Jesus and thank you Holy Spirit for staying with me through all the DARK YEARS! Thank you Father for disciplining me and training me, I want to stay in your training and schooling process who ever you choose for this to bring in my live! Thank you for making a Warrior of me – I am so thankful for the GREATNESS and the measure of GRACE YOU GIVE ME! I KNOW IT IS ALL BY GRACE AND TO YOU MY FATHER ALL THE GLORY AND THE ENTIRE HONOR! You have done with me what no man would have thought would be able! You have changed and transformed my heart and soul. And I can not be thankfully enough! Knowing YOU is ALL I want! I love you my Father, thanks for using this little man to write history! Together we will bring LIVE where is death and together we will be VICTORIOUS ALL THE LINE! I want to thank even a very dear person in my live, the one of whom I have learned more as that she knows now! God has used my ex woman to bring me there were God wanted to have me – at His feet, in His presence! Thanks Alwine, you will always have a place in my heart. Thanks for being with me for more than 20 years. It hurts to see that you did not want to come back to my heart again, now I have taken my heart back and will give it to another. Thanks for all the years you were at my site. Nathan take good care of Jennie, she is already your woman. I will always be there for you my son and God will come through in your live as He did in my live. Because God is faithful! Joél it is not to see, but you will become that warrior and that strong man of God, which the Father has intended for you. My Father told me once that the whole family will flow under the same anointing as my Father grants me. I have three young Prophets in my house but it is not yet visible. But time will come. I will always be there for you my son and the time will come that you will read these lines after many years and than you will see that God gave you a good father, which I wasn’t for a very long time, but now I am! Johannes, as I have understood my Father well than will you be the one who will have to go into my footsteps more as the other three sons. Maybe this is the reason why you are so stubborn and rebellious, but even in that state of heart we love each other and I will never ever stop loving you! I am so happy that I brought you back home. You will go through very hard times, but God will also come through in your live. I thank you all three for opening up your hearts again, thanks for the honor to be your father, an example how to walk with God the almighty one. Thanks to all my dear teenagers who made my live so RICH in struggle in pain and hurt and tears because of the LOVE I have for you all. God used you all to WIDEN my heart and to be able to love many, many more teenagers. Thanks Jennie, Sina, Julian, Rene, Ronnie, Caro, Mele, Chrissy, Jessica, Domme, Patricia and even Bianca and Marcel and so many other Teenagers who came in my family and received my heart and gave me the honor to be a kind of daddy for you all. I hope that all of you will learn how to walk with God as I do today! For that is LIVE and LIVE abundantly!

Part 8 My heart tested and proofed & Times of deceitfulness 2009 - This year was a year of great testing’s of my heart. As I started to seek and to be open for another woman in my live I met first Chrissy. And my God she was so young. But I thought she just wanted to have something like a Cool daddy. No... she wanted me and I thought I could handle that situation. But than she send me her pictures and I instantly fell in love with young lady. This could not be because she could be my daughter. She was all what Alwine looked alike only much younger, much more pretty and so beautiful... She had also brown eyes, red hair and this all over. I screamed to God .. what this would be? He said something like: "You will learn and get to know new depths of your heart. Satan will try to destroy you but you will not be destroyed. You have to go through these times of testing’s" It was a terrible year as I fall in love several times and I got to learn truly new DECEITFULL depths of my own heart. After Chrissie there came Sandra 33 that was much better as Chrissie who was just 18. But I was hold myself back and wanted only to be friends with Sandra who lived in the usa. At the same time I met Shannon on a dating Site and she ravaged my heart in storm. But she cost me a lot of money and at the end I had to see that she DECEIVED me and that my heart was just not able to handle it and that my heart deceived me also. As I thought the time of testing was over, because now I knew that I could not trust my heart and that I needed revelation to be able to find her who would fit to me; than she came: Kelly! A born again Christian with the desire to do and to find Gods will and she was an Angel of light in the hands of Satan himself. She came with deceitful revelations, dreams and visions and I was been DECEIVED on a way you can hardly believe. Even the Kids here thought that she was HONEST and upright but she was nothing else as a devil in the disguise from an angel. But my Father had given me His word: That Satan would not be able to destroy me.

Almost destroyed But it was very close... I wasted not only my time... so that I stopped writing what I had to write but also did I spend and send her too much money. She was almost on the plane and had than an accident shortly before she phones us and we heard her voice for the very first time. But it was all FAKE ... she took almost three months to rob me from my financial means. And at the end of 2009 I was not able anymore to pay the electric bill.. But God came through just in time and one day before they wanted to cut of the electricity I received a payment from children’s care and I was able to pay the Electric Bill.. Oh there were several woman and there are still woman in my live who try to get a hold on me. But I believe that I have learned something’s, especially from my own heart. Until now – the date that I have written this down) there is still a Janet, 32 and a Sandra 33 and another Sandra 29 and they all say they love me and want to have me.. I send no money anymore and I am more carefully I ever was. I keep on seeking but I guard my heart not to fall in love in the wrong woman. I am on two dating sites now and one is specially for

Christians and I have some nice contacts... but to find a woman who fits to a growing world Ministry is as good as impossible?! But I have the impression that this is the way I have to go. I do not like it, because I rather want to hear from God this is she... but He doesn’t! So I keep on walking this road, and I am ensured that Satan will not be able to bring me into things which will stop the growth and the development of this God given Apostolic & Prophetic Ministry! My sons have forgiven me and I work hard at the Books I have to write. Next time I will write about the books and what we have accomplished until now! Much more has happened as there came a God given time to travel to North Carolina and to serve there. And it was so Woow!! The Adventure go’s on.

Prophet Minstrel Johannes John & Cool Daddy